aftershock

On the eighth day, Gu Lv opened his eyes calmly in the middle of the night, and there were rustling sounds on the window, which were subtle and not disturbing.

Like the sound of snow, Gu Lv actually doesn't remember what kind of sound snow is, he rarely pays attention to it, so when he opened the window, he found that it wasn't snow, it was rain, blown on the window by the wind, and he was It made him sober up a lot, so he gave him another reason to go out late at night.

He seldom smoked, which was bad for his teeth and lungs, but he needed them a lot lately, and none of them mattered to him.

The nurse's station was very quiet, Gu Lv didn't take the elevator, he listened to his footsteps on the fire stairs in the middle of the night, and stood smoking at the aisle window.

He leaned against the cold tiles, raised his head and breathed out smoke rings. The wind outside was blowing in with ice in it, making his fingertips tremble slightly with the cold.

He tried not to think about Jiang Yuan.

He has been thinking about the meaning of his existence in this world after getting rid of this person.It doesn't make sense.What's even more absurd is that he thought about what it would be like to have the remaining 80 years if he was lucky enough to live to be 50 years old.

When he thought of this question, he found that he couldn't think of it.

His thinking has become very slow recently, but very clear, and he is actually more free than when he was busy, but it is simply uncomfortable. The hospital gives him a sense of security, and staying on this floor seems to make him feel better.

He doesn't need to feel better, a little is enough.

"Gu Law."

The sound that sounded in the silent night was actually quite scary. Gu Lv leaned against the wall and turned his head to the sound, and then turned back to spit out the smoke ring. He didn't even change his posture, obviously he didn't intend to take another step forward.

Liang Ji came over and closed the cold window, and stood opposite Gu Lv.

Gu Lv hasn't been home these days, even with Lin Ze's dedicated assistant, he probably hasn't changed his clothes and cleaned himself up properly.

The shirt was missing buttons and wrinkled, and the suit didn't fit properly.

"I heard you fainted? Are you feeling better?"

At any time, Liang Ji's ability to say these words is already a great friendship.But Gu Lv was indifferent to Liang Ji standing in front of him, and even frowned slightly.

Liang Ji didn't mind, he sighed, "Your assistant asked me to authorize you today, and he said that besides Jiang Yuan, I am the second shareholder. I want to ask you, does he know that you are good at engraving Jiang Yuan's private seal?"

"He doesn't need to know."

Gu Lv blew out the cigarette, let himself free from the wall, and pressed the cigarette out on the white stone at the elevator entrance, he was about to go downstairs.

"Little sea."

Gu Lv was very tall. He put his hands in his pockets and stopped on the stairs. He could probably still be at eye level with Liang Ji, but this height had already changed the way he felt in Liang Ji's heart compared to usual. Like a really decadent junior, no longer so arrogant and decisive.

When Gu Lu was called to a stop, he showed no impatience on his face, and his voice was still indifferent, "Is there anything else?"

"Why don't you dare look at him?"

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"Is that why you don't dare?"

Gu Lv lowered his head, took a deep breath, and the sensor lights in the hallway couldn't wait for his voice, and quickly dimmed.His eyes couldn't get used to the dark stairs all of a sudden, like a staircase leading to hell, he closed his eyes, afraid that if he looked down this corridor again, he would see Jiang Yuan's frightened and watery eyes ten years ago.

"Well. I dare not."

He just admitted it like that, but Liang Ji didn't know what to say, his heart felt sore, Gu Lv's back gradually became lower on the steps of the stairs, Liang Ji took two steps forward, and stopped him again.

"Go and see him!"

"Go and see him, Gu Lv." Liang Ji's breathing was like a sigh, "The doctor said that he is conscious, his eyes can move, his hands and feet are responding... People who are close to him talk to him more, maybe he will wake up soon. You... you go talk to him.."

"Really... that's good..." Gu Lv shook his head after finishing speaking, "He won't want to see me."

Liang Ji gritted his teeth, "How do you know he doesn't want to see you??"

Gu Lv moved his lips. He remembered that Jiang Yuan had a fever and asked him if he couldn't leave. He said no, and said that nothing would happen if he walked for a while.Jiang Yuan immediately grabbed him and said he would, and he had to believe in him, he would.He used so much strength to grab himself, and spent ten years not wanting to let himself know. In order not to let himself know, he would rather be tortured and die.How could he want to see him by himself?

He didn't dare, he really didn't dare, the doctor said he was conscious, but the hospital belonged to Jiang He, he couldn't resist throwing away his phone because he was waiting for the dean to report the situation to him every day, the dean said his survival The will is too low, no matter how much his consciousness is stimulated, he won't wake up.

How dare you go to see him, how dare you get mad at him.

"Gu Lu, do you know how Jiang Yuan survived every time in those years..."

Because of you.

Because of that little button you gave him.So he sat on the window sill and was reluctant to jump, sinking in the water and reluctant to breathe.He is reluctant to part with you. He has experienced so much pain and glory, his dreams have been destroyed, and his future is dark, but he can still pick up the book and learn the architecture you once wanted to learn.

You didn't tell him anything, but he remembered that you painted a house very well. You didn't tell him what ideals you had, what you liked, and what you cared about.So he has worked hard to realize everything related to you.He is doing very well.

He was not close to Gu Zhengzhong, but every time he came back after returning to the country, Jiang Yuan would sit beside him and refused to leave, asking things and never asking you.He secretly drank the tea you gave him, and every time he couldn't fall asleep after drinking, he secretly went to Jiang He's website, trying to see your photo.On vacation, he will go to the country where you signed the contract, to the manor where you stayed when you were a child.Except not daring to see you, not daring to ask you, everything he does is related to you.

His bad mood is equivalent to being occupied by the devil, and it is difficult to breathe, but he is insane and has never forgotten you. He let himself survive only because he can't bear you.

Just like he is still breathing while lying on that bed, and he is also reluctant to part with you.

He should have gone long ago, no one can survive this decade-long torture, he should have gone long ago, he could have gone long ago, I will agree.

What about you, do you agree?If you agree, go and tell him, don't let him lie there and wait.It was hard for him to be alive, but it was never easy for him to lie there and breathe!

He didn't know how he got downstairs, it was difficult for him to breathe oxygen through his nose, and the cold wind and freezing rain in the middle of the night washed over his body and mind.He opened his mouth, none of them was in pain, and none of them could cry out in pain.

He had almost forgotten that he threw the broken button twice.Jiang Yuan only threw it to him once, and he was already crazy.

He had just returned to China, it was so cold, he was not in good health, he had bled a lot, had many scars on his body, he couldn't even catch a cold, but he soaked in that pool all night, was so cold that he was so tired that he fell asleep.

Is the button really important? Is it so important?

If it has really replaced me and accompanied Jiang Yuan for so many years, does it also mean that being thrown out by myself is also every one of me.

Jiang Yuan rescued him twice, but he still drowned himself, he didn't dare to think about Jiang Yuan's mood.

It's really not good to be alive, no wonder Jiang Yuan said that they have no fate.

"The rain is so salty, Gangwon"

But we can't be without fate, I can't agree.