my heart is safe

Lu Ancheng thought that he and Cheng Qianyang were ordinary neighbors, ordinary friends, and ordinary playmates when they were young.

Regarding the saying of being a child, Lu Ancheng thinks that it must be counted from drinking milk.And he has a lot of buddies who are very strong since they are bare buttocks, and Cheng Qianyang is not among them.Cheng Qianyang came later.

So when Cheng Qianyang told others that they were close friends, Lu Ancheng said, listen to him fart.

Lu Ancheng grew up in the courtyard. The old Lu family had three children, all sons.Lu Ancheng has an older brother who is seven years older than him, and a younger brother who is ten years younger than him.It is said that being caught in the middle is the most unfavorable, and he has deeply understood it since he was a child.

But the third child doesn't seem to be doing well, probably because he had too many sons, and the parents of the Lu family also felt that it was boring, and wanted a daughter, but the third child was born as a leader, and Lao Lu was very depressed, so he packed up and went back to the army went.Lu's mother also cares more about the flowers of the art troupe than the three boys, so except for the eldest brother, An Cheng and the younger brother are basically neglected to discipline them.

He brainwashed his younger brother since he was a child: "Oh, if you were born a girl, wouldn't your parents hurt you to death?" As a result, his younger brother Niansheng has always been very obedient.

In the end, only Lu Ancheng was really wild.

Cheng Qianyang is in Lu Ancheng's memory, starting from the last late spring of kindergarten.

On a school morning in May, my child Wang Cheng discovered that there was a new student in the class.He was extremely small, nearly a head shorter than the other boys, and had yellow hair that looked malnourished.But she was born very good-looking, not the kind of gentle and gentle mother, but like a milk doll, with a round face and big eyes, tender and tender, very foreign and juicy.His eyes were still filled with tears, he probably wasn't used to the new environment and had just cried.

Lu Ancheng didn't know how to describe it at the time, so he said to Wang Yiliang, "He is so good-looking, his nose is his nose and his eyes are his eyes." Wang Yiliang scratched his head and asked him, "Who doesn't have a nose, a nose and eyes and eyes? "Lu Ancheng realized that his description didn't seem right, but he couldn't think of any other words, he couldn't hold back, so he simply pulled the corner of his clothes and stopped talking.

The teacher said that this new classmate who will get along well with everyone in the last month or so is called Cheng Qianyang.

Lu Ancheng shook his head.

This name is too boyish, not suitable for such a good-looking and spiritual person like a girl doll.

Out of curiosity about the new classmate, Lu Ancheng decided to observe him.But this boy is not as spiritual, lively and cheerful as he appears on the surface.All day long, he sat alone in a corner, smoking and chatting with an oversized water bottle.He didn't move his nest, didn't let go of crying, just guarded the small space about one square meter in front of and behind his seat, secretly sad.

Lu Ancheng thinks that this is the kind of child that adults say "can't go far".But later, he was the one who couldn't go far, and he was the one who couldn't accept the change.This is all for later.

This day, Lu Ancheng continued to play around the compound until the evening as usual, waiting for his elder brother to come and take him home after school.

Both Wang Yiliang and Shen Boyu lived near the entrance of the compound, Lu Ancheng said goodbye to them, and followed Lu Shouguo all the way inside.When he passed Lao Guohuai in the middle of the compound, he found a car with no license plate parked beside the tree.Lu Shouguo said it was probably an outsider, Ancheng nodded, not thinking about it.

In the evening, when Lu's mother finished the group's rehearsal and came home to cook for the two brothers, she said to Lu Ancheng at the dinner table: "We are going to have a new child in our yard, who is the same age as you, but it's a boy again. "The tone is full of regret.

Lu Shouguo asked: "Mom, whose child is only living in at this time, it can't be..." If it is really an illegitimate child, it is not a new secret.

"Tch, don't talk nonsense!" Lu's mother hit the eldest son with a chopstick, "It's your grandpa Cheng's grandson. Mr. Cheng's youngest daughter and son-in-law are both war reporters and died. Hey, it's really hard for such a child, who is still young. so small……"

Lu Ancheng didn't know what a reporter was, let alone a war correspondent.But he can still understand the meaning of sacrifice.Occasionally, Father Lu drank too much at home, and he liked to lament the sacrifice of someone else, and then hugged Mother Lu and cried loudly.Lu Ancheng asked Lu Ma what sacrifice is, and Lu Ma said that sacrifice means giving his life to the country.

So Lu Ancheng knew from a young age that sacrifice means death, and death means never seeing him again.That was really scary.He suddenly felt a little sympathetic to the child of Grandpa Cheng's family, and his mood sank instantly.

"I have to go to see Mr. Cheng some other day. It's really distressing for a white-haired man to give a black-haired man."

"Mom, what's the child's name? Let Ah Cheng take him to play. Anyway, Ah Cheng knows me well." Lu Shouguo glanced at his younger brother. Lu Ancheng was still thinking about "death" and stared at him. Staring at the table in a daze. "What are you thinking about, counting how many grains of rice fell on the table?"

"That's right, that child seems to have entered Acheng's kindergarten too. They are all boys in our yard, so let's take him to play." Lu's mother nodded, "I heard his uncle, just your Uncle Cheng , call him Yangyang."

"Ah, I got it!" Lu Ancheng strung together the information from Lu's mother, and the small light bulb in his head lit up, "It must be Cheng Qianyang! He came to our class today." Ancheng thought about it Thinking about it, he added: "He looks very good-looking."

Lu's mother was very pleased that Ancheng recognized Cheng's family's child so quickly, and she would definitely be able to play well with him.

Lu Ancheng thought so too.After all, the children in the compound knew him well, and the children in the kindergarten basically knew him regardless of grade.Cheng Qianyang couldn't be happier to be able to play with someone as famous as him.

However, the next day, Lu Ancheng did not see Cheng Qianyang in the kindergarten.

He had chickenpox and was quarantined.

The adults in the yard told them not to play with Cheng Qianyang for a month because they were afraid that their children would get infected.But Cheng Qianyang himself never left the Cheng family.From the day he was sent to Cheng's house, his range of activities has been limited to his home and his small garden. Even Lu Ancheng, who is the closest to Cheng's house and has to pass through Cheng's house, has never seen him.

A month later, the kindergarten was on vacation, and Cheng Qianyang didn't go there again, and he didn't appear among the children during the whole summer vacation.

Lu Ancheng thought, does that small and good-looking boy really live in the compound?

But children are forgetful. Generally, older children gather together to have fun and go crazy for the whole summer vacation. How can they remember the newcomers?Lu Ancheng quickly forgot about bringing Cheng Qianyang to play.

There are so many children in the compound to accompany him, one more is not too many, and he doesn't care much about one less.

Just like that, when the primary school started so carefree, Lu Ancheng and Cheng Qianyang met again.

Cheng Qianyang still hasn't grown up, he stopped holding the water bottle, wearing shorts and leather shoes, holding the backpack on his shoulders and walking into the class, his big round eyes twitching.The children in the compound all went to the same elementary school, but they didn't expect them to be in the same class by such a coincidence.

At this time, Lu Ancheng was chatting with Wang Yiliang, who was assigned to the next class, about the content of the cartoon last night. Cheng Qianyang was very polite and did not intervene in the middle. After Shen Boyu took Wang Yiliang to the canteen to buy snacks, he walked over to talk to Lu Ancheng who had stopped Said: "Hello, my name is Cheng Qianyang."

Lu Ancheng heard him speak with a southern accent, turned his head to look, Cheng Qianyang was smiling.When he laughed, there was a bulging lump under his eyes, which made his eyes look like crooked moons.It was only later that Lu Ancheng found out that this thing was called "Walking Silkworm".

Lu Ancheng said, "I am Lu Ancheng."

This is the second meeting and the first conversation between them after more than three months.

However, they obviously lived in the same compound, or even in two houses less than a hundred meters away, for a whole summer.

……

Lu Ancheng didn't think that he looked like a man who sold his ass, and he didn't think there was anything about him that could attract Cheng Qianyang to stab him whenever he was free.But these are facts.He was very depressed and ashamed of it.many years.

The sun was rising above the sea level, Lu Ancheng pinched the cigarette in his hand, opened the floor-to-ceiling windows and slowly walked back into the room.He still had some pain in his back, sore and sour, and it was not very convenient for him to walk.But he couldn't sleep, and he didn't want to stay in the room and look at Cheng Qianyang's sleeping face to make his heart feel troubled.

When Lu Ancheng returned to the room, Cheng Qianyang also woke up, and he was paralyzed on the bed. When he saw himself coming in, he rubbed his big eyes, called "An'an", stretched his legs and clamped the quilt and turned over.He hugged the quilt and exposed half of his head, staring at Lu Ancheng eagerly, his round eyes flickering.

"Drinking?" Lu Ancheng opened a can of beer for himself, suppressing his anger and pouring it wildly.He just asked casually, and Cheng Qianyang didn't have to drink it if he wanted it.And Cheng Qianyang was sulking watching him sitting on the sofa like this, with his legs up and shaking, smiling and narrowing his eyes.

"An'an, drink slowly, it will hurt your throat."

Lu Ancheng didn't listen to Cheng Qianyang's persuasion, drank all the wine and squeezed the cans, all in one go.

He took some effort to get up from the sofa, and walked to the bed step by step. Every step was very difficult. He looked down at Cheng Qianyang who was rolling in a ball, frowned, bit his lower lip, and said quite softly: " Let's really stop doing this."

Cheng Qianyang showed a round head with a playful smile: "Fate is determined by God. I may die someday. If I can do it one more time, it is one time." Lu Ancheng became angry, stretched his legs and kicked him through the quilt, and asked him loudly: "Is this fun?"

As soon as Cheng Qianyang got out of the quilt, he hugged Lu Ancheng's waist naked. He had his back to the window, but his bare skin could feel the warmth of the sun on his body.He rubbed his head against Lu Ancheng's stomach, and the chicken who was half standing up also poked Ancheng's leg, and replied with a smile, "It's fun."

Lu Ancheng's face turned dark immediately, and just as he was about to push the man's head away, Cheng Qianyang suddenly tightened his arms with more force, and his head also settled down.He just stuck to Lu Ancheng quietly, felt his body temperature, and sighed in a low voice:

"No, it's no fun if you don't love me."

"Love" is the word that made Lu Ancheng feel at a loss the most, he couldn't answer the words, he could only sigh, let Cheng Qianyang hold him, then went to look out the window at the rising sun and the calm sea surface, counting a few seabirds passing by , and how many fishing boats are in port.

Welcome a brand new day, embrace the unclear tomorrow.

Then spend the time of the two of you.