waiting in time

Chapter 40 Tenderness

After half a month, Kang Ning returned to school, and saw the school bulletin board, announcing the investigation results of that day's incident, Kang Ning became a victim of a violent incident, everyone looked at him with sympathy, Kang Ning didn't like this Noteworthy, but unavoidable.

When Kang Ning returned to the dormitory, Liu Rui came over in a hurry. Seeing that Kang Ning was safe and sound, he looked calm and felt relieved. He was not there that day and came back the next day. There was a lot of news about Kang Ning, and many people were talking about it. When making a call, Kang Ning's cell phone kept turning off. This was the first time he saw Kang Ning after Kang Ning's accident. Liu Rui was worried about Kang Ning.

"Corning, what happened?" Liu Rui asked.

Many people asked him this way today, but Kang Ning didn't want to answer, the incident that day was too tragic, he didn't want to recall it, Kang Ning concentrated on packing his clothes, Li Yuehao was almost done these days, Feng Qin also went back out, Kang Ning was worried Li Yue lived alone, and planned to live with Li Yue for a while and take care of him.

Liu Rui felt that Kang Ning was unwilling to answer, and felt a little disappointed. He knew that he was not very close to Kang Ning, and he didn't want to say anything to himself.

"You want to go out?" Liu Rui asked.

"Well, Li Yue is injured and needs to be taken care of," Kang Ning said.

Full of worry, Liu Rui came to look for Kang Ning, hoping that he could comfort him and help him in difficulties, but Kang Ning was indifferent, with a calm expression, as if nothing had happened, which made Liu Rui a little disappointed.

"I'll leave if you're busy," Liu Rui said.

"Okay" Kang Ning watched Liu Rui walk out, feeling a little moved, and Liu Rui came to see him.He said "thank you" sincerely to Liu Rui

Liu Rui waved away with a smile, thinking in his heart that he was not close to Kang Ning, and Kang Ning kept a close distance to him. When would he be able to walk into Kang Ning and really live in his heart.

Kang Ning packed her luggage and took a taxi to Li Yue's house. Li Yue was reading in the room, holding a thick book in English. When Kang Ning walked in, Li Yue looked up and saw him smiling slightly, with a peaceful and quiet expression.

Kang Ning walked up to Li Yue, and Li Yue held Kang Ning's hand and asked, "How is the school?"

"Nothing happened. The school made a public announcement of what happened that day, and many people sympathized with me," Kang Ning said with a smile.

"It's annoying," Li Yue said indifferently.

"Yeah, who would like to have their wounds torn open again and again, and show up?" Kang Ning said helplessly.

"Don't worry," Li Yue said softly.

"I don't care, it's just that those sympathetic eyes are annoying. When I become an object of sympathy and pity, I feel incredible," Corning said.

"You know you don't need pity, that's fine," Li Yue said.

"You're right, I want to live a good life and be happier than anyone else, right?" Kang Ning looked at Li Yue and said.

"Yes, Kang Ning has grown up." Li Yue said with a smile. After this incident, Kang Ning has matured a lot and become a lot stronger.

"We are the same age," Corning laughed.

"Really, I don't think so." Li Yue laughed, he always felt that he was much older than Kang Ning.

"You mean I'm naive," Corning said.

"You said it yourself, I didn't say it," Li Yue said.

"Okay, I'll dig the hole and fill it myself," Kang Ning said helplessly.

Li Yue laughed, thinking that Kang Ning was really cute. He stood up and approached Kang Ning. Kang Ning closed her eyes meekly. Li Yue kissed Kang Ning tenderly. Let go of Kang Ning, look at Kang Ning, his eyes are full of love, he hugs Kang Ning to calm the excitement in his heart, Kang Ning leans against Li Yue, he gradually gets used to Li Yue's intimate way, and gets a little love from it. Happiness, but this is far from enough, Kang Ning knows, these are not enough to satisfy Li Yue, Li Yue wants more.

Kang Ning and Li Yue have always maintained this kind of close contact, but did not go any further. Li Yue knew that Kang Ning was not ready yet. Kang Ning ran around Li Yue's house and school. Li Yue did not want to make Kang Ning too tired. He felt a little bit reluctant to move back to the school, but he knew that if the two of them continued to live together, Li Yue would definitely go off the rails, but Kang Ning was unwilling. The two would definitely conflict and hurt Li Yue. Kang Ning generally chose to move Go back to the dormitory.

Mi Xiaoxue came to look for him. Kang Ning looked at Mi Xiaoxue and knew that he was not a good boyfriend, so he ignored her a lot.

Mi Xiaoxue looked at Kang Ning who was standing beside her, and felt that he seemed to have changed, became more flavorful, with a slightly familiar feeling.

"Let's break up," Mi Xiaoxue said sadly.

"Okay," Corning said.The relationship between them should have ended long ago. He didn't know how to maintain the relationship, and both of them were very tired.

"I'm sorry," Mi Xiaoxue said, "I didn't go that day, but I didn't tell you that I hurt you."

"It's all over." Kang Ning didn't want to talk about it. Whether Mi Xiaoxue did it on purpose or not, she almost caused Li Yue to lose his life. He couldn't accept Mi Xiaoxue's apology.

"I'm leaving" Kang Ning turned to leave, Mi Xiaoxue burst into tears and said, "Kang Ning, please forgive me, I really didn't mean to"

"If you did it on purpose, you will stay in jail today." Kang Ning said resolutely, he would never forgive anyone who hurt Li Yue, he would never forgive.

Mi Xiaoxue broke down behind Kang Ning and cried loudly.Corning left without paying attention.

Kang Ning is on vacation, Li Yue is going home for a few days, Kang Ning doesn't want to go home, Li Yue gives Kang Ning the key to the house, Kang Ning lives in, living alone is boring, Kang Ning stays in Li Yue's study, looking through the study There are many original books in English, written with complicated computer symbols, which Kang Ning could not understand. He chose in the study for a long time, but there was no book he liked, and he came out angrily. Looking for something to do, Li Yue's room was clean and tidy, spotless, clothes, shoes and socks were neatly put away, Kang Ning wanted to watch a movie to pass the time, he chose from Li Yue's collection of movies for a long time, but finally I chose Leslie Cheung's "Farewell My Concubine". Kang Ning was fascinated by it. Seeing the ending, the lights in the room suddenly turned on. Kang Ning opened his eyes and looked at Li Yue, who was dressed in dust and dust, changing shoes at the door. The tears in the corners of Kang Ning's eyes were too late Wipe it dry and flow out along the cheeks, Li Yue saw it and hurriedly asked, "What's wrong?"

Kang Ning smiled and said, "It's okay, I'm watching "Farewell My Concubine""

"I'm crying." Li Yue said, he hung his clothes on the hook and walked to Kang Ning.

"It's so sad." Kang Ning was still immersed in the movie and couldn't extricate himself. For some of the plots in it, Kang Ning felt the same sadness.

"It's just a movie, don't take it seriously," Li Yue comforted Kang Ning.

"Why did Chen Dieyi choose to commit suicide to end everything?" Kang Ning asked.

"How do I know?" Li Yue is a typical man of science and technology, and he can't understand Kang Ning's delicate and sensitive inner feelings. He doesn't know why Kang Ning asked such a question. He bought it back then because the movie was too famous. One side, not a lot of feelings.

"Is same-sex love so difficult, so difficult to talk about?" Kang Ning felt sad.

"What are you thinking? The era we live in is completely different. Today's society is much more tolerant of homosexuality. As long as we live in peace, don't show off, and attract the attention of others, who will say anything?" Li Yue said flatly .

"However, I still don't accept it," Kang Ning said sadly.

"What are you thinking about so much?" Li Yue walked into Kang Ning, hugged Kang Ning in his arms, and comforted Kang Ning.

Kang Ning's mind was always immersed in the movie. He never thought that he was an outlier. After watching this movie, he suddenly realized that he was different from others. He loved a man, which was not accepted by mainstream society.

"We are different from others," Corning said sadly.

"You're scared," Li Yue said.

"No." Kang Ning shook his head, he is not afraid, as long as he is with Li Yue, he is not afraid of anything.

"Don't be sad, Kang Ning, we didn't commit a crime, we didn't hurt anyone else, we just fell in love with each other, and he happened to be a man," Li Yue said.

"Yes." Kang Ning looked at Li Yue, but saw Li Yue looking at him with hot eyes, and Kang Ning was a little shy.

Li Yue smiled, "Let's stop discussing such an unsightly topic, how about another one?"

Kang Ning didn't dare to go to see Li Yue. He knew what Li Yue was going to do at this time. He knew that Li Yue could finally take it no longer. Kang Ning was a little scared and didn't dare to go to see Li Yue.

Li Yue picked up Kang Ning and walked to the bedroom. Kang Ning felt uneasy and restrained his urge to refuse. He could not hurt Li Yue anymore, never again.

Li Yue didn't notice Kang Ning's emotions. He was happy that Kang Ning was finally willing to accept himself. He put Kang Ning gently on the bed, pressed himself against Kang Ning, and kissed Kang Ning deeply. The kiss was passionate. Li Yue reached into Kang Ning's shirt with one hand and stroked Kang Ning's body. He lowered his head and bit off the button of Kang Ning's shirt bit by bit, revealing Kang Ning's white and flexible body. Li Yue kissed Kang Ning's body. From the neck, collarbone to belly button, he took off Kang Ning's clothes, and suddenly felt as if he had fallen into an ice cave, his whole body was completely cold, and the passion in his heart cooled instantly. Li Yue got up and walked out, and the door slammed shut.

Kang Ning lay on the bed, his stiff and tense body gradually relaxed. He buried his face in the pillow and cried sadly.Li Yue stayed in the study room all night, and Kang Ning stayed in the room without sleep all night. At dawn, Kang Ning walked out of the bedroom and came to the study. The scattered books were placed in the bookcase, and the window was opened to let the pungent smell of smoke escape, and the cigarette butts piled up in the ashtray were cleaned up. Li Yue curled up quietly on the chair, without speaking, with sadness and despair in his brows .

Kang Ning packed everything up, stood beside Li Yue, and looked at Li Yue.

Li Yue didn't seem to see Kang Ning, and sat in a chair quietly in a daze.

For a long time, Kang Ning called "Li Yue"

Li Yue turned his head and looked at Kang Ning. Kang Ning was shocked by the sadness in Li Yue's eyes. He felt sad. He hurt Li Yue again. No matter what he did, he was hurting Li Yue who he wanted to protect.

Li Yue turned his head lightly and did not look at Kang Ning, with a lonely expression.

"Li Yue, talk to me," Kang Ning called.

"What can we talk about now?" Li Yue laughed mockingly, with deep sorrow. "You don't love me, that's the truth"

"I" Kang Ning wanted to say I love you, but he couldn't believe it himself, how could he make Li Yue believe it.

"Let's go." Li Yue waved his hand.

Kang Ning was like a bolt from the blue, standing aside in shock, unable to believe that Li Yue said to let him go, where else could he go except Li Yue.

Kang Ning walked over and knelt down at Li Yue's feet, "Li Yue, you can't treat me like this

, other than here, where can I go, where is my destination"

"Kang Ning, we can't continue to entangle like this, I'm tired," Li Yue said wearily.

"Li Yue, Li Yue" Kang Ning cried uncontrollably, "You are tired, what should I do, what should I do, I am what I am today, don't you have any responsibility? You have to abandon me like everyone else, leave me?"

Li Yue was silent and looked at Kang Ning sadly. Kang Ning instantly understood Li Yue's decision. On the body, Li Yue suddenly stood up and pushed Kang Ning away gently, and Kang Ning's face immediately became gloomy and crazy,

"Okay, hello, Li Yue, as soon as you walk out of this door, I'll show you my death right away," Kang Ning said firmly.

Li Yue returned home in shock and looked at Kang Ning. Kang Ning suddenly laughed crazily, "Hehehe, Li Yue, do you regret knowing me and falling in love with me? It's a pity that I don't love you, so you have to give up on me, and many others Leave me like a human being, abandon me, let me live alone in the world, how cruel you are, it is you who make me rely on you, it is you who make me unable to live without you, now you are tired, you want to leave me, live by yourself Hehe, very good, very good, Li Yue, I want you to never forget me and never leave me.” Kang Ning suddenly slammed into the desk violently, Li Yue was frightened out of his wits, he panicked He wanted to stop Kang Ning, but Kang Ning was too fast, and Li Yue couldn't stop him, so he only blocked Kang Ning's arm to reduce the force of the impact, only to hear a bang, the sound of his body hitting a heavy object, Li Yue was out of his wits, and ran over to help Kang Ning, Let Kang Ning snuggle in his arms, Kang Ning's forehead was smashed, and the bright red blood flowed out. He was unconscious, saw Li Yue's anxious expression in a haze, and smiled happily in his heart. He just wanted Li Yue to regret and make Li Yue sad , so that Li Yue can never leave himself.