smoke scar

Seeing Mrs. Lu standing in front of the bookstore early in the morning, Su Zhaoxi was very surprised.They haven't seen each other for a long time, Mrs. Lu doesn't like him, so she probably wouldn't take the initiative to come to him.

Mrs. Lu seemed to have been waiting for a long time, with a little impatience on her face.Su Zhaoxi stood stiffly, not knowing what to say.He didn't know the purpose of Mrs. Lu's visit, and because she was an elder, he didn't escape on the spot.

Madam Lu suppressed the impatient expression on her face, and said in a soft but cold tone: "Yuanting is ill. He is in the hospital now, go and see him."

Is Lu Yuanting sick?Su Zhaoxi was surprised.He thought that Lu Yuanting was made of iron and would never fall down one day.

He clenched his hands hanging by his sides, bit his lower lip, and said nothing.

Mrs. Lu didn't mind his reaction, and continued: "I know you hate me, but you and Yuan Ting have been in love for a few years, because he protected you so much before, you should also go trip."

In the end, she was really upset, she hadn't fully accepted Su Zhaoxi, but she was only concerned about her son and didn't want him to suffer so much, so she reluctantly compromised.

"Did Lu Yuanting call you here?"

Su Zhaoxi looked at Mrs. Lu, wanting an answer.

She didn't expect Su Zhaoxi to care about this after talking so much.It was entirely her idea to come to see Su Zhaoxi, Lu Yuanting had just recovered from his fever and was still resting in the hospital.

"No, I came by myself." She denied it.

Su Zhaoxi stood there, silent for a long time, Madam Lu thought he agreed, so she gave him the address of the hospital.Unexpectedly, Su Zhaoxi only said one sentence in the end: "I will consider it."

She was so angry that when she got into the car, she slammed the door down hard.

Do you want to go?Su Zhaoxi sat on a chair, with her feet on the table in front of her, her body dangling, looking lazy.

He had a harsh talk with Lu Yuanting at that time, is it too late to look back now?He stared at the scar on his wrist that was covered by the watch. It looked the same on the surface, but as long as the cover was removed, the thing hidden behind would be so heavy that it would be hard to breathe.

He shook his head, shaking off the previous memories, not letting that depressive atmosphere surround him.If he can't get out by himself, others will be helpless.

After thinking for a long time, he decided to go to the hospital.It's like an ordinary friend who is sick and goes to visit by himself.Didn't you tell yourself to let go, and persuade yourself to treat Lu Yuanting with a normal heart, so now, treat him as an ordinary friend.When a friend is sick, he just goes to visit.

Lu Yuanting took the company's affairs to the hospital, and he will stay in the hospital for a few days, even without him in the company.Seeing that his mother had gone out early in the morning, he thought she was returning to Lu's house, so he didn't ask any further questions, and only told his assistant to send her home safely.

He is no longer infusing needles. He sits on the bed and sets up a small table to approve documents.The blue and white striped hospital gown on his body could not conceal the rigor between his brows.The doctor said that he was sick from overwork, and he should pay more attention to rest, eat on time, and he will be fine after a few more days.

He still misses Su Zhaoxi in his heart, even now that he has become like this, he still can't let it go.Like drinking poison to quench thirst, he couldn't let himself stop.If this continues, he will come back soon after he is discharged from the hospital, and so on.

Missing haunts him, eroding him inch by inch.

The document in Lu Yuanting's hand turned a page, and the door of the ward was pushed open.He thought it was the assistant who came back after seeing his mother off.I want him to help pour a glass of water.When she looked up, she found that the person who pushed the door was Su Zhaoxi.

Su Zhaoxi stood at the door, with half of his face buried in the maroon scarf, his eyes did not look at him, but looked away sideways.After standing for a while, he awkwardly put the bag of apples in his hand on the table beside the bed.

From the moment he entered the door, Lu Yuanting's eyes never moved away from him.He was so greedy for this figure that when Su Zhaoxi approached, he wanted to reach out and hug him.

"You take care of yourself."

Su Zhaoxi put away his things and retreated to the door, keeping a safe distance from Lu Yuanting.The way Lu Yuanting kept staring at him made him a little uncomfortable.

"I'll trouble you to come and run."

Lu Yuanting forced a smile, and kept following Su Zhaoxi.

He was very happy that Su Zhaoxi took the initiative to come to see him. He felt that he might still have some status in his heart, and that he might still win a chance. The more he thought about it, the more hopeful he felt.He asked Su Zhaoxi with an expectant expression:

"We can still"

Su Zhaoxi interrupted him in the middle of his words.Su Zhaoxi didn't expect him to speak, and felt very embarrassed to interrupt him:

"Auntie came to me. She said you were hospitalized, so I came to see you."

The expectation on Lu Yuanting's face faded, but the smile remained unchanged.He blinked twice to make his eyes less sour.

"My mother didn't bother you, she just protected me too much. Don't take it to your heart if she said something nasty."

Su Zhaoxi shook his head, saying no.

If he didn't speak, Lu Yuanting would just look at him stupidly, and the room fell into silence.Lu Yuanting wanted to pick up some topic and talk to him a few more words, but Su Zhaoxi was already ready to leave.

"You take good care of your illness. I will come to see you later."

The heating was turned on in the room, and he was wearing thick clothes when he came here. The scarf around his neck had never been taken off, and it was even more airtight, so his cheeks were slightly red now.

He hurried out, ignoring any gaffes or gaffes.He overestimated his ability to accept, and still couldn't treat Lu Yuanting as an ordinary friend.Then simply don't see each other in the future, and I can't remember it if I don't see it.

Lu Yuanting didn't know how long after he said "later", he only knew that Su Zhaoxi was leaving again.After evoking a strong thought in his heart, he was leaving again.

Lu Yuanting wanted to get out of bed to chase him, but Su Zhaoxi had already opened the door and went out.He quickly walked to the door in three steps at a time, and shouted to the figure in the corridor:

"Su Zhaoxi!"

Su Zhaoxi stopped in her tracks, froze and didn't know how to move, and a feeling of uneasiness surged up in her heart.What is Lu Yuanting doing?

He glanced around, there were not many people in the corridor, if Lu Yuanting suddenly came to arrest him, probably few people would be able to help.When he confirmed that he was not in an absolutely safe environment, he subconsciously wanted to escape.

He hurriedly walked towards the stairs, but Lu Yuanting behind him didn't speak any more.His voice seemed to be impromptu.

Seeing Su Zhaoxi walking farther and farther, and finally disappearing at the top of the stairs, he returned to the room and closed the door resolutely.Then he sat back on the bed, put away the documents on the small table with a blank expression and put them on the cabinet beside the bed, folded the small table against the side of the cabinet, then lay down by himself, raised the quilt, and buried himself in it.

For so many days, he pretended to be nonchalant, and he was shattered after only one meeting.

He hid in the quilt and wept silently, without even choking up a sob.He is very strong, how could he easily show his fragility to others.

Just now he wanted to pull Su Zhaoxi back, wrap him in his arms, and tell him that his life is not good these days, and he misses him every day.Then admit your mistake to him, and let him treat you whatever you want, as long as he is willing to come back.

But Su Zhaoxi didn't want to do this, he walked in a hurry, trying to escape from his sight quickly.

Su Zhaoxi ran all the way downstairs and stopped at the door, walking slowly to let herself catch her breath.A layer of sweat covered his body, so he simply tore off the scarf to let himself breathe.

His mind was in such a mess that he wanted to leave this place.He walked to the bus station without stopping, and stood among the crowd waiting for the bus, his mind was distracted and his eyes were on the ground.When the car came, it was the person next to him who accidentally bumped into him before he realized it, otherwise he would have stood there and waited forever.

When he returned to the bookstore and sat on the swivel chair at the counter, his brain came back to life.Just now I sat all the way in a daze, and then habitually took the key to open the door, and threw myself on the chair. My heart was at ease, and my brain was thinking.

Has Lu Yuanting not let him go yet?He has reached the point where he thought it was irreversible, did he still not let him go?Then should I give him a chance, or give each other a chance.

He stroked the scar on his wrist, which was now covered by a watch, and he could only touch the skin next to the strap.

Do you want to go back?What if it all happens again?What if it's too late to regret?

He bit his finger anxiously, leaving rows of teeth marks on the knuckles of his index finger.

After thinking for a long time, I didn't come up with a result. Instead, the more I thought about it, the more confused I became, and the frown became tighter and tighter.He sighed and began to evade the question.

Ever since Su Zhaoxi left, Lu Yuanting has been burying himself in the quilt.It wasn't until Mrs. Lu came in that she pulled back the quilt.

"What are you doing, you'll be bored in the quilt."

She went home and brought some clothes for Lu Yuanting to change, but as soon as she entered the door, she saw Lu Yuanting buried herself in the quilt.Lu Yuanting's eyes were a little red, but no more tears.He took two breaths, calmed down, turned around and looked at his mother with a smile:

"It's okay, I'm asleep."

"Then you sleep a little longer, you are already sick, don't tire yourself out again."

Mrs. Lu put her clothes aside, wanting Lu Yuanting to sleep for a while.Lu Yuanting shook his head, indicating that he had already rested.

He set up the small table again, took the documents and continued to read.After reading two pages, he looked up at his mother, and said hesitantly, "Mom, have you visited Zhaoxi today?"

"Yes, he has already been here?" Mrs. Lu admitted without changing her expression.

"Don't look for him in the future." Lu Yuanting tapped his fingers on the table, the pain in his eyes was about to overflow.He raised his head to let the tears recede, and then said:

"He doesn't want to come back. How could he be willing to come back after I did such an outrageous thing."

He sentenced himself to death, and will only be a passerby by his side in the future.

[The author has something to say]: Thank you Fang Fangjun for the recommendation ticket, thank you Da Linlin for your reward, thank you!

I will add a chapter later, I forgot about the Mid-Autumn Festival, sorry.