I would rather die than be the white moonlight

Looking at the familiar yet unfamiliar face in front of him, Li Yuan firmly held the wine glass and asked, "Tell me, what are you doing when you come back to China?"

Before He Zhipeng could speak, a sarcastic smile appeared on the corner of Li Yuan's mouth: "If it's just to tell me like last time, then you don't need it when you get happiness."

He Zhipeng was taken aback for a moment, and put his hand on the back of Li Yuan's, begging in his tone: "Don't treat me like this, after listening to what I have said these years, you can scold me and beat me, okay?"

Li Yuan pushed He Zhipeng's hand away, looked around, and said with a sneer, "Why didn't your little lover come with you this time?"

He Zhipeng shook his head, took off the quilt from Li Yuan's hand, put it on the counter, then turned his head and said, "Don't talk, after I finish talking, you will understand what I did back then."

Li Yuan didn't say a word, but just asked for another glass of milk, took a sip, and seeing the milk, He Zhipeng laughed dumbfounded: "It's been so many years, I didn't expect that the milk you were least willing to touch, but now you like it."

Li Yuan was taken aback by this sentence, thinking of Shen Ke who was holding a milk cup to teach him how tall he was, the corners of his mouth curled up, and Li Yuan's smile made He Zhipeng pause: "Three years ago, I was diagnosed Tuberculosis, you know this kind of disease, although it can be controlled, the death rate is still rising now."

He Zhipeng looked at the bubbles coming out of the beer mug in his hand, and murmured: "You know what? When I heard the doctor say that I would die at any time, my first reaction was not that my life might disappear at any time, but that if I I am gone, how uncomfortable you will be, we have agreed that I will betray you first in the whole life."

He Zhipeng shook the cup, the bubbles increased, and there was a piercing sound, which made Li Yuan feel a little flustered. He suddenly didn't want He Zhipeng to continue. He was about to stop him, but he saw He Zhipeng's red eyes, and finally turned his head away. He Zhipeng.

"I came back to China and hired an extra actor to tell you that we are in love. In this case, I betrayed you first, not me. The treatment for the next three years is too tiring, but every time I think of the time when I leave What you said to me will wait for my words, and I can grit my teeth and persevere."

"Now that I have fully recovered and returned to my country, you are no longer waiting for me, but there is another one. I didn't want to disturb you. I just wanted to see you again and leave here, but I saw that person with I look so much alike."

He Zhipeng suddenly stopped talking, but Li Yuan understood what He Zhipeng meant, and he slowly said: "Maybe he existed in place of you before, but now you can't compare to the warmth he brings to me."

When the bloody dissection of the truth was presented in front of him, it was as if a huge net had engulfed him, but Li Yuan suddenly felt a certain degree of relief, as if something in his heart had suddenly been let go, and the whole person felt relaxed. Not a lot.

He Zhipeng smiled wryly and said: "The things that should end should have ended, even if we had some misunderstandings at the beginning, but you can't forget me."

The wine glass in He Zhipeng's hand fell to the ground, water splashed everywhere, He Zhipeng pulled Li Yuan's tie, and kissed Li Yuan's lips all at once.

This kiss seemed to want to deprive Li Yuan of his breath. It stirred Li Yuan's hungry tongue fiercely, then bit Li Yuan's lip with his teeth, and licked the blood into his mouth. He Zhipeng suddenly smiled: "Look , you still have feelings for me."

A lot of people gathered around booing and applauding. Looking at He Zhipeng's red lips, Li Yuan's anger rose, he pressed He Zhipeng on the bar, and stuck his tongue into He Zhipeng's lips: "You take yourself too seriously. gone."

Standing at the door, Shen Ke was stunned. Li Yuan's response, the love in He Zhipeng's eyes, and the warmth of the two's lips and teeth surrounded him, and he stared blankly at everything that happened before him.

Is the man in front of him kissing someone really the one who said he wanted to explain everything to him not long ago?

Shen Ke turned his head and walked towards the door, covering his ears and not wanting to hear the commotion inside, he walked out of the bar with a slight footstep, why did he follow behind Li Yuan stupidly, why didn't he get a bottle in the hospital, why did he care Will something happen in Li Yuan's house, why...

Shen Ke's nose was sore, tears rolled in his eyes, he raised his head and looked at the sky, the sun that had not yet set was still a little dazzling, Shen Ke blinked, tears slid down his face: "What am I doing today? I didn’t see it, the tears were just because the sun was too dazzling, Shen Ke, you didn’t see anything just now!”

Shen Ke's stomach started to hurt again, he leaned on the wall and moved forward little by little, hearing the sound of footsteps behind him, Shen Ke turned his head, his whole body froze.

Shen Ke rubbed his sore eyes, closed them and opened them again, in front of him was Li Yuan, Shen Ke didn't speak, staggered, was caught by Li Yuan, Shen Ke closed his eyes: "Now even if you want to pretend to be nothing It's impossible to see."

When Li Yuan was kissed by He Zhipeng, he squinted and saw a familiar shoe.

There is a small piece of fabric inlaid in the white area on that shoe. It was a piece of fabric that Shen Ke had chosen by himself when one of the shoes was a little damaged, but he was reluctant to throw it away because it was a gift from him. It was patched up.

When Li Yuan pushed He Zhipeng away, he saw Shen Ke's pale cheeks as expected, and cursed himself as an idiot in his heart.

Seeing that Shen Ke was walking hard and leaving step by step, Li Yuan hurriedly pushed aside the crowd around him, ignored He Zhipeng who was pushed to the ground by him, and chased after Shen Ke in the direction where he was leaving.

What caught my eye was Shen Ke's whole body leaning on the wall, motionless, tears dripping down on the ground, and the soft whimper was magnified countless times, reaching his ears.

Li Yuan was a little persistent, and the sad atmosphere around Shen Ke made him unable to approach, but when Shen Ke was staggering, he subconsciously walked to his side and helped Shen Ke up.

Li Yuan walked up to Shen Ke, wiped the tears off Shen Ke's face, then squatted down with his back facing him: "Come on, let's go back to the hospital."

Shen Ke looked at the back in front of him, and climbed up little by little. Shen Ke's fever had not subsided, and his breath was a little scorching on Li Yuan's neck. The appearance shouted: "Let's go."

The scene was exactly the same, the last time it was Shen Ke carrying Li Yuan, this time it was Li Yuan carrying Shen Ke, but once it was a confession, full of joy, but this time it was full of disappointment and sadness.

Shen Ke lay on Li Yuan's back, tears eroded Li Yuan's clothes, Shen Ke hugged Li Yuan's neck tightly, getting tighter and tighter, as if he wanted to rub the person in front of him inside his body, Li Yuan was strangled It was a little uncomfortable, but it didn't let Shen Ke relax a bit.

The two of them were relatively silent along the way, until Li Yuan put Shen Ke on the bed in the hospital, Shen Ke opened his mouth, the choking in his voice could not be concealed: "You... If... want to break up with me... then now Bar."

Li Yuan shook his head, and wanted to touch Shen Ke's lips, but Shen Ke dodged it all at once, and Shen Ke only uttered one word: "Dirty."

Li Yuan was a little at a loss by Shen Ke's subconscious avoidance, walked to Shen Ke's side, and gently held Shen Ke's hand: "I can explain."

"Explain what..." Shen Ke said and suddenly laughed: "Before you left, you said that you would explain everything to me, and I told you that I would wait, but now when you want to talk, I don't want to listen gone."

Li Yuan got up in a panic, paced around, and asked, "Then how can you listen to my explanation?"

Shen Ke shook his head: "It's not that I don't listen to your explanation, it's just that the trust is exhausted, and there is nothing left. My trust in you has been cut off from the top of my heart by you."

Li Yuan's footsteps stopped, Shen Ke seemed to have heard this sentence from somewhere, when his parents quarreled when he was a child, his mother cried and said it to her father.

Li Yuan walked up to Shen Ke, and suddenly knelt down: "I'm sorry, I know I'm a bastard, but please forgive me one last time."

The man had gold under his knees, but Li Yuan knelt twice for Shen Ke.

Shen Ke's voice was a little trembling, he took a sip from the water glass next to him, and then helped Li Yuan up: "Li Yuan, you must know that when I believed in you again, I put my life in your hands. "

Li Yuan's eyes lit up, he nodded quickly and said, "I know."

Shen Ke shook his head, put the water glass back to its original place, and covered the quilt: "You don't know."

Shen Ke beckoned, Li Yuan sat beside Shen Ke, Shen Ke murmured: "This kind of thing happened once, and now it happened again, I can't guarantee whether there will be a third time."

Li Yuan shook his head firmly: "There will be no next time."

Shen Ke then asked: "If you had to choose between someone else and me, would you not choose me?"

Li Yuan: "No."

Shen Ke nodded, and closed his eyes tiredly: "There will be no next time. If there is another time, I will kill you first and then commit suicide. Do you remember?"

Hearing this, Li Yuan moved to his forehead and kissed lightly: "I see, go to sleep, I will tell you everything when you calm down for a while."

Shen Ke closed his eyes and felt the feathery kiss, but he didn't feel any pleasure. He just felt that the kiss moved along his forehead to the position of his heart. It hurts deeply. Love is really a painful thing. He Shen Ke I don't think I am a person who does not hold grudges, but I can tolerate Li Yuan again and again.

When the nurse came in to change the dressing, she scolded Li Yuan when she saw Li Yuan: "When the patient is not in good health, how can he be discharged casually?"

Li Yuan stood there motionless and let the nurse scold him, but the nurse didn't hear Li Yuan's answer after talking for a long time, touched his nose, and finally left a sentence: "The patient needs to drink light porridge these two days." Turned around and walked out.

When Li Yuan bought the porridge back, Shen Ke opened his eyes and looked at the white roof, wondering what he was thinking. Li Yuan put the porridge on the cabinet, and then shook Shen Ke's back chair little by little. .

Shen Ke wanted to pick up the spoon next to him, but because of the hanging bottle in his right hand, he could not hold the spoon stably. Li Yuan sighed, put Shen Ke's hand under the quilt, and scooped it up. He picked up a spoon and put it near his mouth, blew it and put it on Shen Ke's mouth: "Drink, I will tell you a story after drinking."

After a bowl of porridge had entered Shen Ke's stomach, Li Yuan put the back chair away, took a stool and placed it next to Shen Ke: "Now, I'm going to tell you the whole thing, it won't be long, but it won't be too long. very short,……"