aftershock

Gu Lu didn't open the paper bag right away, he was almost in time to open the label when he rushed back to the company.

By the time Gu Lv finished handling the company's affairs, it was already very late. The takeaway delivered by Lin Ze had already been completely cold. He wanted to frown, but he had the habit of flattening his brows halfway. He wiped his fingers, and swallowed a mouthful of cold vegetables, his face paler than the dry rice.

After eating a few mouthfuls in a hurry, Gu Lv pressed his stomach, looked at the time, threw the food into the trash bin decisively, gritted his teeth secretly, found the medicine for stomach pain from the drawer, leaned on the sofa and closed for a while In his eyes, he thought it was only a few minutes, but when Lin Ze woke him up, an hour had passed.

"I've reviewed the plan, and I can sign it, Mr. Gu."

"Thanks for your hard work."

Lin Ze looked at the leftovers in the trash can and Gu Lu's pale fingertips still clutching his stomach and forced a smile, "I'll see the rest tomorrow, there's still time."

"Tomorrow I." Gu Lu paused, then took another breath in a low voice, "Forget it, I'll take it back."

"Mr. Gu."

Lin Ze helped him open the door, and nodded to the outside of the door, "I told Xiao Hu to get off work first, and I will take you back."

"Thank you for your hard work."

The night was quiet, but thinking that this was the way home, Gu Lv couldn't feel sleepy anymore. The closer he got to home, the more he was sad. The thin paper bag made him very contradictory. In the face of Jiang Yuan, he is willing to admit that he does not have that much courage, probably all the courage.

Jiang Yuan used to sleepwalk before, but when he left the company that day, his mental state became very unstable. Gu Lv could feel that his memory was declining rapidly, and he was even confused. He slept for a long time and was in a daze for a long time. Many, Gu Lv guessed that he might have forgotten that he had drowned a small fish, so he ran to the fish tank as soon as he woke up.

He needs more and more small fish, and every buried small fish is like himself drowned in the middle of the night, and what makes him most distressed is Jiang Yuan's sleepwalking.

Recently, he has started to sleepwalk frequently, which may be the reason why he needs sleep so badly.He will no longer stay at home peacefully, it may be within ten minutes of Gu Lv taking a bath, or at night when Gu Lv returns home late.

When he found Jiang Yuan walking out of the house for the first time, Gu Lv fell into a breakdown. Even though he found him not far from the driveway at the door, he still couldn't control the sadness and pain. He knew that Jiang Yuan could appear What do these symptoms represent, and Jiang Yuan's pain in the dream has become the torment and suffering for him in reality.

Fortunately, there are not many houses on the entire mountain road at the entrance, seven households, Gu Lv bought all the houses, so that the road down the mountain can be sealed off when it gets dark.When he met Jiang Yuan on the way home again, Lin Ze was able to say hello to him without being surprised.

"Hi, I met you again."

Lin Ze drove the car very slowly, and the driver Xiao Hu specifically told him that if it was too late to leave work, the headlights could not be turned on on this road, nor could it be driven fast. Sure enough, meeting Jiang Yuan was like looking for fireflies in a summer night. found it.

He stopped at the same spot, waited for Gu Lv to get off the back seat, turned his head, and the two people in the rearview mirror gradually moved away. Lin Ze knew that the person who looked proud even from the back would only be in such a deep night. Let go of your perseverance, revealing your exhaustion.He held Jiang Yuan in one hand with the bag in the other, and took him home slowly, as if he was taking a walk, Lin Ze didn't try to guess what they said, but Gu Lv must be very gentle, otherwise how could he walk out of such a lingering night .

Gu Lv held Jiang Yuan's palm with no warmth. The late autumn wind was very cold at night, and Gu Lv didn't have any temperature. He accidentally fell asleep today and came back too late. He only dared to do this when Jiang Yuan was not around. Unscrupulously let himself fall asleep, Jiang Yuan was too thin, his clothes were pulled back by the wind, and his whole body was broken. In fact, at this time, Jiang Yuan's big eyes were still a little dull, a little silly, Gu Lv looked at it and smiled Looking up, it was a very upward arc. He felt that Jiang Yuan was cute and pitiful.

Silly being led away, his silent eyes showed no timid emotion, as if he was looking for something, but he didn't seem to know what he was looking for, he looked very cute, but the wind was too strong, Gu Lv blocked his wind , and took off his coat to cover him.

"If you were awake, you probably wouldn't want my clothes."

"My clothes are still a little warm, isn't it so cold?"

"If you don't want it, it's probably because you're worried that I'll get sick from such a cold wind."

"But if mine gets sick, you'll take care of me too, won't you?"

Gu Lv was talking to himself almost alone on this road. After he finished speaking slowly, he looked at Jiang Yuan seriously, and couldn't help but stop and hug him. With a laugh, a pile of white mist came out of his mouth in the autumn night, and he sucked in his nose that was irritated by the cold, and this person who never liked to laugh revealed a childish tone in his words, "From then on, every time Wasn't it you who stood by my bed when I was sick, wasn't you who was always worrying about my illness, and said that no matter how far away I would be by my side, wasn't it you?"

"Ok?"

"The liar...isn't it you?"

As he was talking, Gu Lu's eyes suddenly turned reddish. He pursed his lips and looked up into the distance, exhaled, and rested his chin on Jiang Yuan's shoulder, still hugging him tightly in his arms. Looking at the temperatureless Jiang Yuan, the blue and dark green eyes gradually filled with thick and deep melancholy pain.

At this moment, it seems that he has returned to his childhood, back to that big and quiet manor. He is still the orphan who feels aggrieved but can’t speak out. He can only feel disappointed and extremely sad for the radishes in the field that haven’t germinated, haven’t bloomed, and haven’t grown green leaves. , What he thought in his mind was that this radish would grow beautiful fruits as he wished, and then he could hold it in front of that person to show his results, but one day, he suddenly discovered that nothing was necessary , that person is gone, gone, and will never appear again.No one cared about his radish anymore, and he realized very slowly that there was no need for this radish to grow anymore.

Jiang Yuan is the same as Gu Xu, no one will want his radish anymore.

Gu Lu looked at Jiang Yuan Gujing Wubo's eyes, like a puppet that had lost his soul, and said softly, "Jiang Yuan, why... I was the one who swallowed so many needles."

When Gu Lu led Jiang Yuan to push open the door, Uncle Xu was still asleep, and was standing under the ginkgo tree in the yard. These two trees were already very old, and they were too close together, and one of them was shaded, making it a little shorter Some, I don't know if these two trees have become spirits, they seem to be close to humans, and they have stayed in this house longer than Uncle Xu.

"Uncle Xu."

"met?"

"Ah."

Gu Lv knew that Uncle Xu smoked, but he heard that Jiang Yuan's lungs were not very good, so he never smoked in a place with Jiang Yuan. As soon as the two of them entered the door, Uncle Xu extinguished the cigarette. He looked at Jiang Yuan for a long time and said softly. Sighing, "Go to bed early."

Gu Lu couldn't go to bed early, and he had relatively little sleep time.There is a very soft sofa in the study, which is enough for one person to sit or lie down. Gu Lv is used to taking Jiang Yuan to work in the study. It is much better to put it where he can see it than to disappear suddenly. Wait for him to sit there for a while. Er fell asleep by himself, and Gu Lv put him flat until he finished his work and took him back to sleep together.

Gu Lv is familiar with Jiang Yuan's smell, he always likes to wash his hair at night, once the smell of bananas, it can't be light, sweet, and soothing, in fact, Gu Lv doesn't know whether it's the smell that makes him soothed, or Jiang Yuan's presence Staying obediently under the eyelids made his nerves more relieved.

Jiang Yuan no longer stretched out his arms and legs to wrap him around, most of the time he would sleep curled up and bent over, but now the person being pestered was replaced by Jiang Yuan, Gu Lv used to put him on his chest, and he slept better than him A little higher, so that one hand can just wrap around his waist, and he can wake up quickly with a movement.

The next day, Jiang Yuan still woke up later than Gu Lu. After Gu Lu got up, he pulled up the quilt behind him, and lowered his voice to wash up, but he saw Jiang Yuan sitting up from the bed in a daze, with his head turned up in a mess. Rubbing his eyes, Gu Lu had no choice but to sit back and let him sleep for a while.

"Why did you wake up?"

Jiang Yuan covered his mouth and yawned, water glistened in his eyes, he tried hard to open them, Gu Lv wiped his eyes, Jiang Yuan asked, "Can the parrot upstairs talk?"

Gu Lv looked at Jiang Yuan, but didn't move for a while, Jiang Yuan smiled confusedly at his expression, and said with a nasal tone, "I dreamed about your parrot."

Gu Lu smiled, touched his nose and asked, "What did it say?"

"I love you." Jiang Yuan replied. After he finished speaking generously, he wiped his eyes and rubbed them again, barely noticing Gu Ludun's appearance there. After a while, Jiang Yuan lowered his head and smiled again. Muttering like a small complaint about an unfunny joke, "You don't love me."

Gu Lv stood up from the bed in an instant, looked over with two eyes ignited by cold flames, with hurt and surprise, said in disbelief, "Why don't I love you?"

He held Jiang Yuan's shoulders, and asked him with such strength that he almost broke Jiang Yuan, "Why do you think... I don't love you??"

However, Jiang Yuan just looked up at him again, his eyes were not sober, and his impatience of being shaken made him grab Gu Lv's arm tightly and break it down.

"Jiang Yuan, answer me!"

Gu Lu took a step back to the side of the bed under his force, Jiang Yuan frowned, as if he felt that he had done something wrong, and apologized insincerely, "I...I said the wrong thing, I'm sorry."

After he finished speaking, he lay down on his side. Gu Lv saw his thin back hiding under the blanket, and the blood in his body cooled down little by little.

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It's hard to understand why this chapter is so difficult to write, and why I am such a long-winded person.