I'm just hungry for your knowledge

The day before the holiday, Zhang Ming knocked on Han Shen's desk while collecting the books: "Brother Han, what are the arrangements for the National Day?"

"study."

After subconsciously saying this sentence, Han Shen was stunned for a moment, unable to believe it came from his own mouth.

Last year was also at this time, when I just transferred here, my bones were extremely hard, and I got zero marks in the Zhou exam, so everyone was so displeased, if it wasn't for...

If it weren't for Chen Chen and everyone's hard work, we would have wanted him to integrate into this class.

Zhang Ming also remembered what happened last year, and asked, "Brother Han, is your birthday coming soon?"

Han Shen lowered his head and cleaned up his homework: "Yes."

Zhang Ming was not reconciled to being filled with the word learning simplicity during the holiday: "Otherwise, why don't you come out to play on your birthday?"

Han Shen paused on his fingers, understanding his kindness.After Chen Chen left, Zhang Ming took special care of him. I don't know if he heard something from Chen Chen, and tried his best to win the withdrawn him into the group and happiness.

Not knowing how to refuse, Han Shen nodded: "Okay."

"Where are you going to play?" Zhang Ming walked out with his schoolbag on his back.

After Han Shen packed his things, he went outside the door and saw someone moving the tables and chairs in the aisle.He stopped and asked, "What are you moving?"

The efficiency of the school's Academic Affairs Office was low, and it took a month to report, and now someone came to move.The man looked at Han Shen, said nothing, and left quickly.

"This is Brother Chen's desk and chair." Zhang Ming's voice trembled.

The name Chen Chen has appeared less and less recently.One month into the school year, the tense atmosphere in the third year of high school was far greater than before. At the beginning, Chen Chen would be talked about and sighed, but now fewer and fewer people mentioned it.

Everyone has their own life.

At the beginning, Han Shen also looked forward to the morning when Chen Chen walked into the classroom as usual, but now he also recognized the situation and gave up his fantasy.

Chen Chen will not come back.

But his heart seemed to be covered with a layer of paper, and with a slight shake, the memories about him flooded out like water.

Zhang Ming wanted to quarrel with the table mover, so he ran a few steps forward and failed to catch up. He retreated to look at the table and chairs where he had been, when he suddenly heard a voice behind him.

"Would you like to fly a kite in the park?"

Zhang Ming turned his head. Han Shen had always been noble and glamorous in his mind. He was shocked when he heard this answer: "...do you still have this hobby?"

"That's not going."

"Don't, go and go."

"..."

Ye Fei and Xiang Heng's roommates also wanted to go out for a walk during the holiday, so they gathered six or seven people.After arriving at the park the next day, I rented a mountain bike for two people, headed deep into the mountain in pairs, and stopped at a temple on the top of the mountain.

"It's so hot, how about something to eat first? Have a bottle of Fat House Happy Water." Xiang Heng locked the car.

There is a noodle shop next to the small temple. It is narrow and looks unhygienic. Han Shen didn't want to eat it. Seeing that they didn't care, he ordered Chaoshou noodles and began to feast on them.

There are indeed a lot of people on National Day. This park is a famous ecological area nearby, so although this temple is small, it also has a courtyard with all internal organs, and pilgrims gather, walking around.

There is a colorful Buddha statue enshrined in the middle of the courtyard. A woman was holding a child and was kneeling. When she got up, the child jumped up and bumped into the boy standing next to her. The woman immediately apologized: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, you little boy. "

The boy was tall, and he was looking at the writing on the Buddhist altar, but he turned his face away after being bumped.He was wearing a black mask and hat, the brim of which was pressed down very low. Although he couldn't see his face clearly, his posture didn't mean to be offended. His slender, white finger bones lightly touched the child's forehead.

Han Shen's eyes fell on him, and the figure suddenly looked familiar for a moment.

The boy was wearing a baggy black T-shirt and jeans, with skinny arms.He squeezed the child's face, turned and walked towards the inner courtyard of the temple.

This back looks very much like Chen Chen.

But Chen Chen is abroad now, Han Shen looked away and couldn't sit still for a while: "I'll go to the temple to see, you eat."

Even if it was just a resemblance from the back, Han Shen inexplicably wanted to take a few more glances.The temple is not big, with two or three small courtyards, and stacked Buddhist scriptures, calligraphy and paintings are placed under the corridors.

Han Shen circled around twice but didn't see anyone, and turned back irritably, but stopped suddenly.

The boy was standing not far away chatting with a host, his voice could not be heard clearly, but his body posture was relaxed and he looked around aimlessly.

When Han Shen took a Buddhist scripture as a cover, he felt that the boy saw him.

When he put down the Buddhist scriptures and looked up again, the boy was gone.

Han Shen suddenly had a premonition, and strode out of the small courtyard. The boy's back was more than ten meters away, and hurried out of the courtyard gate.

Han Shen wanted to run and catch up, but stopped inexplicably.

Could it be self-indulgence?Maybe the guy just happened to leave.

Chen Chen is obviously abroad.

Back at the shop, a few boys finished their meal and leaned back and forth looking at their phones.

Zhang Ming asked: "How is the inside of this temple? Is it interesting?"

Han Shen: "It's not interesting, but... I just saw a boy who looks like Chen Chen."

The name made everyone raise their eyes, but that was all, and then continued to look at the phone: "Isn't Brother Chen in the United States?" He didn't take it seriously, only Zhang Ming looked at Han Shen, his eyes gradually compassionate, and pulled him away. Going to the side and whispering: "Brother Han, do you think Brother Chen is hallucinating?"

"........."

Han Shen: "I'm not joking, I'm serious."

Zhang Ming nodded understandingly: "I usually cry secretly, right? Tsk, there's something wrong with my eyes."

Han Shen: "..."

Forget it.

It doesn't make sense.

All the way down the mountain to the park, Han Shen subconsciously paid more attention to his surroundings, but he didn't see this figure again until he left.

May be really wrong.

How could Chen Chen appear in this place?

After dinner, Han Shen went home separately. Han Shen stood for a while on the cold night street, took out the cold key from his pocket, and took a taxi to Chengda University.

Standing under the teacher's dormitory, feeling uneasy, but Han Shen went upstairs anyway.

With the mentality of giving it a try, I didn't expect the key to open the door.

The furnishings in the room remain the same, the lights can still be turned on, and the shoes are randomly placed in the shoe cabinet, as if the owner just left the door and will return soon.

Han Shen took a few steps, the tables, chairs and carpets were covered with dust, and there were no traces of habitation.

Memories gradually spread along with walking, close your eyes, the room is brightly lit, it seems that laughter is still in your ears.The study room upstairs was half-empty, and many books were removed, making the space look brighter, and the depressing smell of books was gone.

Han Shen felt very tired and opened the door to Chen Chen's room.

I didn't pack anything, and I left in a hurry, and there were even test papers on the table, which were yellowed by the sun.

Han Shen remembered that the first time Chen Chen sent him a video, he was in this room.Sleeping with him for the first time, kissing for the first time, having sex for the first time, having sex for the first time...

Would you like me to be all your firsts?

I would, I would, I would...

Han Shen found that there was no place to sit down, so he opened the closet casually. Chen Chen's school uniform hung in the center, which was very clean and had a faint fragrance.Han Shen took it out and held it in his hand. Chen Chen was written on the collar, and his name was added later.

During the sports meeting, Chen Chen wrote Han Shen's name on the school uniform.

Han Shen sniffed the school uniform unconsciously. The realistic fragrance carried warmth, as if Chen Chen could touch it.

Hanging up his school uniform, Han Shen walked up the stairs. The garden on the top floor was unlocked, the lights were turned on, and the fragrance of flowers and plants came from it.

The roses are still in bloom, giving off their fragrance late at night.

Han Shen stood in the garden, and the watercolors on the wall faded quickly without artificial protection.The place where Chen Chen didn't let him come, here is the dark place in Chen Chen's heart.

It was also the first time he discovered that this person also had flaws.

Han Shen stood for a while, it was very late at night, he locked the door and planned to go downstairs, when he accidentally kicked something, there was a "clang".

Startled, I turned on the light and saw that it was a watering can, and the water poured all over the floor.

Han Shen fell silent, walked to the roof again, and turned on all the lights.

The lights are bright, the plants grow luxuriantly, and the red flowers and green leaves are shining brightly.

its not right.

The weather is so strong, the flowers on the roof are not taken care of, how can they live so well?

With a sudden breath, Han Shen's phalanges trembled slightly, and he looked around blankly.

"Boom boom boom——"

Suddenly there were footsteps downstairs.

Han Shen was stunned for a second, then turned around and ran towards the source of the sound, his ears were hot, and just about to shout out, he heard a female voice: "Xiaochen, are you back? I just had a vacation—"

Han Shen stopped and saw Su Tingke standing at the bottom of the corridor with a cat in his arms.

Seeing Han Shen, she was surprised: "Why are you here?"

Han Shen was eager to know the meaning of what she said just now: "Who are you calling?"

Su Tingke's shoulders loosened: "Do you have the key to Chen Chen's house? Give it to me. Don't come in like this casually in the future. It's not good to be misunderstood."

"Did Chen Chen not leave?"

Su Tingke seemed to be joking: "He's gone."

"Liar, who watered the flowers upstairs?"

"I poured it."

"You're not in college?"

"..."

Su Tingke calmed down and looked at him, wondering what his motives were: "What do you want to do? Didn't you break up?"

Han Shen has already got the answer, looking elsewhere, it is difficult to say: "I want to find him."

I would love to see him.Maybe after breaking up, it is not correct to say these things, and Han Shen doesn't understand why he is wishful thinking, he just wants to see him.

want to find him.Chen Chen had been away for more than two months. Su Tingke had just started to receive messages from many people asking where Chen Chen was, but now he was gone.It was rare to hear someone say that they wanted to find Chen Chen.

Su Tingke asked, "Have you forgotten him?"

"What do you mean?"

"Why didn't you forget him? He went abroad for one month, two months, three years or five years, and you will all forget him in the end. This is the result Chen Chen hopes for."

Han Shen didn't understand: "Why?"

Su Tingke seemed to be talking about this topic more. There was something wrong with the crystal chandelier in the room, and it was flickering. The cat in her arms stretched, purred softly, and curled its tail into a ball.

A voice sounded: "Chen Chen doesn't want to be remembered, he just wants to be forgotten."

Han Shen just wanted to ask why?

Su Tingke stroked the cat's head: "He wants to go to a place where no one knows to start a new life. If he is forgotten by you, he will have no burden."

However, Han Shen's voice oozes pain: "Why should I forget him."

Isn't it selfish, even the right to think about him will be deprived?

"Memory is a very unreliable thing. Forget the brilliance he once had, and forget the wrong things he did. As long as you forget it, you will be happy."

Su Tingke's voice became lower and lower, and the cat was sleeping soundly in her arms.

No head, no brain, can't understand anything.When Han Shen was about to leave, Su Tingke said behind his back: "Here, this cat was raised by Chen Chen before. One day he made a typo in his homework and was punished by his aunt to lock him up in a small black room. The cat was with him. Auntie is not used to being too intimate, so she kicked it away for more than a meter!"

Han Shen looked back at her, not understanding the sudden topic.

"Auntie is very strict. Chen Chen has done wrong things. Apart from shutting down a small black room, being scolded, being cold and violent, sometimes he is not allowed to eat, not allowed to sleep, and can't do anything he wants. Chen Chen can't write well, Auntie Punish him by not buying cat food for the cat. The cat has been hungry, and Chen Chen is afraid that the cat will be tortured to death sooner or later, so he gave it to me."

"Since then, Chen Chen has been like this for things he likes. He is more willing to push them away, hoping for a better life. Do you understand? This is a habit that Auntie let him develop."

In the room, this very low voice spread around.

Su Tingke stared at Han Shen again, as if speaking for someone else: "Especially you, Han Shen, forget about him and live your own life."

……

Han Shen left the teacher's garden and wandered around the street.

My mind was messy and stuffy, as if something had been smashed into a ball, and it was difficult to regroup my thoughts.As Han Shen walked, he thought, did you forget?Yes, mentioning Chen Chen in the classroom is no longer emotional, and the frequency is getting less and less, No. 1 on the report card, he began to occupy the habit.

In three to five years, Han Shen would also forget him.

Forget that he is special to himself.

Thinking of this, Han Shen couldn't move anymore, so he sat down on a bench beside the school road.

It's easy to forget him, maybe just look back after a long time and find that a star in the memory is not bright.

Like childhood lost toys, tired songs, fading friends, forgotten knowledge...

I have already lost so much unconsciously, it is very simple to forget him.

But Han Shen felt hot all over his body, but Chen Chen was more than that.

Forget him, don't want to.

Not reconciled.

***

When Su Tingke went out, he saw the boy standing downstairs.

Standing in the shadow of Gui Ye, Han Shen slightly raised his eyes and stared at her: "Where is Chen Chen?"

Su Tingke felt that he was about to hit someone, so he was startled and stepped back: "I don't know."

"I don't know, do you?"

Han Shen lowered his head, picked up a brick, and walked forward: "Don't talk about it here, or go to the hospital to talk about it?"

"........."

Su Tingke knew that this boy was not so easy to dismiss. Although he was mediocre, he had the respect that a girl usually deserves.But at this moment, the face of the boy in front of him showed no intention of caring for women, or even human beings.Su Tingke was slightly nervous: "I really don't know."

Han Shen started to sprint towards her.

Su Tingke: "...Ehhhhh! Wait, can't we?"

Han Shen weighed Brick twice: "This thing will either hit your forehead or Chen Chen's forehead. Choose one."

Su Tingke thought for a second: "I don't know the exact address, I only know the approximate place."

"Well, say it."

"Shinan District, he doesn't live here anymore."

Han Shen threw away the brick, took out a wet tissue to wipe the mud on his phalanx, raised his head and asked, "Why didn't you go abroad?"

Su Tingke didn't expect Han Shen to know Chen Chen so ignorantly, and looked at him in surprise.

"Do you think he will go with Chen Shuxi?"

Han Shen understood.

Shinan District is one of the most economically prosperous areas in the city, in short, it is very big.

Han Shen walked from the morning to the evening on the street, but he didn't find any similar figures. Instead, the hot clothes were almost sticking to the skin, which was terribly annoying.

The street lights went up one after another, and Han Shen casually found a convenience store to sit down, ordered a chicken chop rice, and then lowered his head to swipe his phone.

Su Tingke couldn't get through the phone.

Hold.

Are you kidding me?

Han Shen felt that the people in this teacher building should be blown up by a thunderbolt.

"On the 6th, your chicken chop rice is ready, welcome to enjoy."

Han Shen got up and took it, and wanted to go to the dining table inside to eat. After walking two steps, he stopped suddenly.

Convenience store shelves are lined up in rows, covered by products, and people coming and going are covered by products, and they are almost invisible unless they go to a shelf.

The tall figure was slightly bent, looking down at a bottle of wine, with slender finger bones, and holding a supermarket shopping bag in the other hand.

The other party didn't pay attention to him, Han Shen looked at it for a while, until his skin was scalded by the high-temperature insulation paper, he shook his hand suddenly, and threw the fast food on the table.

"Snapped!"

Chen Chen turned slightly to the side and looked at the source of the voice.

Tall, with a white T-shirt, long legs, sweat-drenched hair that sticks to his ears, and pale eye pupils.There was a slightly icy arc on his obviously calm face.

Han Shen actually smiled: "Long time no see, Chen Chen."

The author has something to say: Chen Chen: ……… [Beginning to get scared]

感谢在2020-07-0323:53:03~2020-07-0421:01:25期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who cast the mine: Yucheng Erbao, do.1;

Thanks to the little angels of irrigation nutrient solution: 20 bottles of Zab; 5 bottles of Qiyi; 1 bottle of Li Shuo;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!