aftershock

A piece of hair was shaved off on the upper right side of Jiang Yuan's head, where he probably hit the curb when he fell down.

Gu Lv leaned his head back on the chair in the ward, his good hand was resting on the bed and holding Jiang Yuan, his always neat and clear mind was messy like a ball of thread that couldn't find a head, at this moment he was restless and struggling to maintain From time to time, he glanced at the sleeping man, rubbing his thumb on the back of his cold hand, until Lin Ze, who was called temporarily, arrived, and then he got up tiredly, and followed the nurse to clean up the long-closed wound on his arm.

Gu Lv also briefly mentioned the car crash to Lin Ze. After thinking for a while, he didn't ask Lin Ze to investigate Xu Xuan clearly, but asked him to find out where Xu Jingxing was doing recently.After so many years, whether it's the hatred of the old things, or maybe Jing Xing doesn't want to see him, the tacit understanding of not meeting each other for so many years can only show that both parties have too much for the old things that they don't want to look back on. Deep taboo, don't want to be touched easily.

Lin Ze asked him if he would transfer to another hospital, but Gu Lv refused at that time.

He insisted on taking Jiang Yuan back. On the way, the way Jiang Yuan put on his clothes and leaned against him obediently and steadily reminded him of the anxiety and irritability on Jiang Yuan's face, as well as his numb calmness, when he was walking alone in the sea of ​​people on Mid-Autumn Festival. At that time, he was also extremely exhausted, and he slept with his eyes closed while leaning on his chest like now, and then smiled with his eyes open.

He is obviously Jiang Yuan who smiles so easily, why did he hurt himself like this, is he really sick, and when did he start, the sunny boy who always followed behind him hid in the In the dark corner, will he still smile to himself, the next time he opens his eyes.

But Gu Lv waited for a long time but still didn't get the answer, and Jiang Yuan didn't wake up for a long time.

Back home, Gu Lv changed his underwear. Jiang Yuan was as soft as a fluffy animal that didn't know how to defend himself. After removing all the clothes, he turned his head slightly, with a struggling expression on his face, afraid that he would rub off and deal with it. Gu Lv could only support his neck, lean him against his body, and habitually follow his spine to soothe his uneasiness.

Gu Lu's injured arm was stretched tight due to exertion, but the pain in his heart was caused by the jagged and protruding bones that he touched under his palm, or Jiang Yuan's reddened eye ends, the twitch between his brows. Shorter-than-usual gasps of restlessness and pain.

"Is your head hurting?"

No matter how gentle Gu Lv asked, Jiang Yuan would not answer him. Lin Wang said earlier that Jiang Yuan had a high tolerance to drugs, and the dose of drugs that the hospital gave Jiang Yuan during the stitches should have expired long ago. See you now. He tightened his fingers, opened his lips slightly, and there was already a pained expression on his blood-sucking face.The bit of body temperature that Gu Lv covered had dissipated soon after Jiang Yuan was put into the bed. Except for his palms and forehead, his whole body looked cold and cold.

Gu Lv is still not used to sleeping with someone in his arms. In the most intimate period of his life with Jiang Yuan, he would only hug him for a while when he was tender. After being hugged for a long time, Gu Lv would agree to sleep with him hand in hand.Because even if he didn't agree, he would put his limbs somewhere on Gu Lv's body after he fell asleep, a leg that was put on it, or a hand that was wrapped around him.So what Gu Lv is used to is that his body is always hot like a heat source even if he is exposed outside, not at all the limbs that are still cold under several layers of quilts like now.

After lying flat, Gu Lu stretched out his arms, put Jiang Yuan's head in the air, and put them together in his arms. Seeing Jiang Yuan's ignorance, his eyes were full of waves.

He is so thin, so afraid of cold and pain, probably only choose the lightest way to show weakness to himself when he is unbearable. He will not make trouble or act like a baby. I said that he was hungry, maybe it was a tight hug when he was at a loss and scared. At that time, did he just want a little comfort from himself, and he didn't have to pinch his legs and pinch his own? With your hands, you can relieve the pain and preserve the past tenderness.

This is Jiang Yuan, Gu Lv doesn't want to admit at all that he keeps ignoring the fact that "he is Jiang Yuan".

This person who walked into life with light when he was young is sunshine, salt, the person who warmed his useless heart from the first encounter, and the person who always walks on the road. The person behind him, even his own shadow, is gentle.

But he would always let himself not think about these things for a long time, and now he tied his heart with a thread like a cocoon, watching himself tighten the thread little by little, and strangle his heart little by little. The pieces are broken into pieces, out of shape.

Time will not slow down, nor can it be traced back to when Jiang Yuan wanted to hug him for the first time, to hold him in his arms, because he failed to give Jiang Yuan a little confidence and confidence at the most appropriate time. The thing I hope for him is that he will let Jiang Yuan have no escape route, let Jiang Yuan would rather bite through all the knots than come to him for shelter, Jiang Yuan really doesn't want a sense of security, something that Gu Lv never gave, He only felt that Gu Lv didn't want to give it, and after he was used to walking alone, he didn't want it anymore.

Obviously hugging Jiang Yuan, hugging this person who is always in pain, so close and tight, but Gu Lv understands that their souls do not recognize each other.

It was Jiang Yuan's soul, and he refused to recognize him.

That night, Jiang Yuan's fluctuating body temperature seemed to be tormenting Gu Lu alone. He was obedient and quiet, and endured the discomfort caused by low fever and intermittent high fever alone, as if to him, fever was just too common Small things, so small that he can safely remain unaffected without making a sound.

Gu Lv has no experience in taking care of others. He is always worried about whether Jiang Yuan is asleep or in a coma. He keeps getting up to check whether he is safe. He is also worried that going out for medical treatment will worsen his cold.

After he sent a text message in the middle of the night to inform Lin Ze to cancel all the next day's work, Jiang Yuan's high fever also receded after dawn, and he stayed up all night. Gu Lv felt hot when he touched his head, and his throat seemed to be smoking. swelling and pain, difficulty swallowing.But Jiang Yuan fell asleep like a coma, he couldn't care about himself at all.After swallowing the medicine hastily, Gu Lu had no choice but to call Lin Wang who had just returned home early in the morning. He closed the balcony door and took a deep breath into the cold morning air.

Lin Wang had just returned to China, and he was busier than he imagined. Regarding the situation in Jiangyuan, he only felt that Gu Lv was too nervous. He said that he only needed to observe, but after hesitating, he said that he would come later when he had time.

According to what Lin Wang said, Gu Lv pressed Jiang Yuan's lower abdomen lightly from time to time, but he still had no urination response. He always felt that something was wrong with Jiang Yuan. After sitting down for a while, he began to walk up and down the room from time to time, with an uncontrollable anxiety on his face. .