waiting in time

Kang Ning continued to associate with Mi Xiaoxue, and the two kept a lukewarm distance. It was winter vacation, and Kang Ning bought Mi Xiaoxue a train ticket and sent her home. Mi Xiaoxue looked at Kang Ning, hesitating to speak, In the end, she took the train ticket, turned around and walked back to the dormitory building without saying a word. Kang Ning was a little puzzled. up.

Mi Xiaoxue walked into the dormitory building and looked down from the window on the second floor. Kang Ning turned around and left after she left. Said that she could postpone going home and stay with him here, but Kang Ning bought her a train ticket for the next day after the holiday and gave her the ticket without saying a word to keep him. The two have been dating for 2 months , Kang Ning is still gentle and obedient, but it seems that there is no passionate puppet, cold, his sadness and his loneliness seem to have been frozen, let her go back and forth and be gentle, without a trace of melting, Mi Xiaoxue even feels Kang Ning has no heart, no emotion, only a cold body, like a walking dead.After the longing and admiration she had with Kang Ning at the beginning, her enthusiasm gradually faded away. The two felt boring and tired when they were together, but they couldn't make up their minds to break up. Kang Ning would not propose a breakup. Her vanity did not allow her to let go of such an excellent man, and the two continued to act as lovers.

Li Yue went home during the winter vacation, but he didn’t contact Kang Ning. Kang Ning didn’t want to go home, so he found an internship job outside, rented a house with someone, and lived outside. Kang Ning returned home on the 28th of the twelfth lunar month, and his father and stepmother greeted him politely. He didn’t come back for a long time, and they felt strange to each other. However, Kang Dong, his stepmother and younger sister were happy and harmonious, and he was like an intruder. Kang Ning The stay was uncomfortable, and I returned to the place where I rented the house on the second day of the Chinese New Year. Kang Ning stayed in the house, and another co-renter went home to celebrate the New Year. I didn’t want to cook or go out. I ate instant noodles for a few days. I felt like vomiting. When Chuqi’s company opened, Kang Ning hurried to work, and finally had a normal meal. Kang Ning saw The steaming dishes, the lively vocals, were so moved that we were about to cry.

Li Yue called and asked where Kang Ning was. Kang Ning said that he was an intern in the company. Li Yue said he came to find him. Kang Ning told him the location of the company. I haven't seen Li Yue for a long time, and when I saw him again, I felt a little strange. Kang Ning laughed at himself. He hardly had any close friends. Everyone felt alienated when they met.

Li Yue looked at Kang Ning, Kang Ning was thin, and a piece of clothes hung loosely on his body, which couldn't match him at all. His expression was lonely and lonely, exuding a sad temperament from his bones.Li Yue felt pain, his heart ached, where did that happy and carefree Kang Ning go, what made Kang Ning so sad?It was his parents, him, and many others who were executioners who cut Kang Ning into what he is now.

"How did you become so thin?" Li Yue walked into Kangning and said.

Kang Ning forced a smile and said, "I was born like this, I can't gain weight." Kang Ning's smile was too forced, and Li Yue felt uncomfortable.Kang Ning is just pretending to be strong. Now Kang Ning is only 21 years old. He is too young to experience so much pain.

"Why did you come out to work?" Li Yue asked.

"It's boring to just come out for an internship, so it's better to find something to do," Kang Ning said.

"If you're bored, you can find me." Li Yue blurted out, and it was only when he said it that he felt it was inappropriate.

Kang Ning looked down at his shoes.

Li Yue didn't know what to say for a while, they were so close, but now they don't know what to say.

After a long time, Kang Ning said, "Why are you back?"

"I came back when I had something to do at school," Li Yue said.

"How is Aunt Feng?" Kang Ning asked.

"My mother is fine. Occasionally she suffers from stomach pains. Just take some medicine," Li Yue said.

He looked at Kang Ning and asked softly, "How about you, how are you?"

"You see, I'm fine," Corning said.

"You're not good," Li Yue said in a deep voice.

Kang Ning was stunned for a moment, then laughed and said, "I'm doing well. I eat well, sleep well, and live well. What's wrong?"

"Stop talking, Kang Ning, I know, I know everything." Li Yue interrupted Kang Ning, and looked at him sadly. The deep affection in his eyes made Kang Ning afraid to look.Corning lowered his head.

"Kang Ning, you have to take care of yourself at any time," Li Yue said.

"I know, I will take care of myself, I'm fine," Kang Ning said indifferently.

"You..." Li Yue really hated Kang Ning's stubbornness. He didn't know what to say so that he could listen.

"Where do you live?" Li Yue asked.

"Not far ahead," Corning said.

Li Yue looked in the direction indicated by Kang Ning, and saw only rows of one-story houses. There are high schools here. A lot of people can live in a room separated by curtains.

Li Yue looked at Kang Ning in disbelief and chose such a poor house, a little angry,

"Are you short of money?" Li Yue said angrily.

Corning remained stubbornly silent.

"Kang Ning, what are you doing?" Li Yue yelled at Kang Ning uncontrollably, "Are you interested in hurting yourself? Who are you showing it to? Who do you want to make sad?" Li Yue's voice was a little choked up, his eyes With tears in my eyes.

Corning did not speak.

Li Yue came up and grabbed Kang Ning's arm, "Take me to where you live, you move out immediately"

Kang Ning suddenly threw away Li Yue's hand, and said loudly, "Li Yue, what right do you have to control me, since you let me go, I am dead or alive, what does it have to do with you?"

Li Yue looked at Kang Ning in disbelief. Kang Ning felt embarrassed for a moment. He was unwilling to accept Li Yue's feelings. He asked Li Yue to leave and kept a distance from his friends. He always cares about him, loves him, protects him, watches his every move, and maintains the intimacy of the soul with him. He hates Li Yue for leaving him because of emotional problems, and blames Li Yue in his heart. Feelings are so important. He tried to start a relationship, but it was just like that, bland and without a trace of joy. He didn't understand why Li Yue pursued these things and asked for feelings from him.

Li Yue looked at Kang Ning, struggling in pain, "What do you want from me?" Li Yue asked.

Kang Ning didn't know how to answer for a while, he was selfish, he wanted to occupy Li Yue, but he didn't want to give himself to him.

"What should I do with you, Kang Ning, what should I do with you" Li Yue asked one after another, Kang Ning was heartbroken, he didn't know what to do, his abnormal dependence on Li Yue made him He left Li Yue like a fish out of water, unable to breathe, living a lonely and lonely life.

He can't accept Li Yue's feelings for him, and he can't do without Li Yue. This is a contradictory proposition, difficult to solve, but all the solutions lie in Kang Ning. Sometimes Kang Ning thinks, just accept Li Yue. If you want yourself, you can give it to him, as long as Li Yue stays by his side, but Kang Ning knows that this kind of thinking is unfair to Li Yue. Li Yue's feelings are purely persistent, and any perfunctory is a great insult to Li Yue.

"Li Yue, can't we go back to the past?" Kang Ning looked at Li Yue expectantly.

"How do you go back, as if nothing happened? As if there is nothing between us?" Li Yue asked.

Kang Ning remained silent, looking at Li Yue expectantly, as if saying that he could act as if nothing had happened.

"Kang Ning, what about me?" Li Yue asked.

"Since you can't compromise, leave me alone." Kang Ning was a little disappointed, and walked away angrily.

Li Yue grabbed Kang Ning, and Kang Ning struggled, "Li Yue, let me go, let go of me, you go, you go away, I don't care if I die." Kang Ning struggled hard, Li Yue grabbed Can't help him, Kang Ning broke free, raised his feet and ran, Li Yue chased after him, Kang Ning kept eating and drinking, and his body was weak, after a while, Li Yue caught up with him, Li Yue hugged Kang Ning from behind, Kang Ning struggled, Li Yue died Hugging tightly, the two of them panted heavily.

Li Yue hugged Kang Ning, buried his face in Kang Ning's back, he looked painful and sad, tears flowed down Kang Ning's back, Kang Ning gradually stopped struggling, his heart was full of sadness, he pushed Li Yue to the point of despair.

Li Yue wept quietly, and Kang Ning stood quietly. After a long time, Li Yue let go of Kang Ning. Kang Ning turned around, looked at Li Yue, and wiped away the tears from the corner of his eyes with pity. Li Yue grabbed Kang Ning's hand, put it in his palm, and put He pulled him into his arms, and Kang Ning felt at ease for a moment, as if he had returned to his mother's body. over body.

"You won, Kang Ning," Li Yue said.

After hearing this, Kang Ning was not happy at all. Li Yue's compromise was sad, and he felt the same, even more sad than Li Yue, but he couldn't do without Li Yue, couldn't do without.

Kang Ning thought it would be like this, as if nothing happened, how nice.They hugged each other tightly, their hearts filled with sorrow.