naive rivers and lakes

80. Floating Life in the Final Chapter

Well, that's right, Hua Fan is back, what happened next?The first thing I did when I woke up the next day was to throw people out. If I couldn’t beat them up, I wanted to kill them quickly, but Huafan didn’t do it. Yu, with the face of a five or six-year-old child, is actually a withered old man, the kind that is almost dead.After I threw Huafan out No. 14 times, I simply followed him, as if I couldn’t see him, I ate something casually as usual, drank a jar of wine from afternoon to night, and fell asleep with a little bit of liuqing, sleeping in the dark, sometimes I fell asleep by the pavilion, and was carried into the room by Hua Fan in a trance. I just closed my eyes and pretended I wasn't awake.

Yingru played chess with me, talked to me about the old things intermittently, and didn't like to talk about Shihen that person very much. I asked her once, but she just tilted her head to look at me, smiled lonely like fireworks, and said sadly: "I once planned to Be a magic stick, travel all over the world, find a deep mountain and old forest to stay in when you get old, and die alone until Shihen finds me, he wants me to help him avenge, impresses me with 1000 taels of silver, and I become a thief Pit, was pitted by Shihen for a lifetime."

"Even if he almost killed me when he went mad, I have never regretted it."

Before I finished speaking, I heard that I poured a cup of Li Renbei for someone, took a sip by myself, Huafan calmly picked up a piece of sweet-scented osmanthus cake and stuffed it into my mouth. Ying Ru each had a bowl, he looked at the flames and sighed quietly: "How can I, a cult, become a person who burns fires, cooks and washes dishes?"

"Palace Master Hua, you should go." I said lazily, looking at people with my chin propped up, Hua Fan raised an eyebrow at me, and casually said: "There is no such thing as Palace Master Hua, Huajing Palace is gone, Xue Ji has already gone to find her sister I’m gone, I’m alone with nothing to worry about, the world is so big, but there’s no room for me, don’t you really think about taking me in?” He smiled like a monster in calligraphy and painting, devouring people alive without leaving any bones That kind, I shook my head and lazily said: "I can't keep it."

"Hua Fan, you take her away, don't hurt the old man's eyes, let me play chess and enjoy the fish, obviously I can't let go, why bother to torture each other?" Ying Ru said, holding one The chess piece falls, get up and leave, after that chess piece falls, the rest of the chess pieces don't need to be played, the final dead end will come eventually, it's not good for me and Huafan to be so entangled.

I know it's bad, but I can't kill him.

I went back with the wine jar in my arms, Huafan followed me naturally, grabbed my hand casually, and added a comment of "Your hands are cold, you should wear more clothes", I didn't say anything, Lala fell He continued to walk through the lapel of his clothes, and when he reached the door, he suddenly turned around and asked him, "Why didn't you let go, you forced me to let go before, why did you bother me after I let go?"

"You should abolish the Nine Laws of Heavenly Disability, otherwise your fate will be the same as that of Time Mark, naive." Hua Fan said seriously, and I tilted my head and smiled, "I know—" Blindfolded when I was drunk, I I hate this man whom I have loved for most of my life. Even if I give something sincerely, if I say no, I just don’t want it. You refused to accept it at the beginning, but now I refuse to give it.

I can’t give it away either, I’m 20 years old now, no, I’m already 21 years old, I’m not a naive boy who entered the arena at the age of 16, and it’s not the first time I saw him at the age of six with silver hair and red eyes like a plum fairy. , aroused strong curiosity and wanted to get close to this person, and then acted like a spoiled child at him. I no longer believe in people's hearts, not even myself.

Now, the only one who can let me believe in it is Tianqing, a silly girl, a little girl wishing to learn martial arts secretly while urinating, wanting to protect me as an older brother, girls always want to be cared for Yes, but she didn't have the consciousness of being a girl at all. She didn't know what was going on with that girl recently. The death of the old man dealt him a great blow.

After Tian Qing came back, I didn't want her back, that girl and Ying Ru were on the same front as Hua Fan, she tried to persuade me to be with Hua Fan, I looked at her stomach, and the mean words came to her mouth "Why don't you forgive Bai Qinglian" I didn't say it after all, I wish I could slap myself, that's my sister, the sister I grew up with, the sister who is still haggard when she is pregnant, except her belly is round , actually a little thin, Tianqing still doesn't like to eat pig's trotters, Ying Ru sighed, asking Tianqing to take good care of himself, Tianqing smiled and nodded, took a sip of the chicken soup brought to him, and then stopped eating. Refusing to take a second sip.

No matter how much I want to stay on the mountain to drink and enjoy the fish, it is not possible after all. Tianqing needs someone to take care of it. Living on the mountain is not so convenient, but it is better to go down the mountain. Grandma Wang gave us steamed stuffed buns, looked around us slowly, and said with a smile, "Is that your wife? Your wife is very thin..."

I hurriedly interrupted the conversation, and forced a gentle smile and said: "Grandma, that's my sister Tianqing, I'll take care of her for a while, this is my daughter, just call her A Yin, this is me ..." I dragged my voice to give him the identity of a cousin, but Hua Fan put his arms around my shoulder and said naturally: "His wife."

Grandma Wang smiled, and her eyes turned around the two of us meaningfully. Huafan naturally dyed her hair by looking for herbs, and went out wearing Zhang Qingxiu's diaper, I was too lazy to change into it. There are not many people with this face, so naturally I have no scruples. After I closed the door with the buns, I knocked off Hua Fan's hand. As soon as I threw the eye knife over, the man said naturally: "Do you want to be a matchmaker? You are young Qing has no family affairs and is taking her daughter and her pregnant sister with her, so she needs one more person to take care of her."

All right, Palace Master Huafanhua has always been justified, I really have nothing to say and no refutation.

On the day when the heavy snow fell, someone came to the door, and the heavy snow outside the window continued, like willow catkins and poplar flowers, and the next one was endless.At that time, Ying Ru raised his eyes, hugged the stove, played a white pawn, raised his chin at me, and softly advised: "Don't beat people out." Hua Fan had already opened the door, I turned to see When he was human, he touched Xueman in an instant and threw out the short sword. With a bang, the iron fan spread out and blocked the front door. The person behind him leaned against the wooden door and said slowly: "Why, the doctor is not welcome?" He smiled at me with squinted amber eyes, raised his chin, and pointed his chin towards Tian Qing, and he was sure that there was nothing I could do about him.

"Bastard, do you really want the old man to go by himself and let him die?" I looked straight at Chu Ge, and to be honest, it's okay for him to plot against me. Anyway, we both know how to control the speed, as long as it's not something fundamental. Well, his fundamentals are first of all Bai Jiangqing, followed by himself and us. I only care about the few people on the mountain, regardless of each other. It was Hua Fan, and again it was him, Mrs. Zhao's cook, old man Gu, and Tianqing's maid. Tianqing's maid stayed at Bai's house, and she had already married and had children there.

"If I stop, the old man will probably break my leg. You know, no one can change what the old man decides, even if Tian Qing cries in front of him for a whole day." Chu Ge smiled at me helplessly, Diao Erlang shrugged his shoulders and spread his hands with an innocent face, the sorrow in his eyes was no less than mine.

"He knew it many years ago. I told him when he died, but he still refused. If a person wants to die, no one can stop him. He and Bai Qinglian still have a way Wei should make a decision, there is no escape." Ying Rushi made another move, leaned on the cushion and copied his hands, Tian Qing lost all the games, packed up the chess pieces, Bai Jiangqing walked over, Tian Qing didn't lift his head.

Tian Qing tried to hide but failed, was pricked with a silver needle, and stood still honestly, Bai Jiangqing clasped the man's hand, sat down next to me after the diagnosis, just looked at me with pity, the old man went up the mountain He just looked at me like this before, and I thought of Ying Rushi's prophecy, so I smiled and said: "You don't need to say anything, I already know, this girl's body is clear to her herself."

"But sometimes, I just can't help it. It's the same as my hair." I fished out my hair, looked at the dull white hair, and said nothing. It's not a rainy day, lest you go to the street without an umbrella when it rains, and your hair turns completely white all of a sudden, and you are regarded as a ghost by passers-by.

"It just so happened that I managed to get rid of the poison on my body. I was about to die, but Shao Hua changed his mind and gave me the last medicine. I thought I would be entangled to death." Bai Jiang said calmly, I waved my hand and said to the people: "I don't want to hear your story, you two are so disgusting that you don't want to see them off. Also, don't go out to see off guests. I'll see you in a few years when I'm in a better mood." I was really hurt Enough of these two swindlers, after the success of the Nine Techniques of Tiancan, it has become increasingly indifferent, and it has gone in the cold direction of Bai Qinglian forever.

But Bai Jiangqing said: "Your sister needs to drink some medicine. I will check her pulse every day and give her prescription according to the actual situation. In this way, she can live a few more years. We practitioners are most afraid of meeting this kind of person. His heart disease is difficult to cure, and Your sister's condition is very bad after she became pregnant, even if she has a good foundation, she can't stand the worry, she eats too little."

What Bai Jiangqing said makes sense, what can I say, I can only nod my head and say yes, and casually mention: "There are no more vacant rooms, and the yard is too small to accommodate you two great gods."

Hua Fan stood up in time and said: "It's okay, just give them my room, I have no place to live, naive, why don't you take me in for a while?" There’s a firewood shed, you either live in it or you leave.”

I said indifferently, with a cold face and unkindness.

When the end of the year is approaching, a few of us gather together to eat hot pot in a copper stove. Bai Jiangqing tastes light, not spicy, and doesn’t like the fishy smell of mutton. Tianqing feels sick when he smells the smell of mutton, so we can only cook it instead. Ribs, the ribs have been stewed for a long time, and the porridge is cooked on the small stove in a casserole. There are five of us, each of us only has one bowl, is there any more.

I looked at the gurgling ginger and the pure white radish, and found it boring. People always use copper stoves to boil mutton. Forget it, Tianqing is very happy to eat. She didn’t eat much before, and even more after she became pregnant. At least, she still wanted to drink a little wine, but Bai Jiangqing pressed her hand, Chu Ge stuffed a piece of candied fruit into the man's mouth, Bai Jiangqing took a piece of pickled yellow peach, cut it again, and only one piece fell into the sky blue bowl A small piece was left, Tianqing bit her lip and pulled my sleeve, winked at me, and looked at me pitifully.

If it was in the past, Tianqing could eat four or five yuan by himself around the stove, and my father and I had to stop him. He picked a piece of it and ate it himself, and said to humanity: "This food is too cold, you'd better not eat it, you should eat plums, and you can't eat too much."

When Ying Rushi held the man's hand kindly and asked Tian Qing whether he wanted a boy or a girl, my senior brother was already leaning behind Bai Jiangqing, sniffing the man's neck, wanting to do something offensive.

"Boy, don't let the incense in my house be cut off." She smiled, as softly as ever, with a melodious voice, sparkling eyes, covering the ashes in her eyes, as if she had returned to her old proud and bright appearance, and she couldn't turn back Don't look back.

My senior brother Chu Ge yelled, with a silver needle in his hand, Bai Jiangqing was expressionless, the side of his neck was red, and the tips of his ears were also red. Pushing Meizi, said: "Eat something while drinking, or it will hurt your stomach."

I didn't speak, just smiled, and was driven into agitation by alcohol and the nine ways of nature. It was so warm and beautiful, but I wanted to smash this scene. I knew I was wrong, but there was something wrong in my bones. The idea of ​​wanting to be destroyed, I can't suppress it no matter what, birth and death, life, when Hua Fan is about to grab my waist, I press his head, I look at his hair like snow or moonlight, he The sadness in the corner of my eyes, I wish I could kill him, but I just retracted the hand that was pressing on the man's head, finally pressed the man's head, kissed the man's thin lips, and bit it down, the love and the thought of killing were entangled to death, The points are inseparable.

I wiped off the blood on my lips, and said lightly, "I'm going to abolish the Nine Laws of Heavenly Disability, now, right now, before I change my mind."

Frankly, I couldn't bear to kill him.

Later, I thought, how wonderful it would be if everything stopped on that day. At that time, Tianqing was not dead, and Yingrui was still there. Tianqing even smiled at me jokingly, saying that she finally married me, I hope Huafan and I have been in a good relationship for a hundred years, and we will grow old forever.But there is no need to turn gray, the hair of both of you is already white.There was sadness in her eyes when she spoke, and what she didn't say in the last half sentence was probably "It's a pity that Bai Qinglian and I will never grow old together."