sleep in your heart

At eight o'clock in the morning, there were not many people at the entrance of the company, but the scene at this moment still made You Zeyi so embarrassed that he didn't know how to deal with it.

Zheng Zhi looked at him, then coughed lightly and said, "Okay, it's fine."

He turned to Xiao Wang and said, "Xiao Wang, a light in my office is broken, and the administrator hasn't come yet, so I'll come here to borrow a ladder."

"Oh oh oh, ladder, ladder," Xiao Wang also pulled out from the state of watching the excitement, and hurried back to the house to find a ladder for Zheng Zhi, "Manager Zheng, let me go up for you to have a look."

"No need," Zheng Zhi said, "Are you going to get off work?"

He turned his head and looked around: "Let your new kid come up with me."

"Ah, You Zeyi, that's fine." Xiao Wang called You Zeyi who was still in confusion, and said to Zheng Zhi with a smile, "Manager Zheng, this is not a child. You Zeyi is two years older than me." Years old, looking young, it's an advantage."

Zheng Zhi smiled, didn't speak, handed the suit in his hand to You Zeyi, and walked ahead with the ladder: "Come upstairs with me."

You Zeyi looked puzzled, and Xiao Wang said, "The light in Manager Zheng's office is broken, go up and have a look."

He poked You Zeyi's back: "Don't let Manager Zheng take the ladder! Go, go!"

You Zeyi was reminded like this, and quickly chased after him. He reached out to grab the ladder, but Zheng Zhi hid aside and said, "Don't grab it, go quickly."

You Zeyi followed Zheng Zhi upstairs without saying a word, and when he arrived at the door of the office, he stood there in a daze with his suit on.

"What's the matter? Haven't you come back yet?" Zheng Zhi snapped his fingers in front of his eyes, "Open the door!"

"Oh, yes." You Zeyi took out the key and opened the door.

He followed Zheng Zhi in, looked up at the ceiling: "Which one is broken?"

"It's not broken." Zheng Zhi put the ladder towards the door, closed the door, and then came back to take the suit from You Ze and hang it up. "Are you being fooled by being tossed around? How about I make such an excuse?" , just now, how do you explain it?"

You Ze nodded, thanked Zheng in a low voice, then walked to the ladder and said, "Then I'll go back first."

"Wait a minute, what's the rush?" Zheng Zhi walked aside, and took a glass of water for You Zeyi, "Let's talk."

When You Ze picked up the water, his hands trembled a little. It had been a long time since he had been so emotional.

Life has become a pool of stagnant water. Others may find it boring, but he just wants to go on like this forever. However, life never allows him to do so.

"It was because of him that you came to my place last night?" Zheng Zhi grabbed You Zeyi's wrist and let him sit on the sofa.

You Zeyi licked his lips nervously, then nodded: "I'm sorry to trouble you."

He thought of what the man said before he left, and that meaningful smile, and he shuddered.

Zheng Zhi suddenly smiled: "So, I have to thank him."

"What?" You Ze looked at him puzzled.

"If it wasn't for him, why would you take the initiative to find me?" Zheng Zhi leaned on the back of the sofa and said to him with a smile, "You don't know, this feeling of being a hero saving the beauty is very good."

"...Manager Zheng, I'm going downstairs first." You Zeyi didn't want to discuss this issue with him, so he stood up and prepared to leave.

Zheng Zhi stood up and said to him, "Is he released from prison early?"

You Zeyi paused, frowned and asked, "Why do you..."

He suddenly remembered that Zhou Tong knew everything back then, even if Zhou Tong didn't tell Zheng Zhi at that time, he probably told everything later.

"I don't know," You Zeyi said, "I don't know how he found me either."

Zheng Zhi could tell that You Ze was extremely resistant to his father. It is true that all the misfortunes in his family started from his father, and his father's imprisonment was the entrance to You Ze's life in hell. , His pain ensued.

"I just hope that he will stop making trouble like this. I can no longer lose my job because of him." During this time, You Zeyi sent many resumes in order to avoid Zheng Zhi, but all of them came to nothing.

For him, it is difficult to have a stable income. Once he loses this job, his life will be even more difficult.

"Don't put too much pressure on yourself," Zheng Zhi said, "You still have me."

He said: "How about I go back with you tonight, we will try our best to meet what he needs, and when he has a foothold, he won't always bother you."

You Ze turned to look at Zheng Zhi, his eyes were slightly red, but he didn't let the tears fall.

He couldn't cry anymore, that would be a shame.

He said: "Zheng Zhi, thank you very much, I know you are good to me, but I have to solve these problems by myself. In the final analysis, we... these are all my own business."

After he finished speaking, he put the ladder on his shoulder, opened the door and went out.

Zheng Zhi stood there, watching him leave, didn't chase him out, and didn't say anything more.

Language is often the most feeble thing in the world, and doing is always more useful than talking.

You Ze was not in the mood all day long, he stood at the door, looking out from time to time, for fear of seeing that nightmarish figure.

In the afternoon, he saw Zheng Zhi taking someone out, and remembered that the other party said that he was going to a meeting outside today.

When the man walked past him, he was talking to his assistant, with a serious expression, as if he looked like an elite in the workplace, and he was separated from that world by hundreds of millions of light-years, and he would never be able to leave that world. go in.

Since working here, You Zeyi has never been so afraid of the end of the day.

Watching the sunset, watching everyone take off their work badges and leave the office building, watching the night fall, watching the time go to eight o'clock in the evening.

Another security guard who took over came, changed his uniform, and came to tell him that it was hard work.

You Zeyi pulled out a smile, and dawdled to change back into his clothes.

He hung his uniform in the closet in the security room, signed the shift handover book, everything was sorted out, and there was no reason to stay here any longer.

He went out with his own things, and when he reached the gate, the security guard who had just taken over from him joked with him, "You finally bought a new suit!"

Only then did You Zeyi realize that he was wearing Zheng Zhi's clothes, and the wet clothes from yesterday were still at Zheng Zhi's house.

He didn't have much interest in chatting with people, so he smiled and left.

The people in the security room also know that You Zeyi doesn't like talking very much. They usually get together to chat, but this guy often keeps silent. At first, everyone thought he was difficult to get along with, but after getting to know him, they got used to it.

When You Zeyi was walking towards the bus station, he passed a tobacco and liquor store, stood at the door for a while, and went in to buy a pack of cigarettes.

All the money on his body was given to his dad in the morning, and the lunch and the remaining 20 yuan were borrowed from colleagues.

Originally, money should not be wasted, especially in this situation, but he wanted to smoke.

Over the years, You Zeyi has never learned to smoke, and the only few times are just to have fun and let off steam.

In my impression, this was the fourth time he smoked. The first time was when he knew that Ning Lu had committed suicide, the second time was when he was expelled from school, and the third time was last night at Zheng Zhi's house.

Just like drinking, he doesn't think it is a kind of enjoyment, but when he is irritable and depressed, he always needs something to stimulate his nerves.

He came out after buying cigarettes, sat on the side of the road, watched the passing vehicles, and smoked one after another.

At first, my mind went blank, but then I started to think about the past years, from ten years ago to the present, and Zheng Zhi said to him in the morning: "You still have me."

You Zeyi didn't dare to let himself have the idea of ​​relying on others, but God knows, how much he wants to have someone to rely on.

His eyes were red from the smoke, and he was a little dizzy. Looking at those flashing and dazzling headlights, he felt an urge to rush forward.

But he knew it was impossible, he couldn't cause trouble for others just because he wanted to die.

His cell phone rang suddenly, and the song "I once thought about it too" that always broke his emotions entangled him tightly like a vine this night.

You Zeyi didn't answer the phone all the time, listening to the song over and over again and it was quiet in his ears.

I have thought about it for a hundred times, because there is nothing in my heart.

You Zeyi couldn't understand Japanese, so he went to the Internet to look up the lyrics after he had listened to this song countless times and was almost collapsed by this song.

That day was the day when he and Zheng Zhi reunited.

"I once thought about it, because I haven't met you yet, because someone like you was born, I have a little bit of a good impression of the world, because there are people like you living in this world, I have a little bit of love for the world. expect."

He thought of Zheng Zhi.

With a cigarette between his left fingers, he took out his cell phone from his pocket with his right hand.

Eight years ago, Zheng Zhi gave him a hand.

Eight years later, he was the one who saved him.

It is impossible to say that I am not moved, and it is even more impossible to say that I am not fortunate.

Human beings are too fragile, and sometimes they are so fragile that they can shed tears when they think of a name.

You Zeyi looked at the caller's name flashing on the screen, his nose was sore.

He finally admitted that he was useless and worthless, that no matter what he went through, he still hadn't become stronger, that he was crushed by life, that he wanted to see Zheng Zhi immediately.

"Where are you?"

The person on the other end of the phone spoke anxiously, as if he was afraid that something would happen to him.

"The entrance of the tobacco and alcohol store near the company." You Ze said with a dry and hoarse voice, "come out of the gate, turn left, turn right at the T-junction, and walk 150 meters forward. I am sitting by the side of the road."

You Zeyi couldn't remember where he saw this sentence in the "Bible": "God said, let there be light, and there was light."

He doesn't believe in God, Buddha, or Jesus. He never believes in anything, not even himself.

But at this moment, he suddenly believed in Zheng Zhi, because Zheng Zhi was the only ray of light in his life.

His light came to him, before he was consumed by night.

He heard his light say, "Hey, give me a cigarette too."