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Wen Yi said that after many verifications by him, Lu Fei and Yuan Jiayi had never dated at all.

After hearing the news, Shu Yuan couldn't fall asleep all night, laughed for a while, cried for a while, called Wen Yi in the middle of the night, but was not angry when Wen Yi's idol boyfriend made a malicious show of affection.

Lu Fei's seven-month vacancy may not mean anything, but it undoubtedly gave Shu Yuan a shot in the arm.

He was full of confidence and enthusiasm, and couldn't help but plan how to get close to Lu Fei.

But when he said he wanted to return the earphones to Lu Fei by himself, Shu Yuan was a little timid before leaving.

The last time they met at the pet hospital, he didn't know how he behaved, but Lu Fei looked normal anyway.The Lu Fei I met that day and the Lu Fei I just met in high school are actually very similar in some respects. They are polite and alienated, unpredictable but hard to pick. It is a very ordinary social distance.

Sometimes Shu Yuan felt that he didn't know Lu Fei at all. In the good old days, he was too confident, so he fed his conscience to the dog.

I haven't been to Lu Fei's house for a long time.

It was not the place Lu Fei rented after breaking up with him, but Lu Fei's real home.

Counting it, it should be almost seven or eight years.

After Shu Yuan bought Lu Fei's house that time, he asked someone to move some of Lu Fei's belongings in his house.However, because some of the furniture in the house had been replaced by the new owner, it was difficult to return to the original appearance of Lu Fei's house, so Shu Yuan didn't force it.

After they broke up, the house returned to Lu Fei in exchange, but Shu Yuan never came again.

There is plenty of rain in May.

Shu Yuan stood under the steps of the old house for a while, and the shade of the trees could block most of the rain for him.He noticed that on the railing of the steps, the marks left by Lu Fei when he locked his bicycle back then were gone.The appearance of the city has been remodeled, the rusty iron railings have been repainted, and the exterior walls of the houses have also been repainted, and the original traces can no longer be found.

"Shu Yuan." Someone called him from behind.

Shu Yuan turned around suddenly and saw Lu Fei walking towards him holding a big umbrella, and the car was parked in a roadside parking space not far away.

Although Wen Yi had already told Lu Fei that he would be the one to return the things according to the script, Shu Yuan was still a little apprehensive, and said as if to smooth things over for himself: "You came back so soon, I thought it would take a while."

Lu Fei approached, with the usual expression on his face, but the umbrella moved over Shu Yuan's head, covering both of them under the umbrella: "Well, I came back on time for nothing."

The umbrella was big enough, and Lu Fei was just acting normally, but Shu Yuan's heart was hit hard, and he lowered his eyes and said, "Oh."

The two of them had nothing to say.

Both time and relationship make them have no common topic.

After a brief silence, Shu Yuan moved first. He took out a small box from his pocket: "Your earphones."

The earphones were packed in a small box by Shu Yuan, and when Lu Fei took it, he touched his fingers.

Lu Fei's fingers were a little cold, but Shu Yuan's were warm, which made him shrink his fingers slightly, and then put his hands into his trouser pockets to hide.

Lu Fei said, "Thank you."

Shu Yuan said "You're welcome", and then said: "The nurse at the pet hospital gave it to me, I should thank her."

"I went to the pet hospital to look for it." Lu Fei put the box in his pocket, "She thought we were friends."

Hearing this sentence, Shu Yuan really wanted to ask "Aren't we friends", but stopped abruptly, they were indeed not friends.So Lu Feiming knew that the earphones were with him, and he would not take the initiative to find them, preferring to buy a new pair.

This made Shu Yuan feel a little embarrassed.

However, Lu Fei's next words quickly dispelled this point. Lu Fei said, "I thought you wouldn't give it back to me."

"How could it be!" Shu Yuan denied angrily, "Since I took it, I will definitely return it, and I'm not that exaggerated."

As if the past seven months didn't exist at all, Shu Yuan's appearance now is similar to the day they met for the last time.It also appeared in front of Lu Fei, and it was also a rainy day, and even the person was wet like last time.

The ends of Shu Yuan's hair looked wet from the rain, and some of them stuck to his forehead. The blue-green hair matched his white skin, making him look dull and morbidly beautiful.

He looked up and found Lu Fei looking at him, bit his lower lip, and explained in a panic: "I won't be so naive a long time ago."

Lu Fei looked away, did not comment on this, but walked up the steps with strides.

Shu Yuan followed suit, following behind him.

Lu Fei did not reject this.

After Lu Fei entered the password to open the unit door, Shu Yuan asked, "May I go in and sit for a while?"

Lu Fei agreed.

When they entered the house, Shu Yuan stood in the porch, a bit confused about what year it is.

Lu Fei didn't know how to do it, but took the time to make it almost exactly match his memory.The wall clock on the wall, the oil wax leather sofa, the walnut dining table and chairs... Even the coat rack at the door is exactly the same as in the past.

Bian Mu excitedly circled around Lu Fei and kept licking his hand. Lu Fei put away his umbrella and stood by the wall, bent down and held its head and rubbed it for a while.Bianmu is a very friendly dog. After Lu Fei walked away, it sniffed Shu Yuan again and seemed to confirm that he was harmless, so it immediately grabbed a toy and rubbed Shu Yuan's hand, impatiently and enthusiastically.

It seems that this is a lonely dog, and the injury has healed.

Shu Yuan played with it for two rounds, and Lu Fei came over from the restaurant after washing his hands and pouring water: "Sesame."

It turned out that the dog's name was Zhima.

After being scolded by the proxy owner, Zhima's excitement subsided a little, and she automatically walked away with the toy in her mouth.

"How did you do it?" Shu Yuan looked around the house after getting away, and asked, "It's amazing, basically everything is restored."

"I asked a friend to help me." Lu Fei said again in such a flattering way, "I couldn't find many things, so I had to buy replacements, and they weren't all the same."

Friends again.

When Lu Fei said this, he always reminded Shu Yuan of the distance between them and the changes that belonged to Lu Fei that he hadn't had time to participate in after the breakup.

Shu Yuan took the water that Lu Fei handed him, took a sip, and didn't know what to say.He was afraid of such a cold scene, so he walked a few more steps in: "You also found this wooden desk calendar?"

It is a wooden perpetual calendar, and the position of the wooden blocks can be adjusted at will according to the date calendar of the year.

Shu Yuan used to play for a while every time he came here, and if it got messed up, Lu Fei would adjust it.

Lu Fei said, "I didn't find it."

Shu Yuan: "Then?"

Lu Fei said: "It was kept at your place. At that time, there were a batch of things that were deposited with you, and this was among them."

Shu Yuan: "..."

He remembered that this wooden perpetual calendar seemed to be made by Lu Fei's grandfather himself.

A batch of things that Lu Fei left behind before going abroad belonged to him. They were very important and commemorative things. Shu Yuan did volunteer to keep them for Lu Fei, but he never knew what Lu Fei cared about, let alone Check out this batch.He just moved his lips, and asked Papa Shu to help and ask people to do these things well.

"I'm stupid." Shu Yuan scratched his hair, "Why did you forget this?"

Lu Fei stood a few steps away from him, as if he knew what he was thinking, and didn't dwell on this topic: "Is the cat better?"

Shu Yuan nodded: "It's just throwing up hairballs, it's fine now."

Reunited in a house where memories fade, it's easy to recall what it was like when they first got along.At that time Shu Yuan was heartless, naive, and Lu Fei was arrogant and full of preoccupations.They always change each other's lifestyles inadvertently. Lu Fei has learned to open up, but Shu Yuan has not learned to be sensible.

In this world, some people's growth is always a few steps slower than others. When they finally grow up, the person they were chasing before has already gone to the next stage.

They chatted a few words in daily life, with some inappropriateness.

Not far away, not close, Shu Yuan has never had such an awkward way of chatting with anyone in his life, but he still hopes that this kind of getting along will not stop.

Since breaking up, this is the longest time he and Lu Fei have stayed peacefully.

During this period, Lu Fei looked at his watch once.

This meant that he didn't really want Shu Yuan to stay here anymore, but if he didn't say anything, Shu Yuan didn't propose to leave, although this in itself made Shu Yuan feel uncomfortable.

"Grandpa still doesn't know about our breakup." Shu Yuan said, "He called me on my birthday and asked about you."

Things about the elderly can always soften Lu Fei's heart.

Sure enough, he followed the topic and asked Shu Yuan: "How is grandpa and grandma doing?"

Shu Yuan: "It's not bad. Some time ago, grandma was hospitalized for a few days because of a minor illness, but she has been discharged now."

The old man is old and in poor health. From Shu Yuan to Shu's father and Shu's mother, they all tacitly did not mention the breakup of the younger generation.

Lu Fei obviously didn't object to this, he took a tacit attitude towards it, but he didn't propose to visit them with Shu Yuan, just said "I will take time to visit them".Being too rational makes Lu Fei very clear about what kind of situation that will cause. Sometimes people have to make decisions that go against their hearts in order to maintain another determination.

Zhima came to look for Lu Fei again.

This time it brought the leash, and stared at Lu Fei with black bean-like eyes.

Shu Yuan was amused, and asked Lu Fei, "Are you going to walk the dog?"

Lu Fei said, "It's almost time, but it's raining today."

Zhima seemed to understand, and whimpered twice.

Lu Fei had no choice but to get up, went to the cabinet to find its raincoat, and Zhima was so happy that he spun around on the ground.

Lu Fei was very gentle when he put the raincoat on the dog, with a trace of helplessness. This scene reminded Shu Yuan of his former self, and his method was probably similar to that of a dog.

One person and one dog are all fully dressed.

Lu Fei picked up the umbrella standing in the corner, and Shu Yuan also stood up.

Lu Fei didn't ask for his opinion, nor did he feel sorry for going to walk the dog suddenly during the conversation, and he didn't ask Shu Yuan to stay.

He was just doing his own thing very normally. Shu Yuan's arrival could intersect with his life temporarily, but he couldn't really integrate into his life.

They can now communicate and get along.

But that's all, it can't get any closer.

Lu Fei started a new life as he planned.

As long as Shu Yuan leaves today, Lu Fei's life will be back on track tomorrow.

When going out, Shu Yuan grabbed Lu Fei's sleeve: "Lu Fei."

Lu Fei stopped, but he didn't pull out his sleeves, but he didn't look back.

Shu Yuan talked so much nonsense today, but only now did he have the courage to say the most important sentence: "Can I come tomorrow?"

Dogs hopped at their feet, urging them on.

It seems to be asking the shit shoveler, why don't you go out for a pleasant walk.

Shu Yuan said, "It's been a year."

He hoped that Lu Fei would not turn his head around, because only by looking at Lu Fei's back could he speak a complete sentence.

"I've thought a lot about it this year."

"I know a lot of things I didn't understand before, and I understand a lot of things I didn't understand before. The apology I told you last time was not fake. Although it was useless, I—"

He couldn't go on talking, no amount of useless words was better than action.

He asked: "...Can I still come to see you tomorrow?"

He said, "Let me be close to you one more time, okay?"

"Shu Yuan, has anyone ever told you not to say such explicit things to others?" Lu Fei said, "Especially to your ex."

Shu Yuan let go of his hand.

He didn't know how to proceed.

Lu Fei turned around, and Shu Yuan lowered his head. From this angle, Lu Fei could only see Shu Yuan's hair that was not completely dry, and smell the scent of shampoo and rainwater left on the hair.

He said, "Don't always do irresponsible things."

Shu Yuan raised his head, his eyes were a little confused.

Lu Fei's eyes were very strange, he couldn't understand it, but he was flustered.

The two stared at each other for a few seconds.

The dog barked "Wow".

Shu Yuan grabbed Lu Fei's sleeve again and took a step forward.

Under Lu Fei's eyes that became deeper, they got so close that they could feel each other's hot breath.

Perhaps it was the word "predecessor" that stung his heart. Shu Yuan's mature mask of disguise was broken, and the "sensible" side disappeared quickly. The seven months of not seeing each other at all was a kind of torture for him. , and growth is often accompanied by suffering.

He tried to change his body where Lu Fei couldn't see, but when he actually got in front of Lu Fei, he became nothing again.

"I miss you." He called Lu Fei's name willfully again, "I'm really sad that I can't see you."

"I've almost died of grief over the past few months."

The hot breath swept across Lu Fei's chin.

The soft lips also opened and closed in front of her eyes.

Shu Yuan's whole body carried a sweet aura that he hadn't seen for a long time, tearing off the shell called strong, exuding a toxin-like attraction.

Lu Fei couldn't resist this attraction.