Wait till the sun rises

Hearing the voice, the boy lowered his head and glanced, his lips trembling, and said, "Teacher Xu."

"It's me." Xu Qiang held an umbrella and shouted: "Get down quickly, it's too dangerous to stand on it."

The boy wiped his eyes, shook his head, and said, "No, I don't want to live."

"Yao Liang!" Xu Qiang stared at him seriously, "Is there something that must be solved by death? Have you ever thought about what will happen to your parents after you die? Do you have the heart to let their white-haired people send black-haired people?" ?”

The word "parents" seemed to vibrate him greatly, but it was the opposite.

Yao Liang shouted at Xu Qiang: "They won't be sad, they will be relieved when I die."

"What kind of bastard are you talking about!" Xu Qiang roared sharply, "The most important thing for parents is their children. How could they feel relieved after you die, but only tortured. Do you have the heart to see them sad?"

"Ms. Xu. You don't know anything about our family at all. You don't know anything."

"I like men, but what's wrong with me like men?" Yao Liang burst into tears, "I have a boyfriend who has been in love for several years, my parents, my parents know, they don't agree with us being together, I said it was disgusting, and they forced me to break up. I disagreed, so they forced me to die. Teacher Xu, you were not there at the time, and you didn’t know my dad. My dad directly held a kitchen knife against his neck. If I didn’t break up, he would Die and show me."

"What can I do? Can I just watch my dad die in front of me?"

"I love them so much, why am I willing to let them die in front of me?" Yao Liang waved his arms vigorously, "But do they love me? Do they really love me? Why do they ignore me when I am in such pain. Now try to bring I went to see a psychiatrist and asked me to go on a blind date. I like men, so why would I want to spoil a good girl? If I don’t go, they will go on a hunger strike.”

"But why, just because I care about them, they can manipulate my life unscrupulously and take it for granted?"

Xu Qiang fell silent, his facial muscles tensed, and the heavy rain fell on the ground, splashing his trousers.

A middle-aged aunt shouted: "Your parents are also doing it for your own good. They raised you so much, how can you be so selfish? Why don't you think about them?"

Yao Liang looked up to the sky and laughed. He poked his heart with his hand and said, "Yes, I am selfish and unfilial. But don't you all do the same thing as me? Because I am a junior, because you gave birth to me, So I am selfish and unfilial if I go against your wishes a little bit. We deserve to be played by you for a lifetime, like a rag doll?"

"We just want you to suffer less." The middle-aged woman's face was very ugly, and she shouted to the top of the building: "You boy, your thinking has entered a dead end, and you will understand your parents' painstaking efforts later. and you will thank them."

"Oh." Yao Liang seemed to have heard something extremely ridiculous. He looked at the woman and tilted his head: "You always talk about it later, you will understand later; you will know later; later you will be grateful to us .But don’t I live my own life in the future? What does it have to do with you? Why should I be grateful to you?”

"Because I have embarked on this road, no one can know what kind of ending the other road will lead to, and I will never be able to prove it, so you can swear that you are right, I am not It will hurt you, shouldn't you thank me for living so happily now?"

Yao Liang looked at the woman with a stern voice: "Because the other possibility has been obliterated by people like you, of course you can be so brazen, complacent, and feel that you have become the savior of the world!"

"You..." The middle-aged aunt blushed and said, "You young man has a problem with his mind, so I won't tell you. You can do whatever you like."

Yao Liang suddenly took a step forward, tears mixed with rain falling down: "I just fell in love, and they think I'm disgusting? Professor Xu! Do you think I'm disgusting?"

His feet had already stood on the high platform, and everyone exclaimed and took a step back.

Xu Qiang said in shock: "Go back quickly, go back."

Yao Liang asked again: "Professor Xu, do you think I'm disgusting?"

"Yeah, it's disgusting." A well-dressed middle-aged man standing beside Xu Qiang shouted, "I said, if you want to jump, jump quickly, and if you don't jump, roll off. Don't attract attention. Haven't eaten yet."

The humiliated and hurt expression appeared on Yao Liang's face again, and he took another step forward.

"No." Xu Qiang said urgently: "I don't think you're disgusting....Liking the same sex is not a disease, it's just a natural feeling. I understand, I understand, Xiao Liang, be obedient, go back quickly."

"Really, I understand, go back quickly."

Xu Qiang shouted loudly: "Xiao Liang, listen to me, your parents are still waiting for you at home. There is no parent in the world who doesn't love their children. Come down, and one day they will understand you!"

The middle-aged man sneered, made trumpet-like hands, and shouted to Yao Liang upstairs: "Understood, if you were my son, I wouldn't commit suicide. I'll just kill you, don't embarrass me."

He picked his ears and shouted again: "But I said, people like you, the AIDS group, it's better to die! Otherwise, your parents will be judged for a lifetime. Ha, yes, I don't know Have your parents been infected with AIDS?"

Xu Qiang was furious: "You are enough!"

"Xiao Liang, don't listen to him, come down quickly, be obedient!"

The middle-aged man groaned, and said, "Why are you yelling at me? It's what you are. Two big men, hey, how disgusting. If I were your parents, I would kill you first and then commit suicide."

Suddenly, a broken female voice came from the crowd: "Liangliang!"

Yao Liang looked up suddenly, and saw his parents walking over with each other's support, but in just a few days, their temples had already turned gray, as if they had aged ten years.

His lips trembled, thinking, did I drag you down?So if I die, don't you...

The corner of his mouth suddenly bent, he opened his arms, and took a step forward.

At that moment, being infinitely stretched, the umbrella in Xu Qiang's hand fell off, and he opened his mouth wide and could not make any sound.

Bang, the sound of the body falling to the ground was obviously very slight, but it made people tremble all over.

Xu Qiang was shocked, only to hear the heart-piercing cry of the woman, and together with her husband, she squeezed through the crowd and rushed in.He suddenly fell to his knees and burst into tears.

"Brilliant! No—"

The couple scrambled and rushed over.Carefully squatting beside the boy, but did not dare to reach out to touch his body, for fear of hurting him.

The middle-aged man beside Xu Qiang shook his head, stomped his feet, and said, "I want to jump down sooner, I'm wasting so much time, I'm starving to death."

Xu Qiang staggered to stand up from the ground, his eyes were darkened, but he still grabbed the middle-aged man who was about to turn away, he raised his hand and punched the man in the face hard, smashing his glasses It flew out.

Xu Qiang scolded angrily: "You damn bastard, look what you have done! What have you done!"

The middle-aged man was not to be outdone, after being hit a few times, he rushed forward and rolled into a ball with Xu Qiang.

"Damn, dare to hit me, see if I don't kill you!"

The crowd pulled the two apart in a hurry. Xu Qiang's clothes were torn, covered with muddy water, and his face was covered with bruises. The condition of the sloppy middle-aged man was not much better. Wing and fly.A few handfuls of hair were even ripped out.

When being pulled away, Xu Qiang stretched out his foot and kicked the person several times while crying.Just as he was about to rush over, he heard a hoarse, broken voice tremblingly saying: "Still alive, he's still alive, my son is still alive. Ambulance! Call an ambulance!"

The author has something to say:

Regarding Yao Liang's idea, there may be some problems, because this is my own idea, haha.

Because I was very cynical for a while, very... a cynic, or you can say... a second-year student?

In fact, my parents disagree with many of my ideas. They think there is something wrong with my thinking, but I only think about it in my head, and I have never communicated with anyone other than my family, so in the eyes of others, I am not talkative. , Inside out, it's quite normal.

I just think about it, and I can still tell the difference between right and wrong, good and evil. I know this kind of thinking is wrong.

Maybe in a few years, when I get older, experience more things, have children, and become a mother, I won't have such...extreme thoughts.

Many colleagues around me are first-time fathers and first-time mothers. I can see their joy, and they have become shopaholics. Before the child is born, they will buy everything they see, regardless of whether they can be used or not. of

For example, small clothes, diapers, small shoes, cribs...everything you can think of.

They will ask the older seniors in the office for advice on what to pay attention to and how to take care of the child before the child is born.

Those elderly fathers and mothers still remember every detail clearly when they talk about their children's first birth, and they always have a smile on their faces when they talk about it.

I think no matter what parents do, the starting point probably always revolves around such a sentence——

"I just want the best for him/her."