[Quick Transmigration] Xiao Shou is always dying

A piece of paper weighs more than a thousand catties.

Zhong Zizhen's hands were trembling, as if he couldn't bear the light weight of this ordinary notebook paper, the handwriting was as delicate as his own, and the smooth strokes seemed to tell that its owner was so fresh, obviously thin A piece of paper, but Zhong Zizhen felt overwhelmed.

Through these handwritings, he seemed to see that young man with a light smile, sitting in front of the old writing desk in his room, writing these contents under the dim light. The light is warm and clear. His back must be straight like a green pine, just like a good painting, which is eye-catching and makes people feel extremely comfortable at a glance.

Just like when he was still in college, sitting in the classroom was always the most eye-catching scenery.

Josh... Zhong Zizhen's eyes blurred, something fell with a thud, the notebook paper in his hand was folded, and the water droplets gradually seeped into the paper, making the ink blurred and unclear. The picture in my mind seems to be blurred and yellowed because of this, how is it possible?

This is, are you kidding me?How can a letter left by someone who ran away from home look like a suicide note?It's not funny at all - Josh, who is considerate and introverted, can't do such a wicked thing, can he?

Thinking like this in my heart, but the tingling sensation in my throat is getting stronger and stronger, and my breathing is getting hotter and harder.Zhong Zizhen wanted to smile, and loudly told Zhong Limei and Du Yiming that it couldn't be true, but the dark clouds had already gathered, and Mount Tai had long been on his mind.

More and more drops of water rushed out, and Zhong Zizhen realized how terrible it is to know a person——

It is absolutely impossible for Josh to do such a thing to make fun of other people's sadness. Josh hates pranks, just like what he wrote in his letter, if he can read this letter, it must be his relief.

Liberation, what is liberation?An extremely humble suicide note that looks like an apology letter?Zhong Zizhen’s heart hurts for a while, the letter said so plainly, everything is understated, all the guilt is turned into a sentence of sorry, into a self-talk that is not worthy of forgiveness, and does not expect to be forgiven——Zhong Zizhen I can't even imagine what kind of mood Josh wrote this letter.

And along the way, what kind of mood is Josh, struggling without seeing the dawn, walking in the endless border of hell, carrying everything alone, is it already out of breath, persisting, and smiling at them , isn't it, every doubt, every rejection, every surge of murderous intent, is pushing Josh into the abyss.What caused Josh to see no hope, waiting for such a "relief"?

but.

Josh.

You are so selfish.

Who allowed you to use death as an excuse to escape? !Zhong Zizhen grabbed the edge of the paper fiercely, every phalanx was aching from too much force, but he didn't respond, just mechanically opened his eyes wide, trying hard to see the black and white words in front of him, his eyes were burning with anger. Hong felt extremely painful, trembling uncontrollably——

You are so selfish!You coward!Now that I know I was wrong, I can’t do more for my mistakes, instead of thinking that I can’t be forgiven, I don’t want to face it, and I convict myself?Josh, you let me down so much, you think I will forgive you by leaving such a letter?

Tell you - impossible!forever!

Obviously, obviously I'm about to let go, I'm about to forgive you, why can't you hold on a little longer?Josh!Who allowed you to leave?Who gave you permission to go--don't you ask for forgiveness?How can you close your eyes without hearing my answer with your own mouth?

Zhong Zizhen let out a miserable laugh and shook his head violently, no, he didn't believe it!Josh can't die!

"Bang——" There was a loud slamming door, which seemed to shake the whole house, but in the blink of an eye, there was no one in the room, only the suicide note slowly fell to the ground, and it was still trembling. No one cared about the wooden door, only the sound of rapid and swift footsteps came over, and it turned out that it was getting farther away.

Shi Yang was startled by Zhong Zizhen rushing over suddenly, he was going downstairs with a large basin of dirty water that was reddish in color, seeing this he hastily stepped aside, but the gust of wind blowing on his face still made him squint. Squinting his eyes, Josh's room was at the end of the corridor on the second floor. He glanced back, with an indelible heaviness on his face.

Everyone was devastated by Josh's departure, and he knew it.

It is not the first time he has faced the cruelty of the end times. It is not the first time he has seen his partner die in front of him. On the way from his hometown all the way down to the base, he has seen too much death and too much humanity. The ugliness of life, this kind of life made him indifferent, so that if someone died in front of him now, he would not even fluctuate.He thought he was used to it.

But today he realized that it was different.

Looking at his comrades who fought side by side yesterday, the feeling of lying on the bed so cold, really made him unable to breathe.He still remembered that when he met Josh for the first time, it was not a happy occasion. He could only cover up his embarrassment and embarrassment with a smile. He never said how much he admired and envied Josh, his clear eyes and teammates. His maintenance and respect all show that Josh is... an unpolluted person.

Originally, he thought that he would instinctively hate such a person, but in contrast, isn't his filthiness obvious at a glance?But after getting in touch, I realized it wasn't.On the contrary, Josh was the one who made him feel comfortable. The way Josh looked at him didn't have any feeling he imagined, just like water, indifferent but inclusive.After getting along with him, I realized that it is too difficult not to like Josh. He is not the protected Xiao Baihua, he is calm and wise, bold but careful, he clearly feels the cruelty of the end times, but miraculously maintains his The one before the end of the world... normal and calm.Isn't it normal for such a person to be guarded by a knight like Zhong Limei?

He still remembered Josh's smile, not so bright, but always warm and bright.

Shi Yang even once thought that Josh was one of the few beautiful gifts left in the last days, but now, such Josh has finally been deprived of his life by the cruel last days.He is the youngest member of the team, and he feels unspeakable heartache, let alone Brother Du and the others all along?

At this time, the language was so pale that he couldn't say a word, didn't dare to say it, and could only do some small things in silence, but when a person is alive, he always has to look forward, just like time, not because of a person The passing away stops.Now, let him save time for those three people.

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Zhong Zizhen pushed open the wooden door suddenly, with such great force that the solid wooden door groaned. There was very little furniture in the small room. There was a single bed and a writing desk under the window. , two chairs, and little else.

It is clear at a glance.The two tall men beside the bed made Josh's single bed look very crowded. Du Yiming sat on the edge of the bed and let Josh lie on his lap, supporting Josh's body with both hands, and Zhong Limei stood in front of the bed , wrapped Josh's hair with a clean towel, and it could be seen that the two of them should have just washed Josh's hair, and they were asking Josh to sit up and dry.

He looks good.The skin is porcelain white, even reflecting a moist luster, the lip color is a little light, but it can be seen that there is a little pink, which is completely different from those...The eyes are closed, the long eyelashes are like small fans, quietly lying on his lower eyelids, wearing a white shirt, which makes him look young and innocent, the typical kind that provokes female maternity The appearance of a flood of youthful college students.

Zhong Zizhen was panting heavily, he took every step, every step seemed to exhaust all his strength, but he walked to the bed, such a short distance made Zhong Zizhen physically and mentally exhausted, his shoulders, why were they so heavy.

After a few breaths, Zhong Zizhen stood in front of Josh's bed.

Zhong Limo glanced at him, with some surprise in his eyes—his brother had always been very intimidating to Josh, even a little defensive, now that Josh was gone, gone, he thought... why, his brother looked younger than him to be sad?Zhongli Mo thought, his eye sockets were wet again, obviously he was fine before departure, who would have thought it would be like this...

With trembling fingers, Zhong Limei shrugged his shoulders and let out a small gasp. A single tear fell on the green towel, staining a wet mark as big as a fifty-cent coin. Zhong Limo quickly lowered his head and rubbed it on his arm. , The hand holding the towel moved gently.

The letter was addressed to "Brother Zizhen", so other people would naturally not open it, nor would they know the contents.

The towel in Zhong Limei's hand was held by Zhong Zizhen, Zhong Limei let go of his hand obediently, he was so uncomfortable that he could hardly breathe.In the end, Josh only left a letter to his brother. It must be different for his brother... He really couldn't face it, the cold Josh, the cold and heart-piercing Josh!Taking two steps to the side, Zhongli Mo turned his head, not wanting others to see his wanton tears.

Zhong Zizhen held the soft towel, and his eyes started to hurt again, making his eyes almost red. He slammed the towel on the ground, and slapped Josh with his backhand. He was nailed in place by Zhong Zizhen's next actions.

"Who allowed you to die! Who allowed you to die?! Josh!" With a hoarse voice that was almost roaring, pinching Josh's shoulders, Zhong Zizhen's expression twisted, and tears flowed from his eyes, "Who convicted you?" I am the one who can decide whether you are guilty or not! Do you think you have forgiven your sins? If you die like this, you will pay off everything? You will free your soul like this? No, I don’t accept it, I don’t accept it !"

"Wake up! Wake up! Say I'm sorry!" Zhong Zizhen finally couldn't help but hold Josh tightly in his arms—say I'm sorry!I will forgive you!

Rather than, in this way, until death, I will bear the sins that I think.

Not to die for forgiveness!Wake up!I have forgiven you!

It was the second time that Zhong Zizhen tasted the taste of regret to death, the smell of rust in his mouth was so strong, just like when he was lying on the ground, watching "Josh" standing beside Qiao Quan, telling all the conspiracies back then.Wake up, no matter what, come back alive... I am the one who should say sorry...Wake up, I apologize to you.

Please, wake up.Holding Josh in his arms, Zhong Zizhen knelt down in front of the bed slowly.

The dead never answer.

Looking at such a scene, Zhong Limo stretched out his hand to cover his mouth, stuffed all his sobs into his chest, pressed his forehead against the wall fiercely, and that bit of coolness seemed to reach the bottom of his heart...

Already, won't be coming back.

Silence spread like a plague.