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On the phone, Lu Fei didn't speak for a long time.

If he could still hear his breathing, Shu Yuan would have thought he had hung up the phone.Lu Fei's heart is unpredictable, like an unfathomable problem.Shu Yuan couldn't solve the questions Lu Fei gave him, and he didn't know how to pass the exclusive assessment.

Their current situation is muddy and muddy, which both of them dislike very much.

None of them would want that if they could.But after a one-year buffer period, they still couldn't turn a blind eye to each other. Even if they met by chance, the fetters were buried in their bones and blood, and they had already been twisted together and could not be separated at all.

Shu Yuan nestled on his favorite creamy white sofa in Wen Yijia, and the cat lay on the other side stretched and walked over.Wen Yi hugged the cat, turned his head and mouthed Shu Yuan what was going on.Shu Yuan shook his head, fingers subconsciously picked at the fabric under his body, and made up his mind that if Lu Fei didn't speak, he would go one step further.

"Lu Fei." He asked, "Is there anything else you want from me?"

Hearing this sentence, Wen Yi's eyes turned slightly red, and she couldn't bear to look at him anymore.

There was a slight rubbing sound from Lu Fei's side, but after a few seconds, Shu Yuan still didn't hear Lu Fei's voice.

Shu Yuan was a little anxious.

Almost a minute later, Lu Fei finally said, "It's not what you think."

Shu Yuan sat up straight and wanted to cry again: "What's that like?"

Did he think wrongly? Lu Fei didn't want him because he didn't love him anymore, not any other reason he imagined.

Lu Fei asked in the next sentence, "Where are you now?"

Six forty in the afternoon.

Wen Yi bought ingredients and prepared a soup pot.His idol boyfriend went out to shoot commercials, and finally asked Shu Yuan out when he was free, saying that the two should get together.The beautifully colored vegetables have been washed and put on the table, the beef is sliced ​​thinly and thoroughly, and the soup has been boiled, bubbling and steaming in the air-conditioned room.

Shu Yuan looked at the table, a little puzzled, but still answered honestly: "At Wen Yi's house, Wen Yi made a soup pot."

"Yeah." Lu Fei said, "Wait for me downstairs in five minutes."

Shu Yuan was a little surprised, and put away the sourness in his nasal cavity: "Are you coming? I don't know if there is enough to eat."

Wen Yi was almost overwhelmed when he heard this, and turned to stare at him.

This Shu Yuan's deadly brain circuit is really short-circuited where it shouldn't be.

Lu Fei: "..."

Three minutes later, Shu Yuan was standing downstairs at Wen Yi's house.

After a while, Lu Fei's car drove over from the end of the street, Shu Yuan's heart beat faster, Wen Yi gently pushed him: "Go."

The car stopped in front of Shu Yuan.

Lu Fei lowered the car window and nodded to Wen Yi: "Long time no see."

"It's not long, it's not as good as the time you haven't seen." Wen Yi said with a smile, "My Yuan Yuan hasn't eaten yet, Brother Lu, you can figure it out."

Of course Lu Fei didn't come to Wen Yi's house for dinner, Shu Yuan already understood, and his ears were still red after getting in the car because of this sentence.Shu Yuan didn't dare to look at Lu Fei until the car drove a long distance. The current situation made him a little uncertain about what was going on.

After not seeing him for nearly half a month, Lu Fei didn't look colder than last time. Noticing his gaze, Lu Fei asked, "What do you want to eat?"

Shu Yuan was flattered, and quickly said, "It's all fine."

"Hot Pot?"

"I don't want spicy food."

"Western food."

"I just ate at noon today."

"Cantonese cuisine."

"...I don't really think so."

Lu Fei asked, "What do you want to eat?"

Shu Yuan really wanted to choose the same easy-going, but he couldn't convince himself to compromise, so he had to honestly say: "Shabu pot."

Lu Fei had no objection, but turned around at an intersection, and told him by the way: "There is nothing well done around here."

It seems that Lu Fei intends to do it himself.

They went to the supermarket together.

When Lu Fei went to the entrance to get the shopping cart and came back, Shu Yuan was standing there in a daze. Lu Fei called him, and he followed Lu Fei's right side as if he had just woken up from a dream. The two walked into the food area as before.In fact, they didn't go shopping together much before. Lu Fei was too busy with work and Shu Yuan was too lazy, so they would often choose intra-city delivery in advance.

At this time, it was the peak time of the evening market, and most of the customers in the mall were people who lived nearby, and they went for a walk after dinner to buy daily necessities.In the lively and crowded fresh food area, the two of them were somewhat out of place.

After buying the ingredients, they went to buy soup base ingredients. Lu Fei chose one and threw it into the shopping cart, but Shu Yuan took it out.

"Wen Yi didn't buy this brand." Shu Yuan seemed obsessed with Wen Yi's soup pot, "He said the one he bought was the most fragrant."

Lu Fei turned sideways and let him search for it for a while.

He didn't find it.

Lu Fei said, "Does it have to be that kind?"

Shu Yuan shook his head: "No, I just don't want to settle down."

He said embarrassingly, "If it's really not there, forget it."

Lu Fei is tall, so he helped him look at the products on the high place for a while, but still found nothing.

When queuing up to check out, Shu Yuan said, "Maybe Wen Yi didn't buy it here."

Lu Fei pushed the full shopping cart and slowly followed the predecessors.

What Shu Yuan said again, he didn't hear clearly, the voices of people and the music from the shopping mall were too noisy.

Lu Fei lowered his head to the side, his brows and eyes were cold, but in an ear-catching posture: "What?"

Shu Yuan peeked at his slightly upturned eyes, and his straight nose, leaned over and said, "Actually, Wen Yi and I have been here once."

Lu Fei turned around and looked down at him: "When?"

Being watched by Lu Fei, Shu Yuan's heart skipped a beat, and Shu Yuan immediately shook his head reflexively, not sure if it meant he didn't remember, or he didn't want to say it.

Because the time he and Wen Yi came here happened to be the day when he bought nuts for Lu Fei, and it was also the day when Lu Fei called his assistant to come to the house to remove everything.The assistant said to Shu Yuan that day, if they missed something about Lu Fei, just deal with it directly, and don't need to ask Lu Fei anymore.

But what they missed that day was Shu Yuan, who had all of Lu Fei's labels on Shu Yuan, but they deliberately turned a blind eye to it.

The queue was very long, and by the time I finished paying and walked out of the supermarket, it was already past the normal dinner time.

Lu Fei packed all the things he purchased into the trunk. Shu Yuan wanted to help, but in the end he just stood there like before, unable to do anything.

On the way back, Lu Fei received a call from work, and the other party asked him to meet the next morning, but he said he didn't have time.

Shu Yuan asked hesitantly, "Are you busy?"

Lu Fei: "Well, a little bit."

Shu Yuan thought about the ingredients waiting to be processed in the trunk, connected with his hungry belly, and said: "Otherwise, we won't make soup pots, and we can eat something simple, and you can be busy with your work."

As long as you don't rush him away, he can be very quiet, and he can also play with Zhima.

Lu Fei just said, "No delay."

Coming to Lu Fei's house again, Zhima already knew Shu Yuan.

After playing with it for a while, Shu Yuan went to the kitchen to watch Lu Fei prepare the dishes.The soup pot is very simple, as long as the base material is good, it can be delicious. Shu Yuan saw that Wen Yi made it, and wanted to join Lu Fei in preparing it.Lu Fei asked him to help prepare the induction cooker, and then asked him to prepare the dishes.

When Shu Yuan entered the kitchen for the second time, he said: "We are like this now, it seems that we cook spicy hot pot for the Spring Festival every year."

Lu Fei: "You still remember."

Shu Yuan said: "I remember, the two of us lived together that year. After you went abroad, I talked to Xie Xiaomang about it, and I said you made hot pot, and she even took me to Jin Chen's house to make a group once." Bureau, but what they make is not as delicious as yours."

Lu Fei raised his eyes, and Shu Yuan had already cut his hair short and dyed it back to black.

He said lightly: "After washing the cup, take it out, and you can prepare to eat."

The meal was not long.

Shu Yuan was so hungry that he disliked that the soup pot could not be boiled in time, poured too much at one time and felt that it would not taste good if it was boiled for too long.Lu Fei took his time, and he never made a mistake when eating. It seems that there is nothing in this world that makes him lose his temper. He even has time to cook beef for Shu Yuan.

Being fed for the second time, Shu Yuan began to feel flustered.

Lu Fei was a little abnormal, and he didn't express his opinion on his confession. No matter how you look at it, this meal looks like a meal with a severed head, the kind that you can go on the road after eating.

Immediately, Shu Yuan tasted like chewing wax, and the originally delicious soup pot seemed to have lost his appetite.

They finished eating most of the food, Shu Yuan put down his chopsticks, and Lu Fei had finished eating at some point.

At this moment, Shu Yuan felt that he was about to be judged.

This time Lu Fei didn't resort to drastic measures, but rejected him gently. He guessed that if there was a next time, would Lu Fei's attitude be softer than this time, would it be because of his sincerity? In this case, try to accept him again.

People often regret after making mistakes, and Shu Yuan is the most helpless one.

The people he persecuted did not tell him that he was wrong, so he was arrogant and self-righteous, so that he missed the opportunity.

However, no one can really grow up overnight.

The small pot boiled quietly.

Shu Yuan chose to be an ostrich: "Should I go back?"

As long as Lu Fei didn't refuse this time, there would be another time for them.

Lu Fei looked at the time, but asked, "Why are you sad?"

Shu Yuan raised his head in confusion, and there was fog in front of his eyes. He didn't know whether it was the fog from the soup pot or something else: "Anyway, you will tell me to go if I don't tell you."

"I'm asking." Lu Fei said, "Why do you feel sad when you don't see me?"

Shu Yuan knew what Lu Fei was asking.

The last time he was here, he grabbed Lu Fei's sleeve and told Lu Fei that he was so sad that he would die if he didn't see Lu Fei in the past few months.

Maybe he said something else, everything about the breakup, but Lu Fei asked him why.

why.

Does this need an explanation?

Shu Yuan's eyes were sore, and the year's struggle turned into illusory bubbles in Lu Fei's eyes, as if they didn't exist.

Lu Fei couldn't see him, couldn't understand him, he was so unbelievable and unbelievable about this.

"Shu Yuan."

At some point, Lu Fei walked around the dining table and came to him.

First he called his name condescendingly, then knelt down and wiped his tears with his thumb.

Lu Fei asked again: "Yuan Yuan, tell me why."

Shu Yuan looked at his face with tears in his eyes, choked up and said, "Because I love you."