Stop flirting, I was offended

Every word of Lu Bingchen's words was like a huge stone, which made Ruan Yi's heart tremble.Standing there, he heard Lu Bingchen ask him in a voice that seemed to be in extreme pain, extreme grievance, and extreme vulnerability: "Why don't you like me?"

I just feel that my liver is about to split.

Why don't you like him?

Ruan Yi thought emptily, how should he answer?Do you want to repeat the experience of your previous life to Lu Bingchen in detail?Tell him that he used to like it, he used to like it very much, but the love he poured out of his heart was still insufficient, what did he get in exchange for it in the end?

In his previous life, he actually never felt that if he gave love to Lu Bingchen, he must receive a response.It's not that he couldn't see the deep indifference that Lu Bingchen treated him with.But he feels that in this world, being able to meet someone who makes your heart move is something that you can't come across.Therefore, the moment he chose to fall in love with Lu Bingchen, he had already chosen to accept everything about this person.

He knew that Lu Bingchen was like this.This person may never stay for anyone in this world in his life, let alone let his heart be tied down by anyone.He was with Lu Bingchen, and from the very beginning, he was ready to get together and leave.

At that time, he felt that even if there was no result in life, having this experience was commendable.

He thought of everything, and reminded himself early not to fall into it.

The deadliest blow Lu Bingchen gave him was never that he didn't respond to his love, but that he lied to him.

He used so many specious details to make Ruan Yi think that this person has him in his heart, this person who can't love, is slowly learning to put him in his heart.He believed it, and he sank headlong into it, only to realize in the end that everything was false.

It wasn't until the last days of his previous life that he realized that Lu Bingchen had already seen it, that he was ready to leave at any time.This made Lu Bingchen unhappy.He is such a proud person, such a person who has been raised by stars since birth, how could he bear such contempt.He wants him to give his heart wholeheartedly, to give his heart to him without reservation.

Although he neither cherishes nor cares about this heart.

Ruan Yi looked at Lu Bingchen's dark, watery eyes that were worryingly bright, and a thousand words were stuck in his heart, not knowing where to start.

How could he let Lu Bingchen know that his rejection had nothing to do with whether he liked it or not, but because he had learned enough lessons.

This lesson was too painful, enough for his whole life, and he would never allow himself to repeat the same mistakes.

Ruan Yi helped Lu Bingchen to bed. He didn't feel sleepy, so he simply walked out of the room, turned on a small desk lamp in the living room, took out a few exercise books from his schoolbag, and started to study the questions.

But now he is not in the state of being able to brush into the questions at all, so he put down the pen after writing for a while.There was another crackling sound in the room.

The sound came from the bedroom.Ruan Yi turned off the desk lamp, ready to enter the room to have a look.

As soon as he took two steps, the bedroom door opened.

Lu Bingchen leaned against the door frame, rubbed his eyes, and whispered, "I'm so thirsty."

This is the wine is not sober.

Ruan Yi asked him to sit down on the sofa and fetched him a glass of water.

Although the lights were not turned on, the light from the street lamps outside was enough.Ruan Yi took a glass of water from the thermos, tested the temperature, and handed the glass to Lu Bingchen.

Holding the water glass, Lu Bingchen tilted his head and stared at Ruan Yi's lips with a little luster, without blinking his eyes.

Ruan Yi did not pay attention to his gaze.In fact, he had been deliberately avoiding Lu Bingchen's eyes all night.Because of those bright eyes, all Lu Bingchen's emotions were clearly written in it—but Ruan Yi didn't want to understand, or even see.

He closed his eyes, feeling as if a hand had grown out of nowhere from the depths of his heart, grabbing the knotted lumen fiercely.

Lu Bingchen's focused gaze, full of expectation and longing, fell on him bluntly.Ruan Yi didn't even need to look at it, he could feel the burning heat and weight.

Before today, he never thought that Lu Bingchen would be serious about him.

How could it be possible?This person who he once exhausted everything to love, but never cared about him from the beginning to the end, unexpectedly, when he bears the hurt of the past, cuts off the entanglement of the past, and brings with him the hope that he will never repeat the same mistakes again. When I am determined to go back to the beginning and want to start over, I will seriously fall in love with him.

Ruan Yi looked out the window, the gust of wind that tore the canopy seemed to have blown into his eyes, making his eyeballs hurt.

In the past, when he valued Lu Bingchen the most, Lu Bingchen dismissed him.Now he doesn't value it anymore, he doesn't even want to watch it anymore, but because of his indifference, resistance, and because of his rejection time and time again, Lu Bingchen really fell into it.

How ridiculous, how ironic.

Ruan Yi couldn't figure out whether the self who was heartbroken by Lu Bingchen in the previous life was more innocent, or the Lu Bingchen who knew nothing but was burdened by the grievances of the previous life was more innocent.He only felt that the past life and the present life were like entangled hemp, which made him almost suffocate.

He was full of indescribable taste, but Lu Bingchen didn't know it.

He drank two sips of water, leaned towards Ruan Yi again, and put his arms around his waist.Those eyes, which were hazy with drunkenness, blinked slightly, and then narrowed in satisfaction.

Ruan Yi looked at him, and suddenly felt a subtle pity.

Lu Bingchen moved his hand up tentatively. Seeing that Ruan Yi didn't respond, he slowly moved it to his back and hugged Ruan Yi into his arms.

Perhaps because of pity, Ruan Yi didn't push him away immediately.

In the darkness, the sound of the breathing of the two people was like the rising and falling tide, flowing quietly.

Lu Bingchen whispered, "I want to eat cake."

"There's no cake." Indeed, there wasn't any, the big cake was taken away by Li Ke, and the small cake was given away by him.

"You have." Lu Bingchen accused him uncomfortably, "You give it to others, but not to me."

The more he spoke, the sadder he became, and he lowered his eyes sadly: "You know it's my birthday, so you won't give it to me."

Ruan Yi felt that he couldn't reason with drunk people, so he didn't speak.

After a while, Lu Bingchen asked softly again: "Do you want to make a wish?"

"what?"

"Because you didn't turn on the light." Lu Bingchen scanned the dark room with his eyes, "The reason why you don't turn on the light is because you want to light candles. The reason why you light candles is because you want to make a wish."

The man also seemed to feel that his logic was very self-consistent.

Ruan Yi was silent for a few seconds.He suddenly remembered that when Lu Bingchen celebrated his birthday in his previous life, he had to turn off the lights first, then light the candles, and then ask him to make a wish.But can this chain of things be pushed backwards?

Ruan Yi didn't want to argue with the drunk man, so he raised his hand and turned on the desk lamp to show his answer.

A ball of warm yellow lights lit up.

Five seconds later, Lu Bingchen snapped the light off.

Then he stretched out his hand slowly, and gently pulled Ruan Yi's finger with some hint.

"..." Ruan Yi asked, "What do you want to do?"

Lu Bingchen didn't answer, but hooked Ruan Yi's finger and pulled it down even harder.

He buried his face in a place where Ruan Yi couldn't see, as if he had suddenly turned into a small animal that couldn't speak, silently but stubbornly pulled once, and then pulled again.Quiet, unrelenting.

Ruan Yi glanced at the desk lamp, then at Lu Bingchen.He wanted to pretend not to understand.

Then I heard Lu Bingchen whisper: "I don't even have any cake to eat, so I want to blow out the candles, can't I?"

This hurdle is considered difficult to pass tonight.

Ruan Yi sighed and said, "Do you want to make a wish?"

Lu Bingchen nodded immediately with his head buried between his neck.

He straightened up quickly, looking at Ruan Yi with bright eyes.Those eyes were like the surface of a sea of ​​stars, deep and extremely brilliant.Under the half-light and half-darkness, the face so handsome that one's breath would freeze, was simply thrillingly seductive.

There are no candles in the house.Ruan Yi fumbled in his pocket and took out a box of matches.He bought this to light the alcohol lamp when he was doing chemical experiments before, because it was borrowed from many people, and now there are only a few left.

But it should be enough.

Ruan Yi took out a match, polished it, and stretched it out in front of Lu Bingchen: "Maybe."

In the weak airflow brought by the fingers, the orange flame swayed slightly, Ruan Yi moved a little closer, and stretched out his hand to hold the flame.

The warm yellow flame cast a strange and indescribable soft color on Ruan Yi's face.Lu Bingchen couldn't remember how long he hadn't seen this gentle expression on Ruan Yi's face.He stared straight at Ruan Yi, unable to look away.

The match went out.

It took less than seven seconds for a match to burn, and Ruan Yi saw the flame go out before Lu Bingchen had time to blow it.He took out another matchbox from the matchbox and prepared to strike it brightly. After a pause, he raised his eyes and said to Lu Bingchen, "Hurry up, you know."

Lu Bingchen nodded.He looked at Ruan Yi, and suddenly said, "Can you smile?"

Ruan Yi shook his hand holding the match.

His voice subconsciously cooled down: "Do you still wish?"

In the darkness, Lu Bingchen couldn't see his expression clearly.But he didn't need to use expressions to perceive Ruan Yi's emotions.He lowered his head and slowly grabbed Ruan Yi's cuff: "...you are upset."

"..." Ruan Yi closed his eyes, thinking, why bother.

He paused for a moment, let his voice return to normal, and asked, "How many wishes do you want to make?"

"How many can I promise?"

Ruan Yi reached into the matchbox and touched it: "Hurry up, seven."

He squeezed the match and struck it brightly: "Hurry up. Close your eyes, make a wish, and blow it out."

Lu Bingchen closed his eyes obediently.After three seconds, he opened his eyes and looked at Ruan Yi quietly, until the flame was about to go out, before blowing it in one breath.

Ruan Yi struck a match.

He held the flames together and stretched them out in front of Lu Bingchen.

Lu Bingchen stared at him again without blinking, until the match was almost burnt out, and then he blew it out.

After all seven matches were lit, Ruan Yi packed up the half of the match stubs and stood up: "Okay, go to sleep."

He walked to the bedroom, Lu Bingchen followed and hugged him from behind: "I only made one wish just now. Seven times, all one."

Ruan Yi pulled his hand away and said lightly, "Go to bed. It's late."

Lu Bingchen sat on the bed as he said, and suddenly stretched out his hand to hook Ruan Yi's neck, pulling him down.In order not to fall on top of him, Ruan Yi pushed his arms to the side, but Lu Bingchen rolled over and held him down.

Lu Bingchen looked down at him: "Why don't you ask me, what kind of wish did you make?"

In the darkness, Ruan Yi didn't see his eyes, which were originally full of drunkenness, gradually cleared up.

Lu Bingchen's alcohol dissipated.

Ruan Yi was about to push him away, but he heard Lu Bingchen smiled slightly, and said coquettishly, "Ruan Yi, I'm thirsty."

Ruan Yi said, "Didn't I give you water just now?"

"You give cakes to others, and boiled water to me... that's not okay."

Lu Bingchen pursed his lips. Although he was smiling, there was a slight coldness in his eyes. His hand ran along Ruan Yi's cheek, and his nails lightly picked Ruan Yi's earlobe, and finally stopped on the back of his neck.

The white moonlight is like rolling snow, blown into the house by the wind.For a moment, Lu Bingchen's side face was illuminated brightly, and his eyes seemed to be soaked in ice and snow, exuding an indescribable coldness.

The next second, Lu Bingchen lowered his head, supported the back of Ruan Yi's neck, and kissed him deeply.

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