aftershock

Throughout August, Gu Lu became very busy, and so did Jiang Yuan. The progress of the project was relatively tense. He had to be busy until midnight for many days and nights before going back, and there were several days in which he did not touch Gu Lu. In fact, they rarely contact each other in private. Gu Lv hardly replied to the text messages they sent in the past. Even Lin Ze had more contact with him than Gu Lv.Only Liang Ji often called to inquire about the current situation. Over time, Jiang Yuan felt that Liang Ji might really be raising him as his son, and whenever Liang Ji remained silent, he would start to get nervous.

There is a song sung, the tail of July, is Leo.He is a big man in Jiangyuan, so he is naturally embarrassed to study constellations. He did it once when he was young, and it was very troublesome. It is said that Leo is fierce and domineering, and Virgo is cold and cold. Gu Lv, who is caught in the middle, is a combination of the two constellations. The pinnacle.

At the end of August, Gu Lu's birthday came, and Jiang Yuan was a little excited for no reason.

There was a regular meeting at the construction site that day, and it ended a little late.It was almost seven o'clock in the dark, he rushed back and even his aunt came home from work, the kitchen was very deserted, there was no cake or anything related to birthdays, he questioned Uncle Xu on the sidelines, it seemed that no one at home knew about it this matter.

He didn't know how to make cakes, so he drove out in a hurry and bought another temporary one.

After eleven o'clock, Gu Lv still didn't come back, and Jiang Yuan thought again, did he forget his birthday, or was he celebrating his birthday with someone else?

But what does it matter if he celebrates his birthday with others? After all these years, wouldn't it be better if someone had been with him on his birthday.

The cake was about to melt, it was said to be animal cream, so Jiang Yuan had to put it in the refrigerator.

The minute hand turned around a few times, and when the door rang, Jiang Yuan was very happy to meet him. Gu Lv hadn't seen Jiang Yuan clinging to him so happily for a long time. Recently, several cooperation projects of the company were related to Peng Yang's real estate company. It's so annoying, and I feel unhappy at the thought of rushing to another city together tomorrow.

Jiang Yuan didn't seem to sense his low pressure, and happily let Gu Lv wait downstairs for a while and ran upstairs quickly.

Gu Lu didn't know what Jiang Yuan wanted to do, so he loosened his tie and waited for him by the swimming pool behind the living room according to his words.

Jiang Yuan went downstairs and searched around the living room, and found that the people by the pool were jumping towards Gu Lv. His cheerfulness and joy made Gu Lv curiously relax and lean on the side of the chair, resting his forehead and looking at him.

He always looks so simple, with a pair of very flattering eyes, even Gu Lv laughs that he often can't bear him unconsciously.

"Xiao Hai, happy birthday."

Gu Lv slightly raised his eyebrows. It's not that he doesn't remember his birthday, but he's just used to this day being no different from every day he's ever lived. Jiang Yuan looked at him expectantly, but Gu Lv seemed to hesitate for a while. He raised his hand and took the small gift box.

"If it's very..."

"It's not cheap. It's a very important thing," Jiang Yuan hurriedly replied.

"Is it?"

Today's Gu Lu is 28-year-old Gu Lu. In 10 minutes, he will be 29-year-old Gu Lu. When he was in Jiangyuan, Gu Lu gave him his heart and soul that he had kept as a treasure for more than ten years. It's a pity It was lost and he never found it again, so he thought Gu Lv would be unhappy too.

He was full of anticipation to see Gu Lv happy, surprised or smiling, so when Gu Lv's expression disappeared and his face turned cold instantly, Jiang Yuan asked in surprise, "What's wrong..."

What's wrong.

Gu Lv was about to be laughed out of anger, before he let down his guard against Jiang Yuan, Jiang Yuan had already started another deception.

The cuff button was thrown down the sink in front of him by himself, and he also picked it up by himself. He was sure that until now, the gemstone button was still lying in the drawer of his bedside table in good condition.

Then how did this exact same button come about? If you want to use this exact same button, you have to lie to him for another ten years.

He almost squeezed his hands full of resentment and disappointment, as well as regret for his laissez-faire, and his words would freeze, "Jiang Yuan, can you tell me why you are afraid of the dark."

Sure enough, the resident smile on Jiang Yuan's face quickly receded, and he still had Bambi's eyes. He seemed very surprised to be asked such a question, and at the same time was a little panicked. The combination of these two expressions made him silent for a moment at a loss. go down.

"Is it because you have done a lot of bad things?"

Jiang Yuan blinked his eyes quickly, he moved his lips in a very low voice, and heard himself retort "I didn't"

He saw Gu Lu's smile, which was as cruel as a knife.He really wanted to explain a few words, but those eyes and playful smile made him suddenly feel exhausted, his breathing was too noisy, and his heartbeat was too tired.

His tightly pursed lips showed his refusal, and his unexplainable stubbornness made Gu Lv feel angry from his heart, and with a flick of his hand, he threw the identical gem in his hand into the pool again.

There was a very light sound of falling into the water, and Jiang Yuan raised his head inconceivably in an instant, his gaze seemed to be thrown into the water by Gu Lv, the panic that he could no longer find made him subconsciously jump into the pool almost without thinking.

He thought he was sad, he couldn't control the sadness, and he felt a little bit of grievance, not much, but he was a little confused and didn't have time to understand Gu Lv's anger.

He shouldn't hide in the water like a fish and cry, he should have the memory of a fish so that he can quickly forget those things that hurt him very much.After taking a short breath, he felt his chest hurt like a torn cloth, which made him slightly open his eyes, the itching and pain in his throat surged up together, and the feeling of being forced to suffocate him for a moment at that moment. The joy of liberation, but in the end he was still distracted by what he was holding in his hand, and chose to squeeze it tightly again.

It must be retribution, he thought as he couldn't help taking a breath under the sink, but he was also lucky, he caught it.This time he swam so fast and sank himself to the bottom of the water without hesitation. He thought his little uncle took care of him, and he found the broken stone quickly and smoothly.

But why is he in such pain? The feeling of being torn apart swept his whole body, dragging his hands and feet like a net, his heartbeat was deafening, and the water waves in front of his eyes became hazy little by little. The group of little goldfish he met at the entrance of the hospital, he felt that he was very much like a little goldfish. Outside this transparent and suffocating sea, he performed an untouchable dream, and uncontrollably spit out a mouthful like a little goldfish. Another mouthful of tiny bubbles.

"Gangwon"

Gu Lu's heartbeat was so fast that he couldn't keep up with the next beat. He wiped away the water from his eyes, and his shirt was tightly attached to his body after the water came out. When Jiang Yuan was picked up, Jiang Yuan's lips were already purple, he was unconscious at the bottom of the pool, and he almost sank to the bottom of the pool when he was caught.

At most 4 minutes, Gu Lv went from sitting calmly to standing up with frowned eyebrows and then into the water. It would not take more than 4 minutes. He didn't even have time to catch his breath. He was sure that Jiang Yuan's heartbeat was still there. Gu Lv straightened his head and neck, uninterrupted. Pressing on the chest and abdomen, Gu Lu's watery eyes were scarlet, and he breathed mouth to mouth for a long time without Jiang Yuan waking up. He took a deep breath and pressed the extremely thin body with the greatest strength.

Gu Lv didn't have time to feel both startled and panicked. He stared at the pale face, and tried harder with his hands.

"Jiangyuan!"

Jiang Yuan was really thin, his palms were full of bones, his soft abdomen was continuously exerted force, and it took a long time before he spit out some water. Gu Lv loosened his strength, and then exhaled, feeling extremely exhausted in an instant. When I got down, I could only hear my own heartbeat about to jump out.

Jiang Yuan half-opened his eyes hazily, lying on the ground coughing intermittently, he had no strength, Gu Lv didn't dare to pat him on the back too hard, seeing that he couldn't cough up any water, he got up and called the emergency call.

Jiang Yuan's shirt was tightly wrapped around his body, his eyes opened bit by bit, and when they were fully opened, he looked like a tortured animal, whether it was the dripping hair or the trembling body.

Gu Lu turned back after making the phone call, and when he was trying to help him, he even clearly saw him dodging to the side.

He had to admit directly that he was very, very uncomfortable, especially when Jiang Yuan looked up at him in obvious panic again.

He knelt down to catch him, who was also dripping water, and Jiang Yuan suddenly burst into two streams of tears, as if he didn't know that he would cry suddenly, he looked at the pool with no expression, and it took a long time before he remembered to reach out to wipe it, but His eyes couldn't hold water, and as soon as there was water, it quickly turned into water droplets and slid down, as much as he wiped.

He frowned and coughed very quietly, Gu Lu wrapped him in a towel, and then wanted to hug him.

"I called first aid, don't worry, I'll be there right away"

Jiang Yuan gently pushed his arm, and turned himself on the ground, as if he wanted to sit up. Gu Lv went to help him, only to find that he was still holding on to the damn button.

Realizing what Gu Lu was looking at, Jiang Yuan lowered his head and stood up very slowly from the ground.

"I dont go.."

He was dripping water all over, hunched over slightly and coughed lowly, as stubborn as ever, Gu Lv had always been able to bear it but was on the verge of the limit at this time, he walked over quickly to pick up this person, and carried him all the way into the room, Jiang Yuan seemed to be strong Exhausted, covered his mouth and frowned, lowered his head unresponsively, gasped for breath with difficulty, he looked very dull, he had been lying on the bed for a long time without moving, Gu Lv started to take it off The wet clothes on his body touched his extremely cold waist, and he struggled slightly, "Don't"

"Drenched, how to sleep"

Jiang Yuan still pushed his arm, frowning, Gu Lv had no choice but to step aside, and said jerky, "Then change it yourself."

Gu Lu was also frightened. He jumped into the pool from Jiang Yuan, and he couldn't sit still. Jiang Yuan sank in the water for a long time, drowning in his sight, every second that passed It made the heart of myself standing by the pool extremely dull.

He couldn't forget the way Jiang Yuan let himself sink in the water, expressionless, tiny air bubbles overflowing from his lips, hurting his eyes.

Back in the room, he picked up the same button, feeling indescribably sour and uncomfortable in his heart, he pondered for a while, and decided to return it to Jiang Yuan.

Jiang Yuan changed his clothes, probably because he was pressed too much, he sat on the bed with his stomach in his arms, the sequelae of choking on the water did not subside, the tip of his nose and eyes were all red, Gu Lv put the things on Jiang Yuan's bedside table, Jiang Yuan turned his head and glanced , a little unexpectedly calm, he didn't take it, but put the one in his hand on the cabinet, because of excessive force, the button sank deep into his palm, and when it fell, Jiang Yuan pushed it in Gu Lv's direction with his fingertips, His voice was low and hoarse, "You take it all away."

"What would I want a fake for?"

Jiang Yuan looked up at him blankly again, as if he understood something, in Da Xia Tian, ​​he pulled up the thin quilt a bit, hid his hands in it, and said in a low voice, "You never thought about it, it's a pair ."

The tip of his heart was hit hard, and when Gu Lv looked up, he could only see Jiang Yuan's half-dried hair and soft curls.

"I didn't lie to you this time."

"It's been in Uncle's legacy."

They were originally a pair, they were indeed on Gu Xu's cuffs together, Gu Lu saw it when he was five years old.As if being blown up by a small firecracker, Gu Lu clearly felt surprised, and looked at Jiang Yuan in astonishment for a while, he pursed his lips and wanted to apologize, Jiang Yuan said slowly, "I haven't done many bad things. "

"There is only one thing, I don't want you to know, I don't want it today, and I don't want it in the future."

"..."

Gu Lu's eyes moved from the cufflinks that were finally paired ten years later to Jiang Yuan's still pale face. His pupils were pure black, and they wouldn't reveal the amber black under the light. There was nothing in his eyes. Light, red blood stained around, making these eyes look very sad, Gu Lv never knew that Jiang Yuan would be sad.

"I.."

At this time, Jiang Yuan suddenly bent his eyes. He didn't look at Gu Lv, but looked at his entangled fingertips, "During those years, I even really researched whether there are parallel time and space, do you believe it? Even if I go to a parallel time and space and fail a hundred times, I want to see someone again."

"You are clearly in this world, but I still hope... I really hope that there is a parallel time and space that allows me to travel through it, to every minute and every second in the past."

"I want to try it any way."

"Xiaohai, the diameter of the universe is 150 billion light-years. It takes 10 years to go back with the fastest spacecraft, and light travels an average of 8 kilometers per second. It only takes [-] minutes to travel from the sun to the earth.

"I can't borrow a spaceship to go across the light years to find you in the past, although every second when I think of you is more urgent than the light from the sun to the earth."

When a person is desperate, he will think so absurdly about all the possibilities in this world. Gu Lv will never understand these things in his life, and the difference between him and Gu Lv is too great.Just like when he was in school, he always had to try his best to catch up with Gu Lv when he was in school. It was almost an innate talent. He needed a lot of time to understand what Gu Lv was thinking and what Gu Lv would do. , and then spent a lot of effort to make myself understand: Oh, it turns out that it is useless to have a spaceship.

Jiang Yuan sighed shallowly, and found himself decadently taking a few more breaths to fill the void in his chest.He followed Gu Lv's gaze indifferently, and he didn't know until he saw another identical button that Gu Lv really didn't want to give it to him.

He regretted giving it to himself.

The powerlessness of this moment is heartbreaking and unbearable, but he feels he should accept it.If this was such an important thing at the age when the fairy tale was true, it should always be given to the most important person. He is no longer. Peng Yang is younger and outstanding enough to stand shoulder to shoulder with Gu Lu. Gu Lu accepts that nature has advantages that he cannot match.Whether it's a man or a woman, Gu Lu has no reason to choose him, let alone let him go for ten years.

Ten years, this is myself in hell. His hell is a high well. He can only look up at the small starry sky. He only thinks that his starry sky is very important, but he never thinks about it. The starry sky will remember a well very well.

He felt regretful and heartbroken, the pain spreading from his lungs to his whole body was like a blood clot that had accumulated for a long time was finally opened up, scrambling to squeeze out from the wound.

This is powerlessness, I love this person, I fantasize that this person still loves me, even if there is still a trace of affection for me, I will travel thousands of miles to come back to find you, I can accept that you no longer treat me well, no more Just look at me alone, don't smile at me anymore, even if there are thousands of people, as long as I still have a chance, you will be my eternal south wall.

But when you say you regret loving me, it's a thousand arrows piercing a person's heart, and I don't think I can stand it anymore.