I don't want to cry and I want to die for love[Comprehensive]

Yuanshan Jujiang was stunned for a moment.

What Hanazawa Asahi said was very sincere, without any hypocrisy.

It's not a great truth, nor is it a heart-warming chicken soup.It's just a simple talk about what I have seen and heard, and what I have experienced is real and interesting.

It is very different from Atsushi Nakajima who unilaterally discouraged her behavior with dry language.

Just a moment of dazedness is enough for Atsushi Nakajima to catch a flaw.He immediately used the ability of [Moon Beast], his limbs turned into the legs of a white tiger, and the explosive power was enough to make a weak woman unable to react.

"Let go, let me go!!"

Yuanshan Jujiang struggled desperately.

so light.

Atsushi Nakajima couldn't imagine that the woman in his arms was a pregnant woman, and ordinary girls would weigh about ten catties more than her.

Toyama Kikue's fist didn't do much harm to Atsushi Nakajima. He ignored Toyama Kikue's harassing behavior and slowly pulled her from near the railing to the edge of the wall.

"Dun, you should wait for Miss Yuanshan first. There should be a policeman going up the stairs, and the next thing will be handled by the policeman."

"I see."

As soon as Atsushi Nakajima finished speaking, Toyama Jue pushed his face aside with one hand, and he said distressedly: "No matter how much Ms. Toyama harasses me, I won't be able to let it go."

"Stop lying, you liar." Toyama Kikue angrily pinched the flesh on Nakajima Atsushi's arm with his fingers, but it was of no use.The tiger-formed Atsushi Nakajima has a layer of soft fur, and Toyama Kikue's damage to him is equal to 0.

"Mr. Dazai, I'm leaving first."

"OK Bye Bye."

Osamu Dazai walked over to Hanazawa Asahi who was slumped on the ground.He bent down, and said in Hanazawa Asahi's ear: "Asahi, what you said completely pierced Ms. Toyama's heart. It's amazing. I was almost moved by such words. Maybe Asahi has the potential to confuse women."

The breaths of each other were all mixed together. I don't know if it was an illusion, but he clearly heard the beating of each other's heart.Active, lively.

Hanazawa Asahi feels at ease about this.

With such a powerful moving sound, Mr. Dazai must be much healthier than he imagined.

Osamu Dazai withdrew and left, waving his hands lightly, "I'm going down, Atsushi has been waiting below for a long time. I don't know if I can stop Miss Toyama."

Hanazawa Asahi reached out and grabbed the corner of Dazai Osamu's sleeve, pulling him to a stop.

If you don't say it now, you won't have a chance, so you have to finish it all in one go.

Mr. Dazai would lightly pass over the things that Mr. Dazai didn't want to be said.Unless it is a thick-skinned person, Ky will continue to provoke that topic, but Hanazawa Asahi is not that thick-skinned

If you want to say something to Mr. Dazai, you will always hide it in your heart, and there is no chance to say it.

Although it is a bit mean to do so, use the topic opened by Ms. Toyama.

"I don't know why Mr. Dazai is so lonely and sad. I don't know the reason. Who made me meet Mr. Dazai this year."

Osamu Dazai stopped in his tracks, and he didn't look back.Hanazawa Asahi couldn't see Dazai Osamu's expression, he felt a little uneasy in his heart, and said all the words in his actions.

"I can't understand, and I don't want to agree. Life is a very precious thing in my eyes. There is only one, only one chance. It is as precious as gold. It should not be trampled on at will, nor should it be treated as Worthless things. In my eyes, the world is full of sunshine, and people are nothing more than a simple person. I will be happy that the seeds planted yesterday have sprouted, and I will be happy because I have carefully cultivated and bloomed beautiful flowers. .”

"Of course I can't expect everyone to understand the ordinary life I describe. It's ordinary but you can see it everywhere. But I really feel happy because of simple and small things. Happiness, fun, love, and friendship are finally born. It would be too wasteful to come to this world without taking the initiative to get in touch with it.”

"Mr. Dazai has been silent all the time, is he trying to be evasive, and just talk about any topic to fool me? I can't understand that Mr. Dazai always wants to commit suicide and die for love. Every time I meet, I am terrified, Mr. Dazai But he didn’t take it seriously at all, smiling like an optimist, evasively speaking about his bad behavior, trying to describe it as a legitimate behavior in words.” Hanazawa Asahi recalled several times in his mind that Osamu Dazai committed suicide by himself , is indignant.

"Since I don't understand..." Osamu Dazai turned his head and was about to say something, Hanazawa Asahi raised his jaw, he was in a mess, sweat was still running down the side of his face.Excessively intense emotions and long-term exercise caused the cheeks to flush slightly, and the whole portrait looked like it had just been fished out of the water.Only those shining golden eyes sincerely and sincerely conveyed their true emotions.

"Shut up. It's not Dazai-san's turn to speak yet. After listening to what I say this time, [-]% of the time, Dazai-san will run around like a cowardly mouse and refuse to show up unless I bring the mouse cage. , or I'll never catch you."

For the first time, Hanazawa Asahi interrupted Osamu Dazai forcefully.

"Mr. Dazai. It doesn't matter if you don't understand. People are there. If you can't understand between people, you can get in touch with each other and increase your chances of understanding each other. It's okay if you can't understand. The most important thing is to respect each other's ideas. "He said stubbornly and loudly, "I can respect Mr. Dazai's ideas, and Mr. Dazai is already a good friend in my cognition."

In just three seconds, he was able to touch the complex corner under the skin of Osamu Dazai's optimist, the incomprehensible loneliness, and the sadness that caused Hanazawa Asahi's heart and lungs to suffer, and his brain was buzzing with choking. A blur, only tears are falling.

I can't understand it, but I can feel it.

I can't understand it, but I can give it respect.

"So, I also hope that Mr. Dazai can respect your friend's ideas."

Osamu Dazai, who was robbed of the right to speak, opened his eyes slightly.During the short period of time when Hanazawa Asahi was taking a breath, his iris-colored eyes were covered with a layer of misty black gray, the ambiguous feeling of fragility made people feel pitiful, and it seemed to divide the huge gap between you and me , He smiled wryly, and debated: "This kind of thinking is a domineering act. There is no entry point for me to refuse at all."

"When dealing with Mr. Dazai, soft methods are useless. Mr. Dazai is a man who does not take toughness. He will forget what he said to me when he turned his head—at least at this moment, I will use my fist (hard) means) to wake you up!"

Even at this very moment.

Maybe it hit one of Dazai Osamu's heart, or the suicide of Toyama Kikue gave Dazai Osamu the same illusion.

Mr. Dazai, the thick darkness in your eyes seems to be an abyss without boundaries.

Hanazawa Asahi really didn't know whether his brief synchronization of three seconds was wrong or right.He loudly questioned Osamu Dazai's point of view, and his domineering behavior made people feel unhappy when they heard it. How impolite he was to others.

But——if you give up at this moment, don't continue talking.

Hanazawa Asahi knew that he would regret it for the rest of his life.

Osamu Dazai lived as if he was walking in the world on the tip of a knife, enduring, enduring, enduring desperately.Trying to blend into this ordinary world, it seems that he is more and more out of tune with the world.It seemed that only the act of suicide could allow him to breathe, to be freed from the pain, and to no longer have to suffer from the point of the knife.

Hanazawa Asahi was admired by his parents since he was a child, and because of Olumite's rescue, he yearned for heroes from then on.

He is killing himself.

Hanazawa Asahi was about to reach out to save him.

It's just that such a simple theory has become an equal sign in my mind.

It's taken for granted.

Hanazawa Asahi, who once wanted to be a hero, stretched out her hand to save those who need to be saved, which is just such a natural behavior.

"Mr. Dazai has the right to commit suicide, and I also have the right to reach out to save Mr. Dazai. I just want to ask Mr. Dazai for such respect."

No unreasonable troubles without imagination, countless chicken soup.

When Hanazawa Asahi said these words, Osamu Dazai could only make a simple gasp.

"……what?"

"Is it not possible?" Hanazawa Asahi raised his head and asked, and he added on his own: "No and no. I will never allow Mr. Dazai to die, and I will not allow anyone to die in front of me. I am So selfish, so domineering."

Hanazawa Asahi has a baby face and is short, embarrassed and dirty all over.Saying that you are domineering and selfish, you can imagine how shocking a child younger than you is, as if pretending to be an adult.

The answer is no, out of [-] points, giving one point is very extravagant.

Just pulling a corner of the sleeves looks childish, but after watching for a long time, I feel that it is a pitiful act of begging.

Saying such things at the negotiating table will definitely be looked down upon.

Osamu Dazai thought.

He lowered his head to look at Hanazawa Asahi who claimed to be his friend.

Hanazawa Asahi is a child who has never seen the dark. The world in his eyes is full of sunshine, ordinary and happy. The small things are so small that he will be happy for a long time if he eats delicious croquettes today. These are all things that Osamu Dazai can’t see place.

Hanazawa Asahi cannot be expected to understand the world of adults.

Even what he said was full of childish willfulness.It is good luck not to be bullied at the negotiating table.

"Are you serious?" Dazai asked.

"Do I look like someone who jokes about this kind of thing?" Hanazawa Asahi was dissatisfied, "No matter which corner of the world Mr. Dazai is in, even if he is doing bad things quietly in Yokohama, even if I am in Shizuoka in the sky, I will Kill and stop you."

"Pfft, in serious moments, don't disturb my mood with strange words at this moment, it's very annoying. How far is the difference between Shizuoka and Yokohama? One east and one west happen to be in Kanagawa, but It's easy to come here by taking a train." Osamu Dazai complained.

"!?"

"Isn't this Mr. Dazai's specialty? At this moment, I took it out and used it, but Mr. Dazai complained about it?" Hanazawa Asahi couldn't believe it.

Osamu Dazai couldn't help but spurn himself in his heart, and lost to a child-like willful debate.

Osamu Dazai pulled his sleeve away from Hanazawa Asahi's hand, slowly wiped the sweat from the corner of his eyes, his voice was as low as a whisper.

"You win, Asahi."

Only the world of black, white and gray is blooming with white light, and the endless black night blows away the dark clouds, revealing some starlight.

The full moon on the lake became distorted due to the large spread of waves, but it returned to its original state quietly and steadily, and a few spots of light quietly appeared beside the moon.

Such a thing as happiness will sink to the bottom of the river of sorrow and glow faintly, like gold dust.If this is happiness, then I am indeed happy now①.

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I owe you so much more, amnesia.

Asahi is a good boy, I really like such a sun-like child.When I first set it up, I thought about it like this, and I must write an angel.

The name Asahi entrusts all my best wishes for him, and——

Let's talk about this sentence when it's over. I'm a bit of a spoiler, I want to hold back, damn it.

At the end of the stream of consciousness description, you can go back and look at the dream in 030. The full moon in the dream is a metaphor for Oda, and Osamu Dazai is walking in the correct direction of the full moon (Oda is pointing).Asahi chased desperately, grabbed Dazai Osamu's hand, and the dense clouds in the dark night were blown away.

①The sense of happiness sinks to the bottom of the river of sorrow and glows faintly, like gold dust.If this is happiness, then I am indeed happy now - Osamu Dazai