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The porch is hot and humid.

Shu Yuan was forced to take a few steps back and leaned against the shoe cabinet in the entrance.

And Lu Fei looked down at him with ruthless and deep eyes.

In such a stalemate and inseparable atmosphere, Shu Yuan's brain was blank for as long as 1 minute, and his heart was beating so loudly that Zhima could probably hear it, humming right at the two of them Calling, no one cares.

Shu Yuan hadn't seen Lu Fei's eyes like this for a long time.

Lu Fei may have revealed a point or two in front of him before, but it never made him feel so trembling like this moment.

A long and dull pain swept over them, wrapping them thinly, and even the fingertips tasted the bitter taste.

Several years of passionate love, a decisive and painful breakup, and a year-long gap after the breakup, perhaps one person completely let go of the other is itself the result of accumulated disappointment.But at this moment, Shu Yuan boldly confirmed his guess a few months ago again - Lu Fei still loves him, but just doesn't want him anymore.

So Lu Fei let go, so Lu Fei would rather be alone.

All the decisiveness, all the indifference, was because Lu Fei didn't want it anymore, and because of this kind of not wanting it, Lu Fei didn't hesitate to punish himself.

This confirmation made Shu Yuan feel cold all over, not knowing whether it was for himself or for Lu Fei.

Lu Fei got closer again, he breathed very close, small goosebumps appeared on the skin behind Shu Yuan's ears, his body subconsciously felt a strange heat in the numbness, he knew that his face must be very red now ridiculous.Just when he thought that Lu Fei was about to do something, he heard Lu Fei say a few words in his ear.

Lu Fei said, "You should go."

This is a warning.

Emotionless.

The dog barked again.

Shu Yuan's palms were clenched in cold sweat.

Somehow, Shu Yuan had an intuition that when he came to Lu Fei again a year later, he had already made ripples in this peaceful pool of stagnant water.

If he really left now, then Lu Fei would never let him in again.

"I'm not leaving." He raised his head and looked at Lu Fei, with something wet hiding in his eyes, "Please...don't drive me away."

The wet things in his eyes fell down and wet his cheeks. After breaking up, he always cried in front of Lu Fei. He limply stretched out his arms to hug Lu Fei's waist, and continued to beg limply: "Let me stay longer." After a while, I, I'm really going to die..."

Lu Fei didn't kiss him.

Shu Yuan hung on Lu Fei's body, and Lu Fei picked up his buttocks and hugged him.

This kind of hug touched Shu Yuan's most aggrieved point. He buried his whole face on Lu Fei's shoulder and cried very sadly.The hug after a year made Shu Yuan's body tremble slightly uncontrollably, like a child who has been pampered again, unable to control himself.

His shoes didn't know where he fell, and his toes felt wet and warm, maybe the dog was licking his toes.

But soon Lu Fei closed the door, and Shu Yuan was also put on the soft and wide bed. He came to Lu Fei's bedroom, and Lu Fei also pressed on top of him.

The light is not good in gloomy weather.

It was getting dark and there were no lights in the room.

Shu Yuan's tears didn't stop, nor did he get comfort from Lu Fei.

Lu Fei asked him again if he wanted to leave, he shook his head resolutely, and then took the initiative to unbutton Lu Fei.

Shu Yuan's actions were a little abnormally eager.

He longed for Lu Fei's touch, longed for Lu Fei's kiss, and also longed for every smell he liked on Lu Fei.He bought men's fragrance of the same style as Lu Fei, wore the shirts left by Lu Fei, and recalled the feeling of Lu Fei touching himself a hundred times, but in the end it was all in vain, he wanted nothing but Lu Fei himself.

This is not a prelude to a reunion.

They've never been an incompatible couple in that regard.

On the contrary, under Lu Fei's ascetic shell, there is a hot fire buried.

Lu Fei found something from the drawer. At the beginning, Shu Yuan cried even harder. He was ignorant and endlessly sad. It was hard to imagine that Lu Fei had someone else. When he was opened up by Lu Fei, his heart was also torn into pieces. In two halves, I could hardly breathe.

They did not speak, and proceeded subduedly.

like the weather today.

"...Lu Fei." Shu Yuan called his name confusedly, "Lu Fei..."

Lu Fei never turned him around.

Didn't kiss him either.

After the first time, Shu Yuan wanted to cry, but felt a little happy. He might really be going crazy.He grabbed Lu Fei's pillow and remembered the night before Lu Fei was going to break up with him. That night Lu Fei didn't say a word, but in the end he hugged him in his arms and kissed him softly in the aftertaste. Nose tip and eyelids.

But not this time.

Shu Yuan only rested for two or three minutes, and saw Lu Fei standing barefoot on the ground, took off the things, tied a knot and threw them away, and then opened the drawer to find a new one.

The mattress sagged, and after Lu Fei sat down, Shu Yuan was picked up.

He lowered his head with red eyes, saw Lu Fei opened his lips and said, "Move yourself."

On his third attempt, Lu Fei grabbed the back of his head and pressed down, then kissed him.

When Shu Yuan woke up, it was completely dark.

It was as if he had been severely beaten, and every part of his body hurt.

The phone is not with me, and I don't know what time it is. The room is completely dark.When Lu Fei was not there, Shu Yuan called him a few times and found that the house was very quiet.

Shu Yuan turned on the bedside lamp, his eyelids were irritated and closed subconsciously, only to find that the eyelids were swollen and heavy.

He wasn't interested in looking at his current ugly appearance, and he didn't find any shoes when he lowered his head. He only saw two used covers and blue packaging scattered on the ground.He sat on the edge of the bed in a daze for a while, then couldn't hold back his smile.

He fell down again, endured soreness on the sticky sheets and rolled a few times, staring at the ceiling of the old house and continued to be in a daze.

The rain outside seems to have stopped.

Where will Lu Fei go?

Shu Yuan waited for another half an hour, but Lu Fei didn't come back either.

He had no choice but to put on clothes for himself. In the process of putting on clothes, he saw some terrible marks on his body, deep and shallow, as if he had been abused.But he didn't mind. He touched the phone in his trouser pocket and checked that the time was ten forty in the evening.

There was no one in the living room either.

The dog is not there.

Shu Yuan guessed that Lu Fei must have gone for a walk with his dog.

Shu's mother raised dogs when she was a child. He knew that some dogs were very annoying. No matter what the weather was, he had to go for a walk outside, otherwise the house would be demolished.It stands to reason that Lu Fei shouldn't have such patience for pets. He also said that this is a friend's dog, but which friend, Shu Yuan admitted that he was jealous.

He thought of Yuan Jiayi, and also thought of the Rh potion and condom that Lu Fei took out from the drawer, and his mood fell to the bottom in an instant.

The pain spread gradually, and when Shu Yuan wiped away his tears, Lu Fei came back.

Shu Yuan sat in the living room and looked up, the two were startled at the same time.

Lu Fei really went for a walk with the dog.

Zhima was still wearing a raincoat, and her feet were covered with mud.What surprised Shu Yuan was that as soon as Zhima entered the door, he sat down at the door and remained motionless. When Lu Fei went to wring the towel, it took the initiative to lift its foot to Lu Fei as if it had done hundreds of times. Wipe its four legs clean.

During this period, Lu Fei did not speak to Shu Yuan.

Shu Yuan is not sure if he should go now, if he can, he wants to stay.

"What to eat?"

Shu Yuan was awakened from his messy thoughts, and Lu Fei had washed his hands and stood in front of him to ask questions.

He subconsciously asked: "What?"

This situation is somewhat similar to before.

Lu Fei is in charge of cooking, and he is in charge of eating.

When asked by Lu Fei, he realized how hungry he was after strenuous exercise.

"Only simple food." Lu Fei said, "Noodles, dumplings, maybe even a sandwich."

Shu Yuan said, "Let's eat noodles."

"Okay." Lu Fei didn't walk away immediately, but looked at him and said, "I thought you won't wake up until later."

"I've been awake for almost an hour." Shu Yuan said dryly, "You're not here. Neither you nor the dog are here."

I'm a little scared to be home alone.

Lu Fei let out a "hmm" and went to the kitchen.

Zhima didn't come to play with Shu Yuan this time, but lay down in the nest, staring at Shu Yuan with two eyes like black beans.

They sat at the table and each ate a bowl of noodles.

Lu Fei's craftsmanship was as good as his ability to work. Shu Yuan's tears fell into the noodle soup as he ate.He was a crybaby, and he didn't want to cry all the time, so he buried his head very low for fear that Lu Fei would see it, and the bowl looked bigger than his face.

Then he heard Lu Fei say: "It's getting late, I'll take you back."