Tentative

When Qu Zhe returned to Shen Yizhuo's house, the doors of the cabinets in the living room were all open. Shen Yizhuo greeted hastily, "Come in and close the door", and continued to search for something in front of the cabinets.

Qu Zhe took off his hat and put it on the tea table. After a while, Shen Yizhuo found his target, walked up to him and said, "This is for you, let's take a look."

He took it, and it was a collection of poems, the source of the lines they talked about while chatting on the embankment.

The book seemed to be well preserved, Qu Zhe opened it casually, and there was a metal bookmark inside, which was probably where Shen Yizhuo read it last time.He looked towards the cupboard, and before Shen Yizhuo closed the door, he had a quick glimpse of the books standing inside.

The other party turned around, happened to meet his gaze and said: "If you are interested, you can take it to see."

"thanks……"

Shen Yizhuo took the hat into the bedroom, put it back in the closet, and said loudly, "Do you want to read a book or watch a movie?"

"……It will be all right."

"Watch a movie with me."

"it is good."

"Then you go to wash up first, lie down and watch."

"Ah."

That night, Qu Zhe was lying side by side on the bed with him, watching the depressing and dreary "Happy Together" with a small MP4.Shen Yizhuo looked at it seriously, occasionally sitting up and smoking a cigarette, but he didn't say a word.

Qu Zhe actually didn't understand very well. When he first saw the same-sex passionate scene, he blushed a little, but seeing Shen Yizhuo next to him calmly, he was still ashamed of his superficiality.When the camera stopped at the waterfall, he suddenly remembered that he asked Shen Yizhuo foolishly if he wanted to go to Denver.

In the end, he didn't know what the sad story was told in the movie.

But that night, Shen Yizhuo's serene appearance of lowering his brows and eyes, smoking a cigarette and watching a movie earnestly, was engraved in his heart.

Every rest day that followed, Qu Zhe read at Shen Yizhuo's house, and he took that book of poems to school to pass his boring time.

During lunch, Shen Yizhuo occasionally asked him to eat on the rooftop—but in fact, the wind on the rooftop was so strong that Qu Zheya was shivering from the cold.Shen Yizhuo, as if nothing happened, asked him where he read his poetry collection, while gnawing on toast.

The day before New Year's Day, when eating on the rooftop, Shen Yizhuo suddenly handed him a key: "Take it, I'm too lazy to open the door for you."

"This……"

"This is the key to my house." Before he took the initiative to pick it up, Shen Yizhuo had already stuffed the key into Qu Zhe's hand, "You have to stay at home for a day during the holiday, at least, come and open the door yourself."

"it is good."

He held the key, unable to tell what mood he was in at that time.

Even a person who is not good at words can gradually adapt to being with another person every day, even spending a lot of time alone.

Qu Zhe stuffed the key into his pocket and said, "Then I... will buy you breakfast on the [-]nd."

"Um fine."

"You don't need it on New Year's Day..." Qu Zhe paused, then said cautiously, "Don't you need to go back to your parents?"

"No need." Shen Yizhuo glanced at the time, it was only ten past twelve o'clock, and there was still a long time before the afternoon class.He took out a cigarette from his pocket, put it in his mouth, and asked softly, "Do you have a lighter?"

"This... is not good at school."

"It doesn't matter, no one comes to the rooftop." Shen Yizhuo frowned slightly, "Is there any? Didn't go down and buy one for me."

"Yes, yes..."

Ever since he often talked with Shen Yizhuo, Qu Zhe has always kept a lighter in his pocket.But he never used it once. Shen Yizhuo usually used his own lighter when he wanted to smoke.He didn't know why, but he had this idea - he hoped that one day when he forgot to bring it, he could come in handy and order it for him.

Thinking about it, he took out a low-quality lighter, carefully shielded it from the wind with his hand, handed it to Shen Yizhuo, and lit it.

A gust of wind happened to hang on the roof, and the flame was blown out before it could touch the cigarette.

"Da, da, da..." He clicked three times in a row, but he couldn't help Shen Yizhuo.He couldn't help becoming anxious, frowning tightly, and wanted to continue.Shen Yizhuo looked down at him, the other's long eyelashes moved up and down as he blinked unconsciously when he was nervous, the tip of his nose was flushed red by the cold wind, and his hair was also disheveled.

"Wait." Shen Yizhuo said vaguely, and raised his hand to grab his wrist, "Take off your glasses."

"what?"

"Picked off."

The lighter fell into Shen Yizhuo's hands, and he took off his glasses as he said, and stuffed them into his jacket pocket.He thought that Shen Yizhuo was planning to light it himself, but he didn't expect that the other party was just holding the lighter, and the next second he looked at him, slowly approached, and then pressed his lips.

This isn't the first time, nor will it be the last.Every time they spend the weekend at Shen Yizhuo's house, they always kiss inexplicably.And this kind of kiss, Qu Zhe had to admit, tasted very good and intoxicating.But in school like this, Qu Zhe still couldn't help being nervous.He grabbed Shen Yizhuo's coat with protruding knuckles, and he grabbed it very hard.

Every time Shen Yizhuo gave him enough time to resist, but he never resisted.

He didn't want to fight at all.

"Well……"

The other party invaded his mouth slowly, and after licking his gums with his flexible tongue, he flicked the hidden tongue with ease.

The kiss was neither passionate nor impulsive, but instead seemed to be enjoying the pleasure of touching lips and tongues with genuine affection.

Sometimes he went deep, sometimes tasted lightly, and asked him like a whisper between breaths: "Do you want to try..."

"what……"

"Do, love."

"..."

"Ok?"

"……Um."

After Qu Zhe hesitated to answer with a dull nasal voice, Shen Yizhuo smiled with the corners of his mouth curled up, rubbing the tip of his nose against his nose, biting his lips again and saying, "You have a good idea."

"Sorry……"

Beside the door leading to the rooftop, Jiang Yuzhao was standing there in a dark corner.He grabbed the door frame in surprise, not daring to make a sound.He often saw Qu Zhe coming to the rooftop at noon, but he didn't know that Shen Yizhuo was there—let alone that they were kissing on the rooftop.

Jiang Yuzhao watched for a while, and walked away lightly before they let go of each other.

"I'm back." With the sound of the heavy anti-theft door closing, Qu Zhe took off his shoes and walked into the house.Lin Xiuyan was lying on the table, holding a handful of change in her left hand and a pen in her right hand, she didn't know what she was doing.

Hearing Qu Zhe's voice, she didn't even lift her head, and said calmly, "You go and cook the rice when you get back."

"Oh, good." He nodded, threw the bag back into his room, changed into a slightly thinner coat, and walked into the kitchen, "What are you doing?"

"Settling accounts, oops, you only know how to use money, and you don't know that money is saved by careful calculation..." Qu Zhe asked casually, and Lin Xiuyan started talking, complaining that he and Qu Xiaoyu didn't know how to save money, Then there's the damn factory that shouldn't lay off workers.

Qu Zhe felt a little regretful about starting this topic, and after he finished cooking, he softly interrupted Lin Xiuyan's nagging: "I'm going back to the house..."

Before the words were finished, the door of the house opened, and Qu Xiaoyu entered the room with a blushing face wearing a thin sweater coat.

"Why are you wearing so little..." Seeing her trembling appearance, Lin Xiuyan quickly got up, went up to meet her anxiously, and stretched out her hand to measure her forehead: "Damn, it's so hot, where is the cotton padded coat your brother gave you?" Why don't you wear it!"

Qu Xiaoyu's face was blushing, his eyes were blurred, and he was clearly delirious from the burn. After Lin Xiuyan passed by, he leaned against her as if he couldn't stand still.Qu Zhe walked up to Qian with concern, supported Qu Xiaoyu and said, "Do you have antipyretics at home?"

"Yes, yes, help your sister into the house!"

Qu Zhe nodded and helped her walk slowly towards the room.Qu Xiaoyu was breathing heavily, but she still held on, and shook off Qu Zhe's hand and said, "I don't need your help!"

Then she held on to the cabinet step by step and walked towards the room.

Qu Zhe had no choice but to follow behind her, watching her lying powerlessly on the bed, hurried up to tear off the quilt for her, and wrapped the girl's soft body firmly.Lin Xiuyan handed all the granules and capsules to Qu Zhe: "You feed my sister medicine, I have to cook quickly! Do you know!"

"Got it..." Qu Zhe sat on the edge of the bed with water in his hand, and carefully helped Qu Xiaoyu up.She obviously wanted to avoid Qu Zhe's hand, but she didn't have any strength in her body, and she felt tired even when she looked up at Qu Zhe.

The door was closed, and the voice of Lin Xiuyan busy in the kitchen could be vaguely heard.

"Take the medicine." Qu Zhe handed the capsule to her mouth, Qu Xiaoyu gave him an angrily look, and finally took the medicine into his mouth.The warm water entered her mouth, and she swallowed hard. Qu Zhe then picked up the granule and gave it to her, and said softly, "Where is the coat..."

"none of your business……"

"You wear too little."

Yue Mo was really uncomfortable, although Qu Xiaoyu was unhappy, he obediently drank the granule.Qu Zhe laid her flat, and ran to the door to take her schoolbag into the room.

Qu Xiaoyu felt that the knitted sweater was uncomfortable, so he searched for a while in the bed, took off his coat, and threw it on the chair casually.Just as Qu Zhe came in, he saw the clothes flying out of the bed, and then something white fell to the ground, making a slight noise.

He bent down and picked it up. It was a note.

Qu Xiaoyu lay on his side facing the window, and didn't notice Qu Zhe's movements.

The half-folded note said "Thank you for your coat, it's very warm, let's go out and play on vacation", but it was not signed.Why Qu Xiaoyu fell ill, and why he wore so little clothes, was immediately explained.Qu Zhe took the note and said softly, "Did you give your coat to that senior?"

The moment he heard this sentence, Qu Xiaoyu turned his head violently, frowned and looked at Qu Zhe angrily: "How do you know..."

"It's written on the note." Qu Zhe shook the note, and then put it next to his pillow, "It's the last time I talked to you...that senior sister, right?"

"go out."

"You like her because..." "I let you out!!!" Qu Xiaoyu angrily grabbed the pillow beside her and slammed it at Qu Zhe, but because her limbs were weak, the pillow hadn't touched Qu Zhe yet. The body has already fallen to the ground.

The door of the room was closed tightly, and Qu Xiaoyu's voice could be faintly heard. Lin Xiuyan put the pot on the stove in doubt, wiped her hands on the apron, and looked at the door in confusion.

"You can't like her, she's a girl..." Qu Zhe looked at Qu Xiaoyu's face seriously and said uncharacteristically.

If it was different, he would have left the room long ago, as if he didn't know anything.But today, looking at Qu Xiaoyu's weak face due to illness, he was eager to find out the truth of the matter... and even more wanted to distinguish right from wrong.

Homosexuality is right or wrong.

"Qu Zhe, don't meddle in your own business!" Qu Xiaoyu scolded angrily, "Whether I like her or not is none of your business..."

He looked behind him, made sure the door was closed, and said, "She's a girl! You're a girl too! You..." "Yeah, we're all girls. Even if I take her home to sleep, my parents will It won't feel like anything! As long as you keep your mouth shut!"

"You..." "What did you say? What do you mean?" The voice of a third party interrupted Qu Zhe with the sound of the door opening.He turned around nervously, only to see Lin Xiuyan standing there holding on to the door frame, her face pale.

Qu Xiaoyu was stunned for a second, then immediately buried his head in the quilt, and said in a muffled voice, "You all get out! Get out!"

"Xiaoyu, what did you mean by what you said to your brother just now? What kind of girl?!" Lin Xiuyan couldn't calmly stride to the edge of the bed, and asked while lifting the quilt.

But Qu Xiaoyu pulled very hard, and Lin Xiuyan couldn't open it for a long time.She asked indiscriminately: "What girl brought home, what are you talking about!..."

Qu Zhe looked at the scene in front of him speechlessly, and realized that he shouldn't mention this matter at home, at least not at this time - but it was already too late.

Lin Xiuyan has never been a stupid woman. The word homosexuality is no stranger to the news or in the daily life of the neighbors. She has also seen many girls who dress up like boys.Those neighbors would cover their mouths and laugh when they saw it, and then whispered to her when someone passed by, "If my daughter is this perverted, I will definitely break her leg."

Yuemo was made really uncomfortable by Lin Xiuyan, Qu Xiaoyu couldn't breathe in the quilt, finally let go of his hand unbearably, and shouted loudly: "I like girls, okay!!"

Lin Xiuyan let go of her hand slowly, looking at her daughter's flushed face due to illness, she suddenly felt that the place was gloomy.

The sky is falling.