Ah, it's better to die

The November night wind was extremely fierce, and Bai He was leaning on the rooftop of a fifty-story building, holding a nearly burnt cigarette butt between his fingers.

When the fire jumped and burned his index finger, he realized that the smoke was gone.Sighing, he grabbed the cigarette butt and rubbed it against the fence.

The night wind in November is extremely fierce, and the scenery of the fifty-story building is nothing more than that.

Ah, jump down now, it is better to die like this.

Thinking of this, he immediately turned around, bent down and looked down.

Downstairs, the lights are bright and the traffic is busy, which is the most common city scene.

"Master... Director!"

Bai He let out a "hmm", and then turned around in this posture.A handsome young man who could be considered to be of outstanding demeanor stood at the door.Originally, he was a handsome young man who looked like a painting wherever he stood, but his expression now is really silly.

"What's wrong?" Bai He spoke in his usual lazy voice.

"Director, what are you doing now?" He stretched out his hand, originally intending to run over to grab him, but he was afraid of irritating him, so he hesitated for a while.

The way he stepped out and back, and then he leaned forward after taking back, was so funny.Bai He stood back.

He immediately ran over and pulled Bohe away from the fence.

"Director, it's already off work, what are you doing?" He was terrified.

Bai He had many reasons to prevaricate, but he just said quietly, "It's nothing, I just wanted to commit suicide."

Gu Qingrang looked as if that was the case. "It's so late, why don't we discuss this matter after dinner?" After finishing speaking, he was about to pull him away.

Bai He was unwilling to move his footsteps. "What to eat?"

"Uh... there's a nice noodle shop around the corner."

Bai He turned around, "As expected, I should commit suicide now."

"If you don't mind, I'll cook it. You can eat whatever you want." Lu Qingrang immediately asked him to stay.

"Seafood bar."

"It's a bit expensive." He has only been working for a few months and has no savings at all.

Bai He took out a wallet from his pocket and patted it on him. "Let's go."

They took the elevator down, and Gu Qingrang covered his wallet to his chest. He looked at the digital screen showing the floor for a while, and then looked at Bai He who was leaning against the wall of the elevator as if he had no bones.

As soon as the elevator arrived, Bai He walked out first, "Come on."

Bai He has a car, although it is an ordinary car, but it is more convenient than Lu Qing who takes the subway to and from get off work all day.

Bai He stepped on the gas pedal and galloped on the city road. Although the speed of the car was not fast, but Gu Qingrang was sitting next to him, still holding on to the seat belt tightly in fear.

"I don't want to take you with me even if I die, don't worry." Bai He said "tsk".

"Yes......"

The journey went smoothly, and they soon got off at a large vegetable market.Gu Qingrang tremblingly asked Bai He what he wanted to eat, Bai He pointed at one side and another at the other, and finally Gu Qingrang took several bags and dragged him away with all his might.

When they arrived at the apartment, the two entered the elevator, and Bai He hesitated between the fourteenth and fifteenth floors with his hands, "Is it yours or mine?"

"Is the director's house complete with all the tools?"

Bai He ruffled his hair irritably, wanting to smoke again. "It can't be more complete!"

Gu Qingrang put down the ingredients and pressed the button on the fourteenth floor.

It was not the first time for Lu Qingrang to enter his house, but it was the first time that the room was in such a mess. "Excuse me." Lu Qing called subconsciously.

"It's just me and you, who are you talking to?" Bai He looked at him with extremely sharp eyes.

Gu Qingrang swallowed, "Speak to the director."

"come in."

Lu Qingrang went in with a big bag and a small bag.

"Go take a shower first." Gu Qingrang suggested.

"No." Although he is now disheartened and hopeless, he still has a conscience. "Let me help."

Lu Qingrang could only be tough on this matter, "Please go take a shower." Then he complained softly, "You can't help much anyway."

What he said was so reasonable that Bai He was speechless.

I went to the dormitory to get my clothes, and the razor was on the table.Bai He picked up the razor, ready to move again.

Suddenly, the door was opened, and Gu Qing asked the probe to come. "Steamed shrimp or salt and pepper shrimp?"

"Steam."

"Okay, come out after washing." He left again the next moment.

Bai He put down the razor and went to take a shower.

When he came out, the aroma of the food was overflowing, and the living room was much cleaner and tidy.Gu Qingrang was wearing an apron, waiting for the soup to boil.

"OK!" He turned off the fire, "Director, please sit down."

Bai He: "I'm not that thick-skinned."

Together they brought the dishes to the table, and the long table was covered with dishes.Bai He only now realizes that he seems to have gone too far.

"Eat, eat." Lu Qingrang looked at him with loving eyes.

Bai He grabbed a crab and buried himself in it.

Gu Qingrang sighed and poured him a glass of water.

"Eat." Bai He said.

"I'm eating." Gu Qingrang replied.

Bai He lowered his head.

When he was almost done eating, Gu Qingrang started to pack his things.

"Ah, even if I'm full, I still want to die." Bai He slumped on the chair.

Gu Qingrang was turning on the faucet to wash the dishes, "You can't die if you lose your love, Director."

Bai He opened his empty eyes.

In fact, he didn't want to die because he was broken in love, he wanted to die a long time ago.

When he first went to the beach and the seagulls flew across the sky he wanted to die.They soar above the clear water, but are crushed under the eerie sky.Bai He watched them circle, hover, go away, and wander again. Sometimes they faced each other alone, and sometimes they rubbed against each other.

Seeing such a scene, he thought about death for the first time.

Just with these little birds, trap the end of your life in this infinity.

However, at that time, my mother held him by the hand and said, it was too late, the beach was going to be cold, we should go back.

Death will not get rid of him.

Lu Qingrang asked: "Can I sleep here tonight?"

"Hey, are you afraid I'll commit suicide?"

"I'm afraid you will commit suicide."

Bai He watched him finish washing the dishes, and took out a tissue to wipe his hands. "Then I have to find a change of clothes for you."

After taking a shower, Gu Qing asked, "Can I make a floor in your room?"

Bai He didn't object, but he still asked, "I'm gay, does it matter?"

"It's okay, you're not interested in me."

Bai He didn't answer this time.

Turn off the light, Bai He sleeps on the bed, and Gu Qingrang sleeps on the floor.

"Want to ask what happened?" Bai He opened his eyes wide in the darkness.

Lu Qingrang yawned, "Do you want to say it?"

Bai He stared at the pitch-black ceiling, "He suddenly knelt down in front of me."

"Wow."

"He said sorry."

"He cheated?"

"He said sorry, I can't seem to fall in love with you anymore."

Bai He said to himself: "He keeps saying, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry."

"Mm." Lu Qingrang's eyes were almost closed.

I am sorry.

Bai He also closed his eyes.

Sorry, I can no longer be by your side.

Mom, in this world, no one will hold him back anymore.

"Your recent job sucks!" The boss sighed while holding the folder.

Bai He asked, "Do you want me to resign?"

The boss sighed again, "I didn't mean that."

Bai He looked at him.

"Oh, forget it, you go out first."

Bai He went out and closed the door.

When I returned to the department, it was the break time, and the sound of young people fighting in the tea room came out.

"Speaking of the director, the surname is very special."

"The name is also very special."

Bai He thinks his name is super normal.

"Thinking of the director's name..."

"Mints."

Bai He paused as he was about to leave.

That was Gu Qingrang's voice, "Super cute, mint."

Super cute, mints.

"Are you a primary school student?" The young subordinate laughed. "It also associates people's names based on the pronunciation."

"Speaking of which, Xiaoqing, your name is also very special."

"This is my great-grandfather's name." Gu Qingrang said, "Grandpa missed my dead father so much, so he gave it to me."

"It really looks like the name of the Republic of China, hahahaha."

Lu Qing couldn't stand this haha ​​party anymore, "I'll go out and get my phone."

There was no one outside, he walked back to his seat, sat down silently, then stretched his body, and began to have no thoughts.

Mints.

He was really taken aback when he first started. He didn't expect that the direct supervisor of the internship place lived downstairs from him.And when he passed by that day, he happened to be arguing with his boyfriend outside, from which Lu Qingrang knew that Bai He was gay.

Lu Qingrang stretched out his hand to touch the phone. He actually wanted to complain to Bai He directly. It's not handsome at all to want to commit suicide because of a broken relationship.

But Bai He will definitely refute him with a blank face, I am not handsome at all.

Lu Qing asked to open the address book, but didn't know who he was looking for for a long time.

When it's time to get off work, young people nowadays can't wait to turn off their computers and run away.

Bai He felt very ashamed. Although he was old, he still had this foolish temperament.

He was going to drive, but as soon as he walked out of the elevator door, he saw Gu Qingrang's back.He couldn't help but put away the car keys and followed him all the way.

Gu Qingrang's route was very clear, that is to take the subway.During the peak hours of get off work, there were many people, and Bai He nestled in a corner, looking at Gu Qingrang who was also submerged in the crowd.

Lu Qingrang has long been used to this kind of life, wearing earphones, letting the crowd push him around.

After getting off the subway, you have to take a bus.

Gu Qingrang sat in front, closed his eyes and rested.Bai He just got into the car and walked to the end of the car.

The bus wobbled.

Bai He looked at his back, and then cast his eyes out of the window.

The bus passed the rusty arch bridge, and the students after school were riding bicycles, laughing and laughing beside them.

Every step of life is a journey, but how to express the feeling of being unable to start again?

Gu Qingrang didn't look up at the people around him, and got off the car straight after arriving at the stop, and Bai He naturally continued to follow.

Back downstairs in the community, Gu Qing let the elevator that came first, and when the door was about to close completely, Bai He walked by.The display indicated that the elevator had gone up, and Bai He pressed the button on the other side, and then got on another elevator.

He walked in the corridor on the fourteenth floor, and Gu Qingrang walked in the corridor on the fifteenth floor. The two opened the door, went in, and locked the door.