hold peck

Why did Cheng Jiao fall in love with him?

Xu Si never figured it out.

Likely because of same-sex attraction, and both of them are sick.

Today, the sister nurse gave me a big favor and sent 0332 and 0318 to play in the big garden of the hospital.

Of course, the premise is that someone is with them.

He Zhi slumped on the bench under the tree and yawned. The handsome guy was incredibly burdened and even wore a pair of sunglasses to cover his dark circles.

0318 sat next to him, expressionless.

0332 is bouncing around and flying a kite with the children.

He heard that he would come to the psychiatric department to accompany him to bed today. He Zhi was so stressed that he couldn't fall asleep all night, but now he was so sleepy that he was staring straight at the happy Teletubbies in the garden.

"Why did you fall in love with Garden Baby?" He Zhihao was fucking curious.

Xu Si thought for a while, but didn't answer him right away.

Maybe because opposites attract, he is withdrawn, while Cheng Jiao is sunny.

I didn't get a reply for a long time, but fortunately He Zhi didn't intend to chat at all, so it was just right that no one answered.

He took out his mobile phone and began to dress up the couple space again.

The "Love House" game has been dead in the past few years, and the novelty is gone. The producer has also devoted its energy to other projects, and it can't be updated once a year.

He Zhi has bought all the products in the store, only the rare items that can only be obtained through lottery are left, but they will be collected by him soon.

In this world, He Zhi may be the only one who is still insisting on decorating the hut, but soon, when he gets the last prize, he may also bid farewell to the non-mainstream past.

"what are you playing?"

Xu Si looked at his mobile phone and asked calmly.

He Zhi was inexperienced in dealing with this kid, so he couldn't tell whether he was curious or ridiculed.

But thinking about Xu Peck's trusting gaze when he came, He Zhi still coughed lightly, showing a little patience like a cousin.

"Have you ever played the game of Disney princess dressing up the castle? That's the thing. It's special. It can be played with the object."

Disney princesses seem special enough on their own.

Xu Si remained silent, and glanced at the idiot who was arguing with the child, as if he was thinking about something.

"..."

He Zhi snapped his fingers, looked up at Xu Si's side face, and suddenly seemed to understand something, he took off his sunglasses in surprise, and asked softly, "Can I install one on your phone for you?"

The house of love has been passed down on the rivers and lakes!

At noon, Xu Peck came to the garden to have dinner with them. The young lovers were leaning head to head together to study their mobile phones, while He Zhi stood aside with arms folded, looking at them with a particularly complicated expression.

"I don't want to play Love House anymore." The cousin's tone was very heavy.

Xu Peck asked curiously, "Why?"

He Zhi turned to look at him, his handsome face was full of grievances and complaints: "The first time they drew a lottery, they won the leather sofa that I haven't won in six years!"

He doesn't want to live!

Xu Peck almost laughed out loud, but fortunately he still had a conscience.

The little doctor touched He Zhi's chin with his hand, and kissed him on tiptoe.

He Zhi was satisfied, Cheng Jiao observed silently for a while, then returned his gaze to Xu Si's face.

Cheng Jiao: "Baby."

Xu Si: "."

Cheng Jiao: "I want to kiss you."

Xu Si: "..."

Did you kiss?

Cheng Jiao received a slap in the face.

But at the moment when He Zhi and Xu Peck turned around and left, Xu Si grabbed his cuff like a madman's wish.

In Yancheng, summer passes the fastest every year, and in a blink of an eye, Xu Peck will start school soon.

Liang Yan underwent several treatments, and the new test results were satisfactory.

Xu Si also improved a lot.

When he first came, he was always prone to cranky thoughts. After taking the medicine, his cranky thoughts became less, and he began to fall into a long daze.

At times like this, Cheng Jiao always stayed by Xu Si's side, holding his hand and looking out the window with him.

Whether it's a starry night or a stormy sky outside.

Cheng Jiao is more like a normal person than himself.

Xu Si's waking hours became longer and longer, and when emotions returned to his chest, Xu Peck accompanied him to see Xu Ji'an once.

Adults have more wrinkles at the corners of their eyes, and children's facial features are gradually opening up.

Everyone used to say that he looks like his mother, but now it seems that he actually looks like his father.

Xu Ji'an also started to go out of the mainstream: "Do you hate me?"

Xu Si shook his head, becoming like his brother again.

"I'll wait for you." He said.

I'm getting better soon.

This time was different, he really felt that he was about to recover.

Xu Si was very happy, but also a little apprehensive.

After more than twenty years, most of his life in his memory is full of collapse and indifference, many of which come from others and more from himself.

The doctor said that he has been punishing himself, but Xu Si can feel that he is now gradually forgiving the timid and withdrawn self he used to be.

At night Cheng Jiao sneaked into his ward, and the two of them squeezed together on the same bed, Xu Si lay in his arms, and said to Cheng Jiao, "I'm becoming normal."

But someone bit his ear: "You have always been normal."

The lunatic is talking nonsense again.

Xu Si ignored him, Cheng Jiao continued to pretend to be a philosopher in his ear.

"Normal is subjective and there is no standard answer."

"There are 70 billion people in the world, and there are 70 billion kinds of normal."

We are two normal people, but the normal aura is so compatible that I have to jump off the tower to fall in love with you.

Cheng Jiao said he loved him many times, but Xu Si never said it, but he would respond with a kiss.

On the narrow bed, they snuggled together, Xu Si whispered in his heart, I love you.

extremely love.

The person he loves is the most normal-looking patient in the psychiatry department. Xu Si gradually came out of the closed world, and his eyes naturally fell on the place closest to him.

He didn't understand why Cheng Jiao loved him before, but now he doesn't understand what's wrong with Cheng Jiao.

Xu Si wanted to ask the sister nurse, but the sister coaxed him back with a haha.

Xu Si still wanted to ask the doctor, but Cheng Jiao seemed to have expected it this time, jumping up and down around Xu Si 25 hours a day, without giving him any chance.

Xu Si originally wanted to ask his brother, but after thinking about it, it was really unnecessary, so he asked Cheng Jiao directly: "Why are you hospitalized?"

Cheng Jiao really said nonsense: "Because I want to pester you."

Xu Si said: "Then I'm leaving the hospital, are you coming?"

Cheng Jiao was quiet for a while, smiled and kissed his forehead.

Xu Si curled his lips, obviously he should scold someone, but he just hugged Cheng Jiao, and calmly wiped away his foolish tears with his collar.

The two of them suffer from different illnesses, but the medicines they take are very similar. They are both the kind of medicine that will empty the mind and slow down the reaction.

Xu Si had been eating before, but gradually reduced it, and now he has stopped eating.

He had always thought that Cheng Jiao was the same as him, but today he found out that since they met again, Cheng Jiao has never taken medicine again.

Two lunatics are a sandwich, and two nerds are just as bad together.

Cheng Jiao wants to be with Xu Si alive and well, wants Xu Si to be in his arms all the time, but also wants him to get better soon.

This hospital is very big and small, and Xu Si shouldn't be here.

Everyone said Cheng Jiaoni Bodhisattva crossed the river, but he insisted on crossing him.

"Even if your condition will get worse?" Xu Peck asked him.

Cheng Jiao put on those exaggerated glasses again, and his smile was always so sweet.

"I'm a lunatic," he said, "and I'll just walk a short distance with my cutie."

His tone was regretful, but he seemed very satisfied.

The night before he was discharged from the hospital, Xu Si disappeared from the ward.

When Cheng Jiao picked him up on the rooftop, the boy was blowing in the corner.

He walked over and sat beside Xu Si.

"The wind in July is lazy, and even the clouds are hot."

When he sang, he lost his tone, and became that big fool again.

It's almost September and summer is coming to an end.

Xu Si buried his face between his knees and ignored him.

The singing suddenly stopped, Cheng Jiao leaned his back against the parapet, and his long legs were lazily slumped on the ground.

"My name is Cheng Jiao, also Cheng Yao."

"My dad is a gambler, and my mom is a lunatic."

He looked at the moon, as casually as if he was telling someone else's story.

Gambling ghosts like to beat people. A lunatic is not a lunatic, but he beats him into a lunatic.

Later, the gambler ran away, and the lunatic began to beat the children, who were gradually tortured by her into little lunatics.

Cheng Jiao is a boy who doesn't know what to worry about. What kind of torture has left such deep scars in his mind. Every once in a while, he hates himself and wants to solve himself forever for her.

Xu Si closed his eyes, hot tears slid down his cheeks, soaked his knees through the thin hospital gown, and became very cold again.

"The lunatic is very beautiful. The little lunatic has to run fast after school every day, lest other men follow the lunatic home."

He was beaten by lunatics and kicked by those hooligans, but he would rather close the door and let his mother beat him and scold him alone.

But later, he didn't even have a mother.

Cheng Jiao was adopted by a wealthy family, but he was accompanied by only a not-so-kind nanny.

The little lunatic becomes a charity mascot for the world to see.

But it doesn't matter, everyone is born alone.

"You don't want me anymore?"

Xu Si hugged his knees and turned his head, his eyes were very red and he was a little confused.

The corners of Cheng Jiao's mouth curved downward, but he wanted to laugh.

He tapped the tip of Xu Si's reddened nose, and kissed his brow lightly.

"Well, I'm going to abandon my baby."

It is true to love you, and it is not false to abandon you.

Cheng Jiao is not a non-mainstream person who "hurts you for your own good". He accompanies Xu Si to gradually get better, but he also understands that there is no cure for him.

Instead of letting your lover see your true crazy appearance, it's better to end it yourself first.

"You threaten me."

Xu Si lowered his eyelids and began to cry again.

Cheng Jiao stared at him curiously for a while, took his teardrops with his index finger, wiped them on his lips in an unpleasant way and licked them.

"It turned out to be really salty."

He has never cried, and does not know the taste of tears.

Now that I have tasted it, it is indeed salty, but why is it different from what others said, it seems to be a bit bitter.

It was so bitter that he was about to cry.

"Xu Peck said, you are going to get medical treatment."

Xu Si punished himself for more than ten years, and Cheng Jiao was even worse than him.He was always hospitalized, but never received any real treatment.

Cheng Jiao always felt that he deserved it, but this was the first time, he wanted to try to make some concessions for his future.

The future of him and Xu Si.

Cheng Jiao came back to his senses, and it took a long time to realize what Xu Si said, and couldn't help frowning: "Brother is talking nonsense."

He has been insane for so many years, and he just woke up from a nearby position this afternoon. He is still in fear that he almost jumped off the building. Even if he really goes for treatment, what are the chances of success?

"I will wait for you."

Xu Si interrupted him.

"I'll be waiting for you, always waiting for you."

Like you've been waiting for me.

So live well, Cheng Jiao.

Summer has passed, and autumn and winter are approaching. Waiting for the coming year, I hope you will return with the spring breeze.