moon illusion

Although he has never been in love, it doesn't mean he doesn't understand those vague thoughts.Psychology's interpretation of dreams and subconsciousness made him clearly understand that no matter how difficult it was for him to accept, he had to admit it—it was just a short contact, but he was moved for the first time in 20 years. A kid who looks a bit fierce.

Qi Fengyao, who just woke up, was not in a very good mood, and sat on the edge of the bed frowning, wondering what he was thinking.

Very depressed!

Qi Fengyao raised his hand to scratch his hair, recalling just now.

I wasn't woken up by the alarm clock just now, nor did I wake up naturally, but was woken up abruptly.

Dreams are whimsical, illogical, and without rules.It is also because of this that the dreamland has become a place where many people realize their dreams, because there are no rules and regulations, as long as you think, you can.

Dreaming of Yun Zaiye, Qi Fengyao is not surprised at all, for so long, he has already been a frequent visitor in his dreams.

But what he didn't understand was that the setting in this dream was a bit strange.

He and Yun Zaiye both went back to high school and were both in Duhe No. [-] Middle School.

One morning, Qi Fengyao walked into the classroom as usual, but found that his chair had been taken away by someone.Seeing that the teacher was about to enter the door to prepare for class, Qi Fengyao searched everywhere anxiously, but still couldn't find it.

After everything on the screen, it was evening.Duhe No. [-] Middle School had just finished school, and Qi Fengyao was walking home alone, kicking small stones on the road while walking with his head down.

Suddenly, someone tapped him on the shoulder.Qi Fengyao turned his head and saw Yun Zaiye smiling and following behind him, asking why he didn't wait for him after school.

A little confused, but also delighted.Before he could answer, Qi Fengyao took Yun Zaiye's arm and walked towards a cake shop in front. He wanted to share his favorite cake with Yun Zaiye.

When the two came out of the cake shop, it was completely dark.Qi Fengyao boldly climbed his arm onto Yun Zaiye's arm, he did not break free, but continued to walk forward as usual.

At that moment, he really almost fell into it, the deep night played the best cover for them, no one would notice their intertwined arms, no one would care about the too close distance between the two boys , Yun Zaiye kept smiling at him, talking about what happened at school today, he really hoped that this dream would continue like this...

Suddenly, Yun Zaye raised his hand and waved it in front of him.

Qi Fengyao looked at Yun Zaiye suspiciously, not knowing what to do.

"You were distracted just now, and you didn't even listen to me. What were you thinking?" Yun Zaye asked, and the final particle was very long, which sounded like he was acting like a baby.

As if dazed, Qi Fengyao couldn't tell whether he was in reality or a dream.

Without hesitation, he raised his hand to caress Yun Jaeye's face, tracing the outline of that face stroke by stroke, as if he wanted to engrave it in his heart.

"Yun Zaiye, if you can, you don't know how much I want to take you to my dream. See how much I miss you, how much I love you. I don't even dare to express that love easily , because I am afraid that my words are too feeble to express one ten-thousandth of my love for you."

Qi Fengyao couldn't remember what happened next, but Yun Zaiye's turning around and leaving was the main culprit who woke him up from his dream.

The sentence of "retain" almost blurted out, but it was stuck in his throat as he regained consciousness.

Qi Fengyao sat beside the bed, staring blankly at the ground in front of him, as if trying to remember something...

Cloud is in the wild, I often hear others say it.If you dream of someone you haven't seen for a long time, it means that person is starting to forget you.But I don't think so, I think I dream of you, it must be because my brain and heart are reminding me, don't forget you.

I sat in a daze all morning, I couldn't do anything well, and my mind was full of you.You don't know how much I want to run to you to see you when I wake up from my dream, and hear you say that you won't forget me.

It wasn't until noon that Qi Fengyao became more awake.After washing and changing clothes, he took the key and went out the door.

He sent a message to Mo Xun, asking where she could get her ears pierced.

Probably still catching up on sleep, Mo Xun only replied his address without asking any further questions.

An hour later, Qi Fengyao walked out of a shop five streets away from the community. On the earlobe of his left ear, there was a small black stud earring, which was full of large and small diamonds. Bitter.

In his eyes, Yun Zaiye is too gentle, he treats everyone like this.He hopes that he can be that unique one.In Yun Zaiye's eyes, he hopes that he is as unique and dazzling as that earring.

It was still the familiar equipment. As soon as he walked out of the store, Qi Fengyao put on the earphones to isolate himself from the world.

When he was about to get home, a figure stood in front of Qi Fengyao.

Looking up, it was a promise.

It was impossible to hide, so Qi Fengyao raised his head to say hello.

I don't know why, but my memory seems to have gone wrong.Obviously it's only been half a year, but Qi Fengyao feels that Xu Nuo has gone a long way in his life, and even when he hears someone mention it by chance, he can't remember her appearance clearly.But some long-term memories that have been several years away from him are becoming more and more clear in his mind, just like the face of Yun Zaiye in the newspaper, he can't get rid of it no matter what.

Xu Nuo said: "Let's sit down together, I haven't seen you for a long time."

"No need, there's nothing to say." Qi Fengyao raised his head slightly, looking at Xu Nuo.

"But I have something to tell you."

Qi Fengyao knows that he is not a brave person. The biggest difference between him and Yun Zaiye is that Yun Zaiye has the courage to move forward, no matter how difficult the environment is.But he can't do it himself, he is used to avoiding, try to cut off the connection with the world, and live in his own world cautiously.

Just like now, for that matter, he didn't even have the courage to promise, and he didn't want to recall what happened after that drunkenness at all.

There was no way to face it, but he had to sit opposite Xu Nuo, staring at the menu in front of him without saying a word.

"What would you like to drink?" Xu Nuo picked up the menu and looked at Qi Fengyao.

"No need, what do you want from me?"

"Two glasses of Blue Mountain, thank you." Xu Nuo closed the menu and handed it to the waiter, then turned to look at Qi Fengyao.

"Are you still mad at me?"

"No."

"Then why have you been avoiding me at school?"

"I'm not hiding from you, I just don't want to see you."

Xu Nuo raised the corners of his mouth, revealing a helpless smile.This is the person she has always liked including now, but this person can always do the cruelest things to her and say the most ruthless words.

When he learned that Qi Fengyao needed a playmate, even though he knew it was just a playmate, he still wanted to try to be by his side.

He even naively thought that one day, he might be able to replace the person in his heart and become the new house owner.

But I guessed wrong, Qi Fengyao's play is only limited to acting, there is no hug or kiss, and it is impossible to have more in-depth contact.

So she did such a thing, wanting to make this matter a certainty by mistake, so that even if Qi Fengyao didn't like her, she had to keep herself.

"Qi Fengyao, I obviously underestimated your ruthlessness. If it were someone else, it wouldn't be a loss, wouldn't it? Why are you so cruel, you don't even listen to an explanation and you become a stranger to me from now on."

"You didn't underestimate my ruthlessness, you just underestimated the position of that person in my heart. I told you, how important that person is to me, you can't compare to him, understand?"

"..." Xu Nuo sat across from him and didn't speak again, and the noisy air instantly returned to silence.

"If I say this, you may understand that there are many people and things that can tempt me in the world, but those are fleeting. The only thing that can keep me tempted for a long time, is him."

There is a classic line in "Chongqing Forest": In fact, knowing a person does not mean anything, people will change.Today he likes pineapples, tomorrow he may like something else.

Later, I found out that this sentence is not quite correct.People may indeed change, but only a "temporary" change.

I suddenly tasted a "new" thing, because it was "different", because it was "special", and I thought I liked it for a short time.

But after a long time, you will find that you don't really like it, or you don't like this new thing at all.

Because people who like pineapple will not become like strawberry.One day, when he accidentally ate a pineapple-flavored canned fruit or a pineapple-flavored marshmallow again, "Ah, I still like pineapple as a fruit."

So from this level, people are actually not that fickle.The clothes I like to wear, the things I like to eat, and the kind of people I like are unlikely to change.

"So, everyone's preferences have a template in the subconscious. Everyone's life also has traces to follow. My template is not you, and it will never be you."

Walking out of the coffee shop, facing the chilly winter wind, Qi Feng let out a long breath, blowing out a cloud of white mist in the air.

Instead of going home, he sat on a bench by the side of the street, took out his mobile phone and looked at Weibo, enjoying the relaxed breathing in his own small world like all young people in this city.

Suddenly, his finger stopped on a news headline.

It was a variety show he had followed for a long time, in which a female guest who left a deep impression on him died unexpectedly due to a heart problem.

Looking at the lights and festoons on the long street, and the faces of passers-by full of smiles, Qi Fengyao suddenly began to feel emotional, lamenting the impermanence of life, lamenting the life and death of life.