then spring comes

At noon on Sunday, we packed up and prepared to check out and send him back. Although the pain of parting was right in front of us, he came after all and stayed with me for such a long time. I was satisfied and happy, facing my beloved Man, I exude happiness and sweetness all over my body, and there is an unconcealable smile and joy in my brows and eyes. He looked at my heartless joy with a trace of melancholy in his eyes, and pulled me in front of him and said : "Qiqi, are you so happy being with me?" I giggled: "You have seen it, this girl is not good at hiding, and I am by your side now, I am really happy, I put all Happiness is written all over your face!" He hesitated: "Well, I really hope you will be so happy forever!" I thought he was sad about the upcoming little parting, so I comforted him: "Sister, don't worry, if you If you miss me, tell me, anyway, I miss you all the time, as long as you call, I will fly back to Luoyang to see you!" He whispered: "Yes, I forgot, you can come too Look at me!" I kissed him briskly on the face, and was about to open the door to go out, but he suddenly pulled me back: "Qiqi, don't worry, wait for me to give you something." Then he said like He took out two cups from behind like a conjurer, exactly the two cups I put down after looking at them for a long time in Huimin Street the night before yesterday.My eyes were a little wet, and I gently fell into his arms and hugged him: "Sister, you can't be too nice to me, or I will miss you even more!" He hugged me tightly in his arms, Kiss me affectionately, the tenderness, lingering and nostalgia of his kiss gave me a vague premonition, I gently hugged him in his arms and said softly: "Sister, don't be sad, we will meet again soon Alright!" He sorted out his emotions and said, "Well, you're right, we'll meet again soon!" He finally kissed me lightly on the forehead and said, "Let's go, silly girl!"

This time when I arrived at the entrance of the train station, he said to me: "You have been with me for two days, do you still have a lot of homework to do?" After he reminded me, I thought it was true, and I only focused on talking to him these two days. Staying together, the tutor's homework had long been forgotten, so I had to tell him with a bitter face: "There are a lot of homework!"He said to me gently: "Don't send me off anymore, go back and do your homework, so as not to be criticized when you hand in your homework on Monday!" I hurriedly complained: "Well, sister, I can't send you off anymore, I really have to go back and stay up late to write Homework! Go in by yourself." After saying goodbye to him, I hurried back to school to catch up on my homework!If I know that this is our last meeting, I will accompany him through the last journey from the entrance to the train, the only way I can accompany him in this life!

On Monday night, I saw him on the Internet: Qiqi, did you finish yesterday's homework on time?Have you been approved by the teacher?

Me: Who am I? How could I be criticized?

Sister: Well, you are Qi Qi with great powers!

I made a smirk.

Sister: Qiqi

Me: why?

Sister: Nothing, I just want to call you!

I sent him a kiss emoji.

Sister: Qiqi, I have something to tell you!

Me: say it

Sister: Your sister-in-law saw our text message

I was flustered for a while: how come, I didn't send you a text message today.

Sister: She saw it before I went!

I was shocked for a while: But you didn't tell me when you came!

Sister: I was going to talk to you, but I can't say anything after seeing you!

I suddenly became nervous: Then have you confessed to your sister-in-law?

Sister: I can't hide it!

I was confused for a while, and after a long silence, I asked cautiously: "Sister, what should we do?"

On the other end of the network, he was also silent for a long time: Qiqi, you know, I have no choice!

I fell into an ice cave, how could this happen?How could this day come so soon?My tears came out immediately: Sister, you can't treat me like this, you clearly know how much I can't live without you, it's too cruel for you to do this to me!

Sister: Qiqi, I know that you have just experienced the pain of losing your mother and family changes. After we met, I tried my best to restrain myself. I think that although I can't help you, at least I won't add trouble to you!I'm older than you, but I didn't keep the bottom line of our relationship, so now that I've come to this point, I didn't expect that the person who sprinkled salt on your wounds would be precisely me!

I sent a crying emoji: sister, I never blame you, just please, don't leave me!

Sister: Qiqi, I know you know everything, you have to take care of yourself!

Me: Sister, don't go, you have been with me for almost three years, I am used to having you by my side, you will kill me if you leave me like this!

Sister: Qiqi, you have to be strong, you have to be good!

I suddenly woke up, yes, he was right, he had no choice, the one who was thrown between me and his family must be me!This is the so-called illusion he gave me that I was getting closer and closer to him. It turned out that I was going to be pushed into the abyss by him!It suddenly occurred to me that what he made me the night before yesterday was a promise to stay with me forever in this life, but he can't accompany me in this life!But I love this man so much, and I yearn for the warmth and care in his embrace!Desperation and fear suddenly filled my heart, I wanted to go back immediately, hug his legs, cry and kneel at his feet, begging him not to leave me, I wanted to slap him and threaten him with death if he dared to leave me , but reason tells me that this is not only useless, but also pushes him further and further away. Since I love him, why can't I put myself in his place and think for him?Is he ruthless or should I be punished like this?Should I have thought of such a result when I walked with him?It was me who intervened in their lives as a third party!I only know that there is karma, I never thought it would come so soon!

I put away my thousands of unwillingness and cried back to him: Sister, I was wrong, it was all my fault, I caused you trouble, I really hope you are happy, I hope you and sister-in-law love each other To grow old together, go live your happy life!Leave me alone!

Sister: Qiqi, I know you are crying now, use a tissue to wipe your tears!

My tears flowed out like a spring: Sister, I just can't leave you, I just want to be with you, I don't want to hurt anyone!

Sister: I know Qiqi, I know you!

I suddenly became strong, I love him so much that I can let go just to love him, why can't I let go since a relationship can't be kept?I wiped away my tears and said to him: Sister, I don't blame you, I love you, and I can even let go just to love you!I only wish you happiness!As long as you can get happiness if you leave me, then you can go and have a good time with my sister-in-law!

Sister: Don't forget our agreement!

Me: See you in the next life!

Suddenly I panicked and said hurriedly with trembling hands: "Wait, sister!"

Sister: Qiqi, I'm here!

Tears streamed down my face again, I hope that in the years to come, no matter what time, no matter what happens, I can hear his words: Qi Qi, I am here!However, this may be the last time, the last time he stayed by my side, the pain of despair swallowed me, although my uncomfortable heart seems to be pickled in strong salt water, I still have to hold on to this last night Timing: Sister, I want to ask you one last question!

Sister: Tell me!

Me: Sister, do you love me?

Sister: What do you think?

Yes, what did I say?How could I not feel his love?It's just that the order of appearance in life is too important, I was late, in his life course, I came too late!

I let my tears flow down my cheeks: Sister, I am content with this!I just ask you to give me time and patience, tell me to leave you slowly, if I pester you, please don't bother me, I have to gather courage and strength slowly to walk away from you!

On the other end of the network was his long silence: I know you, Qiqi!

I feel like I have thousands of words but I can't say anything, so I just wrote down: Good night!

Sister: Good night, Qiqi!

We said goodnight as we always do every night!