you better not like me

It was a nightmare that Chen Yan didn't want to mention but couldn't forget, and it was also his.

Zhan Ke opened the door silently, looking at Chen Yan who was sitting there covering his eyes and motionless, he really wanted to hug him again, but he could only force himself to look away and close the door.

Zhan Ke's lips trembled slightly, and he said to Ji Yi with a pale face, "I, I won't see him again."

Then, knowing that it was ironic, he still whispered before he started to walk: "Take care of him."

Ji Yi ignored it.

What kind of state Chen Yan was in, he himself didn't know.

Usually he is just a normal person with a peaceful mind.

It's just that sometimes he is so calm that there are no waves, and he clearly feels that there are fewer and fewer things that can drive his emotions.

Only when meeting Zhan Ke will there be strong emotional ups and downs.

But it's all in my heart, and I won't show it.

It just breaks down if pressed for a long time.

And when he was in a state of collapse, the way he seeks to vent is always extreme, self-harm is the fastest and the best effect.

But Ji Yi's point of correcting him over the years is not to harm himself.

He will warn himself in his heart, no.

Only when he has been suppressed for a long time, can't be suppressed anymore, and ordinary venting doesn't work, he will be like this now.

The rain is still falling and tends to get heavier.

After Ji Yi came in, she sat on the chair next to him, waiting patiently for him to recover, but the longer she waited, the more she felt something was wrong.

She asked softly: "Chen Yan, I'll ask you for leave, shall we go home?"

Chen Yan didn't move.

The sound of rain was evident.

She added: "Don't hold back if you want to cry, it's not ashamed to vent to me."

Chen Yan still didn't move.

Ji Yi sensed that something was wrong, she went around to the opposite side of the desk, trying to judge Chen Yan's current state.

A drop of bright red blood drilled out from his clenched right hand, passed through his wrist, then meandered down his forearm, and finally melted into the white shirt sleeve.

A line of bloodstains left along the way is clear and dazzling.

Immediately afterwards, the second drop——

"Chen Yan!" Ji Yi's expression changed instantly, she grabbed Chen Yan's hand and tugged hard.Chen Yan obediently gave her his right hand that was still clenched, revealing his red eyes.

Ji Yi tried hard to loosen his fingers, but she was no match for Chen Yan's strength.

She saw a new drop of blood come out directly from her finger and dripped on the table, and she thought she heard a heavy "click".

"Chen Yan! Let go! I heard there is no Chen Yan! Let go! You fucking let go!" Ji Yi angrily grabbed his hand and swung it up and down vigorously, Chen Yan's body moved accordingly, but his hand still did not let go .

Ji Yi walked around to him, pinched his face and forced Chen Yan to look at her. She stared at Chen Yanhong's shocking eyes, and was so angry that she couldn't utter a single word. She could only grit her teeth, Softly persuaded, "Let go, I'll take you home, you can tell me everything that's been pressing in your heart, okay?"

Chen Yan closed his eyes, took her hand off his face with his left hand, lowered his head and said, "I'm not crazy, I know what I'm doing."

He slowly opened his right hand, bloody and bloody, and he could see a piece of blood-stained broken glass, the edge of which was still embedded in his palm.

As if he couldn't feel the pain, he took out the glass, and his expression didn't change when the wound was touched.

He wrapped the bloody glass in paper and threw it into the trash.

Ji Yi felt that her throat was stuck with glue.

All the words were stuck in my throat.

She couldn't say a word when she saw this scene.

Only tears will quietly accumulate in the eyes.

Then it is quietly wiped off.

Chen Yan sat there quietly and stared at his hands.

After a long time, he let out a low breath, then smiled, raised his head and said to Ji Yi: "Please take a leave of absence for me, I'll go home and deal with it."

Then he took a piece of paper and wiped the blood off the edge.

"It's still raining." Ji Yi said.

"I know." Chen Yan said.

"You'll catch a cold if you get caught in the rain." Ji Yi said.

Chen Yan was silent, and the movement of wiping stopped.

He bit his lower lip hard, and said, "I'm not afraid of catching a cold."

Zhan Ke went back to the conference room as if fleeing along the way, told Li Cheng that he had to go back first, and then took the people away.

All business trips are settled in advance, Zhan Ke went out without saying a word and rushed straight into the rain, the assistant shouted under the eaves: "Mr. Zhan! I didn't take the umbrella!"

He didn't bother to answer either.

After getting into the car, he walked up in one breath, staring blankly at one place, with various pictures about Chen Yan in his mind.

And Ji Yi's words.

And Chen Yan's reaction.

His heart was trembling, the pain was comparable to Ling Chi.

He knew that Chen Yan had some mental problems, but he didn't know that he had never been treated for so many years.

Overcome all demons alone.

How can I bear this?

The more he thought about it, the more his breathing trembled.

At this moment, he wanted to torture himself morbidly, to feel what Chen Yan had experienced in these years.

He didn't go there again for the next few days to talk about the follow-up matters.

It's not surprising that he doesn't come to talk about this level of list, and the few people under his command are more than enough.

Zhan Ke locked himself in the room every day, lying on the bed unconsciously, his mind was full of Chen Yan, thinking about it all the time.

Sleep when you are tired, and see you in your dreams.

Wake up and continue.

Day and night.

He promised not to see Chen Yan again.

He should have done it earlier.

Chen Yan would not be so sad.

He promised not to see Chen Yan again.

I haven't seen you for so many years, can't I bear it?

If you don't see him, he won't be sad. When he is happy, you will be the real Chen Yan.

He hadn't seen the real Chen Yan for a long, long time.

He promised not to see Chen Yan again.

He agreed.

He actually agreed.

Zhan Ke stared at the ceiling, feeling a splitting headache.

He frowned fiercely, his expression painful.

He can no longer see Chen Yan.

He said yes.

Only in this way will Chen Yan get better.

But he can't see Chen Yan anymore.

No matter how much he tried to convince himself, he would go back to this starting point.

——He can't see Chen Yan again.

He didn't know how long that period was.

He didn't even dare to think about it.

Is it a lifetime?

Zhan Ke couldn't help curling up, clutching his stomach that was starting to ache again.

He couldn't help thinking about it, but he didn't dare to think about it.

He can only go back and forth in an extreme contradiction.

My heart hurts to the point of tearing my heart apart.

Not to be outdone, the stomach ached.

The ringtone of the mobile phone is still so uninteresting.

It made him feel restless.

"Hello?" He lay on the bed, pressing his stomach.

Sounds are fake.

"Xiao Ke, I'm Uncle Zhao." The man's voice sounded old.

Zhan Ke was stunned by the pain, and couldn't remember who it was at all.

The man didn't receive an answer for a long time, so he said plainly, "I'm Zhao Hongcai, your mother... your stepmother's ex-husband."

Zhan Ke remembered.

He instantly felt another degree of stomach pain.

"Is something wrong?" His tone was cold.

Zhao Hongcai also knew that Zhan Ke could not have a good tone when he received his call, so he said with a sneer, "Uncle wants to tell you something."

"Say." Zhan Ke clenched his fist and pressed it against his stomach.

"Let's make an appointment to meet up." Zhao Hongcai said.

Zhan Ke refused, "No time."

He didn't want to waste a second on this family.

Zhao Hongcai said: "Uncle, he is very persistent in doing things. Otherwise, after all these years, I wouldn't be able to find you. Something really happened to Uncle, let's make an appointment to meet."

Zhan Ke has seen Zhao Hongcai's ability for a long time.

Scoundrels and shameless tricks are perfect.

The 22-year-old Zhan Ke was very anxious about being entangled, but it doesn't mean that he is still afraid of these things now.

But Zhan Ke still agreed.

Zhan Ke was not surprised when Zhao Hongcai mentioned the name of a coffee shop in Pingjiang.

Since Zhao Hongcai decided to call him this time, he probably already investigated his itinerary.

After hanging up the phone, Zhan Ke turned over.

He took a deep breath.

The reason for agreeing just now is.

Zhao Hongcai was difficult to deal with and could distract him a lot.

Maybe this way he can not bother Chen Yan.

Half an hour later, Zhan Ke received a call from Zhan Zheng.

"Brother, I received a call from Zhao Hongcai. He also called my friend and wanted to tell her about family affairs. Hasn't this old idiot had enough trouble before?!"

Zhan Ke frowned and asked, "Call your friend?"

When the focus is here, Zhan Zheng is about to explode, "You know what? He called my friend, and he didn't know where he found out that I was with her, so he called her and told her yes One of my uncles asked her what she thought of Zhan Zheng. My friend talked to him stupidly, and he wished he could tell her all about my dad’s shit, and told her that it’s genetic for men to change their minds. I-fuck-he- uncle!"

"Fuck! Just a fucking old fool. If you need money, you'll come to us. If you smell some money, you'll stick to it like a dog. Am I his fucking ATM?"

Zhan Kemo is gone.

He was afraid that Zhao Hongcai would call Chen Yan.

Nervously pinching the bed sheet tightly, the knuckles turned white.

Then it occurred to him that even though Zhao Hongcai had great abilities, he couldn't connect two people who hadn't contacted or had any relationship for five years.

He didn't know whether to be happy or sad.

"I see." Zhan Ke said.

Zhan Zheng cursed a few more times as if venting, but he was busy with work and didn't have much time to spend on cursing.

It didn't take long to hang up the phone angrily.

Zhao Hongcai.

Zhan Ke squinted his eyes, he could clearly remember all the actions of this man back then.

Chen Yan was finally dragged by Ji Yi to find Lian Cen to bandage him.

When she thought of seeing him holding a cotton swab dipped in iodophor in his left hand and tremblingly applying it to his right hand, she felt that the whole world was miserable.

I am used to my hands and feet, let alone dare to.

He simply turned halfway and went straight back to his home.I've been working the night shift lately.

The bandaging process was still a bit bloody, Lian Cen took a cotton swab to check the spot carefully, and looked up at Chen Yan's expression from time to time.

Then you will find that this person has no expression of struggling at all, and when you look at him, you will even smile and say: "It doesn't hurt, don't worry."

Cen didn't even speak during the bandaging process.

After the end, I didn't ask why it hurt like this.

Just a simple and official reminder of the precautions.

Ji Yi knelt down in her heart to thank her for her kindness.

"That day..." Lian Cen said suddenly.

Chen Yan found that she was looking at him and said, so he felt strange, "Huh?"

Lian Cen tilted his head, "It was you who called that day."

Chen Yan was stunned for a moment.

"The day Ji Yi's phone left me here."

Lian Cen reminded.

Chen Yan remembered.

He nodded and acknowledged generously.

Lian Cen laughed, "Then why do you still say you don't know her well?"

Ji Yi quickly realized, and asked Chen Yan coldly, "What did you say?"

Chen Yan rubbed his nose, and before he could say anything, he heard Lian Cen say: "If you are not busy, sit down and eat together, I cook too much."

Chen Yan, who was thinking fast, had no time to react.

But the earlier emotions were swept away.

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