The days when I was forced to be a heartthrob in a bloody text

Pei Yan reached out to hug him, put his shoulders on his shoulders and walked towards the hotel, saying, "When did you come here?"

"Just came here for a while," Xu Shixi said to him, "Go back and put something away before eating?"

It's already past six o'clock in the evening, and I've been taking the exam all day with a high level of mental stress. I didn't have much time to eat at noon, and both of them were a little hungry.

"Well," Pei Yan nodded, pinched his earlobe, and asked him, "What do you want to eat?"

Xu Shixi didn't have anything in particular that he wanted to eat. He wanted to eat barbecue or hot pot, but after thinking about it, he decided to forget it. During this period of time, he ate relatively lightly. It didn't matter if he was used to eating randomly.

"I'm not familiar with this place, you can eat whatever you say." Xu Shixi took out the remaining half bottle of mineral water from the side of Pei Yan's schoolbag and took a sip.

Pei Yan took his mobile phone and searched to see what stores were nearby. As soon as he opened the software, Gu Cong's call came in.

"How's it going?" Gu Cong came out of the examination room and was dragged by his parents to ask for a long time, and now he was free, "You shouldn't have any problems, right?"

"No." Pei Yan heard the chaotic voices on his side, probably still on the street.

When they got to the elevator in the hotel, there were only the two of them. Seeing the elevator door close, Pei Yan pulled Xu Shixi into his arms and bowed his head to kiss him. The kiss was so breathless and her feet were weak, she hugged Pei Yan's neck and leaned against him, her eyes were flushed.

Pei Yan's phone was held far away, Gu Cong didn't hear the movement on the other end of the phone, and kept asking: "You are in No. 27, right? I'm pretty close here, why don't I go and find you for dinner? Do you remember?" Remember the shop I invited you to before, Xu Shixi, call him together."

It didn't take long for the elevator to reach the sixteenth floor. The corridor was very quiet, only the door near the end was open, and it sounded like a student who had just finished an exam.

After inserting the key card and entering the door, Xu Shixi put the schoolbag and Pei Min's next to the TV cabinet. Pei Min took his hand and asked, "Gu Cong said to have dinner together, do you want to bring him?"

"It's okay." Xu Shixi shook hands with him, went to the balcony of the room and took a look downstairs. It was a bustling long street than usual.

It's good to ask Gu Cong to come over for dinner, but Xu Shixi still has something to think about and hasn't figured out how to tell Pei Yan.

Gu Cong heard what they said this time, and only then did he know that Xu Shixi was also there. He had no objection to Xu Shixi, except for Pei Yan, the two of them had a good relationship, so he just cursed at Pei Yan, and he could see it Now, the boyfriend is a treasure, the brother is not as good as the smelly socks, it is just sad.

The store that Gu Cong mentioned was when he went with Pei Yan when he was in junior high school. Their junior high school was very close to No. 27 Middle School. At that time, Gu Cong got the first manuscript fee and asked Pei Yan to go to a shop here. It looks like a very high-end Japanese food store, but unfortunately, the manuscript fee of more than 200 yuan is not enough for them to eat, so they just tasted it.

There is a bit of traffic jam outside now, Gu Cong still needs 20 more minutes to come over, so don't rush out.

Xu Shixi has been looking at his mobile phone since just now, Pei Yan went to hug him from behind, put his chin on his shoulder to see what he was doing, Xu Shixi turned off his mobile phone quickly, Pei Yan only had time to see what seemed to be a browser search interface.

Pei Yan was a little curious about what he was searching for in such a panic, but he didn't ask. He kissed him on the cheek and said, "Are you really not going home tonight?"

"Do you want to go back?" It was fine if he didn't ask, but Xu Shixi was at a loss when he asked, and even stammered a little while blushing.

"I don't want to." Pei Yan pulled the chair by the bay window and sat down, holding Xu Shixi on his lap.

Xu Shixi had a headache and felt that he didn't have the aura to attack at all, but it was very comfortable to sit like this. When he didn't want to get up, he lay on Pei Min's shoulder and continued to look at what he had just searched.

He felt that he should know a little more about this than Pei Yan, but he was also inexperienced, his mind was blank, and he didn't know how to start. After reading various posts, everyone in the building had their own opinions, and he didn't know who to listen to. of.

After turning a few pages, he sat up and suddenly touched Pei Yan's face.

Pei Yan was made to laugh a little by him, and asked him, "What are you looking at?"

Xu Shixi didn't tell him, and said, "I won't tell you first."

Pei Yan didn't ask any more questions, and hugged him face to face with his legs in the posture of sitting on a chair.

When Pei Yan hugged him like this before, Xu Shixi didn't think too much about it, but just now when he saw something discordant in his head, he suddenly thought about it, but Pei Yan couldn't hold him well, so he shook him slightly, Changing the position of his hand, Xu Shixi's cheeks were hot, he patted his shoulder, and said, "No, you put me down."

Pei Yan obediently let him down, and it was time to go out for dinner, so Xu Shixi put away his phone and went downstairs to the restaurant.

Doing the questions for the past few months has made me dizzy, especially for Gu Cong, who has no interest in studying since childhood, and just wants to finish the exam quickly to relieve himself.

"What are you two planning to do after the exam?" Gu Cong asked them.

Tomorrow, I will go back to school to take my graduation photos, and then I will have a thank-you banquet the day after tomorrow. After all this is over, Xu Shixi should pack up his things and prepare to join the group. There are only a few days left to stay at home.

"I took over a tutor and had [-] days of lessons in total," Pei Yan said.

Pei Yan's scores in several mock exams are among the best in the city. It is easy to find a tutoring job with the report card, and the salary paid by the parents is higher than before. After half a month of class, he can get [-] excluding the institution's commission. It is enough for him to go to Xu Shixi for a month, otherwise he may not have the chance to meet for a long time after school starts.

Gu Cong heard that Xu Shixi was going to the film crew during the holiday, but only then did he know that Pei Yan planned to go there to accompany him, and the other students in the class who were close to him would go on a trip after the exam. Stay alone in City B.

"No way," Gu Cong lost his taste after eating, "Is there anyone else who wants to go there? If so, please pick me up. There aren't several ancient towns over there, so I'll go on a tour."

Fang Xiaochun really wanted to go and see, and Lu Bing also said to go, but they will stay there for about a week, Gu Cong nodded, "Call me when the time comes, I won't join in the fun with you two, go Play with them."

After eating in the store, we chatted for a while, and it was already past 08:30 when we went out. Gu Cong had to go home tonight, so he took the bus and left by himself after talking to the two of them.

"Do you want to go back to the hotel?" Pei Yan asked Xu Shixi standing on the side of the busy street, under the light white street lights.

"Let's go outside for a while before going back." The moonlight is very good tonight, and it's still early.

Xu Shixi went to the small supermarket next door to buy an ice cream, and walked aimlessly along the street with Pei Yan, with the old moat winding with tiny lights beside him.

The ice cream is raspberry-flavored and covered with a thin layer of chocolate crispy skin. Xu Shixi tore off the plastic packaging, handed it to Pei Yan, and said, "Take a bite first."

Pei Yan didn't like sweets, so Xu Shixi only bought one and wanted to show it to him.

Pei Yan lowered his head and took a bite, the chocolate melted in his mouth, sandwiching the cold and sweet ice cream inside, the sweltering heat of the summer night dissipated a lot.

"It's delicious." Xu Shixi smiled, looked at him, touched the back of Pei Min's hand with the cold fingertips that had squeezed the ice cream bag, and then lowered his head to eat the ice cream.

Feeling his fingertips brushing the back of his hand, Pei Yan subconsciously wanted to shake his hand back, but now there are many people on the street, and people pass by from time to time, Pei Yan curled his fingers slightly, after all, he didn't Hold it up.

Xu Shixi has always been very sensitive to people's emotions, let alone Pei Yan. Pei Yan has been in the habit of talking less for many years. If he doesn't talk, sometimes Xu Shixi doesn't know what he is thinking, so he will pay more attention to him.

When he reached the shade of the tree, Xu Shixi stretched out his hand and clasped his fingers. A few steps ahead, there were continuous street lights one after another. There was no dark place under the lights, and nothing could be hidden. Pei Yan stopped and said: "If you are photographed, how will you film in the future?"

Xu Shixi's previous GIFs in "Silver Saddle" were retweeted tens of thousands of times, and Yao Tao's Weibo post, all of which gave him a lot of attention, even though he disappeared again in the past six months, there is no guarantee No one really remembers him. When Liang Jiaping's movie is released, these will definitely be found out.

If her sexuality was exposed at that time, there would be little room for change in her acting career.

Pei Yan doesn't like his filming, but Xu Shixi is full of love for this matter, Pei Yan doesn't want to be his hindrance.

"...I'm sorry." Xu Shixi blinked and looked at him.

Pei Yan realized that his tone was a bit cold just now, so he lowered his head and took a bite of the ice cream left in Xu Shixi's hand in a place where no one was around. Xu Shixi smiled at him.

In the outskirts of the city, it seems that someone is setting off fireworks. Standing by the bridge, watching the bright and colorful fireworks in the sky, rustling down like stars.

"I told you last year that I have something to tell you after the college entrance examination." Pei Yan saw that he had finished eating the ice cream, and handed him a tissue to wipe his hands. "Can I say it now?"

It has come to this point, and it has long been similar to falling in love, except for these few words.

Pei Yan has said that he likes him many times, but Xu Shixi has never responded to him properly. If he wants to confess, Xu Shixi wants to tell him first.

"Wait a minute." Xu Shixi stroked the stone railing by the bridge with his fingertips, thinking about how to organize his words, when he was about to speak, his phone rang suddenly.

Then it occurred to him that he forgot to tell Mr. Xu that the two of them would not go home to stay at night, so he said it quickly, and when he hung up the phone, the atmosphere he had brewed just now was gone, and he was a little embarrassed for a while.

It's not far from the hotel here, and I can go back in 10 minutes at most. Thinking that something might happen after I go back, the problem that has been bothering me for a long time before eating has resurfaced, and I haven't bought anything yet.

Pei Yan wanted his words, but he wanted to determine what Xu Shixi's feelings for him were, but he clearly knew that Xu Shixi liked him, so the answer seemed not so important, and his patience was exhausted, who could hug him every day? The person he likes is still indifferent to sleep, and he has no interest in Plato.

As soon as he entered the hotel room, Xu Shixi felt that he might be finished, especially when Pei Yan pressed his lower back and touched the hem of his short sleeves.

I drank a few bottles of wine after dinner at night. Pei Yan was a little drunk, but when he felt that Xu Shixi was resisting, his reason still overwhelmed his impulse. He let him sit up, squatted on the side of the bed, supported his knees and asked, "Is it or not?" Can’t accept me, or are you afraid of it?”

Pei Yan knew that he might have been too impatient some time ago, but he didn't want Xu Shixi to say that he would come out to live at night just to accommodate him.

"It's not..." Xu Shixi was a little guilty, hugged him and kissed him, and said, "I'm sorry, you give me one last night, and I will definitely explain it to you tomorrow, and then...do this again."

"Okay." Pei Yan finally nodded.

When Pei Yan went to take a shower, Xu Shixi took his mobile phone and looked through the address book several times. He felt that it was inappropriate for anyone to say such a thing, so he had to find Fang Xiaochun.

Is hee not west: save me

Fang Xiaochun:? ? ?You were kidnapped?Alarm call 110

Is Hee not West: [Speechless] [Speechless] Have you seen that? [incoherent]

Fang Xiaochun: Wow, I know something incredible [Eat a whale] [Prick up ears]

Fang Xiaochun: But it’s useless if you read it

Is it Xi or not Xi:? ? ?How do you know it's useless, what if

Fang Xiaochun: I don’t think there is such a possibility

Fang Xiaochun: [link][link]

Fang Xiaochun: Why can't you accept the reality [gloating]

This friend can't go on anymore... Xu Shixi clicked on the two links and looked at them for a while, his face was flushed, and he heard the intermittent sound of water in the bathroom, and his heartbeat was overflowing from his chest.

The official graduation photos of the whole class have been taken before a big class break. When I return to school, I mainly take some scattered photos, or I can ask my teachers and classmates to take photos, but they are also required to wear school uniforms, which is the length of their autumn school uniforms. sleeve shirt, a solid black tie for boys and a bow for girls.

When we arrived at the school, many people had already gathered downstairs, and after taking a few group photos, each group found a place to take pictures by themselves.

The ginkgo tree in the playground, the horizontal bar in the corner, the basketball court, the water room, and every corner of the school are now time and memories that cannot be grasped.

Today, a lot of girls came to see Xu Shixi, he hardly stayed in his group for long, not only Class [-], but also girls from other classes, it has been more than an hour since they came back, but their group has already finished filming , did not waste everyone's time.

Pei Yan took a DSLR to help others take pictures, raised his head and glanced in his direction, then looked away, Xu Shixi suddenly felt a little guilty, went to look at the camera in his hand, and said, "Do you want to help?"

"No need." Pei Yan shook his head, and when he looked at him again, there was a smile in his eyes, and Xu Shixi realized that he was pretending to be angry to lie to himself.

Just when he was about to speak, Shen Zhouchuan took the chair that the teacher asked him to carry and put it under the nearby tree, then walked over to call Xu Shixi, "Can you come here?"

Xu Shixi also had something to explain to him, so he put his schoolbag on the steps beside Pei Yan's feet, and followed him to the bottom of the teaching building.

There are a few places to sit under the tree in the corner over there, the sun is blocked by the teaching building, and it is shady in summer.

Neither of them sat down, and when they got under the tree, Shen Zhouchuan said, "I used to really hate homosexuality."

Xu Shixi didn't speak, just looked at him quietly.

Shen Zhouchuan has never told anyone about his family, including Fang Xiaochun and Li Chao. Although they have known each other since birth, they have never told them about Shen Pingjiang. They only know that they are not related to the family. Well, not sure why.

Xu Shixi remembered that there was a little mention in the original book, but he didn't read this part carefully, and he mentioned it more implicitly, and didn't understand the details. Now that he heard Shen Zhouchuan's talk, he knew that there was still this twist.

"I may have liked you a long time ago, but I didn't know it myself," Shen Zhouchuan leaned against the wall behind him with his pockets in his pocket, "I dare not admit it, I have no way to accept it."

The chirping of cicadas can be heard vaguely on the tree, and the sunlight leaks through the branches of the treetops and shines on a patch of light spots of different sizes on the concrete floor.

"I'm sorry," Xu Shixi looked up at him, "I have someone I like."

Shen Zhouchuan knew it would be this answer, and he was mentally prepared, but it was still a little uncomfortable to hear it with his own ears. He lowered his head and staggered Xu Shixi's gaze, and waited for a while before raising his eyes to look at him.

"I want to tell you that I really like you. It's enough to say it and you know it," Shen Zhouchuan said, "Thank you too..."

It seems provocative to say extra words, Shen Zhouchuan is a bit speechless, but without Xu Shixi, he doesn't know when he will dare to face himself, and he doesn't know when he will understand that liking itself has nothing to do with gender, and there is nothing wrong with it.

"In the future..." Shen Zhouchuan looked at the white shirt on Xu Shixi's body, and suddenly thought of last year's graduation party, the day when he and Xu Shixi went home on Christmas, and every day they stayed together in class this year. I couldn't help but cast my eyes on Xu Shixi, but Xu Shixi didn't like him, probably never looked back.

Seeing that his eyes were red for a moment, Xu Shixi shed tears, and suddenly felt a little uncomfortable.

Having said this, Shen Zhouchuan also understood, he couldn't bear to say anything more, no one's sincerity should be trampled on, even if he had no affection for Shen Zhouchuan other than being a friend, there was no need to say harsh words to hurt him.

"If you have anything to do in the future, you can come to me at any time. If you are afraid that Pei Yan will misunderstand, you can ask him to contact me." Shen Zhouchuan looked at the cluster of dandelions under the tree next to him, "I had a rough time in high school , the most sorry person is him, and I still don’t know, sometimes I want my family to let me transfer to another school in the first year of high school, and I will just agree. Maybe there won’t be so many things later, but I don’t either. Regret, meeting you here is worth more than anything else."

"I'm sorry..." Xu Shixi didn't know what to say, and his words were often weak.

"You have nothing to apologize to me." Shen Zhouchuan forced back tears, "We have known each other for so long, and I hope we will still be friends in the future. My university is not in China, and I may not come back until four years later. Then you may have to shoot I’ve watched a lot of plays, and I don’t know if I’ll have the chance to watch them.”

Having said that, Shen Zhouchuan paused for a moment, stretched out his arms to hug him, and put his palms on his back to avoid touching him, then quickly let go, and smiled at him, "I wish you a bright star, I will always I'm your fan."

As soon as he finished speaking, Xu Shixi couldn't hold back his tears. Shen Zhouchuan stuffed him with a pack of tissues, not wanting to look at it again, and pointed to the group of classmates in the distance who were still taking pictures, and took a step ahead .

Xu Shixi was sitting alone under the tree, with mixed feelings, listening to the bell in the classroom, and the sound of reading books not far away, it was the last time he came to this school, looking at the crooked old bricks under his feet The gap also feels nostalgic.

"Aren't you going back?"

Xu Shixi heard someone talking and looked up to see Pei Yan.

Pei Yan squatted down beside his legs, unscrewed the bottle cap and handed him a bottle of mineral water.

Xu Shixi took it and drank a couple of sips. Let's turn over the matter just now. He had been brewing for half a morning, and he felt that he could confess his love. Just as he was about to speak, he saw Pei Yan fall on one knee to the ground, under the silent tree, Kneel down and look at him.

"..." Xu Shixi wanted to pull him up, but Pei Yan didn't move. Anyway, other grades are in class now, and no one in the graduating class will go to this remote corner to take pictures.

"I saw him talking to you just now. I stood too far away and didn't hear what was said. I was a little jealous." Pei Yan took his hand and said.

"I told him that I have someone I like." Xu Shixi quickly explained.

"Then do you like me?" Pei Yan asked him.

"...I like it," Xu Shixi hooked his fingers with him, looked at him embarrassedly, but felt that he should look at him and say this, forced himself to raise his eyes, blushed and whispered, "I like you."

"Then we'll be happy with each other. Would you like to be my boyfriend?" Pei Yan grasped his wrist along his fingertips, as if he didn't agree to take him away.

"Yeah." Xu Shixi nodded, and smiled at him. After laughing, he realized that something was wrong, why he still got ahead of him.

"Are you going to live outside today?" Pei Yan got up and sat down beside him.

Xu Shixi felt cheated, but he still followed his words and said, "Then I have to go shopping."

"I bought it and kept it at home," Pei Yan said.

Now Xu Shixi was completely speechless.

They came today to collect the group graduation photos taken before, and went to the class monitor to get their own share. Xu Shixi stood on the playground and looked at it. He took the photo standing with Pei Yan. It was taken by the two of them. first photo.

In the photo, Pei Yan was behind him, looking down at him when the photo was taken, with gentle eyes and a subtle smile.

Pei Yan never knew that the way he looked at Xu Shixi was like this, but it seemed like it should be.

After going out from school, the group had dinner, and it was in a grilled fish shop nearby.

While waiting for the meal, they played games for a while, Xu Shixi looked eager to try, and five people were needed to form a team. Pei Yan never played games, nor downloaded them on his mobile phone, so he was definitely not taken with him, so the rest of them would be just right .

"Taking you to play games is really helping the poor," Fang Xiaochun said with a long sigh, "Every time I play games with you, I lose my ranking."

Xu Shixi also knew that he was really not good enough, he was always lagging behind, he was a little embarrassed to play, so he put his phone back.

Fang Xiaochun was just joking, he lost it after playing a game, and if it was a big deal, he would call back, and the others didn't mind, so they dragged Xu Shixi into the Buddhist team.

Then as expected, Xu Shixi lost his way within 2 minutes after entering, wandered around the same room for a long time and couldn't find his way, when he entered the door and wanted to go out, he forgot where he came from, and was so anxious that he walked around, Pei Yan was beside him Looking speechless, but didn't want to tell him, he lowered his head and picked up the cold bean curd stick in Xu Shixi's bowl.

Xu Shixi turned around for a while, saw a teammate in a miniskirt in front of him, thought it was Chen Cai, finally found the direction, ran forward for a while, and asked Chen Cai: "Where are you going?"

Chen Cai was very confused, "No, Xiaochun and I are searching the house."

Xu Shixi took a closer look, only to find that it was Lu Bing, and when he took a closer look, Shen Zhouchuan was also wearing the same small skirt not far away. He seemed to be the only one in the team wearing trousers, but he looked very out of place, and was instantly messed up in the wind .

After dinner, they went back to their respective houses. When they passed by a pharmacy, Xu Shixi remembered the most important thing again, but it was hard to say on the street where people were coming and going.

He pondered for a long time how to tell Pei Yan, and finally decided that it would be better to ask directly.

When they got home, Mr. Xu and Pei Nuonuo were both taking a nap in the house. They closed the door after they went in. Pei Yan hugged him and pressed him onto the bed for a kiss. I didn't dare to move anymore.

Xu Shixi pushed him to sit up, seriously wanted to speak, but held back for a long time, unable to speak, went to rub his arms against Pei Yan's forehead against his shoulder, and when he looked up again, his hair was a little disheveled, Pei Yan dialed him.

"If we are that or something," Xu Shixi kissed him and said carefully, "Can I be on top?"

Pei Yan paused for a moment with his fingertips on his curled hair. He hadn't thought about it yet, as if subconsciously acquiesced, and only when Xu Shixi mentioned it did he realize that there was another option.

A little caught off guard, Pei Yan was not mentally prepared yet, so he went to search for that kind of film by himself, and looked at the steps, but he never thought that Xu Shixi wanted to fuck him.

Xu Shixi waited so long that he almost gave up, Pei Yan looked at him with great difficulty and nodded.

"Really?!" Xu Shixi never thought that he would agree so easily, he was so excited, he wished he could go to the hotel now, opened the drawer and looked at the things Pei Yan bought, and suddenly found that he couldn't use that set... the size was a bit big up.

Pei Yan saw it too, couldn't help but smiled, and was afraid that he would get angry, so he suppressed his smile and said, "Do you want to buy it?"

Xu Shixi didn't speak, and felt hot while holding the small paper box.

"Shall I buy it for you?" Pei Yan walked over and asked him softly, "But I don't know which one to buy."

After finishing speaking, he glanced down, then looked at Xu Shixi, and felt very cute seeing his angry look, smiled, and lowered his voice a little and said: "You didn't show it to me, I don't know how big I bought it .”

"...Stop talking," Xu Shixi raised his hand to cover his mouth, feeling ashamed and embarrassed, "I'll go buy it myself."

Anyway, it was almost three o'clock in the afternoon, so I went out directly, passing by the pharmacy, Pei Yan raised his foot and expressed that he wanted to go in with him, but was stopped by Xu Shixi and stayed outside the door.

When I went to the hotel, Pei Yan took a shower first, drew the curtains, and leaned against the head of the bed habitually wanting to read something, so I took a hotel magazine, but Xu Shixi didn't come out after reading it from beginning to end.

Just when he was about to go over to have a look, Xu Shixi came out slowly, threw himself on the bed, clutched the edge of his bathrobe and kissed him for a while.

"Forget it, I don't want it anymore," Xu Shixi struggled for a long time and chose to give up, "Come on."

"I don't care, you can do whatever you like." If it was Xu Shixi's words, Pei Yan felt that it might not be so difficult to accept.

"Actually, I can do whatever I want," Xu Shixi muffled while hugging the pillow. When he raised his head slightly, Pei Yan saw the plastic sheet dangling from his lips. After taking a bath, his lips were moist, like soft rose petals. He said vaguely, "Hurry up, or I will regret it later."

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