sleep in your heart

Adults often have become a habit of telling lies, and they have long practiced the ability to not blush without heartbeat. However, at certain times, they still reveal their truth immediately.

"Well, I just came to see you." Zheng Zhi said, "It's still too early, I can't sleep."

You Zeyi stood at the door and stared at him, looked at him, and suddenly smiled.

"What a coincidence."

"what?"

"I can't sleep either." You Ze opened the door completely, "Come in and talk or shall we go to the living room?"

"I remember there was a small speaker in the room. I bought it and haven't used it yet."

As soon as You Ze understood what he meant, he turned his side and let Zheng Zhi enter the room.

Since moving here, only Zheng Zhi lived in this house for a few days when his parents came. He never let people come to the house, and it is just a habit to clean it every few days.

He puts things that he doesn't use frequently in this room, and there are some weird gadgets he bought, like this little speaker, which he bought from an old man on the side of the road when he was on a business trip abroad last year.

"What do you usually like to listen to?" Zheng Zhi asked.

You Ze thought for a while, then smiled and said, "I seldom listen to music."

Zheng Zhi connected his phone and turned on the player.

You Zeyi said: "One thing you may have forgotten, when the school held a mobilization meeting at the beginning of the third year of high school, the two of us sat in the last row and listened to Dou Wei's songs on your MP3."

""Advanced Animals"." Zheng Zhi looked at the phone, but there was a smile on the corner of his mouth, "I remember."

He played a soothing jazz piece, put his phone next to the speaker, walked over, and sat on the side of You Ze.

"I remember." Zheng Zhi's voice was so soft that You Zeyi thought it was his own auditory hallucination.

"Later, I sang this song at the graduation performance." Zheng Zhi said, "When we first met, I never thought that I would fall in love with a boy. Later, when I was about to graduate, the reason why I sang the same song was to let you remember me."

You Zeyi didn't expect that this was the reason why Zheng Zhi chose the song at that time. He looked at the other party and didn't know what to say for a while.

The scene at that time suddenly reappeared in front of his eyes. Zheng Zhi stood in front of the teachers and students of the whole grade, with the secrets related to him, after singing the song, all the applause was for Zheng Zhi, but Zheng Zhi's eyes were look at him.

"Zheng Zhi..."

"Hush," Zheng Zhi suddenly approached him and whispered, "Listen to this song, I wrote it myself."

Zheng Zhi knew how to play the piano and You Zeyi knew about it, but he didn't expect that this person would also write his own music.

You Zeyi calmed down obediently, sat by the bed, listening to the melody filling the room.

He doesn't understand music, so he doesn't know how to evaluate it, but within a few minutes of listening to this piece of music, he seemed to see a young and handsome man walking on the street on a rainy night. The man passed by a brightly lit building and hurried away vehicles, passing pedestrians whose faces were covered by umbrellas, passing one intersection after another.

The whole city is in a hurry, and the whole city is lonely.

And the loneliest person in this lonely city is the man walking alone in the rain.

When the last note fell, You Zeyi felt as if the man had walked away, turning from the intersection in front, and even his back disappeared.

He unconsciously put his hand on the back of Zheng Zhi's, and said, "When did you write this?"

"When I was studying abroad," Zheng Zhi held him backhanded, listening to the player has entered the next song, and said softly, "It was raining heavily that day, and I was stuck in the school library without an umbrella. Thinking of you."

The two looked at each other and saw each other in each other's eyes.

You Ze smiled, and the corners of his eyes were bent.

He said: "What do you think of me? I don't understand how to explain the questions to me, or do you remember that I failed the mock exam and secretly wiped tears?"

"Remember that I haven't told you that I like you yet."

Sometimes when something happens, there is no need for two people to say anything, but the atmosphere is just right and the mood is just right.

When Zheng Zhi and You Ze kissed each other and hugged each other and fell on the bed accompanied by the sound of music, he thought: everything is right.

Everything is right.

This time is different from the middle school days, and it is also different from these later days.

The time is right and the people are right.

Everything is right.

All he wanted from the beginning to the end was this person in front of him. His life was only a few decades, and he didn't want to force himself. If it wasn't for You Zeyi, then he didn't want anyone else.

The music didn't stop all night long.

The playlist looped to the song that Zheng Zhi wanted to write by You Zeyi, and the two people on the bed kissed together again.

When Zheng Zhi opened his eyes in the morning, he was in a daze for a moment, then he stood up abruptly and looked at the time.

"Hold……"

With such a toss, You Zeyi, who was sleeping next to him, was awakened.

"What time is it?" You Ze stretched out his hand to touch the phone, but it was Zheng Zhi's hand that he touched.

Zheng Zhi took his hand and kissed him, then smiled and said, "Don't ask, we are both late."

You Ze opened his dazed eyes to look at him, but before he woke up, he was kissed by the person pressing over him.

"Hmm...don't make trouble." You Ze pushed the person on him and said, "Is today Thursday?"

"Hmm." Zheng Zhi hugged him, put his chin on his shoulder, and said like a fool, "I was exhausted last night, so let's not go today."

He rubbed against You Ze's neck: "Please ask for leave, just say that you were called by Manager Zheng from the marketing department to work overtime last night."

You Ze smiled, patted him on the back and said, "Manager Zheng, I'm sorry, I don't have work today."

"...Damn." Zheng Zhi remembered, he had seen the schedule of the security room.

He raised his head, like a lion stalking a trainer, "Then what should I do? I asked for leave and said that my lover who had been in a long-distance relationship for eight years pestered me enough last night and accidentally fell asleep." over?"

"Don't talk nonsense!" Although You Ze knew in his heart that he couldn't really ask for leave like this, he still blushed, "Who is pestering you?"

Zheng Zhi smiled and kissed the tip of his nose lightly, and said in a good mood: "You didn't refute me saying that you are my long-distance lover for eight years."

This sentence was so heartwarming, as soon as Zheng Zhi finished speaking, You Zeyi's eyes immediately turned red.

"I didn't have time to talk to you last night," Zheng Zhi held You Zeyi's hand and asked him, "Starting today, stay with me, would you like to?"

You Zeyi stared blankly at Zheng Zhi, obviously feeling that he was being held by the other party's hand, and his palm was sweating.

"Are you willing?" Zheng Zhi asked, "You Zeyi, are you willing to let Zheng Zhi be your boyfriend? It's best to be the one who can live a lifetime if you are not careful."

"I..." You Zeyi swallowed, and he wanted to nod immediately, but at the critical moment, reason prevailed, and he said, "Zheng Zhi, you should consider these few questions first."

"Ok?"

"First, I only have a high school degree, and now I am a building security guard, but you, a graduate student who studied abroad, became a department manager in your twenties."

"... Oh." Zheng Zhi buried his head in You Zeyi's neck.

"Secondly, I have a vampire-like father who just got out of prison. After he sucks my blood dry, it's hard to guarantee that he won't find you."

"Then look for it."

"The third and most important thing is that we are two men, homosexuals, you don't know how this society treats homosexuals. We are together, and the possible impact you may have is incalculable. Will your parents agree? What should the people in the company do if they find out? The law does not recognize us, and we can only sneak around for the rest of our lives."

"You are really stupid." Zheng Zhi raised his head, looked directly at You Zeyi and said, "First, I love you, not your education background, not to mention, I think I know you well enough, as long as you are willing , if you want to go to a foreign school, you may not be worse than me. Second, your dad, you also know that you will be sucked dry by him, I like you so much, do you have the heart to let me watch you being sucked dry but ignore it? Three, what’s wrong with homosexuality? Are homosexuals not human beings? If I’m gay, I’m not my parents’ son? If I’m gay, I’m less able to work than heterosexuals? If I’m gay, I’m not a citizen of our country? Who Tell you we can only sneak around? I can take you to my family, I can take you to my friends, I can show you that I love you because I have a clear conscience. Really, it’s up to me I can’t understand the society’s attitude towards homosexuality, but at least I can let people who know me know that homosexuality can also live a stable and happy life, we don’t need legal recognition, we only need our own recognition.”

You Zeyi was not relieved by Zheng Zhi's words for a long time, he frowned, digesting the other party's words.

"You Zeyi, I know that you have had a bad life these years, and I also know that the reason why your life is not good has a lot to do with the label 'gay', but I hope you will not be afraid," Zheng Zhi said softly He put a kiss on his mouth, "This society has a disgusting side, but there are also people who treat you sincerely. Look at me, you have suffered so much before, and now you don't get it back to enjoy the blessings. What do you think? ,Does it fit?"

You Zeyi was amused by Zheng Zhi's last words, he said hoarsely, "Zheng Zhi, why are you so nice?"

"Because you are good," Zheng Zhi pulled him up, and the two of them sat face to face on the bed, "This world will not treat anyone kindly for no reason, because you are good enough, so that old man in God feels ashamed of you. Send me back and let me love you."

He stretched his arm and took out a pen from the drawer of the bedside table, then took You Zeyi's hand and said, "I apologize to you first, I want to confess my love every day, but I don't even have a ring ready."

He dangled the pen in front of You Ze: "From now on, you will have the opportunity to reject me until I finish drawing the ring on your index finger. If you haven't refused after the last stroke, then I will take it as your acceptance." .”

"Accept what?"

"...You Zeyi, did I make you a fool last night? Of course you accept me as your boyfriend!"