I would rather die than be the white moonlight

The doctor has given an ultimatum to Shen Ke's family. Shen Ke's body can no longer support him. He said that he should try his best to realize any wish now.

Su Liang is not willing to leave Shen Ke's side for half a step now, remembering the hatred he had when he cursed Shen Ke before, Su Liang always turned his back on Shen Ke and slapped his own face fiercely.

Shen Ke fell asleep all day long. When he woke up, he just wrote two words in the diary and never moved again. Later, he didn't even have the strength to write the diary, and he was paralyzed like a vegetable. On the bed, if it wasn't for the machine next to him showing that Shen Ke was still beating, Su Liang would almost have thought that Shen Ke hadn't breathed long ago.

Su Liang began to be unwilling to sleep all night, and Shen's mother always laughed at him, saying that Shen Ke didn't know how to cherish it when he was good, but now that Shen Ke was hurt by him like this, but he still knows how to cherish it, and doesn't know how to pretend. Who is watching?

The sarcasm inside and outside of the words made Su Liang's heart always tighten up, and Shen's father was still adding fuel to the scene, saying that without Shen Ke, he didn't know which prison he was serving his sentence in.

The couple's words were not wrong, Su Liang knew in his heart that what he did was wrong, seeing Su Liang's haggard appearance, the couple didn't say anything in the end, they just sighed and wiped away their tears.

The hospital has almost become Su Liang's home, and he can't remember the last time he went back.

When Shen Ke woke up again, it was completely dark, but Su Liang, who was sitting next to him holding Shen Ke's hand, reacted immediately, and hurriedly asked, "Is there something uncomfortable?"

Shen Ke reached out his hand to touch Su Liang's face, but he was a little weak. Su Liang hurriedly put Shen Ke's hand on his face, and Shen Ke said the most merciless words these days: "I know you have already treated Su Liang. I don't love as much as before, why don't you find someone you love, and don't waste any more time on my side."

Su Liang's tears flowed down instantly, and she quickly explained: "I know I did something wrong before, can you give me another chance?"

Shen Ke shook his head, and turned away from looking at Su Liang: "You said the same thing last time, I gave you a chance, but in exchange for the greatest harm."

Su Liang suddenly didn't know what to say, but just held Shen Ke's hand, weeping and shaking his head, Shen Ke sighed, his tone was full of reluctance: "Actually, I know that these days, when you propose, you don't want to marry me, and you don't know what to say." , They are all to comfort me, who is about to die of illness, but it is not necessary, and I don’t want you to see me like this, you might as well leave quickly, so as not to block your way.”

Shen Ke's words pierced into Su Liang's heart one by one. Su Liang wanted to explain something, but in the end it turned into another sigh.

Shen Ke remembered something, picked up the diary next to it, and put it in Su Liang's arms with difficulty: "I gave you the diary, if you encounter any emotional problems in the future, if you want to consult me , just write it in the diary, if I see it in the sky, I will entrust it to you in a dream."

Shen Ke began to ask for his last words, which made Su Liang feel very uncomfortable. Shen Ke suddenly smiled with relief: "Actually, I have figured it out these days. I never thought about the real relationship between us. It will be like the seven-year itch that others said, I thought we could last for a long time, but in the end we lost to a few photos that can't prove anything."

Shen Ke is like returning to the past. Shen Ke, who hardly talks these days, seems to have endless words after waking up today: "Speaking of which, I actually don't want to die at all. In fact, I also want a complete wedding. Haven’t worn a white suit yet, I haven’t seen the snow this year, I haven’t…”

Shen Ke suddenly fell silent, and started coughing violently, which woke up Shen's father and mother who were already sleeping soundly next to him. Shen's father ran out to call the doctor, but Shen's mother stepped forward and held Shen Ke's hand unwillingly. open.

Shen Ke held Su Liang's hand and put it on his upper abdomen, tears came down instantly: "It hurts, Su Liang, I hurt."

The feeling of dull pain swept Shen Ke's whole brain, and Shen Ke didn't even have the strength to cry out the pain. Cold sweat broke out, and the corners of Shen Ke's mouth began to bleed, and when the doctor arrived, it was already Started to vomit blood.

Shen Ke's miserable appearance was directly imprinted in Su Liang's eyes. Shen Ke held Su Liang's hand with his greatest strength. Shen Ke's hand was so cold that Su Liang stretched out the other hand to caress the one. hand, wanting to warm that hand a little.

The doctor directly asked the nurse to push Shen Ke into the emergency room. Su Liang followed the nurse's movement and followed the bed. Shen Ke's hand never let go of Su Liang, even after the slow convulsions began. hand, Shen Ke's eyes had begun to blur, and there was a deep reluctance in his eyes looking at Su Liang.

In the end, Su Liang was forcibly separated by the nurse and stood outside the operating room. Su Liang walked around in a hurry, his mind was in a mess. When Shen Ke entered the operating room, the last look in his eyes made him feel sad It was the first time he saw such sad eyes on Shen Ke's face.

Su Liang is like an ant on a hot pot, unable to relax at all, outside Shen's father hugged Shen's mother to comfort him and said that he would be fine.

This kind of consolation made Shen's mother cry even more uncontrollably. She directly wet Shen's father's clothes until the doctor came out, and the anxious three people surrounded him outside. When the doctor shook his head and said there was no other way, Su Liang The whole person lost his strength and sat down on the ground.

In fact, during the period of taking care of Shen Ke, he actually expected such a day to come, but he did not expect this day to come so soon. In fact, when Shen Ke said that he did not love him before, he did not deny it. After the previous passion faded away, the tired heart left behind.

When Shen Ke was buried, Su Liang spent all the dividends on his body to give Shen Ke the biggest funeral, the most prosperous funeral. When helping the deceased Shen Ke to dress, Su Liang bought matching suits, He was wearing a black suit, and Shen Ke put on a white suit.

Shen Ke finally put on the white suit he had always wanted to wear before, but he didn't wait for the wedding he was looking forward to. The pair of rings on Shen Ke's hands glistened in the sun.

Su Liang didn't cry that day, not a single tear, not because he didn't feel bitter in his heart, but because he had already shed all tears on the day Shen Ke passed away.

On the day of Shen Ke's burial, Su Liang chose December [-]th, which was the day the two of them agreed to see the snow. When the soil on Shen Ke's coffin was filled, Father Shen accompanied the hypertensive patient The dead mother Shen went to the hospital, leaving only Su Liang.

Su Liang stood beside the tomb, looked at Shen Ke who was smiling brightly on the photo, and stepped forward to touch Shen Ke's photo.

It snowed suddenly in the sky, and the large expanse of snow buried Shen Ke's tomb. Su Liang hurriedly lifted the spare umbrella he brought over Shen Ke's tomb, and then held Shen Ke's notebook in his hand, and didn't care about it. Wearing a suit, he sat down on the ground and opened Shen Ke's diary with a key.

The thick diary didn't have a few pages, and it was full of messy words. Su Liang rubbed his eyes that were swollen from not sleeping well in the past few days, and then he could see the diary in front of him clearly.

"Su Liang, when you read this diary, I probably won't be here anymore. Is it snowing? Actually, I don't like snow, but I met you on the day it snowed, and I fell in love with you so easily. I looked at the snow.

To be honest, I blame you and never forgive you, but I don't want you to leave me in my heart.

Anyway, I just thought, I got sick and fainted because of you, why don't you serve me?Do you blame me? "

Su Liang's nose became sore, he stretched out his hand to touch his cold nose, then turned the page and continued reading.

"Today, Su Liang, you took me to the park. In fact, I saw it. You put the ring in the chicken wing and didn't tell you on purpose. In fact, I don't want to promise you, but there are too many people around, and I can't refuse you." , I think you did this on purpose because we both have thin skins.

what are you doing nowDon't cry next to me, I hate seeing big men cry at every turn, and don't mourn me, I don't think I will be nagged by you after I reach the sky, you don't even know that when you nagging, it's so much worse My mother is still annoying.

By the way, my parents will be taken care of by you. I have not fulfilled my filial piety. In five years, I separated from my parents for you. Now that I think about it, I regret it. After all, it is for you. What did you say? Take good care of them too, you know? "

Su Liang nodded at Shen Ke's tomb: "Don't worry, you still say I'm long-winded, I think you are the most long-winded one."

Su Liang turned back as he spoke, there was nothing written on that page, and it was still blank when he turned back, until he turned to the last page, where the last few words were written distortedly:

"In this life, I have regretted many things, but what I regret the most is falling in love with you, but still unable to extricate myself."

Su Liang closed the diary, closed his eyes, took a few deep breaths, and finally these words were displayed in front of him dripping with blood, making him almost unable to breathe. Su Liang stood up slowly, and carefully opened the diary Ben received it in his arms, and slowly left the cemetery.

A lily flower was placed on the tombstone, and the snow around the icy tombstone began to thicken. Su Liang raised his head and said with the mist coming out: "Shen Ke, it's snowing."

But, you can't see it anymore.

end

In the black sky, white snowflakes fell one by one, and fell into the ground one by one. Su Liang looked out through the window, and a trace of confusion flashed in his eyes. Since Shen Ke's death, how many years has it been?

Su Liang beat his head in confusion, but couldn't remember.

"Shen Ke, dead..."

Su Liang stared blankly at the snowflakes outside, and as the snowflakes fell to the ground, a tear fell from Su Liang's eyes.

"tick"...

"Shen Ke...who is it?"

Why did I feel so guilty that I wanted to cry when I mentioned this name? Why can't I remember this name so familiar?

Outside the window, snowflakes fell on the ground.

Outside the house, there are a few words written carelessly on the old door: Mental Disease No. 453, Su Liang.