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, Gu Xun looked forward, Lin Yuyao was sitting on the sofa in pajamas, holding a knife in his hand and was about to hide it behind him, with the arm of the other hand behind his back.

Gu Xun was terrified and approached him.

"What are you doing?" he asked coldly.

Lin Yuyao was at a loss, and said with dull eyes, "No... I didn't do anything..."

"It's two o'clock in the morning, why are you not sleeping, what are you doing in the living room?" Gu Xun stopped when he was only a step away from him.

Because he saw Lin Yuyao hiding back in horror, but the sofa blocked his movements, so he could only back away to the side.

"I can't sleep," he said.

"Give me the knife." Gu Xun reached out to him.

Lin Yuyao's right hand trembled sharply, holding the handle of the knife tightly, and there was still blood on the edge of the knife.

Gu Xun looked shocked, and repeated: "Give it to me."

Lin Yuyao shook his hand, and the knife fell to the ground, making a terrifying sound.

"That hand, stretch out." Gu Xun said again.

Lin Yuyao shook his head with his left hand behind his back.

"Stretch out."

He regained his senses a little and asked, "How did you get in?"

Gu Xun rushed up to grab his arm, pulling out the hand behind his back, Lin Yuyao was no longer quiet, and struggled violently.

"How did you get in?" he asked aloud.

Gu Xun didn't speak, and forcibly pulled Lin Yuyao's left hand to his eyes.When he saw it, he lost his strength.

Lin Yuyao quickly hid her hands behind her back.

—that arm was full of scratches, old and new, nearly healed, and bleeding.

Gu Xun involuntarily took a few steps back and sat down on the sofa.

"Why is that?" he asked, his voice very soft.

Lin Yuyao lowered his head and did not speak.

Silence formed a wall between them.

"If I don't come in today, will it be yours that I see one day..." Gu Xun didn't say the word "death". have become taboo.

"No." Lin Yuyao said, "I didn't want to commit suicide, I just..." He didn't think about suicide.Because he was afraid that he would cause trouble to others after his death-cleaning the scene, taking care of the remains, cremation, tombstone, everything needs others to do it.He didn't want to bother anyone.He is no longer needed, so he shouldn't cause trouble for others.

But he couldn't control it.He couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, and didn't feel pain when the knife was cut on his body.He seemed to lose consciousness.

Is there any difference between this and death? He doesn't know.

Gu Xun lay on the sofa with his head up, his Adam's apple rolled up and down, showing his emotional fluctuations.After a while, he stood up, went to Lin Yuyao and knelt down, and said, "I'll give you medicine and bandage it up."

Lin Yuyao looked down at him.

Gu Xun wanted to touch his face, but turned halfway to another direction, to get the medicine box under the coffee table.He gently cleaned and applied medicine to the wound. During the movement, Lin Yuyao remained expressionless and did not frown.

Gu Xun observed his expression and said, "Yaoyao, let's go see a doctor."

"The wound is fine."

"Go see another doctor."

Lin Yuyao reacted and shook his head.

"Just go and see what the doctor says." Gu Xun continued to persuade.

Lin Yuyao remained silent and silently refused.Gu Xun wrapped a bandage on him and said, "Don't be afraid, we..."

"Have I become like her now?" Lin Yuyao asked suddenly.

Gu Xun didn't immediately understand the meaning of the words, and said, "What?"

Lin Yuyao didn't speak again.

Gu Xun understood: "No, it's different. You're just sick, go to the doctor, and you'll be fine after taking the medicine."

Lin Yuyao withdrew his hand, stared at the bandage wrapped several times and said softly, "You are lying to me."

Gu Xun choked.

He didn't leave after bandaging. After packing up the medicine box, he said to Lin Yuyao, "Go to sleep."

Lin Yuyao did not disobey him, stood up and walked into the bedroom.Gu Xun followed behind, looking at his back, the empty pajamas seemed to be floating on his body, it was hard to imagine how skinny his body was underneath.

Lin Yu walked into the bedroom and lay down on the bed. He stared blankly at the ceiling, and then looked at the bedside after a while.

"Aren't you going?"

Gu Xun said, "I'll stay with you."

He used an affirmative sentence.Most of what Gu Xun said tonight were affirmative sentences, without "okay" or "is it okay"... He wasn't asking for Lin Yuyao's opinion, he was just giving a strong message.

Lin Yuyao had no choice but to watch Gu Xun turn off the overhead light and turn on the dim wall lamp in front of the bed.

"Go to sleep." Gu Xun lay down next to him, and the bed sank.

Lin Yuyao lay in a daze, his eyes opened for a long time, and finally closed.

Gu Xun didn't fall asleep, he opened his eyes and stared at Lin Yuyao after the breathing of the people around him became stable.The other party has lost a lot of weight, with no flesh on his cheeks, and he looks more and more helpless.

He stretched out his hand to help someone brush away a lock of hair hanging from the side of his face. Lin Yuyao had a peaceful sleeping face, which he hadn't seen for a long time.The body has changed, and there is an untimely heat in the lower abdomen.Gu Xun smiled wryly.He looked at the bandage on Lin Yuyao's left hand, and sighed inaudibly.

Then leaned closer, and secretly kissed each other's eyelids——

However, it came to nothing.

The person who thought he was asleep suddenly turned his face away.

"Aren't you asleep?" Gu Xun asked while propping up his body.

Lin Yuyao opened his eyes, turned his back to the other party, and did not speak.

Gu Xun reached out to touch him, trying to straighten the other's face to face him.

At this moment, Lin Yuyao's lips moved, and he said, "Dirty."

"What?" Gu Xun didn't hear clearly.

Lin Yuyao opened his hand without much effort, it was more like a feather brushing the back of his hand.But what the other party said was like a heavy stone, smashing Gu Xun to pieces.

"You are dirty." Lin Yuyao said calmly.