i have a chromosome want to meet you

Song Yu's intact right hand carefully touched Chu Xiuyuan's cheek. He really lost weight and his complexion was not good.In just one month, how could I make myself so haggard...

Because of me……

Song Yu touched his forehead painfully, it hurt more than a burnt hand, and frowned after a while: "Why is it so hot?"

"Huh?" Chu Xiuyuan was still confused.

"You have a fever?" Song Yu suddenly became nervous, and reached out to measure the temperature of his forehead.

Chu Xiuyuan's head was indeed a little heavy, hehehe, he still didn't understand why Song Yu was nervous: "Are you afraid that I have a fever, and what I'm talking is all nonsense?"

"You have a fever, lie down for a while." Song Yu wanted to give up the bed to Chu Xiuyuan, and went to ring the bell while talking, but was hugged by Chu Xiuyuan to stop him.

"It's not like we haven't slept in the same bed before. What happened? I just had a cold. Your hands are much worse than mine." After speaking, he lay on the bed with his arms around Song Yu, "If you dare to get out of bed, I will gone."

Song Yu still looked at Chu Xiuyuan worriedly. Chu Xiuyuan lay on the bed and looked at Song Yu's chin. Thinking of the tooth marks he had bitten on that chin, he suddenly smiled: "I want to bite a tooth mark on your chin .”

Song Yu frowned.

Chu Xiuyuan raised his foot and rubbed Song Yu's calf with his toes: "Let me bite."

Song Yu went to touch Chu Xiuyuan's forehead again, was it burning?

Seeing that Song Yu was unmoved, Chu Xiuyuan slid his toes from his calf to his thigh: "Lie down and let me bite..." It was coquettish and warm.

Seeing that his toes were about to reach an unbelievable position, Song Yu poked Chu Xiuyuan's forehead and lay down beside him. The two of them were squeezed into a small bed, facing each other, their fiery breath intertwined. Chu Xiuyuan suddenly turned to Song Yu The jaw came up.

His breath was so hot that Song Yu couldn't even feel the burning pain in his hands. His mind was only filled with Chu Xiuyuan's gnawing. It hurt and itched, but it burned to the bottom of his heart.

Chu Xiuyuan touched the tooth marks on Song Yu's chin, and smiled lightly. Even though he was haggard, he still smiled the most beautiful in Song Yu's heart.Putting his thumb on the corner of Chu Xiuyuan's mouth, Song Yu's eyes suddenly turned red.

She obviously didn't want to hurt him, she wanted to protect him, but she still made him cry.because of his illness.

Chu Xiuyuan carefully depicted Song Yu's peeling lips, red eye sockets, and the eyes looking at him with his eyes. The reflection in the eyes was all him.

"Don't think too much, I'm not talking nonsense." Chu Xiuyuan carefully avoided Song Yu's injured left hand and stroked Song Yu's flushed eyes. He knew that Song Yu really took him to heart, "Except for you , it is probably impossible for me to like others. Even if you are cured and no longer like me like you are now, or you have forgotten some moments before us, but you must remember that there is a person named Chu Xiuyuan, he Likes you, loves you very much, he is willing to be trapped by you, willing to accept your thoughts, willing to accept your intrusion. All your moments can be recreated, and better ones can be made instead, just like this tooth mark. "Chu Xiuyuan touched the dent on Song Yu's chin over and over again, "All you have to do is remember that I like you, and then give me a chance to pursue you after you recover from illness. Don't bite anyone except me. Your jaw."

"Okay..." Song Yu smiled with reddened eyes.

"The lips are not good either, except for me, no one can bite them."

"it is good."

"And here..." Chu Xiuyuan searched for the moon, "No one can touch it except me."

"Okay, it's up to you."

At this moment, Song Yu hugged Chu Xiuyuan tightly, and two drops of water dripped on the pillow, fainting the dark color that was as bright as a sunny day after the rain.

How much he regretted that he didn't tell Chu Xiuyuan earlier because of his thoughts that he couldn't break through, because he was afraid that his feelings would not be pure, that at this moment, including every moment before, I like you, so much that I am willing to do it for you out of control.I like it so much that without you, I would lose the whole world.

Two days later, Song Yu's parents discharged Song Yu from the hospital and wanted to take him home, but he refused. He wanted to go back to school because there was no Chu Xiuyuan at home.

As soon as Song Yu entered the dormitory area, he saw Chu Xiuyuan waiting for him at the door with his hands in his pockets.Ignoring the strange eyes of the passing students, Song Yu quickly approached, and the two walked side by side to Song Yu's dormitory.

"Does your hand still hurt?"

"pain."

"Do you want me to blow it?"

Song Yu smiled: "When you sleep next to me, I feel less pain."

Chu Xiuyuan also laughed.

"Can you accompany me?" Song Yu asked.

"Sleeping with me?" Chu Xiuyuan raised his eyebrows.

"Accompany me to see a doctor." Song Yu restrained his expression while talking, and looked at Chu Xiuyuan with serious eyes, imprinting anticipation and apprehension in his dark eyes.Chu Xiuyuan told him not to hide himself, so he had to open up all of himself honestly and put it in front of Chu Xiuyuan.

Chu Xiuyuan stopped in his tracks, sketched Song Yu's clenched jaw and tense face, and repeated, "Okay."

"I will always be with you." Even if you don't like me, I will always be with you, not to mention the reflection in your eyes is all me.

When he arrived at Song Yu's dormitory, Chu Xiuyuan skillfully climbed onto Song Yu's bed and sat on the edge of the bed with his legs dangling outside the bed. Seeing Song Yu's one-armed hero wiping the desk, he didn't help him. He knew it was Song Yu. He would not stop Yu's symptoms rashly, and it was the first time he saw Song Yu directly displaying his abnormalities with his own eyes.

Song Yu no longer hides anything from him, he thinks this is a sign of improvement.

After Song Yu returned to school with a scalded hand, the entire campus was shocked. The two girls who witnessed Song Yu's loss of control kept silent. After guessing and guessing, it was finally regarded as an accident, which did not cause Song Yu too much trouble.

On the other hand, with Song Yu's silent resistance, resistance to going home, and resistance to communicating, Song Yu's parents gradually realized the seriousness of the problem.I don't know if it was Song Yu's cold war and loss of control that scared them, or Teacher Bai talked to them again afterwards. They never mentioned the topic of not allowing Song Yu to go to the doctor. Their attitude has changed a lot, and they no longer obstruct Song Yu participated in psychotherapy and recovered his monthly living expenses.

Chu Xiuyuan reduced his part-time job and devoted himself to studying and Song Yu's illness.

On another Tuesday, Chu Xiuyuan accompanied Song Yu to Teacher Bai's consulting room.

Last time he hid behind a screen to eavesdrop, this time, he sat beside Song Yu.

I don't know if it's because of Chu Xiuyuan's presence, Chu Xiuyuan held his hand the whole time, Song Yu was so at ease and relaxed for the first time.

During the talk therapy, the sense of isolation and stagnation that caused Teacher Bai and Fu Jue a headache disappeared miraculously.

Every week since then, Song Yu will participate in Teacher Bai's individual treatment. Finally, she no longer needs to visit the doctor secretly. Except for Tuesday, she can still register with Teacher Bai's outpatient hours every week. After being ill for more than two years, she finally began to accept the real It's uncompromising talk therapy.

Teacher Bai: "I will hand you over to Teacher Cao next month. Cherish the last week of my conversation with you."

Song Yu smiled: "Teacher Bai, don't worry, I will speak well of you in front of Teacher Cao."

Song Yu was so willing to give his heart and soul to his teacher, Teacher Bai clicked his tongue: "Okay, don't talk nonsense, when we talked about your earliest symptoms last time, you said you want to go back and think about it, now think about it." Are you up?"

Song Yu could recall that his first symptoms occurred in the first half of the semester, and the ritual compulsion related to numbers occurred very quickly, and Song Yu was caught off guard. As for why it appeared, Song Yu couldn't tell.

Chu Xiuyuan blinked at Song Yu, thinking that he didn't know Song Yu at that time, so the source of Song Yu's symptoms may come from another variable besides him, but he couldn't control the joke that he wanted to tease. Mouth: "Think about it, clear me of my crimes quickly, and don't let me take the blame again."

Song Yu nodded in thought. After a long time, he suddenly let out a sigh and looked at Chu Xiuyuan. His eyes never moved away from Chu Xiuyuan. Chu Xiuyuan felt hairy when he saw it. He smiled to cover up his embarrassment: "If you look at me again Eat you..." It seemed that Song Yu's initial symptoms were also related to him.

But Song Yu didn't move his gaze away, and still looked at him in surprise. His eyes seemed to be hazy with memories, but they were very serious. Chu Xiuyuan gradually restrained his smile. Song Yu's first symptom was not... ...is it really related to him? !

Song Yu asked uncertainly: "When you were a freshman, did you ever hear a lecture on entrepreneurship, where the founder of a certain search engine was invited?"

Chu Xiuyuan tilted his head and thought about it. The lecture two years ago did not impress him deeply, but when he thought of the very famous founder, it seemed to be...

"have……?"

"And do you remember where you were sitting?"

"How could it be possible for me..." Chu Xiuyuan raised the corners of his mouth and was just about to laugh. Halfway through his sentence, he suddenly opened his eyes wide, his eyeballs rolled, and the center of his brows furrowed a little bit. Ten seconds later, he looked at Song Yu in amazement and said nothing. Not fluent, "I... sit..." Chu Xiuyuan swallowed, "The first one in the first row...?"

I'm the first one in the first row!

it's me!

It's because of me!

He could recall it because it caused a little stir at the time.The lecture was attended by Zhu Zhaola. He himself had no interest in the lecture, but the seats in the back row were all full, so he had to settle for the next best thing and sit first in the first row.The so-called black under the lamp, although it is close to the podium, but this person is not eye-catching, very suitable for deserting.

But I don't know if it's the weird speaker or Chu Xiuyuan is too handsome. The speaker just focused on Chu Xiuyuan who was on a errand, saying that although the first row in the first row is not conspicuous, it is very important to him, so He will pay special attention.Chu Xiuyuan was not embarrassed, and responded with a joke, asking him if he was the first in the first row to meet his current wife, if so, he would pay more attention to it in the future, and find someone who was the first in the first row to talk about him one game.

Recalling this point, Chu Xiuyuan was so shocked that his breathing became disordered. Could it really be... because of me?Song Yu paid attention to me when he was a freshman?

Facts have proved that Song Yu's memory is not much different from Chu Xiuyuan's. He gradually began to care about this position, especially when he found a lost note in this position, and the owner of the note became Chu Xiuyuan soon after. Xiuyuan's girlfriend, since then, has been out of control.

In the next hour, Song Yu's memory and self-awareness entered a field that he had never stepped into before, including himself.

At that time, Song Yu didn't realize what it meant to pay too much attention to Chu Xiuyuan, but as time passed, the attention to Chu Xiuyuan did not decrease or lose interest, but it intensified until the sophomore year just started. , He accidentally read Wang Xinghe's papers in a subject magazine, and after attending Wang Xinghe's lectures, he finally realized that he had a strange feeling for a boy who had never spoken to him.

He began to plan how to pursue Chu Xiuyuan, thinking about how to get close to him, but inevitably, he thought of his parents' obstruction.They had an unhappy marriage, but because they were afraid of worldly prejudice, Song Yu suffered from cold violence for more than ten years.Their only requirement for Song Yu is to be excellent and perfect. They regard Song Yu as a capital to show off, and they don't allow any flaws on Song Yu, let alone Song Yu falling in love with someone of the same sex.

They would definitely stop him, just like Nezha's father stopped him and strangled him, but how could Song Yu accept it.

He doesn't want his liking for a certain person to be influenced by the outside world. He has to resist why he likes Chu Xiuyuan being dictated by his parents. He wants to be with Chu Xiuyuan.But Song Yu also knew that the reality would be very cruel. As long as they were kind to him in raising him, as long as he still treated them as relatives, it would be very difficult for his parents to pass.

"That's why I want to hold on to him." Song Yu squeezed the hand that Chu Xiuyuan handed over, "I know that my resistance to them is very unsatisfactory, so I want to hold on to him even more."

"How to hurry up?" Teacher Bai asked.

Song Yulong frowned and thought for a long time before saying: "I want to be nice to him, at least I want to do everything he says, and keep him by my side."

There was a long silence in the consulting room.

"I want to do whatever he says."

Whatever he says, I want to do it...

After recalling Song Yu's confession over and over again, Chu Xiuyuan gasped in shock.

This is Song Yu's real symptom!

Those strange symptoms such as peeling apples, buying pork chops, were all illusions, and these were Song Yu's real symptoms!

Why are so many of Song Yu's symptoms related to me, and why my words and actions may trigger Song Yu's new symptoms? Well, he wants to do whatever I say, this is the reason, this is the root of his symptoms!

Chu Xiuyuan couldn't imagine that Song Yu's feelings for him were so long and deep. He was so surprised that he almost choked up. It turned out that all the illnesses, even Song Yu's sentence "[-]:[-] p.m., I am the first in the first row I took a seat and spoke the first sentence with him. I thought it was a signal, so I started chasing him", all because of Chu Xiuyuan.Song Yu was right, wasn't that signal the one Chu Xiuyuan gave him? !He used to think that Song Yu's feelings for him were just caused by obsessive-compulsive disorder, but now he realized that the fact is completely opposite, it's all the opposite!

So Song Yu got sick because of...too much affection for him. All the illnesses proved how much Song Yu liked him.

Song Yu likes himself, a hundred times a thousand times more than he imagined.

"Why do you..." Chu Xiuyuan reached out and stroked Song Yu's face, but choked up in the middle of speaking, "So stupid..."

Why are you so stupid.