aftershock

From that day on, Liang Ji locked him up. He repeatedly touched the pinched marks on the back of his hand, fearing that they would disappear, so he always pinched deeper along those marks.Liang Ji couldn't bear to beat him up.

To be precise, it was just a slap, he smashed the whole room, and he was only willing to slap himself.

"Do you have a conscience? Are you worthy of her!!"

In those years, Jiang Yuan often asked himself the same question.Then came a conclusion.He was sorry for anyone, sorry Jiang Qing, sorry Gu Lu, and sorry Liang Ji.

But no one can forgive him, so he will neither forgive Jiang Qing who abandoned him, nor plan to forgive himself who sent her away.

Gu Lu always felt that he couldn't understand what it meant to be abandoned, but in fact he had always understood it.always can.

After Jiang Qing left, he had been ill for a long time. I don't know whether it was the effect of the medicine or the heart disease was too serious. He lay down the bed until it was wet, and imitated Jiang Qing who lay still, unable to distinguish day from night. He also didn't realize that it was a dream or reality. He practiced to understand Jiang Qing, tried to think, to think, whether it was lying there covered with bed sores that made her miserable, or the stories and words he had told her made her feel sad. She was desperate to die.

He couldn't figure it out, so he changed his mind and began to think about why she chose to die, and whether "death" had special benefits, so he also tried to think about "death", God knows, he just wanted to try at first, Didn't know that feeling could be addictive.

The first time he felt infinitely close to another world was on the rooftop on the 41st floor. Jianghe's branch in Canada was not as big as he imagined. Jianghe only occupied three floors of the office building. Liang Ji always felt that he He was a child, and he took him everywhere. He climbed from the fire escape to the roof and lay on the edge of the roof. There are many taller buildings in Canada. He lay there and looked at the towering buildings. One of them was like a ladder to heaven. At that moment, the wind and the world were quiet. He felt that he didn't want to die at that time, but Liang Ji was frightened. His face was pale, and the wind filled his open suit, and he He kept blowing backwards, and Jiang Yuan suddenly couldn't bear him to stand in the wind like this.

But Liang Ji's anxious eyes were red. As soon as Jiang Yuan got up, he saw him step back to signal that he should not be nervous, "Xiao Yuan...don't..."

Don't do it?He was about to ask.But Jiang Yuan had never seen Liang Ji sobbing like this before. During the few seconds when he was surprised and hesitant, Liang Ji rushed over and pulled him off the edge, holding him tightly in his arms. He was obviously about the same height, but Jiang Yuan thought it was so With a tall and reliable embrace, at that moment he even thought that if he had a father, his father should have a similar temperature.

Liang Ji knocked on his back hard, and was worried about hurting him. He didn't say anything, and dragged himself downstairs, got into the car, and returned home. Jiang Yuan understood Liang Ji's anger that he didn't dare to say much. , and knew that he might not be able to explain it clearly, so he let him rummage through the box, thinking that he was looking for something to beat him up.

Unexpectedly, he found two things, a small box and a brown jar.

The thing in the box was of course Jiang Chonglu's relic, a diamond cufflink, and Jiang Yuan's eyes lit up slightly.brown jar...

"Your mother's ashes, she left nothing behind, I thought you would miss her."

Jiang Yuan's eyes darkened again, he didn't reach out to catch it, but his eyes were slightly red when he looked at Liang Ji.

From the most helpless and helpless childhood, to the most difficult and painful days, it was Liang Ji who caught him time and time again and saved him.In those years when he first arrived in Canada, Jiang Yuan drowned in severe depression time and time again. In the gloomy world, he was held hostage by the god of death. He suffered more than anyone else, but only Liang Ji understood him. In the bathtub filled with water, he was also angry and hid himself in the dark attic.He would just tell himself softly over and over again, "You're just sick."

"Jiang Yuan, I'm talking to you."

The old memories were interrupted, Jiang Yuan turned his head and looked at Gu Lu with questioning eyes, he frowned as if asking "Why did you forget?" Jiang Yuan really wanted to tell him "I'm just sick"

But this disease is so serious that now even I doubt whether it is not good enough.

The water in Jiang Yuan's eyes seemed to be fleeting, Gu Lv had just bent down slightly, and he put his arms around him. His active gestures of favor and weakness always seemed to happen when he wanted to avoid something.

He lay on Gu Lv's shoulder, he couldn't see Gu Lv's gradually becoming tired expression, and he didn't know how much trouble his silence and avoidance would put him in.

Jiang Yuan unexpectedly refused Jiang Qing's grave-sweeping on the anniversary of his death. He showed nothing unusual, he talked and laughed as usual, and he still didn't explain anything to Gu Lv. In the dead of night, Gu Lv tried to make him say something, but generally Either he almost fell asleep as soon as he opened his mouth, or he became silent before he got to the point. This kind of silent repulsion inevitably makes people feel chilled. It can be seen that he is alone in the corner of the courtyard teasing the little one in the lotus vat. Carp will feel distressed again.

He was very thin, squatting in front of the tank with his knees in his arms, like a child without friends.

The night before the delivery, my aunt had Qiuli soup as usual, adding Chuanbei and other medicinal materials. It was sweet and greasy in the mouth and had a medicinal taste, so he always drank a few sips before eating, and then barely drank a few more, Usually, half of Jiang Yuan would be left, and then Gu Lu would silently urge him to drink it.Today, my aunt's pear soup was served late and it was very hot, so Jiang Yuan didn't drink it all the time. When the meal was almost finished, my aunt saw that the bowl of pear soup was barely moving, so she urged in a soft voice, "If you don't drink it, it will be cold, Xiao Yuan. It won't work well."

Jiang Yuan habitually didn't want to touch the bowl, so he only moved a little, and didn't pick it up immediately, only to hear Gu Lu from the opposite side say coldly, "Forget it if he doesn't drink, and don't do it in the future."

The aunt was stunned for a moment, the smile froze on her face, Jiang Yuan retracted her fingers, and looked at Gu Lv slightly surprised. Gu Lv finished the last mouthful of rice, got up and left the seat after drinking a sip of water, he and his aunt exchanged glances , Auntie was a little embarrassed, Jiang Yuan patted her hand, forced a smile, drank the pear soup and handed it to her. "Don't do it in the future."

"But.."

"nothing"

Gu Lv pushed back the hair that was in the way irritably. He waited in the study for a while, but Jiang Yuan never came to the study to look for him. He drank a cup of hot water and said that Jiang Yuan had just gone for a walk.

The wind outside was still strong, and Gu Lu couldn't suppress his faint anger. He took a coat and wanted to go out to find someone. Just as he opened the door, he saw Jiang Yuan stepping into the yard.

"Looking for me?" Gu Lu had a coat hanging on his arm, but Jiang Yuan wrapped himself very thickly. He smiled at Gu Lu and walked over quickly. Gu Lu's complexion was not very good, so he hummed He said again, "Tomorrow I have to catch a plane, so I have to rest early today"

"..it is good"

The bed was still the same bed, dark blue, probably made of silk, and the cover was so slippery that it didn't feel real. Jiang Yuan had just slept on this bed until he was almost used to it. Gu Lv went upstairs to the study and didn't talk to him again. , Jiang Yuan faintly sensed that he was unhappy, but there were too many reasons why he could be unhappy with himself, and all of them were flawed.After taking a shower, he found a book on the cabinet and flipped through a few pages, feeling somewhat interested.This is a dream analysis in English, a bit like Freud's dream analysis, but the content is more professional and medical, and it is more like a popular psychology book. He has read these books before, yes People who really have problems in their hearts are almost useless.He smiled, turned to the back and looked at the author, a little surprised, Jo, lin, there are many people named Jo, but Jiang Yuan knew that Gu Lv would definitely not read a book that was far from him for no reason.He shook his head, closed the book, and put it in its original position without any trace.

Gu Lv said that it was true that he would not be able to sleep when he went out. He had a subconscious worry about Jiang Yuan, and he felt uneasy when he was out of sight. He had to go out tomorrow, and there was still a lot of work to be done. Patiently abandoning official duties, just because I want to lie in bed.

Jiang Yuan is obviously asleep, and he is occupying the small half of the bed in a regular manner. Every time he goes to bed early, he is always like a very polite guest, occupying a small place politely, and only curling up obediently when he waits for the invitation of the master into the bosom.Gu Lv touched his feet as usual, and it was cold as expected. Even in the hot summer, his hands and feet were cold. Gu Lv moved closer and pressed this indifferent and excessive guy. She didn't forget to block the quilt behind him tightly while entering her arms.

Gu Lv began to deliberately leave Jiang Yuan alone, wanting him to understand the meaning of two people being together, and also hoped that he could think clearly about the future.

On the way to the airport, Gu Lv didn't open his mouth, nor did he catch Jiang Yuan's occasional careful look in his eyes.

After reading his laptop, Gu Lv looked at his watch. Uncle Xu sent it to the check-in gate. When Lin Ze arrived, he went back first.They will fly from south to north on this trip. The temperature difference in October is not big. Jiang Yuan wears a beige loose sweater and sits on the chair on the farthest side. Occasionally, he looks at the taxiing plane through the French windows. Gu Lu looked at him for a while and then moved his eyes away. Lin Ze noticed the strange silence between the two of them, and there was no sound. He saw his boss's face and poured two cups of hot water himself. water come.

The cuffs of the sweater covered most of the pale backs of his hands, Jiang Yuan reached out to take the paper cup, and said "thank you"

Lin Ze smiled and started talking to him, "I should thank you, thanks to you, this time I finally don't have to fly business class."

"The head cabin?"

Lin Ze nodded behind his back, "I used to go out with Mr. Gu, we were all in business class" and had to pay for the reimbursement. In order to make Jiang Yuan more comfortable, the boss asked for the first class reservation, and he was very careful.

Hearing this, Jiang Yuan glanced at Gu Lv again, and this time he met Gu Lv's gaze. He didn't say anything, so Jiang Yuan smiled gratefully at him. Seeing him turn his gaze, Jiang Yuan asked Lin Ze, "Would you like to see me?" How many days to go?"

"For four days, Peng's annual meeting was very grand and full of gimmicks. After the annual meeting, there were two consecutive auctions, and we were also invited."

"Auction?" Jiang Yuan never heard Gu Lv say this. "Auction what?"

"I heard that this time there are antiques that have been lost overseas, as well as jewelry and famous paintings, so this is not only for companies to participate, but also for people from all walks of life."

Seeing Jiang Yuan's strange expression, Lin Ze explained, "For charity, it's Peng's traditional propaganda."

This is easy to understand, Jiang Yuan asked in a low voice, "Then do you want to shoot or sell?"

Lin Ze pointed Jiang Yuan and Gu Lv with his fingers and reminded, "It's us." Then he raised his eyebrows mysteriously, "Guess."

Even the cockpit can't alleviate the turbulence of the plane when it crosses the stratosphere. Jiang Yuan can't adapt to the feeling of weightlessness. Even if it is a little bit, he is afraid that the service staff will keep asking him to speak, so he will find a suitable angle as soon as he gets on the plane. Closing his eyes, it happened that Gu Lv didn't want to talk to him, instead he felt more at ease.

Of course Jiang Yuan knew why Gu Lv was upset, but he couldn't answer everything he wanted to know, nor could he give a reasonable reason.Those turbulent events, every detail is different, but the pain is very similar, which is daunting. In Gu Lu's eyes, he is probably a liar with no sincerity and poor acting skills, although he used to try his best to prove himself No, but as long as Gu Lu treats him a little better, he feels that it is more suitable for him to be a liar. There are many roles around Gu Lu, and he treats himself so well, maybe he can be allowed to play a liar. Maybe when all the actors are here, they won't pay attention to whether he is dedicated.

He fell into a light sleep for a while, and he didn't even want to open his eyes even though he knew that someone had gently covered him with a blanket.

Seeing Gu Lu's cold face, Lin Ze always cast distracted eyes and decided to get up and become a qualified secretary.After a slight shaking, Lin Ze knocked on the partition next to Jiang Yuan's head, "Do you feel uncomfortable?"

Jiang Yuan squinted his eyes, and shook his head at him, then quickly closed them.Gu Lu stared at his movements, and Lin Ze shook his head at him. He just hoped that the plane would land quickly so that he would not have to guess riddles between the two of them.

Live up to the trust, the plane landed steadily at the busiest airport in the bustling city, Jiang Yuan shook hands, and stood up with some dizziness that had not dissipated, Gu Lv walked not slowly, the wind on the passage was extremely strong, The only sound of their footsteps on the pedals.

The person who picked up the plane was waiting at the exit early. Yishui's elite team consisted of men and women, smiling all over their faces. Lin Ze was in charge of making contact. Jiang Yuan saw that Gu Lu answered a phone call while walking, and heeled up. The dry cool breeze paved the way. When he came, he sneezed almost immediately. Jiang Yuan turned his back and covered his mouth, and sniffed his nose softly. A few steps away was the car door. Just as he was about to go in, he was blocked by an arm in front of him. Jiang Yuan slightly raised his head to look Looking at Gu Lv, Gu Lv just glanced at him, the person on the phone seemed to be talking about something, Gu Lv hummed, and took off his suit jacket with one hand, on the way he switched hands to listen to the phone, put his clothes on Handing it to Jiang Yuan, he lifted his chin towards the car door.

There was still warmth on the clothes, Jiang Yuan waited in the car for a while, but he didn't get in the car.Lin Ze came in after a while and told him that Mr. Gu had other business to meet at the hotel later.He took his clothes and stared blankly for a while. In the rearview mirror, Gu Lv walked a few steps away and got into another car. His eyelids twitched a few times, and he still asked, "Where is he going?"

Lin Ze shook his head, "It should be a private matter."

Peng's reception was very high-class, and the party was also held in the same hotel where they stayed. Lin Ze had a lot of business, so he had some lunch with Jiang Yuan, and then went back to his room.

Even though it was only a few hours flight, Jiang Yuan felt tired. The huge hotel suite was very quiet. He didn't have much luggage, so he didn't bother to open it. He took off his shoes and lay down on the bed. How much drowsiness is brewing.

Jiang Yuan just felt a little sleepy when he received the call from Helian.

The two of them were sitting in the bar on the first floor. It was both unexpected and expected. Helian seemed to be very familiar with this place. He ordered two cups of clear-colored liquid, and his gestures were elegant and delicate. Jiang Yuan didn't expect Helian and Peng Yang's relationship is so good, he is not just a designer who can complain about the owner's abnormality.

"Did you arrive in the morning?"

Jiang Yuan nodded, "Almost, it's around noon."

"Maybe it's the same flight." Helian took a sip of his light wine, and tapped the glass table top with his fingertips beside him, "I saw you in the restaurant just now, and I thought I misread it. The person who was eating with you was Jiang He's." .Forest.."

"Lin Ze."

"Ah.. yes, I heard he is a very powerful person." Helian then smiled with his eyes wide open, and he asked relaxedly and curiously, "Are you familiar with him?"

Jiang Yuan didn't want to hide from him, but also felt that there was nothing to hide, so he replied, "It's considered familiar, people who have mutual acquaintances."

Helian snorted, and his expression was inexplicably dull for a moment. Jiang Yuan chatted with him about the progress of the land for a while. Helian didn't know what he was thinking about. Looking at Jiang Yuan, he raised his eyebrows curiously, "Is the person you and Lin Ze know together, President Gu of Jiang He?"

Jiang Yuan paused slightly, and Helian laughed. He felt that the atmosphere between the two of them was very weird since the last time they ate together. It was even more strange to see that Jiang Yuan didn't answer immediately, but instead took a sip of the wine that had not been moved.

"You are familiar with Mr. Gu, right?"

Jiang Yuan didn't know why Helian was always curious about Jiang He's people, subconsciously wanted to avoid it, and replied in a blunt tone, "I'm not very familiar with it."

Now Helian's expression is even more strange, the environment of the Qingba is dim, he pointed to the oblique side behind Jiang Yuan, and lightly sipped, "Then why does he keep looking at you..."

Jiang Yuan's hand holding the glass went stiff for a moment, and he could almost hear the bubbles of the ice cubes melting into the wine. He stuck the glass firmly, but didn't look back immediately.

The sound of footsteps coming was very light, and they happened to be stepping on the fast beating heart. A short chuckle sounded from above. Jiang Yuan could only see the familiar black leather shoes. Gu Lv's shoes even had laces The undisturbed standard section belt is not bright and sharp, but matte and spotless.

"Not familiar?"

His specious tone was both light and heavy, which made Jiang Yuan's scalp tingle immediately.After these two words, Gu Lv politely responded to Helian's greeting when he stood up, and then walked away steadily. He was only wearing a white shirt. Give yourself a coat.

"Gu Lv, wait for me."

The crisp and cheerful female voice chased after him, and Jiang Yuan looked over. It turned out that Gu Lu had also met someone here just now. It was a girl in a fiery red dress, with high heels, and her back was like a blooming poppy.He didn't see the girl's face, so he guessed it wouldn't be too bad.

He didn't know how he left. Lin Ze called to remind him that it was almost time, so he and Helian separated at the elevator entrance. Helian patted him on the shoulder. He stood alone in the elevator for a few seconds. He didn't even move, and when he remembered to press the elevator, he suddenly realized that he had forgotten which floor he lived on.When he got to the floor and got out of the elevator, he remembered how much he hated taking elevators. He would never take an elevator alone.

The weightlessness of the elevator seemed to be fully activated until he saw Gu Lv sitting in the living room. Lin Ze urged him to change clothes, and he went into the bathroom top-heavy.

There was an extra suitcase in the room, and Jiang Yuan belatedly realized that it was actually a double bed.

Gu Lu's indifference remained the same as before, but Jiang Yuan looked stiff and abrupt. His hair was wet and his fingertips felt cold. When Gu Lu went out, he subconsciously clasped Gu Lu's wrist, waiting for Gu Lu to cast his gaze on him. , he didn't know what to say.

"I'm sorry, Gu Lu."

Gu Lu put his hands in the bag, raised his eyebrows and showed a warm smile, "Do you just say sorry?"

Jiang Yuan opened his mouth..

Gu Lu said again, "No need, we don't know each other well."

Jiang Yuan was a little embarrassed, he withdrew his fingertips and hesitated, Lin Ze called him again after walking a while before he followed.

Jiang Yuan didn't know how to explain to Gu Lv, and felt that Gu Lv didn't need him to explain. He could hardly keep up with Gu Lv's pace. As soon as he entered the hall, there was a group of people silently behind the three of them. There are hired bodyguards, Jiang Yuan watched him walk into the crowd, Lin Ze looked back at him worriedly, he waved his hand, so Lin Ze quickly followed Gu Lv.

It's not that Jiang Yuan is unaware of the gap between him and Gu Lv, it's just that such a stark disparity is unavoidably embarrassing.

Peng Yang is handsome, no less than the stars who are circling and adding color among the circulating crowd. He is wanton and flamboyant. He stands with Gu Lu, Lin Ze, and people similar to them. It is pleasing to the eye. The Burgundy crystal cups light each other It was as sweet as a low bell chanting softly, a luxurious banquet, and a distinguished crowd. As for him, Jiang Yuan had never felt so clearly like this moment that this flashy and exquisite world was really not suitable for him.

He misses the squirrels and green space in Hansen Park in Canada, and he also misses Uncle Xu’s fish tank in the yard, the small round and flat stones at the bottom of the water, and he can see his face on the water under the sun. own face.