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After Chen Xin avoided Cheng Xin, his social circle was almost reduced to zero, because their friends almost overlapped, and it could even be said that all of his friends were Cheng Xin's friends. off his friends.Chen Xin began to walk alone, and he realized very sadly that he thought he had changed a lot, his personality became more cheerful, and his life was no longer as monotonous and closed as before. On the basis of Xin being together, without Cheng Xin, he would have nothing, and what he had was only learning.

This New Year's Day holiday was Chen Xin's happiest holiday. Every time he thought of Cheng Xin, he felt inexplicably uncomfortable. It was a pain that he couldn't let go of but had to let go.The grandparents found that the eldest grandson was depressed and unable to do anything. This was the first time such a situation had occurred. The old couple quietly discussed: Could it be because he failed the exam?Grandma cautiously probed: "Xinxin, is it too much pressure to study? It doesn't matter if you fail the exam occasionally."

Chen Xin realized that her depression had affected her family, so she cheered up quickly: "No, no, it's not about exams."

It's not about the exam?Grandma was even more worried: "Why is that?"

Chen Xin was speechless, indeed, it wasn't the study that bothered her, it was something more serious, Chen Xin didn't know how to explain to grandma, so she lied and said: "Yes, it's this monthly exam, but, Maybe you didn't pass the test."

When grandma heard this, she felt relieved: "It doesn't matter, I didn't pass the exam this time and I will take the exam next time." Chen Xin's study has never been a worry, so grandma thinks that occasionally failing the exam is not a big problem.

Chen Xin prevaricated grandma by failing the exam, but when she returned to school, she found out that it was a prophecy, and she really failed the exam.Almost every subject has a slight decline. For the first time, I only scored more than 120 points in mathematics, 260 points in comprehensive science, 130 points in Chinese, and 120 points in English. The total score is only 652 points. , not even reaching the top five.You know, because of Chen Xin's drive, all the students in the whole grade have the motivation to strive for the top. Looking at Chen Xin's score, everyone knows that the limit can be challenged, and they are also willing to challenge. Struggle with Chen Xin as the goal, and get higher scores every time.

Now, this goal that everyone pursued suddenly fell from the altar. For a while, the whole school was in an uproar: What happened?Chen Xin only got such a few points in the test!

Chen Xin fell to No.9, which has never happened before!Not only Chen Xin himself couldn't believe it, but almost everyone who knew him was shocked. Cheng Xin's reaction was the most intense. He snatched Chen Xin's test paper and said firmly, "The teacher must have miscalculated the answer!"

Chen Xin snatched the test paper back from him: "Give it to me! Yes, I was wrong." He was ashamed at the moment, and he checked the test paper carefully the first time he got it. The questions on the test paper were not his. I can't do it, but I was too careless during the exam. I didn't avoid some traps, some didn't see the questions clearly, and even made calculation mistakes.This ending was caused by his being too absent-minded during the exam, and now he has finally received retribution.

Cheng Xin opened his eyes wide and looked at him in disbelief: "What's wrong with you, Chen Xin, did you feel unwell during the exam?"

Chen Xin lowered his head and shook his head, not daring to face Cheng Xin's concerned eyes. His eyes were full of tears, and he felt extremely frustrated. He messed up everything, lost Cheng Xin and his friends, and also lost Learning this is the only spiritual pillar, he really doesn't know if he can do one thing well.This is the first time that Chen Xin has suffered setbacks in his studies at such a young age. This kind of blow is not insignificant. He feels that all this is caused by himself. If it is not because his thoughts have deviated from the track, then he still has friendship now. Still learning happily and not messing everything up, this is God's punishment for him.

Cheng Xin still didn't give up: "Did you delay your studies because of rehearsals?"

"No." Chen Xin shook her head desperately, don't make excuses for herself anymore, that's not a reason at all!

Seeing that he just shook his head, Cheng Xin refused to say a word. Remembering that they were still arguing recently, he stopped talking. After class, he went out.Chen Xin corrected the mistakes on the test paper stroke by stroke, turning a deaf ear to the noisy voices around him and everyone's suspicious eyes.

Cheng Xin went to find Xu Junshang: "Chen Xin failed the exam, could it be because of me?"

Xu Junshang was a little surprised: "Did you do poorly in the exam?"

"Well, I'm ninth in the whole grade." Cheng Xin was very frustrated. Chen Xin's regress was even more uncomfortable than his own regress.

Xu Junshang frowned: "Could it be because our rehearsal last month delayed his study?"

"I don't know, but he said no. He hasn't talked to me recently, and avoided me like a plague god. He said he was afraid of causing people to misunderstand his relationship with me. I don't even understand what there is to be afraid of!" Thinking of this, Cheng Xin became irritated for no reason.

Of course Xu Junshang also knew that Chen Xin was avoiding Cheng Xin, because he hadn't eaten with everyone for a long time, he thought for a while: "Chen Xin will have such a reaction, which means that he may have realized his feelings for you, but he There are too many things to worry about, and it is impossible for him to accept it all at once, so he wants to avoid you, but he is actually avoiding himself. You have to give him time to slow down. "

Cheng Xin didn't feel happy when he heard this. Can Chen Xin recover?There was nothing, he just backed away like a turtle.

Xu Junshang patted him on the shoulder: "Brother Xin, Chen Xin is different from us. Studying is his only way out. If you want to do his best, you have to be considerate of him and don't add to his psychological burden."

Cheng Xin felt a little wronged: "But I didn't do anything!"

Xu Junshang said: "Then try to cooperate with him. Whatever he wants, you can cooperate with him."

Cheng Xin looked at the pitch-black campus and sighed, "Okay, as he wishes."

Xu Junshang looked at Cheng Xin's side face, once anyone fell in love, no matter how arrogant, free and fearless you were before, they would become humble and timid and worry about gain and loss.Cheng Xin's fiery temper was subdued by Chen Xin and became positive. Who can say that puppy love is a bad thing?He patted Cheng Xin on the shoulder: "Come on, brother Xin! I think Chen Xin just can't get over the hurdle in his heart. Once he figured it out, everything will be fine."

Cheng Xin shrugged: "I hope." Then he turned and walked downstairs.

Xu Junshang looked at his back, and added: "Brother Xin, don't forget your goal, come on!"

Cheng Xin looked back at him and nodded: "Yeah." Jun Shang was afraid that Chen Xin's attitude would affect his determination and would give up that goal. How could he give up? No matter what, he would be by his side, no matter what. Change your original intention.

When Cheng Xin returned to the classroom, he peeked at Chen Xin and found that Chen Xin was doing the questions quietly with his head down. The expression on his face could not be seen clearly from the side of his face, but it could be seen from the corners of his tightly pursed mouth that He came with determination, and this exam must have dealt him a big blow.Cheng Xin took out his notebook and wrote a sentence to Chen Xin: Victory or defeat is a common matter in military affairs. A mistake in a monthly exam does not mean anything. Come on, you are the best!

Chen Xin glanced at the notebook, didn't say a word, just sucked her nose hard, then lowered her head and continued to do the questions, but her eyes couldn't help being sore, she must work hard, and don't disappoint and worry those who care about her.

After class in the evening, all the classmates left, and Chen Xin stayed in the classroom to do the questions, just like when he first came to Risheng, racing against time and not wasting a minute.Cheng Xin also quietly accompanied him. He accumulated a lot of questions, but he didn't dare to ask Chen Xin for fear of disturbing his train of thought.There were still 1 minutes before the lights were turned off, Cheng Xin put away the pen: "The lights are going to be turned off soon, let's go back."

Hearing this, Chen Xin put the pen in her hand into the holder, and suddenly realized that this pen belonged to Cheng Xin, and her damaged pen was still with him, so she said, "Where is my pen?" He hadn't spoken for a long time, and his voice was completely hoarse.

Cheng Xin didn't react immediately: "What?"

Chen Xin said: "My steel and pen are broken, the broken one."

Cheng Xin remembered: "Oh, it's still at my place. It hasn't been repaired yet. I'll give it to you when I fix it. I'll fix it during the winter vacation."

Chen Xin nodded slightly, got up silently and went back to the dormitory.

Cheng Xin turned off the lights, doors and windows of the classroom and followed him. He had a lot to say to comfort Chen Xin, but he felt that no matter how much he said, it would be useless. Chen Xin might have already made plans and plans.Cheng Xin looked at the dark night sky and cleared his throat: "I'll tell you a joke..." After he finished speaking, but didn't get any response, Cheng Xin suddenly felt that the joke he said was so cold, and couldn't help but Shivered, he didn't like Chen Xin like this very much, Chen Xin started to keep quiet again, didn't know how to laugh, it was so heart-wrenching, but he didn't know what to do, he felt sorry for him, but I don't know what to do for him, so I can only accompany him silently.

Chen Xin failed in the exam. Many teachers have talked to Chen Xin. They just asked him why, saying that he had seen his test papers and made some low-level mistakes. He asked him to be more careful in the future and encouraged him not to be affected.When the first teacher talked to Chen Xin, he was still a little touched, but what the latter teacher said was almost the same, and he didn't even remember what the other party said to him.

Fang Juan was the last to talk to him, and he cut to the chase: "I didn't want to talk to you at first. Exams are like battlefields. There are no generals who win forever. Failure is common, but if I don't talk to you, it seems that I haven't done my duty. , just call over and chat casually. In fact, I think it’s okay to get six, seven, eight or nine in the exam if you make a mistake now and then, what do you think?”

Chen Xin looked up at Fang Jun, wanting to see if the other party was joking.Although Fang Juan's expression was very relaxed, he didn't mean to be joking. Fang Juan continued: "The teacher is not joking. You have always been the first in the exam before, and you have never tasted the feeling of failure, but you must know that there is a sky outside the sky, and there are people outside the world." , even if you don’t fail this exam, sooner or later you will taste this taste, I think it’s better to taste it earlier.”

Chen Xin raised her head to look at Fang Jun, and this time she didn't look away again.Fang Jun said with a smile: "Actually, it feels lonely to always be at the top, isn't it? Didn't Su Dongpo say that the heights are extremely cold, and everyone has very high expectations of you and a lot of praise for you, but If one day you fail to meet their expectations, there will be more accusations and abuse, and such a gap sometimes crushes people's emotions."

Chen Xin thought carefully about what Fang Jun said, and it seemed to make sense. This time he failed the exam, almost everyone looked at him with disbelief and sympathy, especially Cheng Xin's reaction, he didn't even dare to go Thinking about the reactions of his grandparents and neighbors when he knew that his grades had dropped, everyone's deep-rooted perception that he should take the first place is the source of his pressure, so he also feels that he has lost his whole life because of a failure in a quiz. Even all the confidence in the world.

Fang Juan raised his hand and patted him on the shoulder: "We are all human beings. How can humans not make mistakes or make mistakes? This is all normal. Keep a normal mind, anything can happen, since it happened, We can't resist, so we just accept it. This is the best way to deal with the problem. Compared with taking the No.1 exam, I hope that each of my students will live an active and healthy life, have ideals and pursuits, and have a little hobby and fun. Have fun and enjoy life, after all life is not just study and exams. Are you right?"

Chen Xin almost burst into tears after hearing these words. He has been very emotional recently, and his tears are shallow. He has secretly wiped away his tears a few times at night. He nodded: "Yeah."

Fang Jun said: "If you have anything to say to the teacher, you can come to chat with me at any time, or you can chat with Teacher Zhou."

Chen Xin nodded, bowed to Fang Jun, and went out.Although Fang Juan's words could not solve his real problems, they provided him with another direction of thinking. In politics class, it was always said that everything has pros and cons. Fang Juan never mentioned to him that he failed the exam. It doesn’t matter, you have to study hard. On the contrary, it is a good thing to fail the exam. This just proves this point of view. If you change your thinking angle, your life will suddenly become clear.So he should also think about the problem in a different way. Life is not only the first, but also not only the exam, so don't get too horny.

Chen Xin's mood became lighter, and her steps became much lighter.When he walked into the classroom, he saw Cheng Xin turned his head to look at him with worried eyes, and for some reason, he gave him a slight smile.This was the first time Cheng Xin saw Chen Xin smiling in so many days, his eyes suddenly became hot, and his uneasy heart was finally relieved, Chen Xin smiled, which meant that he should have looked away.

Chen Xin returned to her seat, took out a piece of paper, and wrote a sentence: Thank you for your concern, I'm fine, and I will study hard in the future.

Cheng Xin smiled: Come on!

Although their relationship has not been reconciled, it is not as alienated as before, separated by a thick cold wall.Occasionally, Cheng Xin would ask Chen Xin two questions, and Chen Xin would answer him patiently, but most of the time, Cheng Xin accumulated the questions and asked the teacher instead of wasting Chen Xin's time.

Sometimes when eating, Xu Junshang would go to eat with Chen Xin, Junshang is always considerate, his words can always make people relax.

In this way, until the end of the semester, when the exams were over and the holidays were over, Cheng Xin didn't ask Chen Xin to make up lessons for him.During the winter vacation, he plans to hire a few tutors, tutor in the morning, and make an appointment with Xie Shijie to participate in the special basketball training in the afternoon. Without Chen Xin's company, he will lose a little motivation in life, but he can't give up, because Chen Xin is his dream. What is the difference between a person without dreams and a salted fish?