Ah, it's better to die

Lin Rui relayed what Gu Qingrang said to Bai He, and after listening to it, Bai He remained still. "Well, let him make trouble, anyway, I won't go home now."

The corner of Lin Rui's mouth twitched, "Can I ask what kind of photos he has in his hand? If it's something you can't describe, I advise you to go home as soon as possible."

"Me and Zhou Que?" Bai He sneered, then relaxed his hands and feet and lay down on the sofa. "No. It's probably just that he followed me secretly all day, took various photos of me, and wrote some disgusting sentences."

"You really know him."

"After all, we have been dating for so many years." He tilted his head, something was broken but he would not forget it.

The two were silent for a while, and then Bai He's cell phone rang.Bai He glanced at it, and took it slowly. "Hello."

Gu Qingrang asked a question. "Get out or come back?"

"what?"

"If you don't come back, your house will be blown up. Now I'm alone at your door, stealthily collecting photos."

Bai He remained silent, he listened carefully to Gu Qingrang's voice on the other end of the phone.

"What if I am taken away by the police as a suspicious person?" His voice sounded extremely distressed.

Bai He finally spoke. "I ran out early in the morning, and it would be embarrassing to go back like this before half a day later."

Lu Qingrang: "I'll keep my mouth shut, as long as you tell me to shut up, I'll immediately treat myself as dumb."

Bai He hung up the phone and got up from the sofa.

Lin Rui was still cleaning up the dishes, "What's wrong?"

Bai He walked over and patted him on the shoulder, "Brother, I'm going home first."

Although Lin Rui felt that his decision was expected, he still couldn't help complaining. "So you came to my house at dawn just to occupy my sofa and share half of my dumplings?"

Bai He had already gone to the door to change his shoes, "I really can't accept that a disheveled man is alone with me in a closed space."

Lin Rui: "Although I am excellent, no..."

"Bang." As soon as Bai He put on his shoes, he opened the door and went out, then closed the door as expected.

Lin Rui insisted on finishing the last word: "Wrong."

As soon as the elevator door opened, Bai He stepped out from inside.He made enough mental preparations and turned around.As he expected, Gu Qingrang was sitting on the floor in front of his house, concentrating on flipping through a lot of photos.Unbelievably, he rummaged through and put a few photos into his pocket.

Bai He felt that he didn't dare to go over.

"Director?" Gu Qingrang suddenly looked up and saw him.

Bai He walked over and threw the scarf on his head. "It's winter, isn't it cold?"

It's already December now, and the winter in the south is late, but when it gets cold, the air can't be dispelled.

Lu Qingrang pulled his scarf off, and Bai He bent down and lifted the scarf around his neck. "Go, go back."

"Eh, but..."

"We'll talk about all these things when we move them up," Bai He said.

The two went up with a lot of things.

Bai He returned to Gu Qingrang's house, and the two threw their arms full of photos and notes on the floor.Bai He sat on the floor and picked up a few photos casually.There is only one protagonist in the photo, and that is Bai He.Bo He was photographed from various angles, including him wandering in the living room in his pajamas, and some walking out in a suit and leather shoes.

Lu Qingrang couldn't help but drew two more.

Bai He pulled it out of his hand immediately. "What are you doing with this?" He couldn't laugh or cry.

Lu Qingrang changed the subject. "And these notes."

Bai He didn't bother to look at it. "Throw it away."

Gu Qingrang did not ask any questions, and immediately shredded the branches manually, and then threw them into the trash can.

"I know what he wrote even if you don't look at it." Bai He looked at Gu Qingrang's back.

Lu Qing gave the whole person a meal.

"Hmph." Bai He sat back.

After shredding all the notes into tens of thousands of pieces, Gu Qingrang realized that he was still wearing the messy scarf of Bai He around his neck.He said why it was difficult to breathe for a while.Lowering his head, he found that his nose was filled with the smell of Bai He, so he didn't pull it off.

As soon as Bai He calmed down, he saw Gu Qingrang slowly moving towards him.

"Hello." Bai He warned him.

Lu Qingrang raised his hand: "I'll take care of the photos."

Bai He thought it was funny, between these two people, who is gay and who is straight? "Gu Qingrang." In fact, he knew that he should come back to deal with Zhou Que's affairs, but when he saw Gu Qingrang, it was very strange, and he didn't want to think about other things at all. "What the hell are you trying to do?"

Lu Qingrang replied immediately: "I seem to like you."

seem?

Bai He narrowed his eyes, and there was an unpleasant light shining in the gap.

"What do you like about me?" His tone was as cold as ever.

Lu Qingrang was at a loss for words for a moment.

"You see, you can't even tell yourself, young people are so easily deceived by themselves. You don't like me, you think I am pitiful, and then all kinds of strange feelings are intertwined with my identity as gay, and then Think you like me." He flicked his forehead with a finger. "Little devil."

Lu Qingrang touched the forehead hit by him, and was in a trance for a while.It's not that he couldn't say it, but he didn't dare to say it.

If it is said that he has followed you for a long time and came to this city because of you, isn't he a pervert?How is it different from Zhou Que?

Lu Qingrang: "Can't you give me some time to relax?"

Bai He: "No, you are out."

Gu Qingrang pouted.

That night, Bai He packed his things and went downstairs.

"If Zhou Que comes, you have to inform me." Bai He was at his door, reluctant to part.

Bai He laughed heartily. "Go away, I'm closing the door."

The door closed, and Bai He stood there for a long time, then he squatted down along the door, hugged his knees, and stayed quietly in the darkness.

"call."

On work day, not long after Bai He sat down, the courier delivered the things.He also received a lot of work express mail before, but he knew that this time it must not be work express mail.

As soon as the envelope was opened, a photograph slipped out.In the picture, he was wrapping the scarf around Lu Qingrang's neck. His slightly rough gestures at that time looked extremely tender in the photo.

"It's a good photo." He accepted the photo.

When the work was almost finished, he walked out of the office and dialed Zhou Que in a deserted corner.

He didn't speak, and there was silence on the phone.In the end, it was Zhou Que who spoke first, "You are still the same, Bai He."

Bai He: "That's boring, you were the one who proposed to break up first, and I accepted it."

"I regret it." Zhou Que on the other side of the phone squeezed his voice deliberately, and he made a sharp voice. "But it's all your fault!"

Baihe hates to have disputes with others.

"At that time I asked you if you loved me or not! You denied it!"

Bai He remained silent.It would be a lie to say that he doesn't have any feelings at all. He is fickle and reticent, but he is not cold-blooded and heartless.He was moved by Zhou Que's thoughts on him, and he even accepted the idea of ​​living with this person for a lifetime.

love?He didn't know why he was stunned at that time.He is used to getting along with Zhou Que, but does he love him?Yes, but it really can't reach the point where he can answer immediately when asked.

This situation is just like the one he had with Gu Qingrang that day.He smiled wryly, this is the way of heaven and reincarnation.

"Maybe, you and I are not so suitable."

Just not enough love, right?So after he left, he accepted it when he wanted to.

"You're always testing me."

Looking back on the past, Zhou Que loved doing this kind of thing very much.He disappeared suddenly on purpose, making Baihe anxious.Or deliberately hooked up with another man, deliberately let him bump into him, or even sent another man to his bed to see his reaction.

He never stated his position, and when Zhou Que came back, he didn't pursue it.

Again and again, again and again.

Only this time, he didn't welcome Zhou Que's return.

Zhou Que: "Who else in the world can understand you better than me, and who else can accept you? Without me, you won't be able to live."

Baihe has a history of depression and still has the habit of hurting himself.If there is no one around him to stop him, he will kill himself.

"It doesn't matter."

He thought about death countless times.

Just when the flowers are blooming or the stars are shining, sleep with beauty, and live with eternity.

"You don't need to be attached to me anymore." He said, "You don't like me now."

He knew that what Zhou Que liked was the boy with a dazzling smile and a hearty heart.But he has changed, and now he is such a bad adult.

Zhou Que hung up the phone.

Lu Qingrang had to go back to school these days because of something, so he took a week off.When he came back, Bai He was not there.

"It will be Bai He's mother's memorial day in a few days, and he asked for leave to go back to his hometown." Lin Rui explained.

Lu Qingrang got off work and dragged his feet home.

As he was walking, his right brow suddenly twitched.

"Fuck! That suicidal maniac!" The usually gentle man couldn't help becoming manic.