you better not like me

Chen Yan couldn't remember when he lost consciousness that night, probably because he was tired from crying and was coaxed to sleep.

I just remember that they talked very calmly afterwards——

"Do you want to leave here, or...?" Zhan Ke still maintained the posture of holding Chen Yan in his arms, and patted him on the back lightly.At that time, Chen Yan finally understood why he had to coax the child like this. It was really comfortable. The sleepiness accumulated for a long time poured over him, and his upper and lower eyelids couldn't help but fight.

Chen Yan said, "Maybe."

"If you want to leave, will you say goodbye to me before leaving?" Zhan Ke asked.

Chen Yan said again: "Maybe."

Zhan Ke smiled lightly, and Chen Yan suffered from the laughter.

"Will you come to see me when you suddenly think of me one day?" Zhan Ke asked.

Chen Yan thought for a long time, and then said, "Maybe."

Zhan Ke stroked his hair with his hand, smoothed it out, and said, "That's good."

"Then will you listen to me?" Chen Yan asked.

Zhan Ke said, "No."

Chen Yan smiled, "Why not?"

Zhan Ke didn't answer.

Chen Yan asked about marriage.

When he woke up the next day, Zhan Ke was gone, and Chen Yan rarely had a good night's sleep, and he was so sleepy that his mind was dazed.

He thought Zhan Ke had left.But it was just playing games all morning as usual.

Until noon, the doorbell rang on time. When he opened the door, he saw Zhan Ke coming in with two dishes of food in a familiar way, and then went out again. After a while, he came back with two bowls of rice.

He still set up the chopsticks as usual, and then said: "Eat quickly, wait until it gets cold."

Chen Yan stood by the door from the first time he entered, a human-shaped barricade.

He only moved when he was invited to eat, but he was still alive.

During the meal, Zhan Ke asked, "When did you wake up?"

Chen Yan couldn't remember the time at all, so he simply made up one.

Zhan Ke said, "I thought you could sleep until twelve o'clock."

Chen Yan had done a lot of things like sleeping until twelve o'clock before.

"Why didn't you call me in the morning?" Chen Yan asked.

"Seeing that you finally fell asleep, sleep a little longer." Zhan Ke smiled and asked, "Is it possible to fall asleep after being coaxed?"

Chen Yan sneered and ignored him.

"If so, if you meet...the right person in the future," Zhan Ke couldn't continue, but he still had to explain: "Just..."

"No." Chen Yan interrupted him.

The conversation between the two on this matter briefly ended here.

Chen Yan was really short of sleep recently, Zhan Ke asked if he wanted to sleep a little longer, he wanted to say no, but nodded after thinking about it.

Zhan Ke coaxed gently like last night, and finally said "sleep" like magic, and Chen Yan really closed his eyes.

The curtains shut out all the light from them.

It seems that the light is too cruel, and only when the night falls can there be room to breathe.

Tuesday afternoon.

It is expected to arrive at the airport two hours before the departure time. Zhan Ke stood at the door after finishing the meal and waited for Chen Yan to get off work.

Half an hour after Chen Yan came back, he had finished his meal, and the car he had booked in advance arrived.

He kept his word and promised to send it, and he just wanted to send it.

"I'll be back in three days." Zhan Ke said.

"it is good."

When we parted, Chen Yan smiled at him, and Zhan Ke stared at it in a daze. He was reluctant to turn around, so he wanted to see more.

He always felt that every glance was the last.

"Go quickly." Chen Yan urged.

"I'm leaving." Zhan Ke waved at him, turned and left.

After taking two steps, I looked back.

When I looked back for the third time, I saw Chen Yan's back, and he was going back.

Chen Yan still chose not to say goodbye to him.

Zhan Ke only stayed in Beijing for one day, and when he hurried back, the door next door could no longer be knocked open.

The phone was able to get through, but was hung up after two rings.

Zhan Ke can only use this to rejoice that nothing happened to Chen Yan, he just chose to leave him without saying a word.

That's fine.

He didn't know where Chen Yan had gone, and he didn't dare to look it up, let alone ask around.

Now he knows very well that as long as Chen Yan is not around him, he will probably live well.

The house next door will not make the slightest sound all day long.In fact, when Chen Yan was around, there was very little movement. This guy was too lazy, and he didn't go out very much except for work.

No one came back to visit this floor anymore, he didn't have many friends here, and it used to be when Ji Yi or Jian Le came when it was a little more lively.

Zhan Ke suddenly thought, should I tell Ji Yi.

But after thinking about it, Chen Yan was leaving, why didn't he tell Ji Yi.

He suddenly thought again, should he go to Chen Yan's company to ask, maybe he didn't leave the job, but just moved.

He began to think about whether it would be right or wrong, and immediately called Li Cheng. The latter said that Chen Yan had completed the resignation procedures yesterday, and asked him if there was anyone who could introduce him. It was hard to find vacancies here.

Zhan Ke didn't even have the heart to think about these things, so he hung up after saying a few words of thanks.

Zhan Ke stood at the door, leaning against the wall as usual, staring at the elevator in a daze.

His mind is very messy, he will think about all kinds of weird things, and then deny himself.

Could Chen Yan just move?

Could it just be a job change?

Maybe just went on a tour and will be back soon.

Not anymore.

Chen Yan told him everything.

Say you love him, but it hurts because of love.

He shouldn't have expected that.

This is the best result for Chen Yan.

He shouldn't be so selfish and only think about himself.

Zhan Ke finally convinced himself not to think about it.

But I still waited all night in the corridor.

The suitcase was placed next to him, and he simply sat on the floor if he couldn't stand after standing for a long time.

Keep your eyes on the elevator.

But the elevator didn't come to this floor all night.

Chen Yan didn't show up.

Everything is business as usual, no miracles happen.

At dawn, Zhan Ke stood up, pushed open the door of his room, dragged the suitcase in and put it down.

I took a shower and changed my clothes.

It's time to buy vegetables. It's better to go to the vegetable market, but grandpa and aunt get up very early, so he has to go earlier to buy fresh vegetables grown by the farmers themselves.

It's just that I'm not in a good mood today.He accidentally bumped into someone who was also in a bad mood while walking, and he apologized first, but the other person was unforgiving, pointing at him and scolding him for a long time.

Zhan Ke couldn't hold back, and just punched him when he went up.

The man wanted to fight back, but missed, and rushed forward when he got angry.

It's not that Zhan Ke doesn't know how to fight, but he fights less, probably because he doesn't have to worry about making a living since he was a child.

It just so happened that I was in a really bad mood today, so I acted harder.

But in the end, I still didn't play well, because I was pulled away by passers-by.

Wiping his nosebleeds, the man said, "Fuck you. Damn, it's so f*cking black to watch people act like dogs!"

Start black?

That was infected by Chen Yan.

Zhan Ke suddenly felt a little better.

I sincerely apologized to that person.

When he froze in place, not knowing why, he turned around and left again.

He is in a hurry.

To buy food.

It's really not going well today.

He might have suffered from hypoglycemia in the morning, and he staggered and bumped into an aunt because he was crowded in front of the vegetable stand.

The aunt is very nice, and asked him if the young man is not feeling well?

He apologized again and said it was fine.

The aunt is warm-hearted, and chased him for a long time to persuade him that young people should take care of their bodies.

He said he heard it.It's just habitual indifference, the aunt felt that he didn't feel relieved, and whispered: "Why is this kid like this? I'm not doing it for your own good. Now this body is really capital. My son's health is not good. Now he is tired all day, go home just sleep."

Zhan Ke knew she meant well.

Still angry.

Thank you patiently, then paid the money and left with the food.

Fortunately, nothing bad happened on the way home.

Otherwise, Zhan Ke is really not sure if he will go crazy once.

It was still early when he got home, and he turned on his computer to deal with emails as usual.

Very serious, very attentive, very focused.

He was surprised.

The assistant called and anxiously asked why the phone couldn't get through all night.

He didn't answer and asked what's wrong?Is something wrong?

It's not that they can't get through.

It's turned off.

Don't want to be bothered.

The assistant said: "But there are still a lot of things that have not been dealt with here. You just came back one day and went back again... When will you come back? People are also urging you."

When to go back?

Zhan Ke thought for a moment, and said to leave it for now, maybe he will go back another day.

This is generally the case in the morning, from handling mail to cooking time.

He will set the alarm clock and ring the bell at regular intervals.

He can probably control his own cooking time, because there are two dishes every day, and the time is right, Chen Yan can only eat hot meals after get off work.

I accidentally cut my hand while cooking.

Coincidentally, the wound left by Ji Yi's cooking when he came last time was operated on a second time.

He could feel the tingling pain, but he didn't have the strength to express the pain, and he didn't want to have any extra expressions.

Silently, he put his hands under the faucet and heard the rush of the water. He suddenly felt that it was a waste of water, so he put the dishes that were ready to be washed in the basin and put them below.

He didn't react until he saw the dishes were dyed red.

He scolded himself in a low voice: "Idiot".

The dishes are washed again, wasting more water.

If Chen Yan stood by and watched, he would definitely scold him.

After all, it's hard to pick.

When the dishes were fried, he brought them over and put them on the table.There are two bowls of rice, one more and the other less.

The curtains were drawn, blocking out the light again.The house was dark even at noon.

Today is a sunny day, neither wind nor rain.

The community is very quiet, especially at noon, even the sound of children playing has disappeared.

Very quiet.

He didn't usually find it so quiet.I suddenly found it quite novel, like living here for the first time.

He is not hallucinating.

God doesn't even want to give him the illusion that Chen Yan is still around, just to punish a villain like him.

He was wide awake.

But still want to do it.

He found it difficult to swallow his meals, and he had never felt so difficult to cook himself.

Obviously, I also eat my own cooking every day. Some time ago, I always felt that my cooking skills were improving every day. I was complacent and felt that if I persisted like this, maybe one day I would really catch Chen Yan's stomach.

Dream it.

So unpalatable.

Did he fry the dishes with his knees?

When I was washing the dishes, I suddenly figured it out.

It wasn't that the food was unpalatable, it was probably because it was stained with his blood.

Chen Yan said his blood was bitter.

It really is.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-07-0419:42:25~2020-07-0518:19:49期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: Xiaoqi 1;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：浮沉17瓶；椰子蓉15瓶；一团软萌软萌の被子10瓶；大乔脑残粉9瓶；陆时年8瓶；桃子糖5瓶；锦鲤2瓶；Noah、肉松汤圆、CM、沉浮1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!