aftershock

When he got home, Jiang Yuan was lying on the bed in a daze, wanting to sleep or not, with his slender ankle resting on the edge of the bed, Gu Lv put him back under the quilt.Generally, after Jiang Yuan fell asleep, Gu Lv would choose to bring the computer into the room, probably because he knew that he had offended Gu Lv in the morning, or maybe because he was used to Gu Lv's body temperature, Jiang Yuan automatically slammed into Gu Lv's legs when he was unconscious. He leaned over, and when Gu Lv was about to rest, he curled up neatly and put his head on Gu Lv's arm.

Gu Lv pushed him away a little bit, and he would lean towards him in a short while. Jiang Yuan gradually came to his senses, and asked blankly with a nasal voice, "What's the matter."

Gu Lv didn't pay much attention to him all day, so naturally he wanted to wake him up now.Seeing him trying to open his sleepy eyes wide, Gu Lv still had a sullen face, "Cold?"

Jiang Yuan was really afraid of the cold, especially his hands and feet. Gu Lv thought that if he nodded, he would not care about him and would keep him warm.But Jiang Yuan didn't, he just stared at Gu Lv for a while, and then shook his head and said, "It's okay"

Gu Lu was very uncomfortable with the word "fortunately", so he moved the computer to the other side of the bed, keeping a distance from Jiang Yuan, "Then you go to bed first."

Jiang Yuan didn't understand what he meant, and was a little embarrassed and embarrassed in a trance, but obediently turned his back and really moved to the other side and lay down obediently, leaving a large space in the middle.

Gu Lu was so angry that he wanted to force Jiang Yuan to ask for something, so he tugged on the quilt. Jiang Yuan probably wasn't asleep yet, and was moved by the quilt, but he didn't get the quilt back. Meaning, Gu Lv looked at the computer for a while and then looked at his back curled up there for a while, seeing him shrinking his legs secretly, his heart suddenly felt sore.

In fact, he didn't want to freeze Jiangyuan at all, the temperature of the air conditioner in the room was not low, but he didn't expect that this action would make Jiangyuan sneeze very easily.

At that moment, Gu Lu felt that he was a little childish beyond imagination, he immediately let go of the computer, got up and put the quilt back on Jiang Yuan's body.Jiang Yuan huddled on the side of the bed, seeing Gu Lu squatting in front of him suddenly, blinked his eyes a few times, and suddenly turned red.

Gu Lv stroked his hair and saw that the upper and lower rows of eyelashes of his drooping eyes were all wet and stuck together, and every time he moved a few times, there was a string of tears, and his heart suddenly ached, "I'm sorry, don't cry."

Jiang Yuan opened his mouth to breathe, his eyes were big, washed with water, moist and ignorant, full of bewilderment and panic, but there was no grievance.Gu Lu's low-pitched apology seemed to have opened the floodgates. He had hardly seen Jiang Yuan cry like this, just because of this small quilt.

"I'm sorry." Gu Lu apologized again, frantically looking at his red eyes and nose, and then his entire face that spread.

Jiang Yuan didn't know why he was crying.

Then all of a sudden, the thing that was pressing on my heart couldn't find its way out, just because I couldn't cover the quilt, it suddenly collapsed out of my eye sockets, my nose was stuffed. He sat up and fanned his eyes, his pupils didn't focus on Gu Lv , kept inhaling, Gu Lv kissed his eyes and his face, he didn't seem to pay attention, when he finished crying quietly, Gu Lv grabbed his legs and wanted to move him to the middle of the bed to sleep , but Jiang Yuan silently pushed him away, walked slowly to the bathroom, and then spit out the half bowl of sweet and greasy pumpkin porridge into the toilet.

Vomiting and retching made his body twitch upwards like hiccups, squatting there with bare toes trembling uncontrollably, how could he vomit that bit of porridge, knowing that his mental body is sensitive to external contact and even Excessive mood swings have a conditioned reflex to resist and repel, but Gu Lv still always ignores the past, as if he can't bear to watch his trembling heels for a while, Gu Lv holds Jiang Yuan's thin wrist, wet Wipe his face with a wet towel. "It's my fault. Don't you cry"

Repeatedly, he seemed to know only these few words.Jiang Yuan frowned and coughed, then rinsed his mouth with Gu Lu's hand, and then coughed again.This voice made Gu Lv's heart feel like being lifted by a string. He kept stroking the other person's back to comfort him, and Jiang Yuan hid his strength in his arms.

"Does it hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt" Jiang Yuan cleared his throat again when he heard his hoarse voice, his round eyes were very clear, big and lonely, as if carefully guessing what Gu Lv was thinking, there was a distressing contradiction in his eyes.

His eyes were still red after the rain, and his beautiful eyelids were a little swollen. Gu Lu couldn't bear to look at his frail and helpless appearance, his whole chest was numb, and he rested his chin on the top of Jiang Yuan's head, I was also very careful in asking "Is there any discomfort?"

Jiang Yuan coughed again on his chest, and after a while he said slowly, "It's just... a little cold."

He was really cold, his neck, arms and even his back were cold. Gu Lu touched his forehead, but he didn't feel the temperature was high.

"Why is it so cold?" The temperature in the room is not low at all, even though he said so, Gu Lu still wrapped him in a quilt, seeing Jiang Yuan wanted to lie down again, so he simply fixed him in his arms, looking for nothing to say As if asking, "Are you hungry?"

How did he know that Jiang Yuan was afraid.

Losing control of your emotions is just the beginning. If you analyze the mental illness a little bit, it's like a person is locked in a dark and airtight room with only one door that can't be opened. Throw monsters, ghosts, snakes, rats, insects, and ants into this room regularly. I don't know when he will throw it, and I can't control him when he will throw it.

For those who are sick, the switch and control of that part of their emotions is no longer in their hands. In addition to being unwilling to be in the dark, they have to worry all day long. After all, every collapse is a collapse of a certain corner of the city wall. It's gone.

Jiang Yuan couldn't even explain why he was afraid, and he didn't bother to think about it. Apart from not being afraid of death, he was afraid of too many things, and he was too tired to die. Guess right or wrong, no one is hungry right after vomiting, but when Gu Lu asked, Jiang Yuan didn't know whether to say hungry or not.

Jiang Yuan sat by the bed and hesitated for a while, Gu Lv went downstairs, and when he came back, Jiang Yuan saw that he had taken two cups of milk tea.

Gu Lu was a little embarrassed, "I bought two cups of milk tea today, but I just..."

He probably wanted to explain that he woke Jiang Yuan up to let him drink milk tea, but this was not something to be happy about for Jiang Yuan, "It was actually my fault, I'm sorry, I apologize to you."

Gu Lv sat by the bed, Jiang Yuan was wrapped like a silkworm chrysalis, his eyes naturally fell on the milk tea after he finished speaking.Gu Lv heated the milk tea in water, and the lid was a little hot, so he didn't rush to open it. Gu Lv rubbed the bottom of Jiang Yuan's eyelids with his fingertips. The redness there has not faded, and Jiang Yuan will blink automatically when he touches it. conspicuous.

"How to buy this." Gu Lu didn't know if mentioning Lin Qiao would make Jiang Yuan unhappy, but he answered truthfully, "I met Lin Qiao in the afternoon. She found my mother's whereabouts in Europe, so we contacted her several times when she returned to China. It's all because of this." Gu Lv observed Jiang Yuan's expression, saw that he was not unhappy, and continued, "She asked me if I had milk tea and coffee from Starbucks."

"Have you ever drank it, Jiang Yuan?"

Of course Jiang Yuan drank it. When she was young, Jiang Qing liked to make milk tea with black tea and milk. It was very fragrant and delicious, but if she drank it at night, she would not be able to sleep all night.He really didn't drink Starbucks much, Jiang Yuan thought about it in his mind, but didn't say it, because explaining this thing would be a long sentence and it was too tiring.So after thinking about it, he shook his head and said "no" to Gu Lv

Gu Lu didn't know whether to believe it or not. He poked a cup of milk tea and handed it to Jiang Yuan, "I haven't drunk anything. I missed the age of drinking milk tea with you, but I still hope that you can accompany me in the future."

Jiang Yuan took a sip of the milk tea speechlessly, it was a bit sweet, and the taste was very fragrant. It was not the same taste as what Jiang Qing made when he was a child, and his strange mood got better at this moment, so he drank more A few mouthfuls.

Gu Lu was a little surprised, "Like it? Is it delicious?"

Jiang Yuan laughed, "Why don't you try it."

With his sudden smile, Gu Lv felt that his bound heart was released, and when his tense body immediately loosened, he realized that he had been tense all along.

Gu Lv put his hands behind his back, watched Jiang Yuan holding the milk tea seriously, his cheeks on both sides puffed up, he turned his head to the ceiling, sighed softly, and laughed softly, "Jiang Yuan, when you cry, I will cry Going crazy."

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