to blame

Ming Xia fell into a drowsy sleep for a long time, and every time she woke up, she was on the bed in the ward, sometimes during the day and sometimes at night.The little fox is always guarding him, and there is... Nanjiang.

Ming Xia lay on the pillow and smiled at Nan Jiang, "I'm sorry. I can't always sleep."

Nan Jiang sat on the chair beside the bed, the evening light came in from the window behind him, he looked warm and cozy.

"Why do you say I'm sorry." Nan Jiang also looked at him and smiled, his eyes were soft, "I was just thinking, I have known you for a long time, but I have been busy, I have been busy, and I didn't even go out to watch a movie with you Pass."

"There are." Ming Xia pursed his lips slightly, "We ate out together. There is also Qingqiu."

Seeing Ming Xia's gaze sweeping around the room, Nan Jiang knew that he was looking for Qingqiu, "Qingqiu was called away by Mr. Hu. Come back later."

Ming Xia nodded, his eyes narrowed, he was a little sleepy again, but he was still thinking about what Nan Jiang said just now.

"Nanjiang," he called his name softly, "if there is a chance in the future, I will treat you to a movie."

Nan Jiang responded and added to him, "I still want to buy Coke and popcorn."

"No sugar-free cola." Ming Xia made a condition, "Sugar-free cola doesn't taste good."

Nan Jiang smiled, "Didn't you say you want to quit sugar?"

"I won't quit." Ming Xia became short of breath after talking too much, but when she saw Nan Jiang sitting there, she couldn't help but want to say a few more words, "I still want to eat grilled fish."

"I know there is a good barbecue restaurant in the old city." Nan Jiang thought for a while, and said, "It's just behind Tu Qing's pet shop. The boss used to open a restaurant in the city, but he fell out with his partner and went back to the old city." I opened a barbecue restaurant by myself. His pork belly is very delicious."

It wasn't until Nan Jiang finished speaking that he realized that he had mentioned "meat"!

He secretly glanced at Ming Xia's face in fear, seeing that he didn't want to vomit like a few days ago, he was a little relieved.

"It's okay." Ming Xia guessed what he was nervous about, and looked at him apologetically, "I just... will be fine."

Nan Jiang leaned over and touched his forehead lightly, "Ming Xia, is there any place you want to go? Mr. Hu said he can give you a vacation."

Ming Xia shook her head.

He didn't want to lie down like this, but he didn't want to move, let alone go anywhere.He felt that he had suddenly turned into a plant, with no desires or desires, as long as he basked in the sun and blown the wind every day was enough.

Nan Jiang didn't speak, but Ming Xia saw unmistakable distress in his eyes.

"I'm sorry." Ming Xia suddenly felt a deep disappointment in himself, "I'm pretty bad."

He always has a feeling that he has seized good resources from Nanjiang, but he has not cherished them.Busy work is certainly a reason, but it is also true that there is no intention.

How can I describe this feeling...

It's probably just being together 24 hours a day, so I take it for granted that I don't need to worry about running or arranging anything.As a result, everything went according to the work flow, and whether he had time to spend alone became less important—anyway, he could be seen at any time.

"I'm sorry." Ming Xia said again: "I took what I got...too much for granted."

Nan Jiang grabbed his hand and sighed, "That's what I want to say too. We are all at fault."

The initial heartbeat is real.Such a pure and clear attraction is like the clear and dazzling sparkle on the water.Even now, Nanjiang still has a bright and warm feeling in his heart every time he thinks of him.

At this moment, facing Ming Xia's apology, Nan Jiang also made a self-examination in his heart.

He thought he was too used to his job.I'm used to encountering danger, getting used to getting hurt, getting used to writing a will before going on a mission, getting used to...losing something at any time.

Therefore, no matter how precious something is, when he holds it in his palm, he will also be mentally prepared in advance to lose it at any time.

Such him, even if he is burning, the light of the fire is still cold.

Can't warm others.

It was he who pulled Ming Xia into his own world, but failed to protect him.

"Since both are at fault, let's forgive each other." Ming Xia's hand was tightly held by him, as warm as ever.But he felt tired in his heart.Or after all those horrible things, all of a sudden become vicissitudes.

"Goodbye, Nanjiang."

Nanjiang's eyes filled with water, and he held back, "Goodbye, Mingxia."

He knew that Ming Xia was leaving.It may be for a short period of time, or it may be for a long time.But this time, he couldn't stop him selfishly.

Ming Xia wakes up after a nap, and the hour hand has just passed the mark of midnight.

The night light at the end of the bed was on, and in the warm dim light, the little fox was nestling beside his pillow, sleeping heavily.

Ming Xia got up from the bed.As soon as he moved, Qingqiu also woke up, turned over in a daze, and muttered, "Mingxia?"

Ming Xia patted it twice, like coaxing a child.Then he got out of bed to check his things.He opened the bedside table and saw a familiar backpack stuffed inside.

Ming Xia froze for a moment, took out the backpack and opened it.In the bag were a few changes of clothes, in the ID bag on the interlayer was his ID card and work card, and two cards he put in the drawer of the dormitory.

Qingqiu crawled over humming, lying on the bedside and looking at him, said: "Nanjiang asked me to give this to you."

Ming Xia touched his work card, and treasured it back into the ID bag.

Qingqiu remembered that Ming Xia packed things like this before the two of them went out last time, and immediately realized, "Are you going out?"

Ming Xia nodded, "It's so annoying to lie here every day."

Qingqiu didn't like the ward either, so he asked him sympathetically, "Then where shall we go?"

Ming Xia heard the meaning in its words, the little thing took it for granted that Ming Xia would take it with him, it never thought in its little mind that they would be separated.

Ming Xia squeezed its paw, "Let's go to Qingqiu Mountain, shall we?"

Qingqiu was taken aback.

"It's really strange." Ming Xia patted its back and said to himself, "When Nanjiang asked me where I wanted to go, I didn't want to go anywhere. But I just fell asleep and dreamed of returning to Qingqiu Mountain. There are green grass everywhere, grassland, bamboo forest, rabbit hole, and little foxes running on the mountain road.”

Qingqiu was aroused by his words, "There is also my peach blossom grove and vegetable field."

Ming Xia echoed, "And the river under the mountain."

One person and one fox talked more and more vigorously, so they packed up their things and set off while it was dark.

There are patrol soldiers standing guard at the gate of the branch compound. Ming Xia has all the documents and is just in a state of rest without going on mission, so he made a registration and opened the door for them.

You can't get a taxi at the gate of the compound, you have to go to the living area.But the road was not far away, and the night air was really fresh, so one person and one fox decided to walk over.

After Ming Xia took two steps, he couldn't help turning his head to look at the lighted gate and the dark dormitory inside.He didn't know what he wanted to see, so he was in a daze for a while, and continued walking forward with the little fox in his arms.

Behind him, on the steps outside the dormitory building, Nan Jiang lit a cigarette in his hand and took a deep breath.

Smoke billowed up, forming a messy and fuzzy line in front of him.

Just like his mood at the moment.

Ming Xia was weak and tired after walking for a while with the little fox in his arms.They sat on the curb to rest for a while, hesitated between continuing their journey and seeking foreign help, and finally decided to call for help.

A quarter of an hour later, Tu Qing bitterly drove his black off-road vehicle over to save the beauty, accompanied by the beauty locked in the pet box.

"Ming Ming was tired from training yesterday, and I didn't let her get up. The beauty just had a minor operation, and she's very clingy, she's going to howl if she can't see me." Tu Qing yawned and explained, "Where are you going?" ? Why is your face so bad?"

The light in the middle of the night is not good, but Ming Xia's face is as white as paper, so blind people can't see it.

Ming Xia talked about his own situation as much as he could, and said that he would take Qingqiu for a walk around to relax.

Tu Qing immediately realized that something was wrong.But in front of Ming Xia, he didn't say anything, he just asked him if he had his ID on him, if he had enough money, and if he had booked a train ticket.He also offered to lend them the beauty's pet box.

The little fox is too conspicuous, if you just go out like this, you may not even be able to enter the supermarket.

Tu Qing sent this person and Yihu to a car rental company he knew, opened the door, and forced the boss to pick out a reliable off-road vehicle for them, paid a deposit, went through the formalities, and gave Ming Ming the inside of his car. He prepared some snacks and moved them to his car.Only then did he yawn and send the person away.

He saw that Ming Xia was not in the right condition and was not suitable for long-distance sports cars.But it is convenient to have a car, and you can stop and rest at any time.If he was going to catch a long-distance bus, he would not be able to bear it even more if he was crowded with other passengers.

Tu Qing waited for the car's taillights to disappear at the corner of the road, and took out his mobile phone to call Nanjiang.As expected, the call went through almost immediately.

Tu Qing didn't talk nonsense with him, and asked him directly, "What's going on?"

"Ming Xia is gone?"

"Let's go." Tu Qing said patiently, "I rented a car for him. He said he wanted to go for a walk."

Nanjiang let out a "hmm".

"Hmm, what, um," Tu Qing said anxiously, "Did he get hurt again? His face is so bad."

Nan Jiang was also a little helpless, "Tu Qing, you are either a commando of the second team, or an ordinary person who runs a shop in the old city. How do you want me to tell you about these things?"

"Pick up what you can say."

"ptsd." Nan Jiang said, "Some unexpected things happened during the mission."

Tu Qing's breathing stagnates, "...Accident?"

Nan Jiang didn't say a word, he really couldn't say anything more.

"Damn it." Tu Qing scolded, "I'm still a family member, right?"

Nan Jiang retorted him, "You won't raise mice for several years, and even forget about discipline, right? What kind of family are you? Your wife isn't even Ming Xia's immediate family, okay?!"

Tu Qing was so angry that he wanted to jump, "We should have a little friendship, right?"

Nan Jiang replied very simply: "Not enough."

Tu Qing, "..."

Tu Qing knew that there was nothing he could ask from Nanjiang, but he just couldn't be reconciled. If he didn't ask clearly, Mingming asked tomorrow morning, what would he say?It means that Xia looks sick, and he even rented a car to send him away?

Isn't that looking for a beating?

"Tell me again," Tu Qing began to cheat, "at least let me know his current situation."

Nan Jiang was silent for a while, then suddenly asked a completely irrelevant question, "Old Tu, did you decide to live like this? Raising mice and cats, walking the dog for nothing, living like a retired veteran cadre? "

Tu Qing didn't say anything.

"This job is dangerous. Many tasks have to be kept secret from family members and the outside world. I don't know when unexpected situations will happen, and I am often misunderstood..." Nan Jiang's voice was heavy, with an indescribable Feeling melancholy, "But even if there are so many unsatisfactory things, someone has to do it."

Tu Qing sighed, "Have you never been unwilling?"

"Yes." Nan Jiang said: "But no one in this world knows the value of this job better than ourselves. When I think of my job, more people can walk freely in the sun and enjoy their little things. Life, I just think it all makes sense.”

"Even if they don't even know there is a group of people like us, I think it's worth it."

"We go forward with heavy burdens, not to win the applause of others."