Wait till the sun rises

"Dad." Xu Jiming, who rushed to the hospital after receiving the news, looked at his father with a bruised nose and swollen face, and said incredulously, "What's going on?"

Han Ling's eyes turned red in an instant. She stepped on her high-heeled shoes and walked to the bed. She reached out to touch the bruise on the corner of her husband's mouth distressedly: "How did it hurt like this? Does it hurt?" After finishing speaking, she was a little angry: "You Say you are so old, how can you get into conflicts with others? You have started fighting? Do you really think you are a young man in your twenties?"

Xu Qiang shook his wife's hand, then lifted the quilt and was about to get out of bed.

Han Ling hurriedly stopped him: "Where are you going?"

Xu Qiang didn't answer, he put on his shoes with trembling hands, and walked out quickly.He went straight to the front desk, grabbed the nurse and asked a patient named Yao Liang.

The nurse asked, "Sir, who are you?"

Xu Qiang took a breath and said, "He is my student, where is he and how is he?"

Outside the operating room, Yao Liang's parents cuddled together, weeping secretly.The lights in the operating room were still on.

Looking out from the window, the storm showed no signs of stopping, the tiles in the shopping mall reflected the pale lights, and the couple's slight but extremely painful whimpers wafted in the air.

Xu Qiang seemed to be unable to breathe, and pulled his collar, but he was clearly wearing a round neck T-shirt.

He walked slowly to the bench and sat down, moving slowly like an old man.Xu Jiming stepped forward quickly, grabbed his hand, and then was held back even harder.

When the lights in the operating room went out, Xu Jiming's hands were already turning red.

The couple stood up tremblingly, and asked cautiously, "Doctor, how is my son?"

The doctor breathed a sigh of relief and said, "Fortunately, I saved my life."

Yao Liang's mother's legs went limp, and she finally couldn't help crying when she sat on the ground.

Xu Qiang shook his body, closed his eyes lightly and breathed a sigh of relief.

After returning home, Xu Qiang changed his shoes, went straight into the bedroom and lay down on the bed.Han Ling patted her son on the shoulder and followed him in.

But Xu Qiang closed his eyes as if he had fallen asleep.

Han Ling couldn't ask, so she could only retreat in disappointment.She said, "Let's ask later, I'll cook first."

Xu Jiming glanced at his father's stubborn back, and said softly, "Okay."

the next day.

Xu Jiming hurriedly finished his dinner and went out.Han Ling said helplessly, "It's the big weekend, where are you going in such a hurry?"

Xu Jiming turned around and said with a smile, "I have an appointment with a friend."

Xu Qiang lowered his head to drink the porridge, took a bite of the steamed stuffed bun, and snorted.

·

When Xu Jiming drove to the train station, he immediately saw Xia Yang standing in the crowd.He stepped forward and gave him a big hug.

"I really miss you." Xu Jiming whispered next to Xia Yang's ear.

Xia Yang patted him on the back and said with a smile, "I'm not here."

Xu Jiming also laughed. He took a step back and looked at Xia Yang carefully: "I'm getting fatter."

Xia Yang touched his face and said, "Really?"

Xu Jiming nodded seriously: "But it's not enough, it would be nice to be fatter. You're in such a hurry, you haven't had breakfast yet?"

The two sat down at a breakfast shop near the train station, and they sat in the innermost position against the wall.There are graffiti drawn by children with pencils on the walls.

Xu Jiming broke open a bun and looked at it, then handed it to Xia Yang: "Here, stuffed with leeks."

Xia Yang waved his hand, and said, "It's early in the morning, the taste is too strong. I'll just eat vegetables and tofu."

Xu Jiming let out an oh, and put the opened bun aside.

Xia Yang glanced at the buns on the table, and said helplessly, "There are too many, and if you don't eat them, I can't finish them."

Xu Jiming smiled and said, "I don't know which one is delicious, you can break it apart and taste each one."

Xia Yang said, "What about the rest? Waste."

Xu Jiming said: "It's okay, I can take it home."

Xia Yang paused the hand holding the spoon, and said softly, "How is Uncle's injury? Is it serious?"

"Relax." Xu Jiming roughly urged him to eat quickly, "It looks serious, and it's healed now."

Xia Yang lowered his head, put the spoon to his lips, raised his head again and asked, "What's the reason for the fight?"

"I don't know, he kept covering his mouth and refused to say." Xu Jiming sighed, "It seems to be because of one of Dad's students."

After eating, Xu Jiming really packed up the remaining buns and threw them in the car.He fastened his seat belt and said, "Next..."

"Let's go to the supermarket first and buy something." Xia Yang said.

Xu Jiming carried the big and small bags of supplements, and murmured beside Xia Yang: "Look at you, you still have such a clear distinction with me, and you are rushing to pay the bill with me?"

Xia Yang said with a smile: "I bought this for my uncle and aunt. It's my whole heart. How can I use your money?"

Xu Jiming was dissatisfied: "What's yours is mine, what's mine is yours, and what's yours is mine."

"Yes, yes, yes." Xia Yang said, "Just this once, why don't you take it as an example?"

Xu Jiming took what Xia Yang was holding and put it in the car. After closing the car door, his hand was suddenly held, and Xia Yang stuffed his hand full of candy when he lowered his head.

"New taste, you haven't tasted it before, try it."

Xu Jiming laughed, "I didn't even see you buying it." He peeled off a candy and threw it into his mouth, narrowing his eyes in satisfaction.

Xia Yang asked, "Is it delicious?"

"En." Xu Jiming changed the position of the candy in his mouth, peeled off a candy with blue wrapping paper and stuffed it into Xia Yang's mouth.

Xia Yang climbed into the car, and saw Xu Jiming folded the blue and red wrapping paper in his hand, smiling sullenly.

"why are you laughing?"

Xu Jiming put the candy paper into his wallet: "It is said that CP comes from red and blue since ancient times."

Xia Yang was confused: "What do you mean? It's inexplicable."

Xu Jiming just smiled and said nothing.

After the car stopped, Xu Jiming walked ahead carrying the big and small bags. Seeing Xia Yang stop, he asked, "Tired? I'll be home soon."

Xia Yang looked at him, and said softly: "I, it's better not to go up."

Although Xu's father and Xu's mother never beat him or scolded him after he came out, it was because of this that he felt extremely uncomfortable facing them.In addition, Xu Jiming's father is still injured now, so he is not feeling well, so it's better not to add trouble to him.

Xu Jiming frowned, and then said guiltily, "I'm sorry." He backed away again.

"It's okay. I firmly believe that one day I can go home with you." Xia Yang smiled and handed the things in his hand to Xu Jiming, "Go up, I... I'm going back."

"How can I let you go like this." Xu Jiming chased after him in a few steps, "It's been a long time since I saw you, so let's have a meal together anyway. Tomorrow is my birthday, let me celebrate today in advance."

Xia Yang wondered: "Then uncle and aunt?"

"Let's have dinner together at noon." Xu Jiming made a decision directly, "That's it."

The two got back into the car again.Xu Jiming dialed the phone number at home, and Xu Qiang answered it.

"Hey."

Xu Jiming was a little surprised, and said, "Dad."

Xu's father said concisely: "Say."

Even with just one word, Xu Jiming's heart trembled. This was the first time his father spoke to him after that day.

Xu Jiming held Xia Yang's hand and said with a smile, "Dad, I'll eat outside at noon, you and Mom don't have to wait for me."

"understood."

Pop, hang up the phone over there.

Xia Yang asked nervously, "What did uncle say?"

Xu Jiming lowered his head and kissed the back of his hand loudly: "Is my birthday present ready?"

"Already given you."

Xu Jiming rushed forward and said in a hey voice, "Just a few candies to get rid of me, it's not that easy."

·

upstairs.

Xu Lei stood in front of the window, looking down at his son's car driving away slowly.

He had been standing here just now, watching Xia Yang and Xu Jiming get off the car together, watching Xia Yang's hesitant footsteps, watching them turn back, and then received a call from his son.

Han Ling got up from the sofa and walked over with a book in her hand. She glanced at it and said, "Are there any flowers below? Have you been looking at it for so long?"

"No." Xu Qiang said roughly, "Where did you take my cane?"

Han Ling said: "I was bitten by a mouse, so I threw it to the garbage collector."

Xu Qiang was furious, grabbed the book in his wife's hand, turned it over and looked even more angrily: "What kind of messy books have you been reading all day?"

——What he held in his hand was a book on gay literature.

Seeing her husband looking down at the book, Han Ling couldn't help laughing, she pretended to be confused and said, "Hey, Lao Xu, you said, I put this book under the sofa, but today I looked for it again, and it was on the balcony. I found it on the small round table, don’t you think it’s strange?”

Xu Qiang's face was a little uncomfortable, and he said without raising his head: "I think it's because you remember wrongly, your memory has always been bad."

"Really?" Han Ling looked at her husband and said with a smile: "But I have read half of this book, but you see, I took it over and read it again today, and the bookmark is actually stuck on the forty or so pages, isn't it Did a thief enter?"

A blush appeared on Xu Qiang's face, he stood up from the sofa, went to the balcony with a book in his pocket, and sat on the small round table to read.

——That's his personal hobby, he doesn't like the study room, he likes to read on the brightly lit balcony.

Han Ling looked at her exasperated husband, laughed, and followed her.

·

"I haven't celebrated your birthday for many years." Xia Yang unpacked the birthday cake and placed it in the middle of the table, and said, "It's so strange to have a birthday during the day."

Xu Jiming said, "Then go and close the curtains."

"Okay." Xia Yang closed the curtains and turned around, and saw Xu Jiming looked a little uncomfortable, like a child who had done something bad and was afraid of being discovered.

He glanced at the cake and asked suspiciously, "What's wrong?"

"Haha, it's okay."

The waiter quickly brought the dishes, and seeing that the curtains were drawn, he glanced at the candles on the table and understood.She put the dishes on the table and said with a smile: "Sir, your dishes are all ready, please use it slowly."

Xu Jiming said, "Thank you."

Xia Yang turned off the lights, only the candlelight was dancing in the room.

"Make a wish," he said.

Xu Jiming said, "Don't you want to sing the happy birthday song?"

Xia Yang snorted, took out his phone and played a happy birthday song, which was the children's version.

Xu Jiming hesitated for a moment, and said, "Okay."

He closed his eyes and made a pious wish.

"There are two wishes left to use at night."

Xia Yang laughed: "Okay."

"Give you this rose." Xu Jiming handed the cut cake to Xia Yang, "Do you like it?"

Xia Yang looked at him a little funny, but still cooperated: "I like it."

"Then try it."

Xia Yang hummed, and took a small piece of butter with a fork, Xu Jiming said: "It's delicious when you eat it."

Xia Yang hummed again, and forked/picked up the whole butter rose.

Something sparkled among the red cream roses in the candlelight.

Xia Yang said: "What is this?" He stretched out his hand to take it, Xu Jiming covered his face in pain, and said angrily, "It's too shallow."

It was a ring. Xia Yang held the ring and looked at Xu Jiming in a daze.

Xu Jiming coughed in embarrassment, pretending to be angry and said: "Well, I studied with TV, and the director is too deceitful, and I can't hide it. How could it be eaten without being discovered? It's so annoying. "

Xia Yang looked at him with a soft voice: "Do you need me to cooperate with you?"

Xu Jiming hurriedly said: "No, no need." He took the ring from Xia Yang's hand, wiped off the cream with a tissue clumsily, and knelt down on one knee.

He said: "Actually, I have always wanted to find a special day for you to do all this."

Speaking of this, he smiled a little embarrassedly: "I thought about it cheekily, my birthday must be special to you, so I want to make this day a little bit more special, so that you will never forget it for a lifetime this day."

Xia Yang looked at him with a smile, and suddenly put one hand on Xu Jiming's shoulder, bent down, and said, "So what do you want to say?"

Xu Jiming said piously, "Marry me, or...marry me."

The soft and joyful children's voices echoed all around.There was no light in the room, only the warm candles flickering.

Xia Yang leaned over and kissed Xu Jiming's lips lightly: "Okay, I promise you."

·

At night, Xu Jiming returned home with big and small bags.

Xu Qiang was sitting on the sofa watching the news, when he saw his son come in, he glanced sideways and turned away.

Han Ling smiled and said, "I'm back, why did I buy so many things?"

Xu Jiming shook his sore wrist, remembering Xia Yang's confession, and said aggrievedly: "The supermarket is discounted, so I bought a little more."

Han Ling looked at the ring on her son's ring finger, her eyes flickered, and then she looked at the gift boxes piled up on the coffee table, and said, "That kid Yang Yang sent it here."

Xu Jiming hummed, and was a little happy in his heart. He glanced at Xu's father: "Yes, Yangyang bought it for you."

Father Xu stared at the TV with a sullen face and said nothing. Han Ling said, "Okay, I'm ready to eat. Obviously, I put the birthday present in your room. Let's see if you like it later."

Xu Jiming heaved a sigh of relief. In fact, he felt his mother's attitude softened these days. He hugged Han Ling gratefully and said, "Thank you mom. You gave it to me. I'm sure I like it."

Han Ling patted him: "Okay, don't be sensational, and eat quickly. Old Xu, don't look at it, and eat."

Time flies like water, and it will soon enter October.This year's Mid-Autumn Festival and National Day coincide.

Xu Jiming counted the days, he didn't want Xia Yang to spend the Mid-Autumn Festival alone, and he didn't want to destroy the atmosphere that the family finally calmed down.

He could feel that his father would accept him and Xia Yang soon.

The boy named Yao Liang was discharged from the hospital and was recuperating at home. Father Xu would visit him occasionally.

In the past few months, Xu Jiming had sneaked into the study and discovered books about gays that his father had hidden in the cabinet.Han Ling was already able to talk to him about Xia Yang very naturally, and sometimes he would make some delicious food for Xu Jiming to send over on weekends.

They all did this behind Xu Qiang's back, but Xu Jiming felt that his father must know.

Three days before the Mid-Autumn Festival, Xu Jiming met Murong and his partner at the door of his house when he was walking home.

He invited them in on his own initiative and poured them water.

Father Xu was watering the flowers at that time, seeing them coming in, he didn't drive them out like before, he just kept a straight face.

Murong and his boyfriend stood up, bowed to him, and said, "Teacher, don't be angry, I will leave after I finish speaking. This is Wei Ping, and we are going to get married. You are my most respected teacher, I think getting married is a major event in life, so I'm here to tell you."

Father Xu looked at the two people's handshake, and said nothing for a long time.

"I'm sorry to bother you." Murong bowed again and said, "I'm leaving, teacher. Although it's a pity that I didn't receive your blessing, I'm content with this."

It wasn't until they came to the door that Xu Qiang said: "...Let's stay and have a meal."

Murong's eyes lit up, and a smile appeared on his face: "Thank you teacher, I'll help my wife cook."

Xu Jiming smiled and said, "I'll be fine, you can talk to Dad."

They drank a lot of wine and talked about many things that day, but Xu Qiang didn't say that word of blessing until the end.Han Ling and Xu Jiming kept repeating it, and they said it again when they were sent away.

"That's great." Seeing their backs leaving hand in hand, Xu Jiming sighed.

Han Ling patted her son on the shoulder: "Go home."

Xu Jiming smiled and said, "I want to call Yang Yang, you should go back first."

Han Ling looked at her son and nodded.

·

The next day, because he was drunk, Xu Jiming didn't get up until after ten o'clock.

There was a sweet fragrance in the room.Xu Jiming's eyes lit up, and he jumped out: "Mom, what delicious food did you cook?"

Xu's father reprimanded: "I just know how to eat. Look, young people start up later than us. Are you embarrassed?"

Han Ling smiled and said, "I learned how to make mooncakes from Aunt Wang downstairs. There are some made ones here. Try it."

Xu Jiming: "That must be tasted."

Seeing her son eating mooncakes with big mouthfuls, Han Ling smiled and said, "Wash up and send it to Yangyang."

Xu Jiming felt warm in his heart, and said, "Okay."

Han Ling glanced at her husband, and asked casually, "Is Yangyang celebrating the Mid-Autumn Festival by himself this year?"

Xu Jiming said: "Ruo Lin said she hoped Yang Yang would spend the festival with them."

Han Ling said: "It's fine, there are so many people, otherwise it would be deserted."

Father Xu broke open a mooncake, stuffed it into Xu Jiming's hands, and said, "Ruolin has a family and a husband, and Xia Yang, an outsider, went to their house to celebrate the Mid-Autumn Festival. What does it look like?"

Xu Jiming said, "Dad!"

Han Ling also looked at her husband reproachfully: "What are you talking about? Can you let the child spend the Mid-Autumn Festival alone? In the past, during the Mid-Autumn Festival, when you went out, didn't you have to come back overnight to spend the Mid-Autumn Festival with your family? Where is that child in this world?" Any relatives?"

Xu Qiang was bombarded in turn by his wife and son, and was defeated.

He muttered, "I haven't finished my sentence yet? It's quick for you two to unite the front."

He pointed to himself, then to Han Ling, and said, "Who said Xia Yang has no relatives in this world? Don't we?" He looked at his son with hatred: "He keeps saying that he likes her, and the Mid-Autumn Festival is such an important day But let him live with others, let alone my son, I feel ashamed." After speaking, he took a bite of the moon cake and walked away with his hands behind his back.

Xu Jiming was stunned for a long time before he came to his senses. He rushed to hug Xu Qiang, kissed him on the cheek, and said loudly, "Dad, I love you!"

Xu Qiang wiped his face in disgust: "Get out, get out."

Xu Jiming quickly washed and changed into clean and handsome clothes, and was about to go downstairs with the car keys.

Han Ling said: "Don't be so anxious, the day after tomorrow is the Mid-Autumn Festival."

Xu Jiming bent over to change his shoes: "Dad, Mom, I don't want to wait any longer. I'll go first, I love you all."

Xu Qiang sat across from Han Ling again, helping to make mooncakes. Seeing his son like this, he snorted coldly, "Look at your worthless appearance."

Xu Jiming laughed a few times, and went out under Han Ling's instructions.

As soon as Xu Jiming drove into the community, he saw Xia Yang teasing a Samoyed with his head down.

He honked the horn, Xia Yang turned his head, his eyes lit up when he saw him, and he was a little surprised: "Why are you here?"

·

"It's Mid-Autumn Festival, and you didn't bring me mooncakes." Xia Yang put his hands on the bench in the lawn of the community, "Bad review."

Xu Jiming narrowed his eyes and said with a smile, "I'll take you to eat delicious food, do you want to go?"

Xia Yang was helpless: "But it's not yet five o'clock, do you still have dinner tonight?"

Xu Jiming pulled him up: "Let's go, let's eat a little bit first, I'm starving to death."

In the end, the two of them sat on a bench on the lawn of the community with a sesame seed cake in their hands. Xu Jiming was heartbroken: "I can't even spend the money I want to spend."

Xia Yang said with a smile: "Put the pads on first, let's have a good meal tonight."

Xu Jiming said helplessly: "Okay, listen to my wife. Or kneel on the washboard."

Xia Yang shook his head helplessly, too lazy to argue with him about the address, if these two words make him happy, then let him go.

The two ate the biscuits in silence, no one spoke, but the atmosphere didn't feel awkward.Xu Jiming sneaked his hand over the chair, took Xia Yang's hand and hid it under his windbreaker.

Xia Yang looked at him eating sesame seed cakes in a serious manner, and said with a smile: "Why are you in such a good mood today? I feel like my tail is going up."

"Is there?" Xu Jiming and Xia Yang looked at each other, couldn't hold back anymore, and said with a smile: "Won't I always be so happy when I see you?"

"It feels different this time."

Xu Jiming: "What's the difference?"

Xia Yang shook his head: "I don't know, but it feels different from usual."

The two chatted meaninglessly, and they never got tired of it.It wasn't until the sun buried half of his face below the horizon that Xia Yang said softly: "It's getting dark."

Xu Jiming raised his hand tightly intertwined with Xia Yang's fingers, bowed his head and kissed his finger, and said, "Then go home."

The simple and elegant pair of men's rings shines warm and not dazzling in the sunset.

Xia Yang smiled softly: "Okay."

After walking a long distance, Xia Yang looked back, and everything behind him was already covered by night, and it was dark.

But he smiled reassuringly

——Now I am no longer afraid of the dark night, because my light is by my side, within reach.

After a while, Xia Yang stood in front of the opened car door, looked at Xu Jiming and asked, "Didn't you say go home?"

Standing by the opened car door, Xu Jiming stretched out a hand to Xia Yang: "Yes, I'm home."

He looked at Xia Yang with a smile on his face: "I said, one day I will come to pick you up." He cleared his throat and said solemnly, "Mr. Xia, do you dare to come with me?"

Xia Yang saw his lips moving, and finally put his hand on Xu Jiming's, and said softly, "But it's not safe to drive at night."

He held Xu Jiming's hand and sat down in the co-pilot, looked at Xu Jiming and smiled, "So, drive slowly."

Xu Jiming returned him with a bright smile: "Of order."

The author has something to say:

A little thought about this article:

I think this book may be a bit depressing, because there are too many people who choose to commit suicide in the article... (But they all didn’t die—emphasis!!!)

When I first conceived, I wanted to write a warmer story, but as time went on, I couldn’t control the plot. I felt that I was not writing their stories, but they were showing me their sorrows and joys.

(Probably because I watched too many tragic movies during this time)

But it's a novel, just read it.

In real life, we still need to maintain a positive attitude. We must believe that "Nothing will come to an end";

Although these may be some empty words to comfort people, if a person is not afraid of death, I think there is nothing in this world that can trouble him.

We must believe that there is nothing that cannot be solved, and there is hope in life.

Didn't the ancestors say "Ants still steal their lives", let alone we are born as human beings.

·

In fact, I think the role of Xu Jiming has my own shadow

——not brave enough, timid, and indecisive.

I think I have to learn to be brave!

Finally, the main text is over here, and the next step is the extra episode.

Thanks again to all the little angels for your company along the way.

nyaou, Xiaomi, Liuli Baobao, and many friends who read the article silently and never made a sound, I sincerely thank you all here.

Thank you, with a deep bow.

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