aftershock

The flowering period of sunflowers has long passed, and the row of withered, yellow and wilting plants were removed, and a whole row of potted plants were placed again. They were small and dwarf sunflowers, which could not produce flower seeds. They were very delicate and could not live for a long time. It also has to be shaded.

There are more plants in Gu Lu's house, and even the silver leaf eucalyptus has been replaced by apple eucalyptus. Jiang Yuan guessed that Gu Lu probably didn't know the difference between these two plants.

He seldom goes downstairs for activities, and always lies lazily on the second floor. Gu Lv took him to the roof to watch the parrots. There are a few small fish, and Jiang Yuan occasionally goes down to look at them for a long time.

Jiang Yuan never mentioned the broken glass jar again, and his aunt never dared to get too close to him. Jiang Yuan was gentle and gentle to everyone, but because he was too gentle, he felt a lot of alienation, and he was still waking up. After squatting next to the fish tank to watch the small fish, my aunt stood behind the glass door with a bowl of stewed autumn pear juice, her face full of embarrassment.

Gu Lv came over from behind and asked, "Aren't you going to drink today?"

The aunt sighed softly, "He didn't eat anything, he drank two mouthfuls of lotus root soup and said he couldn't eat anymore."

Jiang Yuan has a slight anorexia, and Gu Lv also felt it. It's not that he doesn't want to eat on purpose, but he is bored with food. When it's time to eat, he becomes irritable and impatient. Those who sit at the table are in a bad mood and sensitive. Gu Lv After forcing him to drink pear juice a few times, Jiang Yuan either had acid regurgitation or wanted to vomit.

Gu Lv also knew that Jiang Yuan was under pressure to eat, and usually after the meal time, he would look more relaxed.These days Gu Lv was very worried about him, during which Lin Wang also came twice and gave him some medicine, but so far it seems that there is still no improvement.

"Give it to him later, I'll send someone to bring him something he likes to eat."

Jiang Yuan likes small buns, Gu Lu remembered that he liked plain stuffed buns at Gu's house, so he asked Lin Ze to arrange someone to call in advance to pick them up.

It has been raining for several days in a row these days, and it really got colder every time. Mr. Jiang Yuan put his hand into the water of the fish tank, and was caught several times by Gu Lv, thinking that Jiang Yuan was squatting there and playing with fish again. Law walked over.

Jiang Yuan didn't seem to hear the inconspicuous footsteps on the grass. He wrapped his arms around his legs and held a small bright red carp in the palm of his other hand.

The little carp is red all over, except for a little white on the forehead, but as the water in that white palm slowly leaks out, it becomes very difficult for the little carp to swim with its long tail wagging. Looking at the little fish struggling slowly, Gu Lv thought he would put the little fish back into the water, but Jiang Yuan didn't.

Jiang Yuan gently placed the small fish on the grass in front of him. The small fish kept jumping in the green grass, its big mouth opened and closed continuously, its transparent gill cover flipped, and it was struggling with mud all over its body. He quietly watched with his legs crossed until the little fish's skin slowly dried out and he could no longer jump. He went in and covered it with grass.

His quiet appearance seemed to be silently mourning for this little fish, but he didn't notice Gu Lv standing behind him. Gu Lv was shocked, and the wrinkles on his brows disappeared in an instant. He always remembered that Jiang Yuan didn't like his frowning, But he couldn't react with what expression to use to accept the situation in front of him. He knew that Jiang Yuan was sick, and he had a mild illness. He could accompany him, find a good doctor, or be like Liang Ji. Treat him meticulously, raise him well, he thinks he can do well, but he doesn't know that his voice is so flustered, "Jiang Yuan..."

Jiang Yuan stiffened his back, Gu Lv tried his best to pretend he didn't see anything, took a few steps forward, and pulled him up from the ground without looking sideways.

"My hands are covered with mud."

Seeing that Jiang Yuan really didn't see him, his shoulders immediately relaxed a lot, but he didn't answer him. Gu Lv probably got used to Jiang Yuan's slowness, so he took him indoors and rolled up his sleeves to wash his hands.

Gu Lv knew that the sleeve was stuck, and there were new marks on the upper point. It was after he went to work, after he fell asleep, and every time he left Jiangyuan, those marks would always be added. , Gu Lu couldn't control the depression and pain in his heart, but he still pretended to be ignorant of his unbearable pain.

The warm water hit the hands of the two of them rustlingly, Gu Lu stopped after washing, Jiang Yuan pulled his hand away, feeling that Gu Lu suddenly bent down behind him and surrounded him, he buried his face on Jiang Yuan's neck In the mirror, only Gu Lu's dark hair can be seen. When Gu Lu was a teenager, he quickly surpassed Jiang Yuan in height. In the next few years, he became taller and taller. Jiang Yuan could no longer see what his hair was. No matter what he looks like, he can never touch his soft hair when he was a child. He misses the beautiful child who stubbornly refused to let him touch his hair, his little princess, little prince, and little brother.he suddenly said

"Can I touch your hair."

Gu Lu tightened his arms around his waist, and after a while, Jiang Yuan heard a muffled "Okay" in his ears.

Then he stretched out his hand and gently touched Gu Lu's hair.

His hair wasn't soft anymore, and it wasn't the feeling in his memory. Jiang Yuan saw himself in the mirror and smiled contentedly. He just touched it and then put down his hand.

Jiang Yuan understands that in the unit of time, the most paradoxical place is memory. The only way to keep it perfect is to never touch it again. Memory is not beautiful, but memory is beautiful, just like when you want something very much , you must give it up first, and it may come back when you don't want it anymore.

It is a happy normal person who lives in life and follows the correct time trajectory. Unhappy people are mostly because they have too many memories and memories are not beautiful. Abnormal people are mostly because they want to Asking too much and getting nothing.

Jiang Yuan felt that he was a bit miserable, neither happy nor normal, and walking a derailed path.

Gu Lv didn't raise his head, his scorching body temperature dispelled the coolness from Jiang Yuan's neck, he closed his eyes there, but he didn't dare to breathe easily, he was afraid that he was a coward, he didn't have enough confidence to lose Jiang Yuan too many times.

Jiang Yuan couldn't see Gu Lu's reddish eye sockets and the way he hid on his shoulder and opened his mouth slightly to breathe while refusing to make a sound.

"What's wrong?" Jiang Yuan asked after a long time.

In this delicate silence, Gu Lu's damp and moldy sadness overwhelmed his worthless arrogance and delicacy, and that kind of fragile thing took root in his eyes. He didn't want Jiang Yuan to see him, so he raised his hand Blindfolded his eyes. "Don't move." His gentle and hoarse voice was very pleasant, Jiang Yuan was very obedient, but his eyelashes brushed his fingers repeatedly.

"It's kind of dark." Jiang Yuan said.

"Don't be afraid." Jiang Yuan didn't speak, he wanted to shake his head, but Gu Lu gently lifted his chin, it was a kiss, Jiang Yuan thought, but Gu Lu didn't just give him a kiss, Gu Lu kissed the tip of his nose, and then After a kiss, when the cool lips slowly touched the corners of the lips, Gu Lv didn't take away the hand that covered his eyes. He was used to holding Jiang Yuan's head, but his head was also injured, so Gu Lv could only support him. Jiang Yuan had never been kissed so hard by him before, it hurt a little, he didn't resist, when Gu Lv sucked his oxygen, Jiang Yuan also subconsciously sipped his lips, that pitiful response made Gu Lv Lu paused, and when Jiang Yuan was kissed until he was dazed and out of breath, he took his hand away. At this moment, Jiang Yuan opened his eyes and saw Gu Lu smiling at him, his eyes were a little red, "There will be no more When it’s dark, never again.”

Without waiting for Jiang Yuan to speak, he leaned over and kissed his eyes again, "Never."

Lin Ze is a big assistant, Gu Lu's confidant, Jiang Yuan knows.

Let Lin Ze give him fruits and buns again and again, even if he knows him better, Jiang Yuan still feels a little embarrassed.

The Gu family has great etiquette, if they want their steamed stuffed buns, if they send someone casually, maybe Gu Yi will deliver them in person next time, Gu Lu thanked Lin Ze, because Gu Lu has too many things to worry about lately, Lin Ze naturally also Then he was so busy that he didn't touch the ground, he didn't have time to stay for dinner together, he was in a hurry to go to other places, before he left, he looked back at Jiang Yuan, adjusted his glasses, and Gu Lu came over automatically.

"Is something wrong?"

This tacit understanding, it would be better if it was placed on someone else, Lin Ze had no time to think too much, and whispered, "I failed to contact Mr. Maoyun Xu, his environment is too complicated, and he does not accept private appointments."

"so?"

Lin Ze raised his hand and touched his nose, looked at Gu Lu's face and said, "I.. contacted Zhou Heng next time.. I..Master.."

"found it?"

"I found it. It is said that I will return to China this Friday. The eldest grandson of the Xu family is going to get engaged, and Mr. Xu will also attend."

"Just go back home, I'll contact you."

"Mr. Gu..." Lin Ze looked ugly, and said hesitantly, "Although I didn't get in touch, I did make an appointment."

"What's the meaning."

In fact, Lin Ze was not small when dealing with this matter. He first checked out the cars that the elder grandson of the Xu family had "borrowed" from Xu Xuan over the years, corrected the accounts, and took them away. Lin Ze was very clear about what he could ask and what he couldn't ask, but logically, an elder should come forward to ask about the situation, but a negotiator from the Xu family Not at all, even when Lin Ze was trying to communicate, Xu Jingxing, as Xu Xuan's guardian, actually avoided seeing him, which was obviously very deliberate.

He was so irritable about this matter, he was busy for a few days, but Peng Yang settled it with just one phone call. He said it was easy, it was just a game appointment, but how could Lin Ze talk to Gu Lv.

"Is it Liang Ji or Gu Zhengzhong?"

Lin Ze gritted his teeth, and frowned unwillingly, "Peng Yang, Mr. Peng."

"Oh"

"He has a golf appointment for the weekend, do you want to make time for it?"

"go."

Xu Jingxing avoided seeing him, but Peng Yang was willing to wade into the muddy water. Gu Lv didn't feel that Peng Yang was a big help, so he asked Lin Ze to thank him frankly and without sincerity, and let him do the work first.

The buns had thin skins and lots of stuffing. There were vegetables and shepherd's purse stuffing. They were bland. Jiang Yuan couldn't refuse, so he ate one and a half. The other half was the skin that Gu Lu asked him to eat after he took out the vegetables.

Seeing that the aunt brought the pear juice over in a timely manner, Jiang Yuan immediately felt irritable from the bottom of his heart. He was not angry with the aunt, but just frowned and pushed the bowl away a little bit. The force was a bit strong, and the full soup spilled a little On the table, causing Gu Lu to look up, Jiang Yuan subconsciously frowned when he saw this, and became silent uncomfortably.

Gu Lu put down his chopsticks, leaned against the pear juice bowl with the back of his hand, and found that it was not very hot. He couldn't open his mouth to ask Jiang Yuan to drink it, so he could only smile forcedly, pretending to be relaxed, "Isn't it delicious?"

How could Jiang Yuan know what Gu Lv had gone through, he was asked by Gu Lv with such a superficial smile, he could only feel that he was about to get angry again, immediately suppressed his impatience, took a deep breath, and the person on the opposite side had no time to stop him When I poured it into my mouth.

Jiang Yuan gulped down the pear juice, and soon sat across from him wanting to vomit, but he couldn't vomit, holding the table tightly with one hand, his head fell forward, his Adam's apple rolled, and he was trying to swallow the overturning nausea.The bowl of soup was not hot, Gu Lv looked at Jiang Yuan's uncomfortable wet eyes, but had to tense his jaw, and briefly looked away.

When Gu Lu tangled his hands on his legs without realizing it, he also understood Jiang Yuan for the first time.

He remembered what the doctor said.

"He needs pain."

When does a person need pain? When it is very painful, only when it is very, very painful, do you need pain, you need to transfer, you need to replace, you need to find another way to share, relieve, and pray to dilute Drop this kind, cone heart.

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