There is a pregnant woman at home

Xiao Xiao and I sat on the sofa facing each other, with only a tea table between us, but for some reason, it felt as if we were separated by the width of a Milky Way.

She stared at me for a long time. To put it bluntly, that kind of eyes looked exactly like she was saying goodbye to the corpse.If it weren't for the fact that I haven't had a physical examination recently, I would have thought that she would suddenly take out a medical examination report from behind her in the next second, and then cry and say, "Cheng Er, you don't have many days to live..."

In fact, if that's the case, I think it's pretty good, at least I don't have to face all kinds of entanglements in my heart, and I don't have to continue to hurt two innocent women.

"Cheng Er," Xiao Xiao said slowly, as if he had made up his mind.

"let's break up."

This sentence is very light, as if it was just lightly brushed by the ear by a feather floating in the wind, you will subconsciously feel... You must have heard it wrong.

I raised my head in a daze, without concealing the astonishment in my eyes. While feeling incredible, I couldn't avoid a kind of relief rising from the deepest part of my heart.

"I……"

What should I say now under normal circumstances?Ask her why with a confused face, or, crying with tears in her eyes, don't leave me?

In fact, it's not that I don't know that in the current situation, breaking up is a relief for the three of us.Although I didn't love enough in the past, at least I had the purest and most sincere heart when facing Xiao Xiao, but now, if I don't even have these things, what can I do to continue walking with her?

Xiao Xiao looked at me without blinking. There was clearly a lot of reluctance and nostalgia in that expression. I didn't know why, but when I was about to ask, she suddenly raised her hand and interrupted me.

"Let me start with... ok?"

The firmness in her eyes was undeniable, and I couldn't do anything else except nod.

"Cheng Er, you are fine, really fine..."

It seems to be a fixed routine when you are rejected and take the initiative to break up, but I know that the girl in front of me has never known how to use routines. She has the most genuine and pure heart, no matter what she faces. what kind of person.

"Do you know... why I fell in love with you?"

I shook my head, looked at the tear-filled person in front of me, and suddenly smiled.

"Actually, I don't know either." She murmured, her voice was very low, her eyes were blurred, as if she had traveled through the present and returned to the time when they first met.

"At first I thought it was good, because you donated generously and lent money to me, who was a stranger at the time, for emergency. At that time, I was just curious. In this society, who else would do such a stupid thing? ? If it’s not that you have too much money to spend, then you must treat money like dung.”

She seemed to be telling a very distant story, her voice was low and eloquent, and she herself seemed to be immersed in such beauty, unconsciously showing the happiest smile.

"But it wasn't until we met and got to know each other that nothing was clear. You are just a conscientious and diligent little civil servant with an idle job and a meager salary. While ensuring that the salary can support me, I must also work hard to settle down a small nest in this city for my future self."

"Cheng Er," she stopped talking and looked up at me.

"I've always wanted to ask, did you have no worries and fears in your heart when you lent me a part of the money you were planning to pay the down payment at the beginning, and didn't you even regret it afterwards?"

I was a little dazed, and although I didn't know why she suddenly mentioned something so long ago, I still shook my head slightly.

"Although we don't know each other, my colleague is nice, so she probably won't lie to me."

Xiao Xiao looked up at me steadily: "Yes, that's it. In your eyes, everyone seems to be a good person. You will always believe that no one will lie to you."

ah?I looked up at her in a daze: Isn't it wrong to think so, shouldn't it?

"You are the purest person, and you have always maintained the kindness at the beginning of your life. I used to think that it might be because you lived a comfortable life, from childhood to adulthood, without any setbacks, adversities or even injuries. It was not until later... I know you were hurt so badly..."

"I think..." Xiao Xiao sniffed lightly, looked up at me and smiled warmly: "Maybe from that moment, I really began to fall in love with you deeply, and it was hard to extricate myself."

My heart was touched, and I subconsciously wanted to raise my hand to wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes, but hesitated, and finally put it back slowly.

Seeing this, Xiao Xiao didn't say anything, turned slightly sideways, rolled up his cuffs and quickly wiped away the tears, then turned around and looked at me with a bright smile on his face.

"I..." After hesitating for a long time, I sighed and said slowly, "I'm not as good as you think, I'm not worth it..."

"Not worthy of my love, right?"

Xiao Xiao interrupted me, looking at the long past through the present, and smiled lightly after a while.

"Actually, at the beginning, I just thought you were a nice person, a friend that I could make close friends with. But ah, the curiosity and admiration at the beginning gradually fermented and changed the taste. A little bit of temptation led me to get closer, and the more I understood, But the more I like it, the more I can’t help myself."

She paused before continuing: "Mingming looks smiling and can trust people easily, but she always wraps herself in a body of thorns like a hedgehog, so that people can't really get close; on the dinner table, Mingming's cups of wine are intertwined, and everyone pushes him away." Changing cups is so lively, but only the side where you are sitting is surprisingly silent and alienated; all of these seem to have a special magical power that attracts me..."

Xiao Xiao smiled "hehe", unable to tell whether it was sweet or bitter, or both.

"Maybe love is like this. At first, it was just a little tempting. The affection was so faint that I couldn't even notice it, but it would be like a seed, slowly take root and sprout in my heart, and finally grow into a towering tree. At that time, he was already deeply trapped in it and could not extricate himself.”

I don't know what to say, and besides, at a time like this, it's useless to say anything.

"I thought..." The corners of her eyes began to glow again: "I can always love you without hesitation without asking for anything in return, but...it turns out that I really can't do it..."

She hung her head in silence, and for a while, crystal clear teardrops dripped on the carpet under her feet, and she fainted little by little.

"Perhaps people's hearts are like this. Once satisfied, they will continue to desire more. I tried my best to be with you, even... I even used lies to force you to be with me..."

As soon as my body froze, I subconsciously raised my head to look at her, Xiao Xiao still hung her head unaware, and continued to murmur, "Actually, you should also have doubts, but once you hear the answer from my mouth, you don't hesitate to tell yourself All the doubts in my heart were overturned. You don’t want or want to question anything I said, so you choose to believe without hesitation, right?”

She raised her head slowly, her nose was slightly red, and her eyes were filled with tears.

"I...don't say that... how can it be considered coercion, it's... I voluntarily..." This relationship has been unfair to Xiao Xiao from the beginning to now, how can I bear to continue to see her belittle herself like this.

"Why isn't it considered coercion? It's clear... It's because I used that nonexistent night as a bargaining chip that you had no choice but to stay with me..."

She raised her eyes and looked at me without blinking: "Cheng Er, if I hadn't threatened you with what happened that night, would you still agree...to be with me?"

can you?Not only did she want to know the answer, but I also wanted to know it myself.

"I..." It is undeniable that at the moment of knowing that the events of that night did not exist, my heart is relaxed.I'm not rejoicing, but I feel that, no matter whether it is intentional or not, at least I have done a little less harm to this pure and beautiful girl in front of me.

Doing my best to minimize the damage to her is what I want to do most at the moment.

So no matter what the correct answer is, I still replied without the slightest hesitation: "No, I am willing to be with you. Xiao Xiao, you... really don't have to blame yourself for this matter."

"Really? You don't blame me?"

The heaviness in her eyes became lighter, as if she had suddenly untied a certain shackle in her heart, and she instantly became a little more relaxed.

I shook my head slightly, what's the point of blaming or not blaming?Our relationship may have started wrongly and ended hastily, but at least everyone was sincere during the whole process. If we really want to blame, we can only... blame the good fortune... too funny...

"Cheng Er..." Xiao Xiao didn't know why the corners of his eyes became more and more red: "Why don't you blame me? You blame me, blame me, okay? At least if I feel guilty in my heart, I won't be so reluctant..."

reluctant?Then why do you want to break up?I am confused.

Even though I knew that the breakup was responsible for the three of us, I couldn't clearly see that she was struggling in every possible way, but I didn't care about it.

"Xiao Xiao, is it... What did I do wrong? That's why I let you..."

Xiao Xiao shook his head, bent over suddenly and grabbed my hand that was on the tea table, his eyes that had been stained by tears for countless times showed reluctance, entanglement, pain, but also a trace of determination in a very contradictory way.

"You're very good, really good." Again, she stared at my face and murmured over and over again: "Although I don't love you, I can feel that you are working hard to be good to me, so Trying to fall in love with me very seriously, really, I can feel it all the time. Although you keep saying that you are in love with me, but Cheng Er, many times you treat me better than me."