aftershock

There was a large bouquet of flowers in the room, many sunflowers in the orange paper shell, and a big blue hydrangea in the middle. Gu Lv saw Jiang Yuan pointing to a leaf at the door and asking what it was, the nurse was very gentle Said to be "eucalyptus."

"Eucalyptus." He repeated it.

Gu Lu knocked on the door, Jiang Yuan raised his head and smiled at him with squinted eyes, his heart softened.When he was a teenager, he looked good in a white shirt. Although he was wearing a hospital suit at this age, he still had the same brows and eyes at that time.Gu Lv pointed to the round leaf, "Like this? Who gave it to you?"

Jiang Yuan didn't deny it, his voice was a little hoarse, "Lin Ze, he came this morning." Gu Lv nodded. He just went to see Jiang Yuan's temperature today, and said that he still had a low-grade fever. It is wide and thin, with a large section of white collarbone exposed under a slender neck. As long as he lowers his head a little, Gu Lv can see the high ribbed skeleton on the back of his neck, and immediately feels a little uncomfortable.

"He has a good eye." Still very sensible.Jiang Yuan has been in the hospital for quite a few days. In these days, except for Lin Zeyi who came back to visit several times, almost no one related to the company came here to see Jiang Yuan.Although I don't want him to be disturbed, it is already quite mean to be so inaccessible.

"That Helen..."

"Ok?"

Gu Lu paused before saying, "Hasn't he come to see you?"

Jiang Yuan shook his head, "He's very busy, he said I don't have to worry about the progress of the project." He exhaled with a sad expression, and muttered, "I don't seem to be very good at work."

Gu Lv didn't know how to comfort him, because of the continuous infusion, there were so many needle holes in his hand, Lin Wang put an indwelling needle in his vein, and there was some water vapor in it, Gu Lv pulled his hand to his eyes After checking that there was nothing wrong with the needle, I put it down gently, but it didn't loosen.Curling up his fingertips in his palm, Gu Lv felt a little less confident when he remembered what Lin Wang had said to him when he met Lin Wang just now.

"It will get better gradually in the future. I will teach you. If you can't learn well, you don't have to learn."

Jiang Yuan looked up at him, he blinked, then lowered his head again.Gu Lv sighed, stretched out one hand to his back, pressed lightly in front of him, and pushed the person into his arms, he let go of Jiang Yuan's hand, and embraced the whole person, even resting his chin there Twirled soft hair.

The tip of his nose lightly touched the man's chest, and Jiang Yuan couldn't help rubbing his head before turning his head to bury half of his face and ears.This is a very real hug, with warmth and real feeling, so perfect that it doesn't look like a dream.

This is the treatment he had only had many, many, many years ago. Even before, he played tricks countless times, deliberately looking for trouble, and wanted to stay in this embrace for a while. Easy, such a long-lost solid temperature dream, really fell on me, and inexplicably felt a little more wronged.

Feeling that Jiang Yuan slowly hugged his waist with two hands, Gu Lv felt a little bitter.

Remembering to eat but not to hit, he didn't even dare to use force, he was so obedient, like a young animal, curled up in his arms and filled all the empty and soft parts of his heart at once, as if the missing ribs had returned to their original form At the place, propped up a piece of heart.

Gu Lv simply carried him out and let him lean on him.The light by the window was not shining on people, Jiang Yuan squinted his eyes slightly, half of his eyelashes were dyed a dim yellow color, Gu Lv bowed his head and kissed his closed eyes.

"Have you thought about your answer to Liang Ji?"

Jiang Yuan didn't quite understand what Gu Lv meant at the moment. Although Gu Lv had been very kind to him recently, Jiang Yuan knew very well that this did not mean that everything was in the past. His reluctance to face it was only temporary. Know.He felt that this day was approaching, which made him even more frightened.

Gu Lv is very good, he is not angry with Gu Lv, so he actually does not think it is necessary to do this.

Maybe he is really sick this time, maybe it's guilt, maybe it's pity, the current Gu Luneng is willing to put him in his arms, he is already very complete, in comparison, whether Gu Lu loves him or not It's not that important anymore, Gu Lv is right, he shouldn't have so much self-confidence, he really thinks there is such a word as reunion after broken mirrors in the world.

Expecting too much is a kind of violence, violence to others, and violence to yourself.

This time, he really figured it out. He remembered the way Gu Lv looked at him by the swimming pool, and what he had said, and he understood that Gu Lv would never forget every minute and every second before, even if he might now because of His devastated scars are more sympathetic to him, but if he can't forget it, he can't forget it, just like what happened, no one needs to remind him, and Jiang Yuan himself can't forget it.

People are like this, joy is the fastest to forget, only pain can be remembered for a long time, happiness can be repeated, but pain can only be remembered firmly to avoid the next injury.In fact, he no longer pursues the past, nor expects the future, and is willing to treat Gu Lv as well as before. After all, what he really wants is not much, and he is not worthy.

"what happened?"

Gu Lv shook him gently, Jiang Yuan's eyes were slender, with a pair of extremely deep double eyelids, the line was very beautiful, looked down like a gentle parabola.

"I.. I'm not done with that project..."

"You may have misunderstood." Gu Lv ran down his back as if soothing, he looked at the little hair, and said in a low voice, "I am begging you, I don't want you to go, I beg you not to go." Walk."

Gu Lv thought that Jiang Yuan would be moved by his words, sure enough, Jiang Yuan raised his head, Gu Lv held his hand, and his cool lips imprinted on the bruise. "Jiang Yuan, can you stay?"

Can you not go?Jiang Yuan slightly bent the corners of his lips, his legs were hugged and sat between Gu Lv's legs, it was not as comfortable as he imagined, probably because he couldn't completely relax himself.

Jiang Yuan also asked himself repeatedly ten years ago, can he not leave.But he was a scandal, it was the same for Jiang He, and it would be the same for Gu Lv.At that time, he could escape a lawsuit only if he was identified as a person with mental problems. He had no decent reason for self-defense, and he was suspected of murder.

Gu Lv's voice just now was very nice. He should feel happy when he is doing things that he would never dream of, saying things that he would never hear in his dreams, instead of such panic.

He thought that in those years, what he wanted to do the most was to jump off a building. There was no particular reason. When the weather was good, he would feel that today was a good time to jump off a building. When the weather was bad, he also felt that today was a good time to jump off a building. The way he fell was so ugly that Liang Ji couldn't clean up the blood and flesh when he collected the corpse. He felt that rainy days would be much better.This kind of thinking is not a strange thing. He left because he was identified as mentally ill at the beginning, and later he really got mentally ill. Who knows if it was retribution.

I still can't bear it, every day is suffering, the little diamond button that Gu Lv threw out several times, every time he ignites that surging desire, it will always wear down his body time and time again. The palm, its color is so similar to Gu Lv's eyes, the thought of such eyes makes him miserable.

Between the heaven he yearned for and the hell of reality, he sat on the edge countless times with his legs dangling in the air, and was pulled back by the little diamond buttons time and time again. To Jiang Yuan, this was retention, redemption, and Gu Lv.He was rescued again and again, so many times that he actually subconsciously thought that it was Gu Lv who was saving him.

But in reality, Gu Lu Mingming threw it away several times. Before, Jiang Yuan would think, why can such an important thing be thrown away casually.But after sleeping in the hospital for a few days, he understood.

It was because he was too stupid, he needed to understand gradually, and reacted very slowly, it turned out that he just "thought" that those things had long been unimportant to Gu Lv, and had lost their assigned meaning long ago. Deprived of the right to be commemorated.

When he is infinitely close to happiness, he will always forget that he is actually a mentally ill person, or one that cannot be cured.As for Gu Lv, Gu Lv is already a very strong person, tempered and raised, if he is willing to stay by his side, even if it is just a little bit of guilt, just some sympathy for the old scars, it is better than two cufflinks self righteous.

No matter how concrete the hallucination is, it is too different from the reality. He can't help but indulge, and he can't refuse it. Of course, he would rather indulge to death than refuse.

"Why don't you talk anymore." The tip of his nose was lightly pecked, and his eyelashes flickered a few times subconsciously. Jiang Yuan looked at the deep blue-green eyes in front of him, and nodded obediently, "I never thought about leaving."

Those eyes are smiling, so pretty.Gu Lv kissed along the forehead and the bridge of the nose like a reward. Even in passionate love, there is no such warmth and sweetness. Jiang Yuan cast a pious smile just like back then. He slowly tightened his arms and moved himself to this warm, meeting Buried in the chest that trembled when he chuckled or spoke.

If happiness has a time limit, then use up all the luck in this life to hope that it is not now.