aftershock

Gu Zhengzhong knew that Liang Ji and Gu Lu had not been able to deal with each other. To be precise, Liang Ji had not dealt with him unilaterally. Gu Lu had great respect for Liang Ji, and he had never shown any discord with Liang Ji. No matter how you look at him, he is a very decent junior, at least Gu Zhengzhong is very satisfied with him, so whenever Liang Ji makes trouble, Gu Zhengzhong will more or less feel that Gu Lv has been wronged.

These days, he has always been suspicious of Jiang Yuan's wrong call. No one knows better than Gu Zhengzhong what level of protective measures Liang Ji is using to treat Jiang Yuan. After thinking about it for two days, he still briefly mentioned it to Liang Ji. , As expected, it was another Cold War.

After so many years, Gu Zhengzhong has actually gotten used to it for a long time. It is he who understands Liang Ji is such a person, so rather than explaining a bunch of big truths that he can't listen to, Gu Zhengzhong is more willing to tolerate his irrationality and fulfill his wish. His fatherly heart.

He couldn't find a good topic to break the silence for a while, but when he saw the tea Liang Ji was drinking, he remembered something again.

"Have you ever heard of the name "Song'er"?"

Sure enough, Liang Ji raised his head, squinted his eyes from behind the thin glasses, and glanced over lightly, "Why do you ask this?"

"Xiao Hai asked me before that Jiang Yuan always called other people's names in his dreams."

As soon as he opened the chatter box, Gu Zhengzhong's Ice Age was coming to an end. He breathed a sigh of relief, and carefully put the violin that had just been cleaned into the violin case. This violin was very old, and Gu Zhengzhong cherished it very much. Carefully closed the piano case, and was violently covered by Liang Ji's "slap", Gu Zhengxin's temples throbbed in pain, "Take it easy"

"You said Jiang Yuan thought of Song Er?"

"Xiao Hai said so."

"call him."

Gu Zhengzhong looked at the time on the watch, and asked Liang Ji with a headache, "Now?"

"immediately."

Seeing Liang Ji's serious and sad face, Gu Zhengzhong wondered before the call was connected, "What's the matter, is there any problem with Songer?"

"He shouldn't remember Song'er." Liang Ji frowned, hesitated for a while, and took the phone directly from his hand, "I'll do it."

On the glass, Gu Lv's tall and straight figure was vaguely reflected. The quiet room was broken by the sound of a vibrating phone. Gu Lv picked it up, and when he heard Liang Ji's voice, he glanced at the closed door , went a little further.

Liang Ji seldom calls, and their contact still uses traditional formulaic emails, keeping a distance that can produce beauty.But Liang Ji and Jiang Yuan seem to have established a heart connection, and Gu Lv is not very happy with the thoughts that often come up.

"Little sea."

Gu Lu's eyes quietly stopped on a dim wall lamp, and he paused. "Uncle Liang."

The people on the other side of the ocean seemed to be touched as well. He cleared his throat and asked, "Jiang Yuan...is next to you?"

"Going to take a bath."

"Oh." Liang Ji seemed to hesitate for a while, and probably took the phone outside. Gu Lu heard his heavy breathing, probably making a decision, and asked again, "What can I do with him?"

"No, I'm looking for you, I heard...Jiang Yuan mentioned Song'er to you?"

Song Er, Gu Lu had never heard of this name before, but when Jiang Yuan repeated it after falling asleep, he did really mind it.

"Sometimes I say it when I fall asleep."

"Are you dreaming, have you often sleepwalked recently?"

Hearing Gu Lu's affirmative answer again, Liang Ji frowned even deeper. After thinking for a while, he decided to tell Gu Lu, "That's a dog, and the dog's name is Song'er."

"Jiang Yuan raised him when he was very young, before you knew him."

"I forget who gave it to him. He has been raising it for a long time. You also know that Jiang Yuan and his mother were innocently implicated because of Jiang He, but you don't know that Jiang Chong... your Uncle Jiang's grandfather's house. When they came to the Wen family’s shares, they did a lot of cruel and inhumane things to them, even Jiang Yuan was locked in a wine barrel and thrown into an abandoned cabin to let him fend for himself and voluntarily renounce his inheritance rights.”

Gu Lu's slender white fingertips unconsciously touched the door frame, and he repeated with difficulty, "Wine barrel... cabin..."

Liang Ji sighed and continued, "Later... he fell ill. When his illness started to improve, I took him to bask in the sun in the yard, and someone delivered a box of couriers. I didn't think much about it. I opened it. express delivery..."

"..inside, is a bloody dog ​​whose skin has been peeled off and its head cut off"

"It's Song'er."

With trembling fingertips, Gu Lv tightly grasped the crack of the door frame with one hand. Unable to imagine the reaction of the young Jiang Yuan, he said in a low voice, "What happened later..."

Even Liang Ji, an adult, was shocked by the bloody box full at that time, and he seemed unwilling to recall, inhaling and exhaling for a short period of time. I won’t grow up anymore. What I want to say is the same, I don’t know whether my decision at that time is good or bad for now, but obviously, Jiang Yuan’s later sleepwalking is a sequelae.”

"What did you do to him?"

Liang Ji raised his hand to brush his forehead, and said wearily, "At that time, the psychiatrist abroad suggested that I sleep his memory. For a child, the more severe the blow, the easier it is for him to doubt the authenticity. As long as he sleeps long enough."

"I let him sleep for two months and four days, a total of 65..."

"Every day, a professional doctor will give him nerve stimulation with the aid of equipment, and then take... some measures to reduce the activity of the memory blocks that are obviously active, so as to calm the turmoil caused to the nerves. After I have dealt with everything , I just brought you back to fill his life, to distract him so that he has no time to recall, and to play down the bad experience he encountered."

"Did you make it."

"Not completely, this method is actually a kind of psychological suggestion, not hypnosis. When he grows up and his brain is fully developed, he will slowly remember that his nerves are too sensitive, and he is prone to extreme behavior when he is affected by fluctuations, stimuli or external shocks. Too tired or too much pressure to study is prone to sleepwalking, these...these are all sequelae, but I had no other way at the time."

"There is no other way, but to treat a child in this way?..."

"It's a child with a high fever that doesn't go away, who dare not sleep every night with nightmares." Liang Ji had already quit smoking, and he still rubbed his fingers habitually when he was very irritable. He paused, with a hint of frustration in his tone, "I really ..There is no way.” He couldn’t let Jiang Yuan’s life be frozen in pain, and let him be imprisoned in the dark shadow forever. This was the most effective method he could take at that time. He would also listen to this method, and the only thing that Liang Ji regretted, and the one that affected Jiang Yuan, did not refer to this matter.

"Including mental depression?"

Liang Ji was startled, and he quickly asked, "You know?"

Gu Lv was rarely angry, even if he was angry with Jiang Yuan sometimes, he would not show it too clearly, but he never could not hold back his anger and resentment like now for all the traces of Liang Ji's concealment and deliberate destruction on Jiang Yuan's body. "The things you don't want me to know are always clean. What can I know?"

"Did you tell me that he was depressed, or did you tell me that he lost his internal organs and injured his lungs?"

Gu Lv's low-pitched question was so peaceful that he almost gritted his teeth, with a hint of hatred, "You are doing it for his own good, how much more harm will you do to him?"

Liang Ji clenched the phone tightly, pursed his lips tightly, and his eyes were already reddened, "Xiao Hai, you just took the entrance examination for junior high school at the age of 11. You got 99 points in the math test. One point was deducted because you didn't like to write your name as Gu Lv. , you wrote HEYN. Gu, and the test scores were deducted."

"You are so smart, you know that my unhappiness is not because Jiang Yuan only scored 61 points in that exam, so you never got a high score again."

"Why do you, who are so smart, never think about what made Jiang Yuan leave you for so long. Are you really angry that we didn't tell you the truth, or are you more angry that we didn't tell you the truth."

"If it's because I'm not smart, it's because my uncle misjudged me and gave Jiang He to you. If it's because I'm not brave, then forgive Uncle, I can only give Jiang He to you in this life."

Liang Ji had regrets about Xu Xuan's matter, but what he regretted was that Jiang Yuan should not have been aware of Xu Xuan's existence. The reason why he was willing to admit that this matter was wrong in his life was also because Jiang Yuan was not allowed to tell Gu Lv He asked Jiang Yuan to hide it from Gu Lv, and even hoped that Jiang Yuan would understand why he wanted to raise Xu Xuan in Xu's family.However, he is overestimating Jiang Yuan. Jiang Yuan's dexterity bypasses everything related to Gu Lv. His talent is only reflected in how to turn himself into a solid pistachio. Law body.The failure of Liang Ji lies in not only failing to cultivate an enlightened Jiang Yuan, but also causing Jiang Yuan to be attacked and coldly treated by Gu Lv emotionally, causing a chain reaction of disasters.He never hated iron but steel. Jiang Yuan's fragile nerves made Liang Ji reluctant to let Jiang Yuan be a piece of iron even though he had various means in public and private affairs.

When he was able to agree to Jiang Yuan's return to the country, he had already foreseen Jiang Yuan's end. He was heartbroken and worried, but he could not stop Jiang Yuan.Jiang Yuan is not Jiang Yuan, sooner or later he will die, and he will definitely leave this world earlier than Jiang Yuan, so even if Liang Ji rejects Gu Zhengzhong's intentional or unintentional accusations, he still listens to it, Jiang Yuan is going to grow up , sooner or later, he will return to the place where he should go.

Liang Ji didn't give Gu Lv too much time to think silently, he sighed slowly

"Xiaohai, I don't object to Jiang Yuan liking a boy. It's not because I'm afraid that he will be influenced by us to become gay or because I'm gay. It's because the person he likes is you, and I don't think so. What kind of girl can maintain the caring and gentleness of a hundred years, can take good care of Jiang Yuan, Jiang Yuan is sick, I will think that she is not careful, Jiang Yuan is not happy, I will feel that she makes him angry, even Jiang Yuan is not doing well, I think I also feel that she is unworthy."

"I dote on this child, I just want to interfere with him, I can't tolerate him being hurt again, even if it's you.

I don't want Jiang Yuan to sink deeper and deeper into your bottomless abyss without getting a response.

You have experienced too much since you were a child, you look at the world so calmly and indifferently, you have not established considerable emotions in your worldview, I know you have your ups and downs, but you have been together for ten years, have you looked back to see if he chases after you? how you look like?You have been separated for ten years, have you ever worried about how well he is doing?

You didn't come to see him, you didn't greet him, you didn't look back for ten years, and you didn't bow your head for 20 years. How can I believe that you are so indifferent to ruthless, and you need Jiang Yuan to chase after him, and you will take good care of him for the rest of your life?

How can I feel relieved, how can I be worthy of his uncle and his mother? "

"Xiao Hai, when Xu Xuan was your younger brother for four years, he could get a heart from you. When Jiang Yuan was your lover, what did you give him?"

Liang Ji seemed to compromise, and also seemed to lower his posture. For the first time, like a competent elder, he spoke a long word to Gu Lv gently and calmly, pale and helpless, exhausted and exhausted.The time is as long as a long delay, not face to face, but it can also make Gu Lu riddled with holes in this capital punishment.

He didn't say a word, his fingers clasped on the door tightened and loosened, trembling slightly, the piercing pain made people panic.

Gu Lv held the phone that was burning hot by his ear. Liang Ji, who was [-] kilometers away, had hung up the phone at some point.

This extra quiet is so heavy, what he played back in his mind was Jiang Yuan's happy and joyful appearance in the past, his lively appearance on the court, the appearance of following him and holding his shadow, and the appearance of him carefully approaching him to make him happy, vivid At this moment, Jiang Yuan was clearly merciless, and the picture slowly fast-forwarded, and it was fixed at a certain sunset evening. Jiang Yuan was waiting for him downstairs with his schoolbag on his back, wearing a school uniform. In a white shirt, he bowed his head, his black hair blocked his face, motionless, like a statue of confession, Gu Lv stood behind the curtain on the second floor, even if he couldn't see his expression, he could think how sad he was, he He would stand there every day until it was dark, there were no street lights, and when it was completely dark, he would go home by himself before he could go downstairs.

That day Gu Lu saw Jiang Yuan who was waiting for him, and Jiang Yuan who still couldn't wait for him. That was the last time Gu Lu saw Jiang Yuan waiting for him.

Stubborn, persistent, succumbing to the darkness, Jiang Yuan's appearance.

Sunny, gentle, and will laugh in the next second, Jiang Yuan's appearance.

Gu Lu couldn't escape this regret, nor could he survive the scenes of being so painful that even his fingertips were convulsed.

Jiang Yuan stood quietly in the middle of the road, Jiang Yuan broke away from his hand in panic, and Jiang Yuan fell heavily on the asphalt road.

Even if Gu Lu covered his eyes with his fisted hands, he couldn't block this cruel vision.