sleep in your heart

When blogs were still popular, Zheng Zhi once wrote a paragraph on his blog: If the time can go back to the end of spring and early summer of that year, in that rain, I might say a few more words to him , But before we part, I may still not be able to tell him the secret I want him to know the most.

The last meeting between You Zeyi and Zheng Zhi was no different from usual. Everyone went to class as usual and scratched their heads over difficult problems. Except You Zeyi, Zheng Zhi and Zhou Tong, no one seemed to think this was a special day.

Until many years later, when Zheng Zhi couldn't get a taxi due to the heavy rain and had to be trapped downstairs in the company, all the past events emerged, and the 19-year-old You Zeyi seemed to appear in front of him again, just changed his clothes .

He still had the delicate and thin appearance in his memory, but when he looked at him, his eyes were a little different.

I used to hear people say that the lover who broke up is the most familiar stranger in the world, and when we meet again, they will be the same.

Even though eight years have passed, Zheng Zhi can still clearly remember You Zeyi's appearance, and the other's eyes that sometimes looked timid and sometimes shone when they looked at each other.

When they met again eight years later, Zheng Zhi felt that when You Ze saw him, he was not only surprised but also panicked.

"Zheng Zhi?" You Ze stood there in a daze, still holding the umbrella stand in his hand.

Zheng Zhi's hand fell down and rested on his side. This unprepared meeting made him, who was usually eloquent, suddenly speechless.

The rain outside was getting heavier and heavier, and the rain was hitting the ground, singing a song called "Reunion" frantically.

As for You Zeyi, it seemed that he had spent a few minutes wandering into space, and subconsciously took a step back when he came back to his senses.

This step he took back widened the distance between the two of them, whether it was spatially or psychologically.

In fact, Zheng Zhi has a lot to ask, why he came here to work as a security guard, and how he is doing these years.

When the college entrance examination was over, Zheng Zhi tried to call Aunt You Ze's house, but by coincidence, the phone was shut down.

After that, after a long time, when he dialed that number again, it was already an empty number, but in fact, if he really wanted to find You Zeyi, it might not be that difficult, not to mention that in the following eight years, the Internet More and more developed, many people who have lost contact for a long time are talking again, but they seem to have never existed in each other's world.

It can only be said that the kind of liking when they were young was not strong enough to be pursued desperately, and they were not so firm at that time, not to mention, homosexuality, if it can die without a problem, it will die without a problem.

"You...why are you here?" Zheng Zhi pretended to know that You Zeyi was here just now, and glanced at the security room next to him.

You Zeyi's embarrassment was even worse. It's not that he had never fantasized about reuniting with Zheng Zhi. At that time, he had just entered university. Although he knew in his heart that they would always be far apart, he still wondered if there was such a possibility. , The two met again.

But then he didn't want to, not only didn't want to, but even a little scared.

He was very afraid of meeting Zheng Zhi, because standing beside him now seemed a bit ridiculous.

"I'm here to work." When You Zeyi spoke, his voice was so low that he was almost swallowed by the sound of the rain. Now he was so embarrassed, how could he meet him again at this time?

One of them was wearing a high-end tailoring shirt and trousers, who looked like the young and promising elites in film and television dramas, and the other, wearing a fat security uniform, was ashamed and dejected.

The contrast is too sharp, You Zeyi feels like a joke.

Zheng Zhi looked at him with a puzzled face: "Why do you..."

How did it get down to this point?

One month before the college entrance examination that year, You Zeyi's scores had already been raised. In the eleventh high school, even if the top [-] students in their grades did not take the entrance exams for prestigious universities, it was more than enough for them to pass the ordinary high school.

That's You Zeyi, why did he become the security guard of the company building eight years later?

Zheng Zhi wanted to ask if something happened at home back then, but he couldn't ask.

They are no longer the close friends they were back then. The distance between them has been stretched too far for eight years. There are many things that should not be asked. Even if there are many things to ask, you must pay attention to the timing.

You Ze smiled wryly, of course he knew what Zheng Zhi was wondering about, but what he had experienced in these years could not be explained clearly in a few words.

He once thought that his life was over.

When the two were relatively silent, a taxi drove by. You Ze took a look at the far away car, frowned and said, "I'm sorry, were you waiting for the car just now?"

Zheng Zhi also looked outside, then turned around and said, "It's okay, don't worry."

He really wasn't in a hurry at all. On such a humid night, reuniting with someone he once liked, he had mixed emotions in his heart. He wasn't so excited that he wanted to hug him hard, nor was he disappointed with the current person after time passed. More still distressed.

He will always remember You Zeyi's clumsy but hard-working appearance back then, and there must be some reason for You Zeyi like that to miss his best life again.

Zheng Zhi found that every time the word "You Zeyi" was mentioned, he felt an undercurrent surging in his heart, feeling sad and liking at the same time.

But he also knows that the last thing a man needs is other people's sympathy, especially You Zeyi, no matter how bad his life is, he doesn't want to sell misery to win others' favor.

Zheng Zhi looked at him and smiled, pointed to the door and said, "Are you going to put down that umbrella stand?"

It was only then that You Zeyi remembered that since he saw Zheng Zhi, he had been holding the umbrella stand and forgot to let it go.

He put the umbrella stand away, walked to the door and waited for the car with Zheng Zhi.

"It's raining too much today," You Zeyi couldn't find anything to talk about, or rather, there were many topics, but none of them were suitable for talking about right now, "Are you working overtime?"

"Well, work overtime." Zheng Zhi's eyes never left You Zeyi's body, he was reluctant to look away, always worried that this person would run to resign just because he found out that he was here, "When did you come?"

"Just came today."

"First day? And then the night shift?"

You Ze nodded: "Lack of people, it seems that everyone doesn't like to do this now."

Hard work and risk, wages are still low, who is willing to do it?

Zheng Zhi remembered that in the morning, HR said that there were very few people interviewing for this position during the recruitment, and even fewer suitable candidates, otherwise, You Zeyi, a skinny and tender man, would not be allowed to take up the job.

"But it's not me," You Zeyi said, "There is also a big brother, he went upstairs to inspect."

Zheng Zhi nodded: "That's okay, it's not safe for you alone."

You Zeyi lowered his head and smiled, his smile brought Zheng Zhi back to eight years ago in a trance.

Time is a wonderful thing, it has changed people a lot, but in some small and fleeting moments, it can bring people back to the original world.

Some things that are deeply rooted in their hearts cannot be changed, just like the feelings that have been hidden all these years. They all thought that they had almost forgotten about each other, but when that person appeared again, they brought a new feeling to their world. No small shock.

Another taxi drove up in the rain, and You Zeyi waved first. Before the car stopped, he turned around and took an umbrella, propped it up for Zheng Zhi, and said, "Come home, my family!" Waiting for you?"

Zheng Zhi stood there without moving, just looking at him.

You Ze was taken aback for a moment, and asked, "What's the matter? Let's go."

Zheng Zhi swallowed, sighed and said with a smile, "I live alone."

This thoughtless explanation fell into You Zeyi's ears. He knew that the other party had no other intentions, but he still made a few detours and within a few seconds came up with an idea that he shouldn't have.

He smiled, looked at Zheng Zhi and said, "Then it's time to go back, have a good rest, and go to work tomorrow."

Holding an umbrella, You Ze opened the car door for Zheng Zhi.

Zheng Zhi looked at him deeply, then sat in.

The wind and rain came together, and You Ze said to him as if thinking of something: "Wait a minute!"

Then he turned around and ran back to the door of the building, came back with an umbrella, and handed it to Zheng Zhi.

Zheng Zhi took it over and thanked him.

"Goodbye." After You Zeyi finished speaking, he took two steps back, ready to watch the car leave.

The driver turned around and asked, "Where are you going?"

Zheng Zhi gave the address, and just after finishing speaking, he quickly said, "Wait!"

He opened the car window, took out his cell phone, and said to You Zeyi who was still standing there looking at him in surprise: "Leave a call."

You Zeyi hesitated for a moment, but finally gave his mobile phone number.

Zheng Zhi simply called him, and a ringtone came from You Zeyi's trousers pocket.

"Then I'll go first," Zheng Zhi said, "There is a chance another day, let's catch up on the old days."

You Ze smiled and whispered, "Goodbye."

The taxi drove away slowly, and Zheng Zhi looked at the man standing in the rain with an umbrella in the rearview mirror.It was too hasty to see each other tonight, and the two of them were unprepared, so there was inevitably a sense of alienation when talking, which Zheng Zhi didn't want to see.

The car turned around, Zheng Zhi couldn't see You Zeyi again, he let out a sigh of relief, leaned on the back seat, closed his eyes, thinking about everything that happened tonight.

Heavy rain tonight.

Reunion tonight.

The throbbing heart that came back tonight when our eyes met tonight.

The unspeakable emotions that almost gushed out when I was chatting with the other party tonight.

Zheng Zhi was thinking about You Zeyi's face, thinking about his trousers and shoes that were wet by the rain at last, thinking about the figure that was getting farther and farther away from him in the rain, thinking, come here tomorrow, and want to see him again .

When he was about to get home, Zheng Zhi suddenly remembered the ringtone of You Zeyi's cell phone. He didn't hear it very clearly just now, but it always seemed familiar.

Must have heard it somewhere, but just can't remember.

He took out his mobile phone, saved You Zeyi's number, stared at the name on the screen for a long time, and suddenly found that when he liked someone, as long as he saw the other person's name, his heart would be completely soft.

This man is really worthless.

The author has something to say: This article is really...full of frustration...

But later, it will get better.