my robot boyfriend

Before Lu Lin got drunk, there was a hint of sarcasm on the corner of his mouth when he was drinking with Chen Wei, which was exactly the same as when he had a big fight with Chen Wei before.

After being really drunk, she seemed to be completely stupid, hugging her knees and crying all the time.

"finally."

Chen Wei sighed, rubbing his chestnut hair like petting a dog: "It should have been like this a long time ago, it's good to cry like this."

Lu Lin's sobs were sobbing, and after a while, he raised his head and gritted his teeth with red eyes: "I don't want to either! I think too much... everything is true, I'm just an ordinary dude, but I just happen to be with you You are friends."

"But, what can I do? Tell me... what can I do?"

"If I betray the Murong family, I will be killed immediately. I don't want to die, and I have nowhere to escape. I... don't know what to do!"

"Well, I know you have to." Chen Wei said softly, "I know you don't want to do that either."

"So, isn't it all right now? You are finally out of their control, and everything is over."

"Lu Lin, since I came to this world, you are my first friend. When I didn't know anything, you taught me many things. It is you who protect me and take care of me, whether it is the sewer or The Du family or Zeus, you have saved me many times."

"I know you can't help yourself, I know you have difficulties, you really... have done a good job. So, stop torturing yourself."

"I'm glad, really glad you're back. From now on, we're going to start all over again, all over again, okay?"

"Start again..." Lu Lin shook his head severely, tears streaming down his face.

"But everyone is gone"

"Zhu Hua is gone. Xia Ye, too... will never come back. It's all my fault!"

Chen Wei shook his head.But the palm of my hand slowly covered my palm, and the fingertips met up. In an instant, a clear memory was passed into my mind.

I saw Chen Wei first.He was standing in the setting sun, I had never seen that suit before.

The last second, he was still smiling gently at me.Immediately afterwards, for unknown reasons, a lot of blood oozed from his forehead.He fell softly into "I"'s arms, and "I" was covered in scarlet.

My eyes were in a trance, and I saw "God".

He held the gun in his hand, his eyes were cold.

And beside "God", I also saw Lu Lin.With a face full of guilt and unbearable, he looked away guiltily.

[Si Zhan. 】

The gray-haired youth struggled to make a final hoarse sound, blood staining the floor.He tried his best to reach out his hand, wanting to touch "me" on the cheek, but his palm fell powerlessly, and the brilliance in his eyes slowly disappeared.

No.That person was not Chen Wei.

The heart-piercing pain of the owner of the memory flooded into his heart like a flood following this memory.I never knew before—it turned out that Si Zhan actually watched the person he loved the most die with his own eyes.

He hugged him all the time, feeling helpless and heartbroken.Tears kept falling, staining the man's handsome face together with the man's blood, and he refused to let go until the warm body slowly became cold in his arms.

So, Chen Wei said to him at that time, "I'm not your young master."

He'll say, well, I know.

……

Being rubbed on my shoulders by warm palms, I couldn't restrain my trembling all over, I felt really terrible!

If it was me holding my lover who was getting colder, I would definitely go crazy on the spot.

I will hate the world, I hate it more than I can.

It will definitely become like Bai Mo, no, maybe it will become even more unrecognizable and terrifying than Bai Mo.

[I want to be with you, I want to walk with you.Young master, the world without you is so hopeless, please take me along. 】

Obviously, such a voice echoed in Si Zhan's mind.Although subtle, I clearly heard it clearly.

The person who loves everything in this world, who can almost be regarded as the spiritual pillar of the whole world, is gone.

Si Zhan later...why didn't he change at all?

What kind of calm and strength is needed.

Only in this way can the man's azure blue eyes still be filled with tenderness and kindness like water.

……

Chen Wei has been sober for longer than Lu Lin. At first I mistook him for drinking.

But in fact, it should just be that his alcohol conversion was relatively slow, and he started to giggle non-stop when he became soft, that is, it happened all of a sudden.

I carried him back to the room.After opening the door, he suddenly pulled me by the collar and rolled down on the bed, turned over and rode me and started kissing wildly.

With a vague smell of alcohol in his mouth, he muttered: "When I got married..."

I thought this was what people used to call "drinking madness".But she raised her head and met those clear eyes—Chen Wei was very sober.At least in my opinion, he is extremely sober now.

"The marriage oath is about Untildeathdousapart. At that time, you and I read it together."

"It was read. 'Till death do us part', until then, we must be together well."

"However, you always want to leave me. Always! Always want to leave me! What should I do? Ye, how can I keep you, how can I make you trust me?"

I'm confused.

I never wanted to leave him.

But his eyes were red, which made the accusation look very real, and it made my heart tremble for a moment.

"I... really don't know what to do. I tried my best, but I still... still can't catch you."

He rubbed my forehead hair with his fingers, and looked deeply at my face with uneven skin tone: "Ye, I like you, I like everything you look like."

"I just like 'you', very, very much. It's not a 'master' who likes a 'robot', it's just an ordinary person's liking for another ordinary person-I also feel uneasy, and I often worry about gains and losses , I will be restless if you are not in sight, and I can only fall asleep peacefully every night if I hold you in my arms."

"It's just such a simple feeling, why...you just don't understand."

"Master, I understand, of course I understand," I wanted to cry and laugh at the same time, "You drank too much tonight. I'll take you to take a bath and go to bed early..."

"You understand? You don't understand anything at all!"

"..."

"Every time, every time something bad happens, you don't know what you're thinking! Don't think I don't know—you want to disappear, you want to die, you want to leave me alone ! You always thought that I could easily fall in love with others. Now you still think that anyone can replace you!"

"The thought of it really scares me, you know?"

"Now I'm really... afraid that something will happen to me, and I'm even more afraid that something will happen to you. I'm afraid that you can't do it without me, and I'm even more afraid that one day when I open my eyes, you'll just disappear from my side "for my own good" Lost."

"You know the few days when you can't find you, I, I'm going crazy..."

"You know how hard it was to find you, and you still didn't let me see your face, how angry I was, you know how I felt at that time—"

"Do you know how much restraint I have used so that after I found you, I was so crazy that I took a rope to tie you to my wrist every day?"

"You don't know. You don't know at all! You think I only care about your face!"

He was panting heavily, frowning his beautiful eyebrows weakly and tiredly, cold water dripped on my cheeks.

I froze.While feeling sorry for the harm I caused him, but stubbornly thinking... oh, I don't seem to be as serious or excessive as he said.

It's really not that serious, is it?This time I was injured, I have obviously...behaved very well.

Compared with the previous cranky level, it is already so much less!

It's not as dark as before, and it doesn't cry miserably all day long.When being mummified, he could still chat and laugh with Lei Qing and the others on the black doll.

Later, when he arrived at Bingji, he was repaired into the ghostly appearance of a dummy.Although I have a little low self-esteem, don't you...do you try to pretend that you don't care and hug him all day long?

Thinking about it this way, I couldn't help but argue: "I also... didn't do what you said, I'm changing it!"

"..."

"I'm really working hard to change it, so please give me more time, wait for me!"

He seemed to be annoyed by me.Momentarily weak, I fell heavily beside me.In order to prove that I "really worked hard", I immediately leaned over to kiss him, and he responded helplessly, and after a while he was completely addicted to lingering.

……

Waking up the next day, Chen Wei insisted that he didn't remember everything after getting drunk last night.

I thought to myself that this excuse for shyness is quite special.

When he remembered, he was straddled and crushed by me.I don't know if it's because of his sensitive body position, his cheeks are a little red: "Well, Ye, I'm hungry."

"Well, breakfast is ready in Linyuan, and I'll let you eat later."

He realized that my posture was not good, he pursed his lips and lowered his head: "I really drank too much last night. I said some embarrassing nonsense, don't take it seriously."

I took his hands and passed a short memory to him from between my fingers.

In the amusement park, we picked up popsicles together, and he held up the claws and handed them to me.He was stunned, and really felt that the whole person was familiar: "So... in your eyes, I, this is how I feel."

"Chen Wei, this memory is the key to open my crystal memory area."

"..."

It's really... really novel!

I called his name again, and mustered all my courage to approach him forcefully.

I have no hesitation and intend to give everything to him.But at this moment, he is like a cherished little animal that I have never seen before - like a little gray-haired hamster, while being moved, he looks cute and helpless.

"I'm not afraid anymore. My past...you can know everything about me!"

I took his hand and placed it on the green earring dangling in my ear.I really... don't want to make him even a little uneasy anymore.

Like last night, the heart will definitely not be able to bear it again.

I really don't want him to get hurt again.

Like him, obviously like him so much.But I'm too stupid to express it in words.

Of course not without fear.

I'm still afraid, but I still have a kind of opportunistic thinking - anyway, we are now on the Black Rag Doll, aren't we?

There are still more than ten days of voyage, and the ship is only this big.I thought about what Lei Qing said to Qi Qi at that time, and thought that even if Chen Wei got angry, I could follow him and annoy him until he was willing to talk to me again.

I am not afraid of being abandoned.

Even if that low-probability event does happen.Again, the boat is all that big.

I suddenly felt that I had grown, grown in a spiral.

……

At the same time, I am also a little curious. Could it be that there will be a relationship of "one ebb and flow" in the aura field between lovers?

Whenever I was vulnerable, I always felt that he was tough and tall.Desperately trying to protect me, could totally wrap me up.

But now, under my watchful eyes, he has no aura at all, with a hesitant look on his face, just like a super cute new species that I suddenly discovered in the New World!

It's not the right time, but I really want to kiss him.

Just when I was dreaming, his expression slowly became serious.

"I can't watch it all, Ye, it's not fair to you at all!"

"I can't show you my memory, and there must be something in your memory that you don't want to show me... So, why don't you tell me? If it doesn't work, you can divide it into small pieces and give it to me."

"Break it into small sections. Did you learn it from Si Zhan?"

"..."

"Such a short memory like before, he should have given you back a lot, right? When you read it, do you have to face each other with your fingers? So, you also hold hands?"

This is not an accusation.In other words, this is an accusation, but for someone like me who has always only slandered, it is definitely another milestone progress.

I struggled to think about how normal people would discuss such things with their lovers.I didn't think about it for a long time, and finally choked out a sentence: "I... am very unhappy."

The author has something to say: happy to see and enter the mode of weak attack and strong acceptance hahaha

Little Chen Wei could only be a weak attacker forever if he got angry every night.

Ah, the bitter weak attack.