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Su Zhaoxi had a gastroscopy and was given a needle, and now she is lying on the bed waiting for a bottle of needle to be infused.

Lu Yuanting sat on a chair and watched for him, seeing that Su Zhaoxi kept his eyes open, he advised him to sleep for a while: "Take a rest, there is still a while before the game is over."

In fact, he was also very sleepy. He flew over overnight by plane last night, and went to find Su Zhaoxi as soon as he arrived. He was so busy that he didn't even eat breakfast.

Su Zhaoxi didn't want to sleep, so he opened his eyes and looked at Lu Yuanting. Lu Yuanting thought he was thirsty, poured him a cup and handed it to him, but Su Zhaoxi didn't pick it up, so he had to put it on the table.

Su Zhaoxi stared at him for a long time, but Lu Yuanting didn't dare to look at him, just kept staring at the needle, watching it flow into the infusion tube drop by drop, as if hypnotized.

"Lu Yuanting." Su Zhaoxi spoke after looking at him for a while.

"What's wrong?" Lu Yuanting immediately turned to look at him, thinking that he wanted something.

As a result, Su Zhaoxi didn't speak again, he smiled at him and turned his head away.

"Why do you still care about me?" Su Zhaoxi said suddenly, and Lu Yuanting was taken aback.

He lowered his head, rubbing his left index finger with his right hand, feeling embarrassed to say: "I still like you."

Su Zhaoxi closed his eyes and did not speak again.

His relationship with Lu Yuanting is now in an embarrassing situation. He is ready to let go, but he is no match for Lu Yuanting's stalking.He really tried everything, even beat people, but Lu Yuanting still didn't want to leave.

Lu Yuanting endured all his venting, but he was reluctant to touch him, which made Su Zhaoxi even angrier after venting his feelings.If Lu Yuanting also had a fight with him, the matter would be resolved, but he just didn't, and treated him like he was in love in college, Su Zhaoxi felt that he was a villain.Obviously the one who made the mistake was Lu Yuanting, but it was him who seemed to have gone too far.

He never thought about going back to the past with Lu Yuanting. He really couldn't forgive the cheating. The love he wanted was pure and single-minded, but Lu Yuanting couldn't give it to him. There were too many temptations around him, and it seemed normal to not be able to bear it. .But he couldn't accept it, kissing him with the mouth that had kissed someone else, he felt disgusted just thinking about it.

"Lu Yuanting, let go."

He couldn't convince himself, couldn't get over the hurdle in his heart, so that even if they were together, they would inevitably separate after a while, and the feeling of suspicion couldn't last long, so it's better to let it not start.

Lu Yuanting grabbed his hand in a panic, with fear in his eyes: "Zhaoxi, think again, I'm really changing, just wait a little longer."

He looked at Su Zhaoxi in horror, opened his mouth slightly, and even forgot to swallow.

"It's useless. I can't convince myself to accept what you did before. Maybe I still love you, but I won't have the idea of ​​spending my life with you."

He was terribly calm at this moment, and what he said pierced Lu Yuanting's heart like an ice pick, which was painful and cold.

Lu Yuanting bent down and covered his heart, telling him to stop talking.He is like a broken child, unable to save himself, and can only demonstrate to the source of his pain.He thought that what hurt him the most was when he was drunk and burned himself with cigarettes, but he didn't expect that Su Zhaoxi's simple words could make him die of pain.

"Lu Yuanting, if you let me go, you should also let yourself go."

Lu Yuanting raised his head and looked at him, tears welled up in his eyes, his lips trembled and he said an incomplete sentence: "You hate" He wanted to ask Su Zhaoxi if he hated him, but this sentence Words are too emotional to speak out.

Su Zhaoxi thought for a long time in silence, then blinked, and said uncertainly: "Maybe I don't hate you. But I did hate you once. It was the time I committed suicide. At that time, I wanted to drag you along with me. , Later, I felt that we would meet again in this case, so I decided to leave by myself.”

Lu Yuanting couldn't speak, his tears flowed down his chin to the floor.It turned out that Su Zhaoxi not only didn't want to love him after death, but also didn't want to see him again after death.

He knew he owed him too much, since he didn't want to meet, then let's go.

"Take care of yourself, I have something else to do, so I'm leaving first."

Lu Yuanting didn't have time to wipe the tears from his eyes, he lied and left the door of the ward.

Su Zhaoxi looked at the back of him running out in a hurry, her heart trembled, she lowered her eyes and was stunned for a long time.

It's nearly February now, and the temperature is gradually picking up, but it's not that cold anymore. You still need to wear a coat when you go out.Su Zhaoxi's bookstore business is decent, there will always be people coming every day, and he can barely handle it by himself.

Since he had a stomach problem last time, he didn't dare to eat takeaway anymore. He started to learn to cook by himself, and slowly developed the habit of going to the supermarket.

He came here at noon every day, and he didn't want to go out because the temperature was low at night.Today, as usual, he pushed the trolley around the supermarket, looking for his favorite bite to eat.

He was hesitating with a box of milk, and he began to think in his mind: Logically speaking, a stomach trouble should not drink milk, but he is greedy, doesn't want to drink water and doesn't like drinks very much, so he held the milk for a long time and didn't think about it To buy or not to buy.

Someone patted his shoulder from behind, and he immediately recovered his senses and turned his head. He was stunned, and Xu Mu was standing behind him and looking at him with a smile.

"When did you come back?" Su Zhaoxi put down the milk in his hand, opened his hands and hugged him, and looked at him happily.

"I just came back not long ago. I was planning to go to your bookstore for a meal and come here to buy groceries ahead of time. I ran into you unexpectedly."

Xu Mu still had vegetables in his hand, Su Zhaoxi hurriedly took them and put them in the trolley.

"Let's go, I'll take you there." Su Zhaoxi took him to the front desk to pay the bill, forgetting about his greed.

Lunch at noon was eaten on the second floor. Su Zhaoxi was not good at cooking, so Xu Mu took care of the lunch.He is responsible for holding and setting the dishes.

"How have you been lately?"

After Xu Mu put the last dish on the table, he took his chopsticks and started chatting with Su Zhaoxi.

"It's okay. I went back to my hometown, and now I'm back to open a bookstore." Su Zhaoxi hasn't had a good meal for a long time, and he couldn't stop his chopsticks for a while.

"Then how are you and Lu Yuanting, are you still together?"

Su Zhaoxi stopped his movements, lowered his eyes and said, "We are separated, and we decided to break up." He recalled that his voice was a bit muffled in the past, but he adjusted it quickly, and opened his eyes wide and asked Xu Mu:

"How are you doing? Have you met someone you like?"

Xu Mu smiled softly, happiness filled his face: "I met you, we are living a good life now, it is Yu Xingshu, you remember."

Of course Su Zhaoxi remembered that gentle and shy boy, so he congratulated him cheerfully.

After a meal, the two chatted a lot.Xu Mu came back this time to resign. It turned out that he was forced by Lu Yuanting to be a teaching supporter. After seeing through the warmth and coldness of the hospital, he thought of coming back to open a small clinic. Yu Xingshu will be the teacher and he will be the clinic doctor.

Su Zhaoxi sent him downstairs, asked him to come and play when he had time, and brought Yu Xingshu with him, the two of them didn't know each other well yet.Xu Mu responded with a smile.

He hadn't seen Lu Yuanting for a while. He heard that his project was going well and he could make a lot of money. He also heard that someone pushed people around him again, but this time Madam Lu stopped him. All kinds of things have nothing to do with him. He returned to the Lu family to be the young master, and he opened a bookstore on the street. That's how he would live the rest of his life.

That night, it rained, the rain was not heavy, but the thunder was very loud, shocking people.

He nestled on the bed and looked out the window. There was a layer of raindrops on the glass, so he couldn't see clearly, but he was still very interested in watching.He was originally a person with a slow pace of life, usually sentimental, so a rain can make him daydream for a long time.

The raindrops hit the glass one after another, the sound was blunt and muffled, Su Zhaoxi was fascinated by the outside.

Lu Yuanting has been so busy with work recently, he wants to control himself not to look for Su Zhaoxi, he can't even think about it, just thinking about it can make him crumble.So he kept himself busy without any spare time, and started the next project immediately after the completion of the last project. He was tireless, just like a machine.

He told himself not to pay attention to Su Zhaoxi, and he couldn't mention these three words alone. Su Zhaoxi had his people around him, but he didn't dare to listen to any news about him.

Su Zhaoxi hated him very much, he told himself all the time, he couldn't bother him in the past, and he would simply let go, this is the life Su Zhaoxi wanted.

Mrs. Lu had been to his company several times, and seeing that he looked so bad, she wanted to take him home to recuperate for a few days, but he refused, saying that the company was too busy to attend to, and she would go back when she was free for a while.So in free time, I postponed today to tomorrow, and postponed tomorrow to the day after tomorrow for half a month.

Of course, Mrs. Lu still didn't wait for him to go home, but Lu Yuanting exhausted herself.

That night, he stayed up all night looking at the documents again. He also got rid of the habit of drinking, and now he keeps a pack of cigarettes by his hand.Excessive fatigue, staying up late at night, smoking addiction, all these reasons combined together finally made him stand up with dazed eyes, dizzy, and lay heavily on the ground.

It was 10 to [-] minutes after he passed out that no one found out. At that time, there was no one in the company. It was the assistant who found out that he had missed a document and came back to see him. Otherwise, he would probably be stupid when he opened his eyes the next day.

The assistant rushed him to the hospital. Lu Yuanting's forehead was so hot that he probably had a high fever for a long time.

Lu Yuanting didn't wake up until midnight, and when he opened his eyes, he saw his mother sitting on the bed and watching him cry.He wanted to comfort him, but his throat was dry and he couldn't speak, so he could only comfort him with his eyes.

Seeing him wake up, Mrs. Lu cried even harder, she leaned on him and blamed him: "You have to torment yourself to death for that person before you are reconciled. See if you are so sick and he has come to see you, he might I'm rejoicing at home."

Lu Yuanting didn't want his mother to say that about Su Zhaoxi, he owed him so much that he couldn't say clearly.He raised his hand and patted the back of Mrs. Lu's hand, telling her that he was fine.

There was a muffled thunder outside the window, Mrs. Lu was frightened and shivered, Lu Yuanting hurriedly comforted her.

Su Zhaoxi looked at it for a while and couldn't resist the drowsiness. He washed up and went to bed. His bed was very close to the window, and he fell asleep quickly listening to the sound of rain.

[The author has something to say]: Thanks to shohokug, Sakura, fat orange, [-]'s antiques, Fang Fangjun's recommendation ticket, thanks to shohokug, Sakura's monthly ticket, and Fang Fangjun's tip.

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