aftershock

The hospital gowns with vertical stripes were all brand new and clean, and the folds were still in place. Jiang Yuan was sitting there, with a collarbone that could push the collar out of the uneven gap.

Gu Lu was able to move freely a long time ago, but Jiang Yuan's lungs recovered very slowly, and he couldn't leave the hospital for a short time. Gu Lu could only let Uncle Xu come over to accompany Jiang Yuan when he went back to take a bath. When he came, Jiang Yuan basically didn't remember talking to Xu. Uncle talked about what, what Gu Lu saw the most was Uncle Xu walking out with a lonely face, his back was slightly twitched.

"Are you hungry? Auntie made porridge, sweet."

Jiang Yuan had no concept of being hungry. He looked at Gu Lv with a questioning face, and Gu Lv turned his face unnaturally.It’s good if you can’t remember things. Occasionally, Jiang Yuan can’t remember if he has eaten. Every time he eats too little, Gu Lu can give him a few more meals. Jiang Yuan will usually be fished because he doesn’t want to admit that he forgot. Just eat them obediently.

"Did I eat it just now?"

"Did Uncle Xu buy something for you?"

Jiang Yuan was stunned, vaguely thinking that Gu Lv had eaten before he left, he glanced at the table, but there was nothing on it, then looked back to see Gu Lv opened the bowl, acquiescing that it might have happened yesterday.

His appearance is actually very cute, there is only pure doubt in his eyes, a very single emotion, hiding blind trust in Gu Lv, but Gu Lv doesn't dare to look at it, cheating him to eat is like bullying him for nothing I remember being sore and uncomfortable.

One bowl of porridge, two cripples.

Gu Lv's left hand is actually much better. You can't use too much force. If you hang it for a long time, it will swell. What you can feel is that the meridians in the whole hand are numb, and it will hurt from time to time.But whenever Jiang Yuan drank the porridge with a spoon and lowered his head, Gu Lv felt that his mind and heart were relaxed a little bit. He knew that Jiang Yuan was in pain too. What he was going through, what he was hurting, empathy became a kind of forgiveness.

Gu Lv didn't know if Jiang Yuan could remember everything that happened to them in the ward, and what he thought of their two arms that could be judged as disabled. Jiang Yuan trusted him completely just like he promised him that day, from his eyes to every moment. Every movement and mood is almost completely dependent on him.

Gu Lu can't tell whether he is subconscious or because he has forgotten the pain and hatred, so he is extremely dependent on him. This kind of feeling like infinite tolerance and tolerance makes Gu Lu unbearably painful, almost tormenting him. The more gentle, the more sad he is, very sad, because Jiang Yuan has forgotten, so he must remember, and must always remind himself, how many terrible things he has done, and how painful life Jiang Yuan has been.Now he can feel Jiang Yuan's mood at that time every moment, living is so painful and tiring.

"Can you take a look at the arm?"

"Huh?" Jiang Yuan pointed at the pressure band on Gu Lu's arm with a spoon, and Gu Lu came back to his senses and replied, "Of course, after eating."

"But I can't eat anymore." Jiang Yuan was still holding the spoon, half of the bowl of porridge was in the bowl, he asked for Gu Lv's opinion, and then laughed and asked Gu Lv, "Can't you watch it if you don't eat it?"

"How could it be? Of course it's okay." Gu Lv put his arm in front of him. He has gotten used to it during this time. Sometimes Jiang Yuan has to watch it five or six times a day. He wants to laugh a little. In fact, Jiang Yuan's reasons are different every time. , Sometimes I asked him if it was the same as my wound, and sometimes I tentatively asked him if the wound was itchy or not. Gu Lv knew that he just wanted to take a look, because he felt that his hands were very important, and he was always worried that the wound would not heal. good.

When he talked about this, he seemed unaffected by those wounds, deliberately avoided those emotions, and even made a joke. Gu Lv briefly followed up with a smile, and in a blink of an eye, when Jiang Yuan forgot, he continued In his heart, when Jiang Yuan asked the same question next time, he would try his best to find some good topics and turn them around in time.

After Laba, it is the New Year.

This year, all the kind and unkind people actually got together. For most of them, it was actually something that hadn’t happened in ten or twenty years, but for some of them, it was actually 20 years.

The injury on Jiang Yuan's hand is basically fine. Because of his lungs, he stayed in the hospital until Xiaoye and was finally discharged. Liang Jiben promised to come pick him up, but the company was about to go on holiday, and he was so busy that he couldn't wake up the next day. Gu Zhengzhong answered the phone and said there was no need to wait, so Jiang Yuan and Gu Lv went back together.

The northwest wind blew his face sorely, and Gu Lv was no longer willing to wear black clothes for him. Jiang Yuan was surprised several times when he got the clothes, and he would ask Gu Lv repeatedly after a few minutes of surprise, "What is this, what is this?" Animal hair? What kind of animal?"

A large piece of smooth and smooth fur looks like it was ripped off from a tiger. Every few minutes, Jiang Yuan will suddenly find himself wearing an animal on his body. It is extremely uncomfortable. He repeatedly asked Gu Lv in a surprised tone. Even the driver laughed at the same question.

Gu Lu explained again in a very ordinary way, "No, it's man-made and very warm. Take it home and sleep on the sofa as a blanket."

Jiang Yuan scratched his hair in frustration, and muttered, "Have I asked many times?"

Gu Lu raised his eyebrows, "What did you ask?"

"Did I ask the same question too many times? I suddenly remembered as if I asked the same question just now?"

Gu Lv pondered for a while and said, "It seems that I asked before getting in the car."

Jiang Yuan was very depressed when he heard it, he sighed and leaned back on the seat without moving.Gu Lu took him over and leaned on his shoulder with a funny face, Jiang Yuan asked, "Wouldn't it be bad if I kept asking the same question?"

"No, why would it be bad?"

"It will be very annoying."

Gu Lv's smile darkened, he lightly touched Jiang Yuan's with his head, and said earnestly and gently, "I will never find you annoying. Never will."

"That's not okay, I seem to be really demented."

Jiang Yuan's sad expression is also pure, pure as if he overslept and woke up to go to school today, only to find that he didn't have time to do his homework yesterday.Even though he knew that he would forget it soon, Gu Lv leaned his head and kissed his lips, and told him again

"You are always cute."

Jiang Yuan actually kissed back subconsciously. When he opened his eyes, he gently sucked Gu Lv's upper lip, and the eyes that ran away with his lips looked very awkward and cautious when he just learned to kiss in high school. He blushed a little, but turned his head away. , whispered so low that I don’t know what I’m talking about, “It’s fine that you’re the one who lost your memory.”

"why?"

Jiang Yuan shook his head and smiled helplessly, "I don't know." He sighed slightly, staring at Gu Lv's hand and blinking, "But now I... can't remember anything, what you said to me, even if you are good to me, I'll forget about it."

"Will you forget me?"

"That wouldn't be..."

"Is that not enough?"

Gu Lv sees him with gentleness, fearing that a certain action and tone will affect him in any way. Maybe a man is not suitable for being fragile, but Gu Lv no longer wants him to be strong anymore. Jiang Yuan is just a piece of broken glass. , will also be absorbed by him into his own flesh and bone marrow, raised up, and glued together.

Jiangyuan needs quiet and self-cultivation. The air in the house was changed in the morning, the windows were wiped clean, and the auntie waited at the door early. Coupled with Uncle Xu's concerned eyes, the whole house suddenly had a sense of youth, which was very special.

The cloak-like fur was also brought in by the driver. If it wasn't for animal fur, Jiang Yuan would have liked it because it was warm.

In the evening, Liang Ji wanted to come over for dinner with Gu Zhengzhong. It was Jiang Yuan who begged. Because Liang Ji agreed, Jiang Yuan also looked forward to the evening a little more. He felt that it was easier to be satisfied after his brain was broken. People have reached an unprecedented level, and even Jiang Yuan suspects that he is not alone. He has little time to think about other things. When he is not sleeping, Gu Lv watches TV with him. Jiang Yuan miraculously found that he remembered all the animals.

When he got sleepy from watching TV, Gu Lv pestered him to sleep, and put his hands and feet on him. Jiang Yuan felt heavy, and moved around in a drowsy sleep. Going down to follow his back, he often opened his eyes to watch Jiang Yuan sleep, but he really didn't dare to fall asleep.

When the aunt changed Jiang Yuan's slippers, she gave Gu Lv a handful of needles that looked like nails. Gu Lv's fingers were stiff when he took it, and a few of them fell on the floor, making the same sound as when Lin Wang picked them up.

Those nail-like needles are hidden in many places, and Gu Lv has not found them all so far, and he will check them before every movement of Jiang Yuan in fear.Every time Jiang Yuan asked him what he was looking for, Gu Lv felt uncomfortable.

Liang Ji came very late in the evening, bringing a busy guest, Jiang Yuan laughed when he showed up, Xu Mu went back and forth to America three times because of Jiang Yuan's illness, and even brought a very famous doctor with him, he took care of Jiang Yuan during those years , is almost his full-time doctor, looking at Jiang Yuan's eyes deeply, he is actually different from other people who have no blood relationship, there is a tenderness and love hidden deeply.

Jiang Yuan called him Dr. Xu, and Dr. Xu gave him a very elegant hug.

Auntie cooked a table of dishes, and despite their repeated invitations, she insisted on having dinner with Uncle Xu in the kitchen.

Except for Liang Ji, no one else was drinking at the table, Jiang Yuan couldn't drink, Xu Mu never drank, and Gu Zhengzhong had to drive, so the only one who could accompany him was Gu Lv.

Liang Ji is from the north. At first he thought the glass was too small, and later he thought the red wine was too weak.Without further ado, Gu Lu went to the wine cabinet to bring some white bottles.

After a few sips of food, Liang Ji had already downed a whole glass of wine, seeing that Jiang Yuan didn't dare to say anything, Gu Zhengzhong frowned again and again.

The sound of the glass knocking on the table was too loud, he raised his hand to pour wine for Gu Lv, the wine dripped into the very mismatched wine glass, he didn't feel tired holding it, and Gu Lv didn't stop him.

Gu Lu didn't hesitate for the whole cup, he probably couldn't drink it like Liang Ji, but he still swallowed it seriously.

The spicy and bitterness created a heat wave, Gu Lv shook his head, there was a yellow egg roll on the plate in front of him, he smiled slightly at Jiang Yuan who was looking at him worriedly with his chopsticks back, expressing that he was fine.

It doesn't matter if he is wishful thinking, it doesn't mean that Liang Ji will just let it go.

Xu Mu ate without saying a word, obviously Liang Ji's friend, and Gu Zhengzhong didn't let others go, so in Jiang Yuan's eyes, Gu Lu was the most pitiful.

After drinking three glasses of white wine, Gu Lv's whole body turned red, he was always quiet, he seemed normal to anyone, but Jiang Yuan knew that he was already drunk.

He silently removed the kung pao chicken dish near Gu Lu, and even replaced him with a pair of clean chopsticks.

"It's really worthless, you are almost stupid, do you know that?"

As soon as Liang Ji saw Jiang Yuan changing Gu Lu's chopsticks, plates and bowls, he thought that he had been running behind Gu Lu regardless of his care since he was a child, never knowing the tired and sad smile, and suddenly became angry.

Jiang Yuan was startled by the loud voice, and really suddenly forgot what he was doing just now. He sat there frowning and closed his eyes for a while, but found that he couldn't remember anything.

He heard Gu Lv stand up suddenly beside him, he was drunk, he staggered and dragged the chair to the floor for a long time, Jiang Yuan saw that he lowered his head, and immediately lowered his head and asked himself "What's wrong with you?"

Jiang Yuan still couldn't adapt to his own state quickly, forced to remember and wondered about this kind of amnesia made him very uncomfortable, and there was a buzzing in his ears, "I'm fine..."

Gu Lu then turned his head to look at Liang Ji, his eyes were rare and straightforward, mixed with forbearance, Liang Ji saw Jiang Yuan slowing down, and turned his eyes to Gu Lu, thinking that Gu Lu would at least get angry, But no one expected Gu Lv to hold back again, his eyes were already red before he said anything, he drank too much, and his emotions were surprisingly exposed.

He stood in front of Liang Ji and asked, "What else do you want me to do? What else do I need to do?"

"What can I do to satisfy you? How long will it take? How long?"

Liang Ji looked away, didn't answer, and poured himself a full glass of wine while pinching the wine glass.

"Little sea.."

Gu Lv brushed away Gu Zhengzhong's hand, Liang Ji didn't procrastinate, and the atmosphere was completely chilled with one sentence, "The domestic medical level can't keep up, and Jiang He's level is still the same. It's better for Jiang Yuan to go back to Canada to recuperate with me." Bar."

Jiang Yuan stared at Liang Ji in a daze, Liang Ji seldom treated him harshly, let alone turned cold, his expression towards Jiang Yuan was both chilling and angry. "Why, don't you want to go back with me? You forgot how you promised me before you returned home? Don't you want to recover from your messy illness?"

"Uncle..."

"I'm not your uncle, don't call me. If I were your uncle, I will kidnap you even if I tie you up."

Liang Ji opened his red eyes, the wine glass was dangling in his hand, his expression made Jiang Yuan flustered, Jiang Yuan quickly passed Gu Lu, stood beside Liang Ji and cautiously called him "Little Uncle..."

His aggrieved and worried expression will only be used on Liang Ji. Liang Ji put down the wine, and his eyes fell on Jiang Yuan as if he was real: "I ask you, if you want to stay, how can you guarantee that you can survive? How can you guarantee that you Will Xiaohai not let you live?"

"How do you want me to trust you?"

"If you can't figure it out, then you have to go back with me. I have raised you for many years. You...you can't...you can't let me have no one to take care of me? Answer me, Jiang Yuan?"

"Liang Ji..." Liang Ji propped his arms on the table, covering his eyes with his hands.Gu Zhengzhong frowned, and put his hand on Liang Ji's shoulder.

Jiang Yuan was silent for a while, he is no longer young nor an ignorant young man, even though his head is bad now, he still remembers that he is already 30 years old, and Liang Ji is almost 60 years old, he has gray hair, a lot Well, Liang Ji is as important to him in his life as a brother and father, but in fact he is just... just the nephew of Liang Ji's friend.

Liang Ji slightly tightened Jiang Yuan's hands, and rolled up his shirt cuffs a little. A complete arm was mended, leaving an ugly and fresh scar. He moved this scar to Jiang Yuan's eyes, trembling. Asked loudly, "Who are you worthy of?"

With this sound, Xu Mu suddenly clenched his fingers tightly.

He has no children, because he doesn't want to have dirty blood, and he shouldn't reproduce such evils.

But Jiang Yuan is different. He is the one who should be called an uncle in Jiang Yuan, and he is also the one who should be a good uncle.

He can only bear that name in this dark corner, Liang Ji's painstaking efforts, Liang Ji's dedication and concern have already exceeded him by a thousand times, and he is not qualified to step forward and say a word in this second.

"I'm sorry for you." Jiang Yuan squatted beside him, "I'm sorry for you, only you."

"I will try to live, I will get better, I always know that one day everyone will die, I don't know why I don't want to live so much, but now I try to live every day, try to let myself die later, try to forget less Maybe I can't do something, so can you believe me, I'm really working hard."

"Trust me, okay?"

Liang Ji shook off his hand, his voice was still so cold, "I can't trust you, you are no longer worthy of my trust, otherwise I wouldn't be here, right?"

"Then you just trust me." Gu Lv walked over dangling along the chair, he pulled Jiang Yuan up from the ground and didn't let go, as the strength in his hand gradually sank, Jiang Yuan almost gasped.

"I deserve it."

After a while, Liang Ji watched Gu Lu kneel down, holding Jiang Yuan tightly, with an extremely calm expression.

After Gu Zhengzhong was shocked, he and Xu Mu immediately went to help him, and Liang Ji did not avoid Gu Lv's kneeling because of him.

"Xiao Hai... get up..." Jiang Yuan lost his voice

Liang Ji stood up, he also drank a lot, leaning on the table to see the two of them, the two young people, even if Gu Lu was kneeling here, he still felt that Jiang Yuan was too disappointing.

He forgives a person too easily, and forgives too easily.Gu Lu's kneeling today, whether he can bear it or not, Liang Ji has to bear it.Not for one breath, but for him to remember why he kneels and for whom he kneels.

He didn't want to always rush here one night in a hurry, only to see Jiang Yuan who was dying and life was worse than death. No one could understand this feeling. He would never have his own child again in this life, Jiang Yuan She is the only one. I thought it wasn't my own life, and I couldn't worry about it. I didn't expect that all the most painful and painful things in this life were actually on this wild body.

He hates him for not fighting, hates for his misfortune, but no matter how much he hates, he can't hate Jiang Yuan who he raised. What he hates most is Gu Lv. The person who ran behind him was a person whom he begged to come here on his knees. From now on, this person whom he begged to come here on his knees should be worshiped, pampered, and raised well.

On this winter night, he attended the yearly appointment, forcing Gu Lv to adopt Jiang Yuan.He drank their wine on this New Year's Eve, accepted Gu Lu's courtesy, and tacitly agreed that Jiang Yuan can live a good life.

He walked out the door without saying a word, only to realize that he was staggering. He was helped away by someone, and when he looked back, he still couldn't help but feel bitter, as if he had accidentally lost a child, and he couldn't find it no matter how hard he looked.