There is a pregnant woman at home

My hesitation, in Ji Luojue's eyes, changed my taste.She looked aside silently for a long time, and then smiled wryly after a while and said, "Do you think I'm terrible, to have done so many things behind your back?"

"But these are nothing. In order to get back to you, I even did not hesitate to use your family. Now that I think about it, it is really selfish..."

Take advantage of my family?Where did this remark come from?

Ji Luojue sighed faintly, and after a while of silence, she slowly returned to the bed and sat down: "Xiao Er, I suddenly feel very tired, maybe you are right, we are not the same way, we really shouldn't be forced to be together Together."

I was startled, and just about to speak, her lifeless words rang from my ears again.

"I've done so much painstakingly, so what if I finally get you? I'm in charge of everything, and you've been obedient and passive from beginning to end, not to mention I'm using it behind your back. There are so many disgraceful means that cannot be treated by outsiders. Even if we are together again, I still need to maintain it carefully, and even take the risk of turning against me after you know the truth. Not only do I live tired, but you also cannot relax ..."

"It can only be obtained through such force, can it still be called true love?"

After finishing speaking, she lowered her head and let out another long sigh, then raised her hand and waved: "I'm tired, I want to sleep for a while, you go out."

Her condition doesn't seem quite right, so how can I rest assured?So he walked to her side carefully and sat down, comforting softly: "Luo Jue, let the past go, don't think too much about it. As for me and Xiao Xiao..."

"Xiao Xiao is a good girl," Ji Luojue interrupted me, her head was still slightly drooping, making it hard to see the expression on her face, but there was no trace of reluctance or unwillingness in her words.

"She loves you very much, I can see that. She is also very kind... That's why I broke up with you. I'm just... shamelessly climbed into your brother's bed, tried my best to give birth to your Ye family's child but never A woman who cannot even be recognized is not worthy of your love at all."

"Luo Jue, don't say that."

She didn't seem to understand the urgency in my words at all, she raised her head and looked sadly: "How dare you say, you have never thought about it like this before?"

"I..." Even if I really thought about it, it still doesn't mean anything at all, let alone explain what I really think before all the misunderstandings are resolved.

The air was silent for a moment, and while he was struggling, the bedroom door suddenly opened.

Mrs. Ji approached slowly, first looked at us without any trace, then looked at me and said, "When did you come back? I didn't see it anyway."

"Oh, I've been back for a while, and I saw that you were teasing Little Meatball, so I didn't bother you."

She gave a soft "hmm", then turned her head to look at Ji Luojue again: "Xiao Wanzi is hungry, go and see and feed her some milk."

Ji Luojue looked up in surprise: "Is she crying?"

I was a little puzzled: this was the first time I saw a mother who was so happy when she heard that her child was crying.

"No. But that little mouth kept babbling, and he didn't close his eyes to sleep after being coaxed for a long time, probably because he was hungry."

"Oh." Ji Luojue's face was full of undisguised disappointment, and after a while, she turned around and went out in a low mood.

I got up and wanted to go out to have a look, but Mrs. Ji suddenly raised her hand to stop her: "Wait a minute, I have something to say."

"Huh? What?"

I don't know if the conversation many years ago left a psychological shadow. I was instinctively afraid of being alone with her.But it was impossible to refuse, so I had to obediently walk to the dressing table and move the soft stool over for him to sit on, while I deliberately opened a distance and stood a little farther away silently.

Mrs. Ji raised her head and saw all my actions, but didn't say anything.After a while, he thought about it and said straight to the point: "Do you think there is something wrong with Xiao Jue?"

This statement coincided with what I thought in my heart, and I nodded subconsciously: "It's not right, but I can't say why."

"If I'm not mistaken, it should be postpartum depression."

"Ah?" My mind went blank for a moment: "You mean she has depression?"

How is this possible?Although I have never been exposed to postpartum depression, the word "depression" seems to have nothing to do with Ji Luojue, who has a strong personality.

"Did you... make a mistake? How could Luo Jue, who is... uh... strong, suffer from depression?"

"Psychologically strong?"

Mrs. Ji obviously scoffed at this statement, and at the same time, she seemed a little upset. Although her eyes did not fall on me, she always felt that the corner of her eyes seemed to be murderous, and she was silently staring at me from the side.

"It's precisely because she has a strong mind, and she is used to hiding everything by herself and not telling others. Of course, it will be unbearable after a long time. Besides, whoever said that people with a strong mind will not suffer from postpartum depression? Others I dare not say that not long after I gave birth to Xiaojue, I developed a slight tendency to depression, and if her father hadn’t discovered it early and treated it promptly, I don’t know what it would have developed into.”

I turned my head cautiously and looked over: "Postpartum depression, can it be inherited?"

"I don't know if it will be inherited, but judging by her recent performance, it's probably not wrong. A woman's mood throughout pregnancy is especially important. If she doesn't take good care of it, she has a high chance of getting this disease."

The conversation stopped here, and Mrs. Ji raised her head and stared at me dissatisfied: "In order to be with you, she left home in a fit of anger, and even ran to conceive a child of unknown origin by herself without saying a word, fearing that I would not accept it, until the child It was only after I was born that I found out that I was reluctant to go back home. Later, for some reason, I refused to listen to persuasion and insisted on returning to you. No!"

Mrs. Ji's eyes were full of distress and reluctance that couldn't be concealed, but there was more helplessness in it. She vividly expressed the anxious emotions of a mother who was worried about her daughter, and I couldn't help feeling a little bit ashamed in my heart: I really didn't take good care of the daughter who was raised in the palm of my hand like a baby, otherwise, Ji Luojue wouldn't have worked so hard to give birth to a baby, but still got such a disease.

Seeing that I kept my head down and didn't speak, Mrs. Ji couldn't make any more reproaches, so she sighed quietly and continued: "You saw that too, right? Ever since she was not discharged from the hospital, she always felt that something was wrong with Xiaowanzi, saying It's not normal for her to be so quiet without crying or fussing, and even after a full body check, she still doesn't feel relieved."

I nodded, Ji Luojue often looked at the little meatball with a worried expression on her face, especially when she was not discharged from the hospital, every time the big fat boy in the next bed cried loudly, she was full of envy, shaking the cradle with both hands , as if she had to make her own daughter cry to make her happy.

But it's also strange, the little meatball is really different, unless he urinates and cries twice to greet you to come and change the diaper, he basically doesn't cry or make trouble when he's hungry. Arms, legs, and signals are all based on personal experience.Fortunately, there is an "experienced" Mrs. Ji, who can tell from her facial expressions that her precious granddaughter is hungry - or because she is so good at observing, the little girl is more at ease, even when it is time to eat No signal anymore?

This is of course a joke. Speaking of it, if there is no Mrs. Ji, Ji Luojue and I, two new mothers and aunts, no matter how many confinement sisters-in-law and nannies are invited, I am afraid that we will be at a loss. .What's more, Miss Ji still looks so sad and sad.

Thinking of this, my heart was mixed with sadness, and I looked at the only experienced person present as if asking for help.

"Is it because Little Rouwan was too quiet and worried too much, so she got depression?"

Mrs. Ji glanced at me indifferently, her expression was not angry but mighty: "There are many causes of depression, and I can't explain the specifics. Worrying about the child should be just one of them. Don't you have any problems between you? When I came in just now, you two What are you talking about, Xiao Jue doesn't look very happy."

"I..." Ji Luojue once reminded her ten thousand times not to tell Mrs. Ji about Xiao Xiao.If I guess right, in the version she told her mother, the two of us should be a couple from beginning to end, and there is nothing wrong with others.Otherwise, once she knew the truth, how could Mrs. Ji give me such a good face now?

I was hesitating and didn't know how to answer, Madam Ji waved her hand: "I don't want to ask too much about the matter between you, now the little meatball is Xiao Jue's biggest knot, everything else is secondary."

Speaking of this, she showed doubts: "The little girl is indeed quieter, but she is very good. How could Xiaojue suspect that she has a physical problem? Could it be... What problems did she encounter when she was born?"

What she said really reminded me that Ji Luojue did encounter a lot of twists and turns when giving birth, and the baby stayed in the mother's womb for a long time, and the birth process could even be called "tragic". Could it be because of this, Was Ji Luojue always worried that her health would be affected?

Mrs. Ji loves her daughter dearly, and Ji Luojue knows it better than anyone else. She knows that if she tells the truth about the danger she encountered during childbirth, Mrs. Ji will be heartbroken and will definitely impose all the faults on me without asking any questions. At that time, I would scold me with sneering words, and I don’t know what kind of savage I will be when it is serious, so I kept hiding what happened when Little Meatball was born.

She is thinking about me everywhere, but now, since it involves the root cause of her illness, how can I hide it for self-protection?Immediately, he told everything that happened the night Little Rouwan was born, and told the person in front of him everything.