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Two days later, Song Yu called Chu Xiuyuan and told him that the post had been successfully deleted. Just as Chu Xiuyuan wanted to thank him, Song Yu called out softly: "Xiuyuan..." It was so light, as if the next second would It will dissipate in Chu Xiuyuan's world.

A trace of fear suddenly crept up on Chu Xiuyuan's back, he could hear it, Song Yu was a little abnormal: "What's wrong?"

"I..." After that "me", Song Yu fell silent.

The fear was magnified, and Chu Xiuyuan hurriedly asked again: "What's wrong with you?"

Song Yu exhaled, and his voice became calm again: "I was wondering if the post needs to be clarified?"

The same calm voice as before, but it couldn't get rid of the strangeness and inexplicable fear in Chu Xiuyuan's heart. He felt that something was wrong with Song Yu.Is it my own illusion?Chu Xiuyuan shook his head, probably because he has been worrying too much recently, thinking too much?

Calm down and calm down: "I'm holding Zhu Zhao on the back, and now I'm going to reveal the truth in the clarification, in case my mother sees it again, it's inconsistent."

Song Yu sighed and paused for two seconds before replying hello.

"I also think that one day, we can walk hand in hand on the campus, kiss you in front of everyone without that instinctive medicine. If we come out of the closet, I want us to be together, but not now." Chu Xiuyuan paused and then One more sentence, "It's not that you clarified and came out alone to protect me."

"I know..." Song Yu knew it, with complicated emotions, "I don't want to embarrass you."

"Xiuyuan..." Sighing, Song Yu called out Chu Xiuyuan's name again, but this time, it seemed that he wanted to compress the weight of the next few years into one voice, and the voice was extremely hoarse and heavy.

Chu Xiuyuan's heart skipped a beat: "You..."

"I'm not in a good state recently..." Song Yu interrupted him, "Very bad."

Chu Xiuyuan was inexplicably impatient: "What do you mean by being in a bad state?"

But Song Yu didn't answer directly: "A lot of things happened in the family. After I came out, they couldn't understand me at all. I had many behaviors that they didn't understand. Their excessive behavior had some serious consequences. I Tired...I feel miserable."

Chu Xiuyuan's impatience turned into panic in an instant. What did Song Yu's nonsense mean?

Chu Xiuyuan: "You..."

"Actually, I also secretly contacted you today. They... oh..." Song Yu interrupted Chu Xiuyuan, not knowing how to continue, "If you can't contact me after the Spring Festival, don't worry, we'll see you at the beginning of school."

"Why?" So strange, so strange!Is it because I don't want to come out with him?What the hell is Song Yu talking about?What do you mean I'm tired?

"Xiuyuan, goodbye..."

"and many more!"

It was silence after these four words that replied to Chu Xiuyuan.

Song Yu hung up the phone.

Chu Xiuyuan was stunned. What does it mean to be in a bad state?What is an incomprehensible excess?What serious consequences?Why can't I contact you?

Could it be that Song Yu... something happened?

I went to call Song Yu again, but the notification tone I heard was that the phone was turned off.

Shut down?

Dial again.

Shut down, shut down, shut down.

Unable to get through, Chu Xiuyuan was so anxious that he threw his phone on the bed, thinking of Song Yu's goodbye, he hadn't reacted just now, but now thinking about it, that goodbye was like never seeing each other again.

For an instant, Chu Xiuyuan's face turned pale.

what happened?

Did something happen? !

But for three whole days, Chu Xiuyuan couldn't get through to Song Yu's call.

Anxiety and despair grew in Chu Xiuyuan's heart. He began to frantically contact all the people he could contact, asking them about Song Yu's home address, family situation, and asking if they could contact Song Yu, but all the replies he received were No, I don't know, I can't contact you.

Just when Chu Xiuyuan was about to collapse, he went around and contacted Fu Jue.

The first second the phone was connected, Chu Xiuyuan hurriedly asked, "Can you get in touch with Song Yu?"

Fu Jue didn't answer immediately, but instead asked, "Didn't Song Yu tell you?"

"say what?"

"Hmm..." Fu Jue thought for two seconds, "It seems that I didn't tell you."

"What exactly did you say?" Chu Xiuyuan couldn't even restrain his tone.

"Talk about his family."

How do I know what's going on at his house? !Song Yu didn't speak clearly, I couldn't guess it at all!

"He only said that something happened at home, that the family didn't understand him after he came out, and then he couldn't contact anyone."

Fu Jue: "Family ugliness should not be publicized. If he doesn't talk about it, it's not convenient for me to tell you. But don't worry, the same thing happened to him during the winter vacation last year."

Chu Xiuyuan was shocked: "Did you not get in touch during the winter vacation last year?"

"I know about your relationship, so I'll make an exception and tell you." Fu Jue said coldly, "His parents are very, very traditional people. He told me that after he came out, he was beaten by his father." I was covered in bruises and lay in bed for days, but this is not the end."

Chu Xiuyuan recalled the week that Fu Jue mentioned. It happened to be the three weeks when Song Yu disappeared. He clearly agreed to contact him in two weeks, but he disappeared for a full 21 days. His son Zhang Junming got drunk at the bar.

So Song Yu disappeared because he was beaten?

Fu Jue: "As long as Song Yu doesn't let go in front of them and insists that he is gay, his parents won't be able to understand him easily. One can imagine his situation. His parents may even find you because of this. Just think about it." Consequences."

Chu Xiuyuan was silent. Song Yu cut off their contact because he was afraid of hurting himself?If Song Yu's parents really harass him, let his mother know...

So Song Yu didn't contact him because he wanted to protect himself?

"So this winter vacation, and the months after school starts, I hope you don't contact him."

Chu Xiuyuan frowned, telling him not to contact Song Yu after school started?Why?

"why?"

"Of course it's for him." Fu Jue suddenly sneered, and Chu Xiuyuan's body turned cold from the laughter, "All his troubles are because of you. When you are with him, he is always giving. He is very insecure. You But nothing can be done.”

"And." Fu Jue snorted coldly, "He doesn't like you as much as you imagined. After being with you, he obviously showed fatigue and anxiety. Of course, he will hide these in front of you. You make him suffer. .He can't show his true self in front of you, you can't give him a sense of security, and when he is really tired, you are over."

During the daytime thunderstorm, Chu Xiuyuan was stunned as if he had been slapped on the head. Will it be over when he gets tired?I make him miserable?

Suddenly recalling Song Yu's chaotic farewell that day, Song Yu said he was tired, he said it!He thought that Song Yu was tired because of the family situation, did he have other meanings?There is also the sentence "I feel very painful". Could it be that the object of his pain is not his family, but himself?

Said that Song Yu was going to end with himself?How could Chu Xiuyuan believe it!She laughed, but her voice trembled a little: "What are you kidding?"

"I'm not kidding, I only know that you make him suffer. Of course he won't tell you, but you think about it for yourself, for a person who always makes you feel painful, will he continue to like it." After finishing speaking Chu Xiuyuan replied and hung up the phone.

Facing the hung up phone, Chu Xiuyuan's mind was in a mess, did I really make Song Yu suffer?

How can I make him feel pain?

Are you kidding me?

But he couldn't find Song Yu to confirm, because throughout the winter vacation, as Song Yu said, he had been unable to get in touch with Song Yu.Shut down, shut down, shut down, until the day before school, it was still shut down.

Can't get in touch, can't get in touch at all!

The only thing that made him feel at ease was probably the phone call with Fu Jue, letting him know that nothing serious happened to Song Yu.

But for the whole winter vacation, Chu Xiuyuan had a very uneasy life, as if he was suffering on a frying pan.He knew what Fu Jue said, and he couldn't believe it all, but when he thought of Song Yu's words "I'm tired, I feel very painful", thought that Song Yu might break up with him because of this, and thought of Fu Jue's words "He doesn't like it that much" You", Chu Xiuyuan's heart felt as if it was squeezed tightly by a pair of hands soaked in ice water, it hurt so badly, the blood froze from the cold, throbbing in pain.

He wanted to see Song Yu, he wanted to ask clearly.

On the first day of school, Chu Xiuyuan rushed to Song Yu's dormitory early in the morning. He wanted to take a good look at Song Yu, touch Song Yu, and ask him what happened during the whole winter vacation.

But as soon as he ran to the bottom of the dormitory, he ran into Fu Jue.

Fu Jue looked at him coldly: "I knew you would come."

Chu Xiuyuan straightened his face: "Of course I want to come."

"Didn't I tell you not to come to him for a few months after school starts?"

Chu Xiuyuan shook his head: "Impossible. I can't do it. I don't believe what you said that I made him suffer and that he would end with me when he was tired."

Fu Jue sighed, and typed on the mobile phone while talking: "You won't see him today."

"why?"

"He didn't come to school today."

Chu Xiuyuan was surprised, how did Fu Jue know?Obviously Song Yu's cell phone has been turned off.

Fu Jue glanced at Chu Xiuyuan: "I'll call and ask his parents."

After Fu Jue finished speaking, Chu Xiuyuan's phone vibrated, and he heard Fu Jue say, "I'm going to class, I sent you an address, I'm doing an internship at 7 o'clock tomorrow morning, come here and wait for me, I'll tell you everything I know Tell you."

Chu Xiuyuan looked at the address and fell silent. It's a very bad address... so bad that Chu Xiuyuan knew where it was just by looking at it.

Why did Fu Jue... make an appointment here?

Chu Xiuyuan raised his head, looked at the winter sun, it was not dazzling, it looked like Song Yu's gentle eyes, he laughed, how could this address be like this.