door of eternal life

[The text of this chapter: A phone call to soothe one's feelings, an absurd nightmare, a plain message, a person whose lust is revealed.A figure suddenly sat in front of him. 】

As soon as Qing's message was sent, he immediately regretted it, and hurriedly pressed the "Cancel" button, but the screen showed that the message had been sent. He raised his head and punched his forehead hard with his fist.Kuo's phone call came in immediately.Qing stared at the word "kuo" on the phone screen, but didn't answer it. The phone rang persistently over and over until it automatically hung up, and then it rang again, until Kuo dialed for the third time, and Qing had no choice but to touch the answer button .

"Qing, what's the matter? Is there something wrong?" Kuo asked with concern, with anxiety and worry in his voice.

"No, I'm fine, I just feel tired and exhausted." Qing forced herself to speak as calmly and relaxedly as possible.

"Are you really not sick?" General Kuo was dubious.

"No, don't worry."

"Then let's talk, I can't sleep anyway."

"Okay. What are you talking about?" Qing didn't want to hang up the phone right now, he needed someone to talk to him.

"Do you still remember when we graduated from the third year of junior high school? It was the time when everyone went to the food stall to eat barbecue after the exam."

"Well, I remember." Qing remembered that he was dragged away by Kuo.

"Then do you remember who you were sitting with?"

"Remember, the monitor of our class." Qing remembered that he had already sat down at that time, but was dragged up again by Kuo, saying that boys and girls had to sit staggered, and he happened to be sitting next to the monitor, and he couldn't remember who the other one was. Woke up.The class monitor is a girl, the kind of girl with long hair and shawl, quiet and delicate, her grades are on par with him, every time in the exam, either he is first or she is first, but neither of them will fall out of the top two.

"Yes, that's right, but do you know why you have to arrange it that way?" Kuo began to play tricks.

"why?"

"Haha, now that I think about it, I was so stupid!"

"What's wrong?" Qing was surprised.

"That was suggested to me by the monitor in advance. On the way there, she whispered to me that she wanted to sit with you. I patted my chest and assured her 'no problem, let me handle this!' Hi It turns out that the squad leader has always liked you."

Qing recalled that he wondered why the squad leader always handed him the grilled meat skewers and fish skewers, and he didn't do anything himself during that meal, and he almost opened his mouth for the meal.

"The two of you didn't talk much at the time. I saw you both respecting each other like guests, and I was so happy. The class monitor, she was so close to raising her eyebrows."

Qing gave a low laugh, and Kuo said again: "Didn't you leave first, the remaining group of boys wanted to swim again, so we went to Wenshui Lake, and after swimming, everyone got dressed and left, I'm dumbfounded."

"how?"

"I don't know who took my clothes. In the end, I ran home naked. It was a long three-kilometer road. Fortunately, it was midnight and no one saw it. I still don't know who did it. !"

Qing couldn't help laughing.

Kuo stopped talking, and when Qing's laughter stopped, his voice suddenly became low and gentle: "You feel better now that you're laughing?"

"Yeah." A layer of mist quickly appeared in Qing's eyes.

"Go on tomorrow?"

"Tomorrow I want to see the scenery of Qingdao." Qing felt that her nose was a little swollen.

"Then go to bed earlier, don't always stay up late."

"OK, good night."

"Good night, sleep well."

Qing hung up the phone, two lines of tears rolled down the corners of her eyes.I don't know how many times I can chat with Kuo and listen to him tell jokes in the days to come.

Just now he sent a message to Kuo and said: "I am very tired today. I don't know where the end of this journey is. I am going to sleep. Good night."

"Ko, I really hope that you are the one I fell in love with first." He murmured to himself.

When Qing woke up, he didn't know what time it was, but he lay still and didn't open his eyes, the dream was vivid in his mind.

——He and Yu went to the restaurant for dinner, and after eating, Yu said that he would teach him how to swim, so they came to the swimming pool.The hall was empty.Yu took him to the deep water area and told him that if you want to learn to swim, you have to be in the deep water area, otherwise you will always want to step on the bottom of the pool when you encounter some situations in the shallow water area. Once you become dependent, it will be difficult to learn to swim.Although he was uneasy, he still listened to Yu's advice.Yu supported him with his hand and told him to swim forward on his own, so he tried his best to swim forward, and as he swam, he suddenly found that Yu had disappeared, and there was no sign of Yu in the entire swimming pool. "Yu!" He opened his mouth, water quickly poured into his mouth, and in a panic, he sank to the bottom of the water.Just after he gave up struggling, he was lifted out of the water with both hands, and when he turned his head, it was Kuo.He looked up to look for Yu's figure again, but there was no one.Looking back again, he wanted to ask Kuo if he had seen Yu, but found that Kuo was gone, and the person holding him was Yu.Yu hugged him, floated in the water, kissed him again, and mobilized the desire in his body...——

Even in the dream and Yu will still have sex.He is like a fish, in a fish tank, even if he has memory and thoughts, he will always bump into the glass of the fish tank thousands of times, thinking it is water.

Boom, boom, boom, the sound rang out, Qing stayed for a long time before recovering, it was Yu's message.He immediately picked up his phone to watch.

"Where are you now?"

Qing stared at these six words closely, trying to read Yu's thoughts from behind these simple six words.Yu also never apologized to him for that birthday arrangement, maybe he didn't think he was wrong, maybe he thought it was impossible for him and her not to see each other for a lifetime, rather than meet suddenly on other occasions, it is better to meet under arranged circumstances , perhaps thinking that he has already accepted the reality and faced it.But he himself is very clear that he has not accepted anything, he is still living in his world of pure love, that world is disconnected from Yu's world, and Yu is the only point of contact between these two worlds.These six words now at least show that Yu still misses him, and it is a sign of the tension between them.But Yu didn't know that when Yu forcibly pushed the real world in front of him and forced him to accept it, he shattered the world in which he survived, the world in which he was able to live.

It was impossible for him to turn a blind eye to Yu's message, and replied that he was in Qingdao.Yu sent another message saying to be careful.He didn't reply, he didn't know what words to reply, and Yu obviously didn't intend to say anything more, but just ended the exchange of messages between them with the four words "be careful and safe". .Yu, don't you love him anymore?The thought terrified him.Instead, I thought that if Ai was gone, how could Yu send him a message?Shouldn't ask anything.

Yu's message made him lose any mood for sightseeing. He felt a little anxious and couldn't calm down. He didn't want to visit Qingdao anymore. He wanted to keep walking.Like when I was traveling with my parents when I was a child, sitting in a minibus, driving on the shady country road, looking at the rapidly receding fields and woods on both sides, thinking that I should just keep walking like this, always on the road.

"What's the arrangement for today?" At ten o'clock, Kuo's message came on time.

"Keep going, along the highway." Qing replied briefly.

"Okay, pay attention to safety, stop and rest for a while when you are tired."

Qing looked at the map and decided to take the Qingyin Expressway.Call up the navigation map. His vehicle has its own navigation system and GPS satellite positioning. Kuo also helped him upgrade the system before. Now the system map shows the latest road traffic map in the country, which makes him less likely to walk if he is blind. There were many detours.

He went north along the Qingyin Expressway, took a break in the service area and had some lunch on the way.During the meal, a man came over with a plate and sat across from him, and talked to him: "Little brother, where are you from?"

Qing pretended not to hear, and continued to eat with her head down.

"Little brother, where are you from? Why are you ignoring people!"

Qingben didn't want to talk to that person, he thought he would ignore it, and it was fine if the other person found it boring, but he didn't expect that person to ask him again and again, he glanced at him, a middle-aged man, slightly fat, with a pale face With oily eyes, he looked at him with squinting eyes, without hiding the desire in his heart, which reminded him of the way Liu Cheng looked at him that year.He said coldly, "Come from where you came from."

"Hehe, my little brother's words are so humorous." The middle-aged man stretched his head closer to Qing, lowered his voice and said, "Let's play."

Qing didn't look at the middle-aged man again, stood up, picked up the plate, put it in the dining area, turned around and walked out of the restaurant, sat in the car, and locked the door.

Behind him, the greedy eyes of the middle-aged man kept chasing his figure until he got into the car.

He feels sick.

He didn't understand why some people could have lust for strangers they met for the first time, and how two people without feelings should do it.Yu's figure jumped out of his mind.What about Yu?Yu is in love with his wife.Then what is he considered to be Yu's?He suddenly patted his forehead hard, telling himself not to ask for trouble.He grabbed the steering wheel, put his head firmly on it, did not move, then sat up straight, pressed the start button, turned on the power, stepped on the brake, ignited the ignition, pushed the joystick to the D position, stepped on the accelerator, and left quickly.

On the way, he did not drive into the service area to rest. He drove for nearly three hours. It was almost dusk. He looked at the road signs and found that he had arrived in Jinan.He doesn't want to stop.Along the way, his thoughts were in a state of stagnation, and only the sound of music surrounded him in the car, like a barrier, isolating him from the world, so that he could feel relaxed, and he was afraid that once he stopped, he would sink again , It's like running on the water surface with bare feet stepping on the floating boards, you can run forever, and you will fall into the water immediately if you stop for a while.At this moment, he was aimless, he just wanted to keep walking, and stop when he was tired and wanted to take a rest.The sky was getting dark, and there were not as many vehicles on the road as in the daytime. He turned on the cruise control, listened to the quiet "Spring Gone", looked at the silent road under the street lights, and looked at the dark front in the distance. He stared at the taillights of a car coming up from behind with its high beams flashing and whizzing past him, until it was out of sight, and then back to the gray road.

Until he saw the word "Shijiazhuang" on the road sign, and then checked the time, it was almost ten o'clock in the evening. At the end of the day, after driving for nearly twelve hours, he felt tired.I'm so tired, I should be able to sleep well tonight.He turned the steering wheel, turned off the high speed, and drove towards downtown Shijiazhuang.Using the navigation, he found a five-star hotel, and when he entered the room, it was already eleven o'clock at night.Kuo's message came again, asking where it was.He talked about Shijiazhuang and just moved in.Kuo also said that he had run a lot that day, so he must be tired, so he should rest earlier.He replied: I am tired, good night.Then he took a shower, lay down on the bed, and quickly fell asleep while his physical and mental exhaustion had not dissipated.

When I woke up the next day, it was already eleven o'clock.Qing thought that Kuo would send a message, and if he didn't reply for a long time, maybe Kuo would be worried, so she turned on her phone first while lying on the bed.Sure enough, Kuo sent another message at ten o'clock, asking him what his next step would be, and just as he was replying, two more messages jingled into his phone. They were reminders of missed calls, and it was from Bin, who called him all morning. Come here twice.He didn't call back, he thought, if Bin had something urgent or important, he would call again, if it was just a greeting, there was no need for him to call back.Not long after, Bin's phone call came.

"Qing, where are you now?"

"Shijiazhuang."

"Huh? We've all arrived in Shijiazhuang! How long has it been?" Bin's tone was surprised.

"It was just after ten o'clock last night."

"Are you going to leave today, or stay a few more days?"

"After driving for a few days, I feel rather tired. Let's just walk around the city today. Let's talk about it tomorrow."

"Oh, what hotel do you live in? How's the condition? I have friends in Shijiazhuang, do you want me to ask my friend to be your guide?"

Qing said the name of the hotel, and Bin heard that it was a very good hotel. Qing said that there was no need for a guide, and that he could just walk around by himself, and Bin didn't insist anymore.

He wanted to walk alone in this strange city.

It was already night when he came yesterday, and he didn’t see the surroundings. Only now did he realize that the hotel he stayed in was in a bustling commercial area with many shops. He was walking along the road, and when he encountered an intersection, he would just ignore the traffic lights. The situation was either going straight, or turning, and I don’t know how long he walked. He turned around the corner and saw a coffee shop. Through the window glass, he saw that there was almost no one in it. He pushed the door and walked in. He chose a seat by the window , ordered some drinks and snacks, and slowly looked at the scenery on the street.

While watching, he felt a gust of wind blowing behind him, and then a figure sat across from him.He withdrew his gaze, turned around, saw the person in front of him clearly, and asked in surprise, "Why are you here?"