Sickly self-speaking

Girls, I'm back and I'm so sorry I haven't seen you for so long.

I've been a little busy recently, with work. A few days ago, some friends came to see me. They were friends from college, and they all knew that I had been with Qionghua.

But they didn't dare to mention Qionghua in front of me, many people didn't dare to mention it, neither did my parents.

It’s unbelievable to say that I don’t have a photo of Qionghua, and the only group photo is in Qionghua’s cell phone. I asked my friends, and they didn’t have any. It’s so strange. How can you say that a person can disappear like a human being? , not even a trace left.

If it wasn't for the fact that everyone around me knew about Qionghua and I, I would have even thought that I had made it up.

ah!The doctor said that my condition has improved recently, so I am in a good mood now, so let me tell you about our later events!

The time we were together was very happy, just like those couples in love, IQ is negative, but my Qionghua is still very smart, I can't do it anymore, I remember that there was a time when my Qionghua always I was walking with a female teacher, of course I was very angry!

Although Qionghua and I met in a gay bar, and Qionghua is naturally curvy, whoever can stand a woman getting so close all day will lean closer!I think if my Qionghua showed a little interest in her, that girl would definitely pounce on her, I'm sure!

It just so happened that during that time I was particularly disgusted with Qionghua's going to class, and I didn't have time to accompany me (because it happened to conflict with my time), and there was a woman in front of him all day long, so I did something wrong.

The wrong thing broke out in the afternoon, I finished class (I can’t help it, I don’t want to, who gave me a teacher boyfriend), and hurriedly wanted to go back, and it happened that I could have lunch with Qionghua at noon, but When I got home, I found that Qionghua was not there. Obviously, I could eat as soon as I got home before. Maybe we can cook together when Qionghua has a class.

Because this kind of Qionghua not at home rarely happened, I called him, and he actually let me solve it alone, saying that he had something to do and couldn't go back at noon.

At that time, I was really going to explode, when my Qionghua treated me like this, he was never willing to let me go hungry!

I asked where he was, I felt his tone was a bit guilty, I even heard a woman's voice, I knew what was going on almost immediately, I once told him not to get too close to others , I will be angry!

You must understand, I was still a dandy at that time, how could I allow others to not be angry when I warned him that he still did something I hate, let alone my desire to monopolize Qionghua so strong.

So that afternoon, I didn't listen to Qionghua's words and went to class. I sat on the sofa at home, and I didn't immediately call someone to check his location. I waited for him. After I hung up the phone, I Hope he comes back to me right away!Maybe I can calm down a bit.

However, my Qionghua came back two hours later. During this period, my anger became more and more intense as time went by.

At that time, I didn't even listen to Qionghua's explanation, so I dragged him into the bedroom and roughly tore his clothes. Gradually, my anger became violent. I could no longer hear Qionghua's voice, and Qionghua's fair eyes were all over my eyes. With a slender body, he even cursed words like a bitch.

I was rough that night, I didn't even take care of Qionghua's feelings, I was dominated by anger and desire.

The day after that night, I wanted to apologize to Qionghua, but Qionghua didn't give me a chance to speak when she woke up. I don't even understand how Qionghua left after being treated like that by me.

In short, because of Qionghua's departure, the feeling of guilt I just felt disappeared in an instant. I called someone to check for me, but I was not in a hurry.

Speaking of which, let me tell you one thing, I seem to have been aroused to a perverted potential in Qionghua.I don't like Qionghua going out to work, and I don't like him getting too close to others. I know the passwords of all his accounts, and I want to know his daily schedule and what he does. A locator is installed.In short, my desire to control him has become hopeless without my knowing it.

Later, I found him at the seaside where he and I often went. He turned to look at me, and there seemed to be fear in his eyes.

My eyes were reddened by the fear in his eyes, I stretched out my hand to grab him, he took a step back, and I was so angry that I went forward and put him on my shoulders, stuffed him into the car, he was in my ear Chatting endlessly, I directly gagged his mouth, tied his hands, and regardless of the injury he suffered last night, I still raped him roughly, that was really a sexual encounter.

Afterwards, I imprisoned him and helped him quit his job. I thought that I might have mental problems at that time.

Even now, when I think that I can completely control Qionghua, I feel very excited inside.

But don't be afraid, although I am perverted, I am only perverted to my Qionghua.

During the time when Qionghua was imprisoned, my parents found out about us.They came to my door and even wanted to take my Qionghua away when I wasn't paying attention, it's really beyond their control!

And my younger brother, if it wasn't for the fact that I still knew he was my younger brother, I would have been able to walk him down from the second floor just because he hung around in front of Qionghua all day long.

During that time, Qionghua stopped talking to me, and didn't cook for me. I acted like a baby to him wronged, but he ignored me, obviously he liked my acting like a baby the most before.All this made me feel that my Qionghua didn't love me anymore, and I began to resent and hate the woman who seduced my Qionghua.

I started to do some uncontrollable behaviors that made Qionghua more afraid of me. I made that woman lose her job, let a man fuck her, make her dirty, and let her know that she is not worthy of my Qionghua .

I didn't hide all this from Qionghua, and I even felt a sense of pleasure.

In the end, Qionghua didn't dare to resist me anymore, he became very submissive, and he would do whatever I asked him to do.I thought we were back in the old days, but Qionghua always has the ability to let me down.

Yes, my Qionghua escaped again, this time he was very smart not to bring his mobile phone, but I know who took him away.

It's the doctor, because I always hurt my Qionghua (I can't help myself, just thinking that Qionghua doesn't love me anymore, doesn't belong to me anymore, I can't stand it).

That doctor is my personal doctor, I still trust him, so I let down my vigilance, but I didn't expect him to help Qionghua leave me, it's really unforgivable!

The doctor was later dismissed by me, and I believe he will have a hard time in the future.

Qionghua was still found by me, how could I let him leave me, this time when Qionghua came back, I prepared a chain for him, the chain is black, which matches Qionghua's complexion very well.I have long thought that Qionghua's hands and feet are all in chains, it must be very beautiful, isn't it?

So I really can't blame me at that time, it was Qionghua herself who gave me such a chance.

Just as I imagined, that kind of Qionghua was so fragile that I wanted to cherish her, and even more so, to fuck her hard.

It's really beautiful, as long as I think of Qionghua who was tied to the bed by me at that time, um... no, I feel hard.

But now that Qionghua comes back, I won't treat him like that again, I will treat him well and cherish him.Although I still have that kind of thought, I will control it. After all, when Qionghua still loved me, I was fine!I just don't know what will happen to Qionghua who has been hurt by me?

Someone told me that if you love him, you must learn to let go, and I want to do that too, but I'm not a lover, I'm a psycho!What I'll do then, I sometimes don't even know for sure.

Um!Well, girls, it's a bit late, I should rest too, I haven't written today's diary yet.

Go to bed early too, or you will have acne on your face!

good night!

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740 days since you left:

I am in a good mood today, the doctor said my condition has improved.

At noon, I ate your favorite dish without any taste of you.

After work in the afternoon, I finally had time to talk about our affairs with the girls.

Still no one has told me about you.

By the way, I want to know what you look like. You are so stingy that you don't even leave me a picture.

ps: You still haven't come back.

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As I write, I feel sickly written -_-///Please comment, please collect! ! !