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He knew it, he knew it a long time ago...Xu Qinglu repeated this sentence over and over again in his mind, leaning against the wall and unable to move, he felt that if he moved, his whole body would collapse on the ground limply Can't get up again.

A strong sense of fear overwhelmed him, and his lips trembled, but he couldn't say a word.The room was silent, and occasionally there was the sound of fireworks exploding outside. Even Xu Xiaoxiao could sense the tense atmosphere in the room. It ran to Xu Qinglu's side and stayed next to him.But Xu Qinglu felt that his heart was sealed in an ice cellar, it was so cold to the bone.

"It turns out that you really knew it a long time ago." Xu Qinglu forced himself to look up, and pulled out a smile that was uglier than crying. "It's really bad. They don't let me have a good year."

Yan Yan stood up from the sofa, looked at the motionless young man leaning against the wall, "Say it sooner or later, what's the difference?"

"No." Xu Qinglu shook his head with a wry smile, and slowly lowered his head, "So, what are your plans?"

"Actually, it really doesn't matter whether you like me or not. It doesn't matter to me who you like." Yan Yan said this, he sighed, being liked by someone is not just once or twice, it's his business whether to accept it or not, It really doesn't matter.

"Then why do you want to pierce it? Can't I keep it in my heart silently? I am willing to keep looking at you." Xu Qinglu stared into Yan Yan's eyes, with a sadness that Yan Yan had never seen on his face, together After living here for more than two years, Yan Yan has never seen this guy so sad.

Yan Yan shook his head and said, "No, it's not fair to you, I must let you go."

He sneered and said: "Yan Yan, this fairness is not what others say, but what you are willing to give. You want me to let go of my mind and like others, and I hope so too. But, with this heart, he is ashamed , Even knowing that you will not respond, I have been putting it on you all the time."

"And then? Seeing you dodge my eyes every day, watching you work hard for your work? How free were you when you first came, and you only worked hard for the holidays, but now you spend all day in the company. Rest. I don't want to change yourself because of this kind of thing." Yan Yan sighed.

The fireworks outside the window were exploding here and there, Xu Qinglu was facing the window, and he raised his head to look at the colorful sparks outside the window.A bright light, exploded, quickly released the brilliance, and then disappeared instantly, turning into a wisp of smoke, and there was no trace of it that existed before.

How to do it?Xu Qinglu thought blankly: What should I do, he doesn't want to release all the essence like this firework, only a moment of amazement.He wants to be a morning glory that always blooms, year after year, with exuberant vitality, existing in a corner of Yan Yan's life.

"I'm not worthy of you." After a long time, Xu Qinglu said: "So, I want to work hard to become a little bit worthy of you."

"Why do you think this way? Everyone has their own way of life. I don't know how many people say that I don't want to make progress. Why do you want to change?" Yan Yan was a little shocked. Xu Qinglu is very good. As a makeup artist, his craft He can even be ranked in the forefront in country Z, so belittling himself, is he saying that Xu Qinglu is too humble, or too inferior...

"Because you can't change it, so I'll just change myself, it's fine." Xu Qinglu said this, evoking a self-deprecating smile.Yan Yan, do you have to force him to tell everything step by step?Such a bad behavior really blinded his gentle character.

Hearing what Xu Qinglu said, Yan Yan covered his forehead with a slap, and he knew it.Why is this guy so stupid?A love will give everything, do not leave a retreat for yourself, even yourself can change.

"No, it's not right. Xiaoli, I don't want our previous relationship to deteriorate. I hope we can still be friends, and we can only be friends." Yan Yantan started to say this, he had never encountered such a situation.Xu Qinglu has been with him for more than two years, and he is already a very good friend. Yan Yan felt very sad when this happened suddenly.He didn't want to fall in love with Xu Qinglu, but he didn't want to lose him as a friend either.

Xu Qinglu finally couldn't stand anymore, and slowly slid to the ground. Hearing Yan Yan's words, he laughed out loud, "Of course we are friends. We were friends before. As long as you don't say it, we will be the same again in the future."

Yan Yan was silent, "Are you asking me to pretend I don't know?"

"Yes, you don't say, I don't say, just continue like this, how good it is." Xu Qinglu hugged Xu Xiaoxiao, and showed a bright smile to Yan Yan, Yan Yan was shocked, as if Xu Qinglu had never been so sad before Same, he had never smiled like that before.

Xu Xiaoxiao seemed to know that her father was in a bad mood, so she nestled obediently in Xu Qinglu's arms, occasionally sticking out her tongue to lick Xu Qinglu's hand, as if to comfort him.Xu Qinglu stroked its head, feeling in a trance that he was left with only this big dog, and everyone left him.

Time passed slowly, and the fireworks outside the window were gone. Yan Yan sat on the sofa and said with a light smile, "Do you think it's possible? Pretend not to know. I don't care who you love. Men and women love so and so, but you like It's me, and because I've changed, you want me to continue to stand by?"

"Everyone can change, as long as he wants to change."

"Yes." Yan Yan whispered, "But, you are my friend, I can't ignore you."

Xu Qinglu smiled, and buried his face in Xu Xiaoxiao's soft fur. He heard something crumbling in his heart, the sound of crackling, like Yan Yan biting French fries one by one. It was so crisp, he felt his body was shaking, his arms were getting tighter and tighter, and his whole body was in great pain.Xu Xiaoxiao groaned uncomfortably, but just licked his hand to comfort him.

"My fault." His tone was trembling, "I'm too stupid, I didn't hide it well, how can I let you know?"

Yan Yan was shocked, Xu Qinglu's tone was too sad, he felt like he was about to cry, he stood up, only to realize that Xu Qinglu had already sat on the ground, hugging Xu Xiaoxiao tightly as if he was warming himself , is he cold?Did a failed love make him so painful?

He walked forward, squatted down in front of Xu Qinglu slowly, and persuaded in a soft voice: "Let it go, okay? We will still be friends, best friends in the future."

After a long time, Yan Yan heard Xu Qinglu hum softly, "Friend, if you say friend, it is friend."

Yan Yan was taken aback for a moment, looking at him with helpless eyes.

Xu Qinglu felt so cold, his body was cold, and his heart was even colder.Yan Yan would not accept him, and he was even unwilling to let him have this kind of relationship. He hoped that they could be friends, and he didn't want this relationship to deteriorate.Yes, he is asexual, and he never wants to be hindered by such feelings, but why, he can have family affection and friendship, why can't Dudu accept love.He trembled, he was keenly aware that if he had to refute, Yan Yan would not want him.

I won't see him again, I won't pay attention to him anymore, and even the friendship of more than two years has been abandoned, like dust that drifts in the air by chance, it's gone.No, no, he doesn't want to do this, he can't do this.

Xu Qinglu urgently wanted to tell Yan Yan, yes, yes, we are good friends, friends forever, will never change, will never change again!However, he couldn't say a word, he could only open his dry eyes, open and close his mouth, and couldn't even utter a single tone.It wasn't until Yan Yan sighed and stood up that he realized that he grabbed Yan Yan's clothes and refused to let go.

Tears came out violently, as if to expel all the previous panic with tears.Yan Yan was staggered by him, looking at Xu Qinglu who suddenly collapsed, he was also a little stunned, he cried heartbreakingly, his whole body was trembling violently, and what he kept saying over and over was 'Don't go, don't go. '

Yan Yan hugged him vigorously, and shouted to him: "Xu Qinglu, calm down!" But he acted as if he didn't hear anything.He tightly clutched the corner of Yan Yan's clothes, his fingernails were wrung out blood, and Yan Yan's white shirt was stained red, but he seemed to feel no pain, and he held it like pliers, like the last blow A life-saving straw.

Xu Xiaoxiao was so frightened by this sudden incident that she ran out of Xu Qinglu's arms a long time ago, and stood aside watching in horror, as if she didn't understand what happened to her father.

Severely restraining Xu Qinglu's actions, Yan Yan kept yelling: "Calm down!" He always felt that if this continues, Xu Qinglu would have his own fingers crippled.Yan Yan didn't know what to do at all, he never thought that Xu Qinglu would have such a big reaction, it was too scary, it was not a normal person's reaction at all.

Holding Xu Qinglu's arms, Yan Yan leaned over and kissed Xu Qinglu's lips, suppressing all his crying.The room was instantly quiet as if there was no one there, not even Xu Xiaoxiao dared to make a sound.

Xu Qinglu opened his eyes wide. He wanted to take a closer look at him in his blurred vision, but his eyes were blurred by tears, and his arms were also imprisoned. He stared blankly at Yan Yan, and he didn't know when he let go of his hands. Blood dripped onto the floor.

It wasn't until Xu Qinglu was completely calm that Yan Yan got up and let go of his arm, "Calm down?"

Xu Qinglu nodded.

Yan Yan took a deep breath, got up and walked around, and finally said to Xu Qinglu: "Xiaolu, we all need to calm down, especially you! Don't you want your own hands? Didn't you say that you still need to rely on these hands to eat Is it?"

"We don't want to meet for the time being, you should move out in the next two days." Yan Yan said, and then went back to his room directly.

Xu Qinglu was calm and sober, he could even hear the sound of Yan Yan locking the door after entering.He lowered his head, with a smile on the corner of his mouth, which looked very strange on his tear-stained face. He sat quietly on the ground, motionless.

The author has something to say: First of all, don’t shout abuse, the occasional small abuse is just to pave the way for the sweet article later, don’t worry, it will be sweeter after it passes!And everyone may think that Xiaoli's image has collapsed, well, there will be an explanation below, for the sweet future!

Furthermore, it is customary to take time out to give red envelopes to the angels who often leave comments, and you have been giving me motivation for persisting in daily updates for so long.

In the end, Lighting decided to add another Onmyoji fanfiction in the Saturday update column, which is equivalent to double opening.Everyone may say: Oh, isn't the one you pre-ordered not open?Well, I did plan to open that before, but I really didn’t want the column to be a pit, so I wanted to finish this article first. In fact, I thought about opening it three times, and then threw this terrible idea into the trash can in an instant.

If you are interested, you can take a look. The lights will not be talking anymore, everyone.

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